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Sunday, November 13, 2005


   Researching Meaning Of Recent Quiz
PSIONIC SKILL DESCRIPTIONS

Clairvoyance: The character is able to cause his or her mind to travel a number of feet away from him- or herself. The character may in this way view what is happening in other rooms nearby rooms, etc. The character still retains normal consciousness and control over his or her own body, and is aware of what happens around it. The clairvoyant image is seen as a sort of mental overlay over what the character is viewing with normal vision. The character may view up to 1 foot away for every point of the skill roll difference.

Domination: Using this skill the character has a chance to enter and control the mind of another. The person whom the character is attempting to control must save against will at plus 1 on the die for every 10 points of the skill roll difference. The controlled character may attempt to save again after a number of minutes equal to the Dominator's will.

Empathy: This is the character's chance to sense emotions within living creatures. The spell may be used on any one creature within sight of the empath. The empath can sense whether or not the creatures are or aren't feeling a sense of well-being, etc. Add 20% to the empath's chance of success if the empath is able to touch the creature.

Object Reading: This skill allows the character to visualize events (usually traumatic) that the object has been through. The character has no control over what is seen although more time spent scrying the object will increase the chance of seeing a desired event.

Prediction: This is the character's chance of predicting the immediate future. The character may see a number of segments equal to the skill roll difference into the future in order to determine the immediate effects actions will have, etc. This skill may be used in combat. If the character uses prediction in combat subtract the character's skill roll difference from the opponent's next attack.

Astral Projection: The character's chance of projecting his or her mind totally out of the body. While the character is projected the body is in a coma. The character may project for a number of hours equal to his or her will. If the character is not back in body at the end of the time period he or she is dead. The character may travel at the speed of light for as far as is desired.

Telekinesis: The character's ability to move material objects with his or her mind. The character may move a number of ounces equal to his or her skill percentage squared. A skill roll is necessary in order to affect the object.

Telepathy: The character has a chance of reading the surface thoughts of intelligent creatures. May not be attempted on creatures with an intelligence of less than 6. Add 20% to the character's percentage if the character is able to touch the creature being read. The character may project thoughts at -30% from the skill percentage.

The referee may use any or all of these skills as desired, and should feel free to add any that are desired. It is possible to give alien races bases in some of these skills, but if these races are run as characters it is suggested that the race be weakened in some other way to maintain balance among the characters.



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   Nice Get Together
Had a wonderful get together with my friends. Hm, never realized how small we were, but we had a good old time talking while my lil sis and Faye-chan's lil bro played some video games. heh heh we all joined in once awhile too!

Hm...yeah...just like old times...

But this morning...I decided I wanted to have that long confession I had always wanted. My mom was going and I asked to join her. My lil sis went too, but she felt like she had to or my mom would get mad at her. I talked with her a lil, trying to make it seem less scary.

I know how most ppl wonder why they should go to confession. I believe I know why now. It's one thing to admit you're wrong, but to admit you were wrong to someone else aloud is another thing. It shows to are truly sorry.

*sigh* yeah...I was thinking of talking face to face with Father Argie, but he wasn't there. I had to go to one of the small dark rooms with Father Ralph and I'm so glad I did. It was kinda hard telling things that I hadn't ever worded aloud to someone. I felt so bad telling them. Then the priest started talking to me and I started crying. Didn't even know it until I felt something wet land on my hands. I was shocked, and couldn't stop them at all. Afterwards I felt so much better. It was a moving experience.

When I was talking to my mom before confession. I had asked her why the media was so determined to make Catholics look like they want to brainwash ppl. She laughed and told me it was because there were so many of us and it scares them. Like how there's always that one school that's the champ and all ppl want to do is try and bring them down. Our religion gives people the most freedom in life. That's what we believe and it scares people. It really did make me feel better. I love talking with my mom about our religion. ^__^

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Thursday, November 10, 2005


   Will The Good Times Never End?
I was in Philosophy today and had so much fun laughing there. ^__^ A certain fallacy was making us with perverted minds laugh hysterically. Don't know if any of yalls get it, but it's called, "Apple Polishing" LOL. Won't explained what it means pervertedly you'll have to find out yourself! But in seriousness it's basically when you sugar coat your accomplishments.

