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Birthday
• 1993-05-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Here
Member Since
• 2005-05-30
Occupation
• Life preserver :)
Real Name
• Belina

Personal

Achievements
• http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said
Anime Fan Since
• Ever since Pokemon
Favorite Anime
• I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3
Goals
• Make it out of here in one piece
Hobbies
• Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown
Talents
• :)

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Monday, April 22, 2013

This meant something at one time. Everything did. I don't know if it was a lie or if it just died over time. I'm not sure if I'm dead or not. It hurts to care. It hurts to live.

I think I broke. Don't know what's real ornot anymore. I think she lied to me without realizing it. I think she only knows the half of it. I'm not glowing or radiating or burning... well, maybe smoldering. Throbbing. That's a good word. My soul is filthy. Need to cleanse
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Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I'm a frayed knot,
I'm afraid.
Falling into fate,
Float across a different universe every time I cross the hall way.

He is nerdgasming me to sleep. Oh. My. Gawd.

And how can you call yourself a gamer if you don't like Zelda? rsehgisehgesjnkiajerith5iug8r Wtf?

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Saturday, April 6, 2013

I know you'll break us all down some day.
Or at least I think so.
I might just burst inside your bubble.
I'm not used to the air pressure of spaces this enclosed.
Just because you've wiped the blood from your fangs doesn't mean you're no longer a cannibal.
But maybe you'll know to use a fork this time.

ily
~Belinda
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Tuesday, March 12, 2013

http://www.reading.ac.uk/ure/tour/citizenship/gender.php

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Wednesday, March 6, 2013

http://www.bebanoku.com/autopics/zNiAn.jpeg

^Brain fried? Go to law school.

ily
~Belinda
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Saturday, March 2, 2013

I've gotten to that point where my life is once again just an assembled mess of projects and stresses: Things to look forward to, things to have heart attacks over, and one or two things to heart ons because of.

My sentence structure sucks.

"Where is your birthday party at?"
"Never end a sentence with a preposition."
"Where is your birthday party at, bitch?"
Found that on a birthday card. Made me chuckle.

I am typing this on the library computer at school and the keyboard is sticky. >.< Hand sanitizer, where art thou?

Have to do a project in art history where I take a contemporary artist and compare their work to a work of the past like Stonehenge or the Pyramids or the Woman fromm Willendorf. Any suggestions?
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Thursday, February 28, 2013

I just had sex.

And it felt SO GOOD.
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Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Been a while.

Skyping with Chris. Dead tired.

I'm slowly becoming more and more facebookified. It's getting harder and harder for me to write in actual paragraphs. I need to start writing again, but I either have no time, no desire, or no motivation. I need to finish this story. I've given up on so many manuscripts before this one. I need to prove I can finish something once I start it.

ily
~Belinda

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Saturday, February 23, 2013

I can't decide if my childhood grew up or died.

Just got out of a psycology exam. Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Had some extra time so I doodled on the back for about an hour. haha
EXTRACREDITPLOX?

I don't know where I'm going in life. I just know I can't go back--no matter how much I do or don't want to so I might as well move forward.

"You'll be happy just to see me someday."

Been keeping my heart under strict lock and key. God and Chris is the only one that goes in. Well, Margaret too, but she's so busy these days I barely get to see her.
Might not be healthy, but it's a survival instinct. My friend Erika resents me for it. It's not very "girl power" of me to hold back from everyone except my fiancee, God, and my bestfriend, but my darkness creeps over the corners Lex Luther style (yes, that was a Smallville reference. Don't hate.) and I really don't think she could handle it if I were to unleash it all on her.

Got a hug from Josh the other day. He smiled like we were best friends, ran over, and wrapped an arm around me. I'm not sure how to feel about it. It's weird how you can go from being someone's whole world to just an outsider in a few months.

I hope you're all doing well. I hope I get to talk to you all again one day.
ily
~Belinda
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Wednesday, February 13, 2013

My back is killing me.

This whole website feels dead. I still can't believe she's gone. Don't know when I'll ever be able to write on here regularly like I used to.

It feels a little like a part of me died with her. All I can do is stare at my computer screen and watch my younger self laugh and cry from the cieling of retrospect.

I don't know where I'm going. I don't if anyone is listening. I know for a fact they're not reading.

ily
~Belinda
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