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• 1989-12-15
Gender
• Female
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• some were in the world
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• 2004-08-15
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• Dog Handler,
Real Name
• Stacey

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• Retraning race horses, Going to the Westminster dogs how
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• since was 11
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• Dont have one
Goals
• To be able to stand on my own two feet without needing the help of others
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• Writing, Riding, Showing dogs
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• Being able to live with Diabetes




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Ello, and welcome to the place where anything can and will happen, I have been here forever and not much has changed in the way of me, I still live for my horses, dogs, and friends. Want to rant or someone to talk to just look me up and I’ll be there. http://sacequestrian.webs.com/ & www.freewebs.com/celticmoonkennel

"Laugh even when there is nothing funny happening around you, for some where there is something worth laughing about your just not seeing it." ~ Stacey Carver ~
Diabetes is like a lover, hurting you from the inside. I was closer to my diabetes then to any of my friends or family. Even when I was all alone, quiet, thinking, wanting no company at all, my diabetes was there" ~The Lone Ranger and Tonrot Fist Fight in Heaven ~










Friday, June 24, 2011

need to rant
There are days were I want to scream, I want to scream at everyone who looks at me and makes those stupid ass comments, Because you know what I am trying and I’m so fucking sorry you cant see it, I’m sorry I’m not you, and I’m so fucking sorry that you cant see what I see in life, and I guess I’m sorry you don’t care.

I’m sick of trying to show people I’m not some useless kid, and I’m sick of the people who think that they know me, because no matter what you don’t and I’m sick of it. You be me for a day and see what you say.

I’m sick of people getting all bent out of shape because I point out what’s really there, and say things like ooohk, ooohk, or I know, or I got it. I hate being told to do something when I have been doing it a certain way fro god knows how long, or being told to do something like 100 FUCKING TIMES, I HEARD IT THE FIRST time.

Really hate when I say I’ll do something and then someone takes the response from me and blows it way out of proportion…. Breath...

And I’m sick of how you look at me for my choice of friends or when you comment about my boyfriend…. Really I’d watch what you said, because my minds like a trap it all builds up till there’s no more room and then it explodes. I love my horse and my dogs, and I hate when people trash them, or make faces when they talk about them,
I’m not fully together and with out them I’d be lost and a. kill myself or b. kill someone else…. Yeah….

I still want to walk into the other room and scream ….because you took it all wrong congrats again, and you could fucking say thanks when I buy you fucking lunch and don’t really have the money for it….

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Saturday, March 26, 2011

In this silent hallow I sit and wait
For them to return
For there is to be another hunt
When the moon pulls up and sun sinks down

I sit here with ear listing

I have waited a long time
To hear the calls of other of my kind
The songs that ring in the night
Chilling all down to the bone
The call of the hunt

I sit silently in this hallow waiting
To smell the fear
To feel the ground pass under my pads
As Luna shines down on me casting shadows

I sit with ears listing to the wind
Bringing the call of the hounds
The hounds that run all others night mares

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poem
This is a dream
I can’t seem to wake up from
There is no screaming
No reason to taste fear
But I know that this is a dream
For when I open my eyes
I’m still sitting in this bed
Under the cracked ceiling
I get up and keep walking on
Smiling when I have to
But no one knows
What I go thought
I just know that this is a dream
For I know that when the eyes open
Ill be stuck in this hell alone
I can see the smiles
That are real
The happiness
That is not here
This is how I can tell
That when I wake up
That this is just a dream

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In the shadows we watch
We wait till our song is sung
We listen with all our heart
We live for the moment in which we are called for…

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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

OMG LIFE
So life is going great for the most part, My health issues are ohk for most part, My horse is great, getting feed now that I'm doing it and shes getting worked just about everyday, so her muscles and weight is coming back nicely, The dogs are good they are fit again and happy were I am, Tat is all most finished and she has all her clearances. So yeah lifes going good, I'm in a place were people care and i find it kinda odd, but getting use to it, My group of friends has changed a little but I'm ohk with that, and I'm all most done all they way with school, to so i can go and take on the next part of school. woot so theres a life update for you all, hope all is well with everyone. and if not smile once a day it chases some of the demons away.
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Thursday, December 16, 2010

I'm So tiered its not funny but had a good b-day for the most part after my melt down about waiting for my dad to call and him being him and again never doing it... somethings just never change even if the time dose or the person calls you all most every dam week...sigh oh well, will post pics of Biff, hes a golden puppy that I'm attached too..... we had to put Al down, he couldn't eat anymore and was falling over, he was my new best friend... R.I.P Al, my mare mare is getting moved to home in the next two weeks, so that's exciting... hope all is well with everyone else.
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Life
So I have been home for 2 1/2 months now, I missed my dogs so much and getting them back into shape, I missed my horse so much but sadly were I'm living and working now is too far for me to go and see her everyday so hopping to move her closer by the end of the month. I have a a good place to stay where my dog are welcome and I'm bizzy most the day, I have a backer for my border collie so I can get her finished and bred, my whipp is keeping weight...Got to get my ass moving on finishing my externship, been working on my uncles and aunts horses and have one other client right now so that's good, I am trying to sell some of my edited work, "they are posed on fb" but ya cant complain too bad about life because its ohk right this minet, some issues but going to get them fixed asap... Hope everyone is good and sorry i pooffed for a bit http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=277964&id=746185548#!/album.php?aid=209212&id=746185548
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