Birthday • 1995-02-10 Gender •
Female Location • Yuma Arizona Member Since • 2005-12-28 Occupation • Waitress ._. LOL Real Name • Rachel
Personal
Achievements • Honors, Pre- college credit, the best friends eva Anime Fan Since • Since I was born! Favorite Anime • Ouran High School Host Club, Bleach & Death Note Goals • Survive my teenage years, O_o' Hobbies • Writting, reading, graphic arts, sketching and video games Talents • Art and Writing
myOtaku.com: Koneako
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Paperclips and homework
So yeah...my head weighs like, a bajillion pounds right now from crying my head off. You should hear me cry...it really hurts LOL I like, start choking and stuff.
So yeah, I was like, bawling my head off an hour or two ago. And it's like...1:12am in the morning. O...M...G!!!! I am like such a wreck as usual! So Thanksgiving, yup yup. I have to think of what I'm thankful for, right? And 'cause I'm so stinkin depressed I'm like, "Well. What do I have?" And then I start thinking...I know there are people that have trashed me and left me. And people who have made me cry. But there are also people who have made me smile and laugh. Max-kun you're not on that list! J/K J/K We'll say you had a victory, Kk?
So what am I thankful for?
Sareena and Grant!!!! Zaku and KD, and Maxi-kun too!!! The life that I live no matter how hard it is and much it hurts. My blanket and teddy bear. The fact my eyes are brown. And the fact I can stand up and say "I have Type 1 Diabetes" and the part where "I am struggling through physical and emotional abuse as I have been my whole life, but I've got this awesome friend who puts up with me even when I put him down." Tenkyou Maxi-kun :D
There's alot of things.
And yes. I have been hurt. And I have been hurt bad. Like, for a friend I didn't mention up there. It might take awhile for me to fully recover that experience, and I may not recover at all. But yup yup.
I think I'll bug someone tomorrow or I'll call Sareena right now and just cry my eyes out.
I have a talk in church Sunday. (Gah,)
I suppose I should write that...
(LOL count how many times I said, "and like"or "I'm like" in this post)