Hm, liking all my classes and the atmospheres. Kinda sad that winter quarter is coming up soon and I won't have the same people in my classes. I'm gonna miss my friends in Math, felt like highschool again how we'd laugh and talk as a class. Gonna miss Sherry, Maggie, Valerie, Adrianna, Nichola, Stupid Ned, Art, Those two annoying yet hilarious girls who sit in back, that one dude...yeah...Just wondering, what was your nickname back in highschool or what did others refer to you as?

Hm, I think I might add a bit more to this post seeing how long it's been.

Let's see, freaky dude was staring at me in the study room a few days back. I miss Alisha on our spantaneous lunch eat out. -__- So sad! I miss the bus!! *Sigh* Got new site look. ^__^ Hanging out with myself and strumming the old guitar to prevent any serious breakdowns. I did an art piece that I absolutely LOVE!! Think I'm in the mood for some fanart so keep an eye out. I put up another story at quizilla, one of my favorites. It was actually rated "Mature" you can imagine my surprise! There's no nastiness in it. Not even cursing, just that it's Alistair's experience after he dies. ^_~ Won't say anymore.

Just curious, how are you guys likeing it so far? Which reminds me I have to post my own quiz results here! ^__^ Just look and click one of them to get the connection if you haven't had the pleasure of taking it yet. That's all! Hope everyone is doing okay out there in this world of ours.

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Monday, November 7, 2005


   One Puzzling Day
Yeah, um...I think I'm gonna start with the serious then end in the hilarious. ^__^ That way anyone who reads this won't get too affect by it.

Well, this sunday we were reading the papers just like any other sunday. The subject came up about how the democrats are starting to get paranoid about there being more Catholics on the Sumpreme Justices now. No offense, but they started bitching and all that crap. Some of my family and I talked openly about it.

We thought it was funny how some people say they are Catholic, but aren't really so. The best question you can ask someone whether they are or not is to ask if they are a "Practicing Catholic" which means do you go to church every sunday, do you go to confession, and all that rot that Catholics are SUPPOSE to be.

*Sigh* I think what bothers me most is how "Catholics" are now the equivalent to the Jewish religion. People see it as a cultural thing. Not that I am denying that there's a possibly it might be. Just that people are hating the religion and the people of it. Always suspecting a big conspiracy, always ready to accuse...they are teaching generations to hate...

One question that burned in my mind was, "Why do they hate us?" It was very sad to me, but still I wouldn't give up my religion just to be accepted in their eyes. It kinda reminded me when all the Catholics were being killed for what they believe in. All the Saint stories I read, man they truly are God's people..."Why do they hate us?" It makes me very sad...

...even more to see my family make jokes about protestants. I know we are all Christian and wonder why can't we forget what makes us different? My friend Ganymede is Christian, but not Catholic. I still love her and all my other friends. My family thinks I'm weird for going with her to her church things. Heh, probably worried they might convert me.

But no...I have my beliefs she has hers and we don't try to prove each other right or wrong. Why can't others, all the media, people...why can't they exist in harmony? Why can't they stop pointing fingers or accusing others? This place makes me very sad sometimes...

*Sigh* "I want to change the world." I said that to someone without thinking. I am very grateful towards that person for helping me discover what I really want to do with my life.

*Shakes off seriousness*

OKAY!! Let's see, I met up with Alisha today! ^__^ This morning to be exact. I hadn't seen her Friday because my classes for Friday were cancelled. HOORAY!! ^__^

We caught up some. She and Sindi and Clinton spent some time at the mall and from what I heard they had a blast. Sindi got her ears pierced and Clinton kept trying to find Alisha's style of clothing. They were actually doing stuff and analyzing clothes. (Especially the underwear!! LOL)

We went to the vending machines and ate breakfast. There was this odd yet comforting silence. She wanted to walk around because she was cold. When I got up she said, "Hey, look at that Asia with the bright red hair?" I hurried to get a look. The window looked like it sank in before it was actual glass. So I tried leaning my head against the glass to get a look. (I love asians!) But--WHAMM!!!!!---The glass tricked me!! It wasn't sunk in like the other side.

lol!! I stood there with my face pushed up the glass. Partially from the throbbing pain, but mostly from wondering what the hell happened.

