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Wednesday, October 12, 2005


   New Intros and Experiences
Changed my intro. I even had a pic to go with it, but I didn't really like how clustered the thing became. Thought it might be cute to give them out if any one wants it. You know like those this people make as fan clubs and stuff. Except mine would probably be something along the lines of "Green Tea and Pocky ROX!!!" LOL, I'm make it and just let me know if anyone would like one.

Put up Part 12 today! All right! *Does Little Dance* Part 13 will probably be there tomorrow in the afternoon. Althought I do want to get a 'Behind The Scenes' up tomorrow too.

My math teacher didn't show today and the class just got up and left. We waited patiently for half an hour and it was really strange for our teacher to be THAT late! (He's always lecturing on punctuality) We all signed a sign in sheet and left. Someone who knew where his office was turned it in.

There is the possiblity that he attended the English professor's funeral on short notice. He died of cancer or something. Yeah, I catch the gossip once in awhile, but it's real. "Wouldn't it be sad if he was in a car crash?" I asked Sherry. "Aww...Don't say things like that! What if it was true?" She joked. We have a test tomorrow.

Hm, what else to ramble about? Sherry gave me one of her chocolate covered macadenian nuts. Tastes soooooo good! I have to get me some. I didn't eat breakfast so it tasted like a little bit of heaven. ^__^

This morning I had to urgently buy some paint and rush to the bus stop. I love what I painted. (Suppose to be abstract.)Reminds me of the beach for some reason. I joked with Alisha on the bus about the new person who got on. "Who are you?! GET OFF MY BUS!! STRANGER!!" lol, we busted up laughing. It's funny how you begin to recognize certain people who talk the bus daily. Funnier when you give them little nicknames.

I talked to some girl in art today when it was just us in the classroom. (I was waiting for my painting to dry.) Also I think Angel is getting used to seeing me around. (Ned is still being a poop head even though I've talked to him a bit.)He sits on THE OTHER side of the classroom. lol, I think it's funny how one side doesn't quite like the other. We think they're a bit annoying talking loud in class and laughing like they got something stuck in their throats.

I went to the art club yesterday. Eh, not all that I expected it to be. I'M THE ONLY FRESHMAN THERE!! AND I CAN'T DRIVE EITHER!! They were talking about throwing an art party every first Tuesday of the month. Suppose to be a potluck maybe, said I'd bring Doritos. lol, I don't go home on Tuesdays, but I have a long break where I can just go to the marketplace and buy something.

They were talking about a trip to Santa Monica. I want to go, but it's too far for my parents. They'd probably say okay if I had known the people better, but I've just meet them. No telling who they really are just of yet. And yes. Practically half of them were wearing black, had a piercing, but NONE of them were French.

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005


   "Through Heaven's Eyes" -Prince of Egypt"
A single thread in a tapestry-
Though its color brightly shine-
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design.

And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face-
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven's eyes.
Lai-la-lai...

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring-
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king.
If a man lose ev'rything he owns,
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?

So how do you measure the worth of a man-
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come,
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes.

And that's why we share all we have with you,
Though there's little to be found.
When all you've got is nothing,
There's a lot to go around.

No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance,

And though you never know all the steps,
You must learn to join the dance-
You must learn to join the dance.

Lai-la-lai...

So how do you judge what a man is worth?
By what he builds or buys?

You can never see with your eyes on earth-
Look through heavenís eyes.
Look at your life,
Look at your life,
Look at your life through heaven's eyes!


My friend Faye-chan was having a difficult time. I told her to play this song and sing along. It sure helps to lift my spirits. Especially the part when all they sing are la-la's ^__^

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   STuff!!!
I've finally been to everyone's site and man it feels like I haven't donw anything like that for years!!

Let's see I just PM Chibi Koneko that I have posted Part 11 up of my quiz. ^__^ So happy so many have taken it 154 to be exact and I was only expecting twenty!! I found out what was wrong with my Memory Story so be sure to check that one out too! SO PROUD OF IT!! ^__^

I'm almost down with Stone of Tears and can't wait for the next book! ^__^ That's basically all except I've FINALLY remembered the question I kwpt wanting to post!

okay here it is: You know how people are always devastated by car accidents which are related to speeding? Well, why make a car that can go 200 mph when the fastest you can go on a freeway is less than 80 mph? I mean, why make a car go soooo fast if they're not suppose to EVER go that speed no matter the situation? Major problem, simple solution. What do you think?

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Monday, October 10, 2005


   Eh...I've had Better Days
My loan was denied and I have to get a subsidized one. Meaning I'll have to pay interest on it. When I turned it in they thought they had looked at it and told me I qualified for it. I doubled checked again and turned out they didn't even look at it. It's not as bad now that I look at it. UBBER GLAD that I took care of it now instead of when Winter quarter was about to happen!!

Saw Corpse Bride FINALLY on Saturday and I can't help but feel a little disappointed by it. I had thought it would surpass the greatness of Nightmare Before Christmas, but apparently nothing does.

