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Thursday, November 21, 2013
I can be honest again here. I don't even have to be cryptic.
Which is incredibly convenient because this is about the time I need to start lying everywhere else.
Why the hell did he have to tell her I didn't even apply? Why did she even ask?
I don't know if I'm broken. Maybe I work perfectly fine by standing in my own way--maybe that's my life's purpose.
I'm full of shit. I know. If I could try, I would have an excuse, but I don't. I'm scared of making a fool of myself. I'm scared of failure--so naturally I'm scared of trying.
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Fuck it. I might as well start digging my grave in the backyard because I'm going to die here.
And fuck them for asking.
I don't want their pity.I don't want their questions. Yeah, there's something wrong with me. No, I don't know what it is. No, you can't help me.
Sorry for the mess. I'll clean it up in the morning. For now, let me lay back in my gutter and sleep
Monday, October 28, 2013
These are the ruins of my glass castle, my childhood.
I'd go on, but I'm so sick of words. My head aches for action. I can't help but think I'll always be pissed at him for ripping me from my world and I can't make a decision one way or another so please stop asking me. My friends are all flocking around my flightless body telling me to soar, but I'm fine on the ground as long as it's with him; I ache to be whole again.
But the worst part isn't being away from him. The worst part is going to see him and then having to leave. I am so sick of the back and forth, the up and down, coming and going--when the hell will I be able to just stay?
I'm tired of phone calls. I'm tired of skype. I just want him.
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