Sunday, November 14, 2004

A little update
I’ve been gone for a while-figured I’d check in so you guys didn’t think I was dead!

My brother got Halo 2 and a Xbox. I LOVE IT!!! I’m not good (of course) and I’m playing easy mode like the chicken I am, but it’s still fun. I’ve only died twice-once because I fell off the space station (and floated into oblivion... kind of cool actually) and once because I got tackled by three giant aliens with double plasma blasters. Yup, life is good. I guess.

I was going to go to TEC closing, but since I’ve been feeling kind of sick lately, I decided not to. Speaking of sick, My Grandpa just went on kidney dialysis oh, two weeks ago, and I just found out about, oh two DAYS ago! No one in this house tells me anything. I do admit, I’ve been gone a lot lately, but still...I dunno XD you’d think they’d give me a postcard or something...

I’m tired. I think I’m gonna go play some jazz and then go to bed. Goodnight, cruel world.
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Thursday, October 28, 2004

I'm still alive!! Yehaa!
My operation didn't go to bad. the last thing I remmeber was talking about Jazz band...my voice kept getting farther and farther away. Then I heard the nurse complaining about her sore thumb, and the last thing I thought was "hey, I hope she doesn't stick that in my mouth."

When I woke up I couldn't feel a thing. I decided to wait until I could move my hands and feet before I opened my eyes. When the nurse came (she was a friend of my mom's) she tried to help my to a chair, but stubborn me, I tried to refuse help. I made it to the chair and basically collapsed.

Then the doctor talked about a bunch of stuff. All I remeber was something about being "a poster child for wisdom teeth removal" and all this stuff I couldn't do for a while. I'm glad my mom was there, because I was spending too much energy trying to look like I wasn't half-dead.

Apperantly on the way home I talked like crazy and my mom had to make me shut up about six times, because my mouth was so numb she couldn't understand me anyway. Then I fell asleep.

At home I iced my face and watch Trigun. (Yea!) I didn't take a pain pill until 2:00. Then I took another one that caused drowsiness and slept for five straight hours.

I actually feel really good right now. My throat is a little sore, and my sockets are bleeding a little, but all in all it's not too bad.

Now what was I worried for anyway?
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Wisdom teeth and stupid me
OHHH NOOOO!!!!!! I'm going to get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow. I'm not freaked. No, I was freaked a few hours ago. Now I'm CRAZY!!!

Ok, It's not that bad. I've heard about a lot of removals gone bad, and about the same number of good ones, so I guess I'll be fine. I also have Josh's Trigun DVD's (yea, stephen gave them to me-I'll bring em back on monday, I swear) to keep me company, and a character to finish for DND. Oh, and I think I had some schoolwork somewhere...

So, I didn't go to bible study tonight because I wanted to practice my saxophone. Honor band tryouts are a week and a half away, and I won't be able to play for a week after surgery (I think). So, I go to practice and guess what? I forget my music at school. I just about threw my bookbag out the window. This is just one of a series of things (including missing a play practice) that I've done lately in my semi-catatonic no sleep state. Oh well. I'll get plenty of sleep with the morphine... (hee hee)

Although on a positive note, I finally practiced scales. I think I spent all of 15 minutes on them. Heh. The most I've spent on scales in my whole musical career ;)
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Thursday, October 21, 2004

Ah. I'm sane again.
Ok, I may have overeacted a ^teensy^ bit to that whole church deal. Only a little. Ok, I spazzed out. But they made fun of my sister...*hides in corner*

I'm kind of over it now. I'm still mad at Verlyn though, because he acted like an arrogant @$$ to my parents. Oh well. Enough aggression.

I'm in a better mood now than I was before. I little less on the stressed out side. I got a D on my history test, and I'm not (that) upset. If I keep stressing over school I think I will lose my sanity, so I won't get crabby!

How do even my happy posts sound depressing? It's a gift, I suppose.
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Friday, October 15, 2004

   Later...
If you didn't read the "sisterly anger towards the reformed church" post, (It's just below this one) you won't understand this, so read that first.
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I've had it. I'm done with my church. American Reformed is ok with my sister going, but My pastor won't allow it. Why, you may ask?

Well, my sister has made profession of faith and is a member of the church. Since she apperantely pledges allegience and support to our church alone, she's not allowed to go to the other church's program.

I don't know about you, but I didn't make my pledge to my church, I made it to God. As far as I'm concerned, next time the have a consitory meeting, I'm dosavowing my membership to this church. That doesn't mean I'm not a christian, because I still believe and I have confessed that belief. What I didn't want to do was pledge myself to a certain church (because, as I previously stated, THEY"RE THE SAME DENOMINATION!!!!) And I CAN NOT STAND RED TAPE IN MY RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCES. Christ came to break the rules, not enforce stupid ones such as this. FELLOWSHIP IS FELLOWSHIP, WHO CARES WHERE IT'S AT!

*sigh* I need to calm down a little. Hah, it's kind of funny. Lately I've been lagging in my faith, but this makes me want to pick up a bible and worship. Funny huh?