I have no idea why I feel slightly depressed,maybe it was the talk Will and Ganymede and myself had in her car. We talked about sin and all that religious rot. I know where I stand on it, but it's an issue I've been dealing with. I worry for my soul...and I know I need a LONG confession with my priest.

*Sigh* Besides that everything seems to be fine. I want some alone time later. I have a test on Tuesday for Phil. and Thursday for Math I think. And an art thing to go to on Thursday as well.

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Thursday, October 6, 2005


   WHAT THE @#$%! A LITTLE BIT OF HELL!!



I'M SO FREAKIN MAD!!!! I SWEAR I'M GONNA EXPLODE AND TAKE ALL THOSE IN A TWENTY FOOT RADIUS WITH ME TO HELL!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! CURSES!!!!!



*Pant pant pant* I'm okay, I'm okay...Turns out my STUPID financial counselor denied my loan. I'm gonna go over soon today to kick his @#$! and ask his what the @#$! did he think he was doing.

There is the possible explaination that upon looking at my records he believed I had paid in cash and that includes I have my scholarship. I can understand that, but I did not. I had to pay by credit card or more of my older sister had generously paid for my intuition for the Fall term so I could GET the scholarship. I was going to pay her back when I received it and keep the rest for books. *Breath in, breath out* I WILL get to the bottom of this even if I have to show the man what a little bit of H-E-Double Hockey sticks actually is...(Trying to watch my language.)

If anything the Dean of Humanities came by my Philosophy class came by and was talking about how they take care of their students. She had asked if we knew anything that we could change. I was the first to talk, (You know that odd silence? I broke it. ^__^)I told her of my situation and she was taken by surprise. Another guy talked up too and basically the class agreed that the system was definitely at fault. I gave her my name and student ID, so hopefully if things get worse she'll be on my side and not against me.

*Sigh* Geez, this can get so---You just wanna scream not so nice words...ya know?

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Wednesday, October 5, 2005


Welcome to Loddoss Island!!
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The second Page wouldn't fit right for some reason. So I put it on another post. This is the second part. Hope you enjoy it. ^__^

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   Nekko-chan and Kitty-chan
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I made these and hopefully I can continue them later! ^__^ Nekko-chan has been a character of mine for seven years now. My little sister made Kitty-chan recently. Kinda odd their difference in creation years is identical to my little sister and I. What'd you think?

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   AY!!!
Man I've been working FOREVER trying to get a new face for this site!! So hard!! I wanted to get the cute picture I made as my avatar, but the computer lab here is acting RETARDED!!

*Sigh* Went to the dinner for the Hispanic Scholarship and the food was delicious. A spanish newcast lady gave an inspiring speech! I almost cried!! I met a few ppl and saw two old friends playing in the Mariacy (ACK!! THE SPELLING!!) One being Zach from South and the other Cassie from my Confirmation group. Felt so nervous at the place!! So fancy!!

The guy I met there was a senior at CSUB an islander and was SOOO TALL!! Had to be at least three feet tall than me!! He was trying to talk with me because I looked so nervous which I was. I hate it when I get that all too innocent and shy voice, but it was hard to talk. Does that happen to anyone else? I just wanted to go to bed and go home. Along with taking off the make-up I was wearing. (Not a fame of make-up.) I saw a him yesterday and felt more comfortable talking with him. His name is Rubert. My accent got the best of me and I called him, Ruberto!! ARGH!! Said it all funny and didn't even notice it!! CURSE THIS ACCENT!!

Thursday is an art showing and I have to go as a class thing. Most my family is coming along for the free food. ^__^ lol I tried calling Contraband because he seems like he'd like to go, but he wasn't in. I'm actually wondering if I should even try again...Eh...he's an issue best left alone....(Just found out this morning that it's NEXT Thursday.)

My finance counselor is being a lazy BUM!! I had turned in all my paperwork for a loan by Sept. 13th and he's barely going to look at it NOW!! I had to go in and ask about it and he didn't know I had turned it in. Hopefully all that money crap goes okay...I hate money or more of the stress on it...It all just sucks.

So, how is everyone? Doing fine I hope. I had yet another question for all of you out there. What does the quote next to my avatar mean to you?

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005


   Japanese Umbrellas and Frito Boats
Lets see YAYNESS!! My sister Gloria and I were measuring people for future costume plans. Found out I had grown an inch!!! IT'S A MIRACLE!! I am now 4 ft. & 10 1/4 inches!! YAY!! And that's WITHOUT my shoes on. ^__^

Went to the Kern County Fair on Sunday to watch some joustling. Although it was a certain page boy that caught my attention. ^__^ I kept seeing all these pretty boys!! One of the competors looks like Mr. Jett my high school English teacher senior year. LOL!! I was so shocked!! His horse was kinda crazy.