Alisha started laughing her head off. I tried so hard not too because I hadn't find all my sandwich which was stuffed in my mouth still. Man, I have a bad habit of eating like a chipmunk or squirrel!! I ADMIT THAT!! AND IT'S HORRIBLE WHEN SOMEONE IS MAKING YOU LAUGH!!

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Thursday, November 3, 2005


   Ultimate Fav! Makes me laugh
I POSITIVELY LOVE TO SING TO THIS ONE!! ^____^ I know the lyrics and message aren't that clean and are suggestive, but I love it anyway.


FRANZ FERDINAND LYRICS

"Don't You Want To"


When I woke up tonight
I said I'm gonna make somebody love me
Iím Gonna make somebody love me
And now I know, now I know, now I know
I know that it's you
Youíre Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky

Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna 2x
Wanna go where I never let you before

Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna 2x
Wanna go off what I never let you before

Well he's a friend and he's so proud of ya
He's a friend and I knew him before ya
Oh yeah

Well he's a friend and we're so proud of ya
Your famous friend well I blew him before ya
Oh yeah

Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna 2x
Wanna go where I never let you before

Here we are at the transmission party
I love your friends
They're all so arty
Oh yeah

When I woke up tonight
I said I'm gonna make somebody love me
Iím Gonna make somebody love me
And now I know, now I know, now I know
I know that it's you
Youíre Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky

Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna 2x
Wanna go off what I never let you before

Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky 6x

Yeah

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   A Few Of My Favorite Songs
311 - Don't Tread On Me Lyrics
Before you're pointed at me
There is a possibility
You better turn that thing around
The fits come easily
So don't you tread on me
Cause I will knock you down

Some days it seems it's not worth it
The fight in me is all gone
And I'm not trying to be perfect
But just get one damn thing done
Before I lose control
I pick myself from the floor

Before you're pointed at me
There is a possibility
You better turn that thing around
The fits come easily
So don't you tread on me
Cause I will knock you down

Never come a day that I'll solve you
Consequently I could never leave you
In the shadow of those looming battleships
I love our canoe
I'm ready for the falls
And those still waters we will find are true

Oh there's a clock in my head
And despite what it says
Another one on the wall
They don't agree at all
And there's a schism in me
And despite what you see
You might see me as calm
But I go out like a bomb

Before you're pointed at me
There is a possibility
You better turn that thing around
The fits come easily
So don't you tread on me
Cause I will knock you down

Whoa
Oh in the comfort of strangers
You don't see the danger
Of just letting it flow
This I know

Before you're pointed at me
There is a possibility
You better turn that thing around
The fits come easily
So don't you tread on me
Cause I will knock you down



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A Few Of My Favorite Songs
COHEED AND CAMBRIA LYRICS

"The Suffering"

Is there a word or right to say
Even in this old fashioned way?
Go make your move, girl
I'm not coming home

Would things have changed if I could've stayed?
Would you have loved me either way?
Dressed to the blues.
Day to day with my collar up.

Decision sits so make it quick
A breath inhaled from an air so sick
I cursed the day I had learned
Of the web you spun...
You had your hold till bleeding

Hey, Hey!
If it was up to me
I would've figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh, I hope you're waiting

Hey, Hey!
If it was up to me
I would've never walked out
So until the sun burns out
Oh, I hope you're waiting

Would we have lived as a child would care?
With this vial to drink I dare
(Oh where have you been, oh where have you been)
Only to cry all alone with your taste on tongue
(Oh where have you been if it hurts to be forgiving? Bye)

Should we try this again with hope? (Bye, bye)
Or is it lost, give up the ghost
And should I die all alone as I knew I would...
Then burn in hell young sinner

Hey, Hey!
If it was up to me
I would've figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh, I hope you're waiting
Oh, I hope you're waiting

