Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Ugh....I totally screwed up my site on accident.... (-__-)""

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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im so friggn stressed. I feel like deleting my account, it doesnt seem like anyone ever uses MyO anymore. I remember the one day I got 51 comments.......

Sareena. Heym your my maid of honor at meh wedding and everything sweetie, but I dont trust you with my picture hun...LOL ^^;;

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Monday, January 5, 2009

Hmmm....bad pic. I need to work on it, eh?

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Saturday, January 3, 2009

Hiya
Guess it's been awhile, eh? Well...you see...my laptop crashed. I'm kinda using a friends right now. LOL Nothing much has been up, but Ive got some recent pics from my San Diego, CA trip Monday I guess I'll post up since Ive got nothing better to say. Be sure to check up on my updated art ^.~
And no pictures of meh! Hahah I is a smart cookeh!!!

Yuma's dunes!!! ^___^


Jackpot in San Diego!!!


Outside our hotel room


Logan and Morgan hit the hay


The cosplay Kon we bought


Awesome piccy from seaport village


Pond at seaport vilage


The cherry bomb my bro bought me


Im an awesome photographer, I know ^.^

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Saturday, December 6, 2008

The cool
Sooooooo I'm going to be an exchange student.
*clears throat*
Guess where? LOL I get to go to Edinburgh!!!!
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There's one thing I like about my life....
All the people that have pissed me off or dumped me in my life time, I get to do something really big and just kinda be like, "Hah. What now?!"

But. I really need this. I'm so stressed. >.< Gah!

Thing is...once I get there....no computer, no phone. So...all my contacts...I'm scared I'll loose them. I could be there for a few years...

And Happy B-day to Maxi-kun!!!! (SamuraiPanda)


It's in Scotland, Zaku.

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Friday, December 5, 2008

Cause I'll be the cool
Sooooooo I'm going to be an exchange student.
*clears throat*
Guess where? LOL I get to go to Edinburgh!!!!
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There's one thing I like about my life....
All the people that have pissed me off or dumped me in my life time, I get to do something really big and just kinda be like, "Hah. What now?!"

But. I really need this. I'm so stressed. >.< Gah!

Thing is...once I get there....no computer, no phone. So...all my contacts...I'm scared I'll loose them. I could be there for a few years...


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Friday, November 28, 2008

Paperclips
I dunno. Paperclips is a catchy word.

So yes, yesterday was pretty much horrible.
I cooked all the food as I usually do.
But then my period crept up on me so I was completely non-functional and I couldn't eat crap. lol I wanted Advil sooo bad. Tylonel don't help me for some reason.
It was funny though, see, my best friend and I wanna live together and stuff cause we're so close. And I told him, "You know how I said you'll have to do all the shopping? I hope you'll be a real man cause I know my brother's wont go get my tampons."
IDK...I thought it was funny actually. My own pain. ^_^

So I saw Twilight for the third time. It's starting to piss me off. The movie is sooooo bad!!! I mean, again, as a movie it's good, but as Twilight it just plain out sucks. I do not reccomend ANYONE go see it without reading the book first. *nods*

The end of the year is approaching =D It's interesting to see how time passes. Come February, I'll be 14!!!! I mean, that's so hard for me to get over! I think it's cause I started this when I was 10, and then also, I remember being 11 and that's when my best friend was 14. So it's weird turning the age I remember him as. I feel old O_O But then I have to remember KD, Zaku and Xerin *bows* I'm not THAT old! JK

I find lies annoying. It's like, "Max I'm not pretty", And I'm not a good kid, and I sure as heck don't make anyone "happy" .__. But anyways,
Hope everyone's day goes well.
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I remember every morning I wake up and tell myself I'm not gonna let them hurt me, I'm gonna be happy and strong. And I try to act like it for my friends Grant and stuff, but inside I'm dying, crying, and falling apart.
No one ever says, "Oh it's just Cancer" or "Oh it's just Diabetes" So then why do people say that with another serious disease? "Oh it's just depression, get over it."


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Thursday, November 27, 2008

Paperclips and homework
So yeah...my head weighs like, a bajillion pounds right now from crying my head off. You should hear me cry...it really hurts LOL I like, start choking and stuff.
So yeah, I was like, bawling my head off an hour or two ago. And it's like...1:12am in the morning. O...M...G!!!! I am like such a wreck as usual! So Thanksgiving, yup yup. I have to think of what I'm thankful for, right? And 'cause I'm so stinkin depressed I'm like, "Well. What do I have?" And then I start thinking...I know there are people that have trashed me and left me. And people who have made me cry. But there are also people who have made me smile and laugh. Max-kun you're not on that list! J/K J/K We'll say you had a victory, Kk?
So what am I thankful for?
Sareena and Grant!!!! Zaku and KD, and Maxi-kun too!!! The life that I live no matter how hard it is and much it hurts. My blanket and teddy bear. The fact my eyes are brown. And the fact I can stand up and say "I have Type 1 Diabetes" and the part where "I am struggling through physical and emotional abuse as I have been my whole life, but I've got this awesome friend who puts up with me even when I put him down." Tenkyou Maxi-kun :D
There's alot of things.
And yes. I have been hurt. And I have been hurt bad. Like, for a friend I didn't mention up there. It might take awhile for me to fully recover that experience, and I may not recover at all. But yup yup.

I think I'll bug someone tomorrow or I'll call Sareena right now and just cry my eyes out.

I have a talk in church Sunday. (Gah,)
I suppose I should write that...

(LOL count how many times I said, "and like"or "I'm like" in this post)

LOL...My room is like, trashed at the moment.



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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Da Paperclip is gone
Something that stresses me out a bit is when people think they can treat me like crap, or leave me and trash me, and then feel that they have a free ticket back into my life. It really irritates me. Or do people just not understand how much they affect others?
Something random...Just thinking about old "friends". But, I don't want to get back into all that drama. It's interesting to see how people come in and out of your life. I remember there was one day and I got 51 comments on that day's post. Now I get 2. ^_^ Which is perfectly fine, as long as I have just 1. I feel bad though, it seems I never have time to....oh dear....hah....there is so something wrong with me....you know what I don't get? Why I can't freaking get over someone that hurt me SO bad. That trashed me and killed me, when I did nothing wrong. I should hate them, and want nothing to do with them, yet in fact...I still love them. Even though it's like, happened repeatedly. I don't get it...I was on an old friends site...I thought I'd give him another chance...and, so I had posted a comment and what not. And I went to go look at the comments...and above mine was....omg I hate myself.


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Why is the paperclip still there?
As I bite my lip to keep from screaming and yelling and cursing and all those STUPID people out there...

How are you all today? I haven't much to talk about. I'm stressed and upset. My head hurts bad too. Hm...man life sucks. I'm so angry I'm crying and I feel suicidle too! And get this, I didn't even do anything wrong. It was someone else's life.

I don't thik I'll EVER put another picture of me up here as long as I live! lol I'm so ugly...lol

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