I had purchased a Japanese silk umbrella light blue with white sakura blossums and butterflies. ^__^ Whee!! So happy about that!! And a light blue kitty statue which matches the on Maureen had bought me long time ago from San Francisco. Not to mention the bobble Ganymede had gotten me for Christmas. ^__^ Yes, I still have it Ganymede.

Hm, let's see what else?

Talk with Alisha on the bus today and we laughed and joked the whole way to CSUB. We mentioned Megaman and all those cartoons. She said I was obssessed with it, but I think it's not true. There's just somethings you just know! She said she was downloading CLAMP's Wish on her computer and I just squealed out loud like some retard!! The lady in black glared at me, but I paid her no attention. I LOVE WISH!!!! She said she'd lend it to me when she was done. I haven't felt this excited over an anime in years. Feels good. ^__^

Talked to Sherry in Math today telling her about the free frito boats they were giving out. She didn't know what a frito boat was. She kept saying, "Frito bowl? OR boat?" and I tried my best not to laugh out loud. "Frito BOAT. Frito BOATS!" I was trying to keep from shouting, but failed miserably. LOL!! We started laughing and the math instructor had to hush us. I don't eat those things and struggled trying to explain to her what it was exactly. I wonder if that's what they call them in Los Angeles? We took a quiz and Sherry finished sooner than I did. She leaned over curiously whispering. "Frito bowls?" I snickered and told her "Frito boats." LOL!! At the end of class Valerie explained why they were called Frito Boats to us. Apparently she had heard us. We laughed pretty had on the way out.

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Saturday, September 24, 2005


   Reunion With Band Memories
I'm feeling a lot better now, actually got some sleep in. Man, isn't it amazing how sleep can work wonders? The day I last posted I did practically everything to lighten my mood. Play the guitarra outside without socks or shoes, played some music sang along, and all that rot.

Next day I talked with Alisha and we laughed a lot then talked seriously about some of the past and things I didn't know that happened.

Ganymede gave me a phone call later and asked if I wanted to go to the football game and Borders too. I was happy to go to Borders, but once there I guess I started slipping into that dark mood again. *sigh* Nothing looked pleasing to me in the manga section, but I did freak out some kids talking to them about what manga they might enjoy. heh heh...i followed Ganymede around trying to sneak up and pounce her. I finally did and complained I was bored. She advised me to go look at the music section. I did and found some wonderful music with some mystic fairy-ish theme. While listening I overheard some workers conversation discussing whether or not one or them were wearing girl pants. I almost laughed out loud.

Do-do-dut-do-do! *Random singing to describe traveling* We arrived to the high school, I went to get some food. So hungry!! Got my first football game potatoe and Pepsi!! ^__^ Ganymede was presented with a tuba and she played. I ate then went to talk to Cyndi my freshman when I was a senior.

I talked and joked with her. No one had any pep!! I started shouting all the chants and stuff. It's funny because at one point I couldn't control my voice and it cracked horribly. lol. But I did release some emotional needs to scream my lungs out. Man, that's what I missed most about band. It was an emotional outlet for me.

I joked with Will when he asked for water it was funny but I ended up getting them some. Man, I'm such a softie underneath it all. *Shakes Head* While in the front I said hi to some more of my old aquaintances. I use to be secretary of band and had talked to most of them or they would ask me. Wyndi made me laugh because she said something along the lines of being too good to say hi to my old flute section. (I used to be second chair.) Felt good to just see them all smiling. You know like your their role model or they just think you're awesome. Yeah, that feeling...Felt like one big family reunion.

Met Daniel there too. Right behind me!! He came too and was playing his trumpet. It's amazing that I've known him for eleven years. He's someone I can always talk to and feel familiar with I guess you can say he's always been the boy next door. He asked me about my schedule at CSUB. (He's going there too.) It's funny because he demanded that I have lunch with him. It made me laugh and I couldn't say no to his persistence. We agreed I'd meet him on Thursday to have lunch and that he'd wait for me to get out of my classes. Sounds weird, but I'm glad he didn't give up on me. ^__^ I needed a friend to just be with I guess, but you know me. I won't make a big deal out of things so emotional and silly like that. Satisfied being a loner and never really getting to know people.

Wow, this is long...Ganymede and I hurried to the middle to watch the band performance. I can't believed they already mesmerized and have the first drill down. Eeee, we sat in the rebellettes (our flags) section with all the glitter!!! *Shivers* I loathe glitter!! Freaky thing was that while going over there I heard someone calling my name. I looked up and there was the Contraband's older brother Aaron waving at me. O.o He used to be goth with blue short hair, but he was dressed IN COLOR!! Not to mention with long ourly gold locks!! Talk about transformations!! LOL Ganymede joked about him being "Goldie Locks" LOL Well, I needed band I guess with all that has been happening.

Cyndi said they'd bring me a mellophone to play this coming Friday. (Sept. 30th) So that's something to look forward to. ^__^ Ganymede also told me Will wanted to arrange a get together for everyone to go and see "Corspe Bride" *SQEAL* I can't wait!!! SO EXCITING!! Hopefully I can go...

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