Now listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
You may be invited, girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited, girl, but I'm not coming in

Hey, Hey!
If it was up to me
I would've figured you out
Way before the year clocked out
Oh, I hope you're waiting

Hey, Hey!
If it was up to me
I would've never walked out
So until the sun burns out
Oh, I hope you're waiting

Listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
You may be invited, girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited, girl, but I'm not coming in

Listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
You may be invited, girl, but you're not coming in

Listen well... will you marry me?
Not now, Boy
Are you well in the Suffering?
You've been the most gracious of hosts
I may be invited, girl, but I'm not coming in
And you're not coming in

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   Few My Favorite Songs
SEETHER LYRICS

"Truth"

If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?
Though I'm closer to wrong
I'm no further from right
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convinced on the inside, you're so much more than me, yeah
No there's nothing you say that can salvage the lie
But I'm trying to keep my intentions disguised
And now I'm deprived of my conscience and something's got to give
Deprived of my conscience
This all belongs to me, yeah

I'm beaten down again, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you
I'm weaker now my friend, I belong to them
Beaten down again, I've failed you

The deception you show is your own parasite
Just a word of advice you can heed if you like
And now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with me
Convincd on the inside you're so much more than me, yeah
I'm beaten down

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   Few Of My Favorite Songs
SEVEN MARY THREE

"Cumbersome"

She calls me Goliath and I wear the David mask
I guess the stones are coming too fast for her now
I'd like to believe this nervousness will pass
All the stones that are thrown are building up a wall

I have become, cumbersome to this world
I have become, cumbersome to my girl

I'd like to believe we could reconcile the past
Resurrect those bridges with an ancient glance
But my old stone face can't seem to break her down
She remembers bridges and burns them to the ground

I have become, cumbersome to this world
I have become, cumbersome to my girl


(Chorus)
Too heavy, too light, too black or too white
Too wrong or too right, today or tonight
Cumbersome
Too rich or too poor, she's wanting me less
And I'm wanting her more
The bitter taste is cumbersome
Yeah! Ah, yeah, no... yeah. Ohhh.

There is a balance between two worlds
One with an arrow and a cross
Regardless of the balance, life has become cumbersome

(repeat Chorus)

Your life has become cumbersome


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   Bus Mishaps
*enters chatroom half horrified and sleepy*....been soooo long...Anger Fists* SO ANGRY!!.

I was on the bus as usual going to CSUB. The bus was more packed than usual. (No offense Faye-chan) An old black man sat next to me and I thought eh, no biggie and continued doing some last minute homework, "Doing math?" I nodded. "You in highschool?" I said no. I was from CSUB.

I usually get people talking to me like this. I really don't mind it, it's a bit neat to me to have conversations with new people. He told me his name and shook my hand. I recognized him every morning ya know? I introduced myself. (This guy had white hair in his beard. REALLY OLD!) He asked if I had a boyfriend. I was a little suspicious at first then I remember how Alisha said how old ppl are all into young folks relationships. I told him a little. The more paranoid Bena said I should have said yes or I had a girlfriend or something to make him bug off.

I didn't listen!! I SHOULD HAVE!! I pulled out another book and said I had to study. Hinting I was going to completely ignore him. Still he would ask me once in awhile what it was saying. Very annoying!! Still, nice bena smiled tightly making subtle remarks to leave her alone!!

He brought up the subject of phones. If I talked on them much. I said I use to but not now seeing I had college. Not to mention lots of family. Then he asked if he could be my boyfriend.

O.o Inside Evil Bena screamed, "HELL NO!! YOU'RE TOO OLD!! AND YOU'RE STINKY!!"

I was actually pretty proud of how I handle it politely. "No, thank you. I don't really know you." He tried to say talking on the phone is how you get to know people better. "No." I said again, but I think I glared at him this time. He was taken aback and rubbed the back of his neck.

"Oh well. Guess no is no right? Just thought I'd try." I felt a little sorry for him. Seeing how I have felt rejected once myself, but it's a totally different matter.

"Can't blame a guy for trying. I am pretty sexy."

lol, we both laughed and he came to his stop.

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