When life gives you lemons, eat them raw. With the skins. It's good for you.
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   My Sisterly Anger Toward The Reformed Church
This is funny. I deleted my earlier crabby post to write happy stuff, but now I'm going to FILP OUT and all you can do is read on and watch me scream!!!!!!! (excuse my spelling because I am SO PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!)

My little sis went to catechism with Erin and Alexis in the American reformed church two weeks ago. Mrs Goold was the teacher. She said my sister needed to get permission for her sunday school teacher in Our church before she could come back to American.

My sister forgot about it and came back last Wednesday. Mrs. Goold proceeded to HUMILIATE my sister in front of the whole class and KICK HER OUT OF CHURCH. IT's a church, for crying out freaking loud! People used to claim sanctuary from war in them, and now my sister can't even go to a different one if she's "already established in another program" and Mrs. Goold put it. To me, that's bull.

A)It's not like she's going because she hates her class. She would just rather be with her friends than people she barely knows. It's easier to open up in front of people who support you. B)Even if you did suddenly have a mass exodus of kids from one program to another, WHO CARES!!! their learning the same stuff anyway because WE'RE BOTH REFORMED CHURCHES!! IT"S NOT EVEN A DIFFERENT DENOMINATION!! Besides, if a person needs to be spiritually filled in a different way, why would you deny them that right?
C)Children are our future. Why would you alienate the very group of people who will be taking the church over!
D)Witches and cults will accept anyone who even thinks about joining them in a heartbeat. Why then is the church, who is supposed to be the vision of Christ's love, turning those away who wish to worship in a way that is more real and personal to them.

Many sunday school programs I've been in didn't work for me (do I needed to bring up the rift that STILL exists in my Sunday School classes!?!) part of that was because my teachers didn't understand me, because I was one the the "freaks" If I could've found a different church that was more understanding of me, I would've traded in a heartbeat. I dunno. I feel like my church is alienating me, and I was hoping my sister could find somewhere with her friends and people that understand her better, before it ends up like my class. Oh well. I hope this gets resolved for the best, whatever that may be.

I don't blame Pastor Bierly for any of this. In fact, I thank him for being as supportive as he was. I understand your hands are tied. And I'm so sorry if my rant offends you. I just needed a place to vent. I've just about had it with churches and their constrictions (I'm actually talking my church in that statement) I dunno. It's frustrating.



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Tuesday, October 5, 2004

Another crappy year dragging on and on...
I am so sick of school. Spanish II is making me mad. Well, not really, because I understand it, but I'm too lazy to talk in full sentences. I mean, If you as me if my friends like to watch TV, I'll say yes, but no, in Spanish, I have to say "my friends like to watch TV". I dunno, maybe I'm just lazy ;)The only reason I survive Spanish II is because I have band after. Even though it's marching band, which I HATE, at least I can play my saxophone.

Math sucks too. I am too lazy to draw graphs. It takes to much concentration for me. Hah, I am lazy aren't I? Besides, Mrs. Boonestroo already thinks I'm an idiot, so who am I to dissapoint her preconceived notions?

I was even crabby during choir. I just wanted to curl up and sleep. I wish I could to that now, but I'm taking a break from writing my stupid English review of "The Right Stuff." I'm not quite sure what I'm supposed to write, so I'll write a review, 'cause that's what I'm good at. Hah, watch me fail Junior year because of excessive laziness. I don't care. Ok, maybe a little.


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Sunday, September 19, 2004

   I have a cold
Yup. It's currently known as "The Grif cold" or more regionally "The Kieth cold." Apparently this strain of the disease started within the Grif (a.k.a. Netherlands Reformed) school system. Nikki got it from Keith, Cortney got it from Nikki, and now I got it from Cortney. Lovely. Hey, another reason not to hang out with my "friends."

Friend is starting to become a relative term for me. Argh. I don't feel like talking about that today. I've spent enough time complaining about them.

I think the main reason I got sick was because I'm too busy. Usually I can fight off most colds and viruses, but holding down two jobs AND school AND band rehersal is starting to take it's toll on me. I worked till 11:00 PM three times this week, and the other nights I worked till 8:30. I worked 2-8 on Saturday. I was already starting to feel sick, and couldn't wait for closing time, when Cortney called from Cenex and said they had an emergency.

Brian Overman quit last week by writing the boss a note. But he didn't give a two weeks notice, and he refuses to work his scheduled hours. Well, the boss says it's his problem, but it ends up being OUR problem to get someone to work with us. Cortney was all alone at Cenex, and everyone else was busy, so I had to work. At first I had a slight fit (heh, slight) and started screaming at her to find someone else, I was sick. But then I realized it wasn't her fault, and calmed slightly. Finally, very frustrated, I agreed to come in when I was done at Dans.

Anyway, I got there to find that the slushy machines had exploded (yes, exploded) and Darci (a morning employee) was working. Whitney was supposed to tell me, but apparently she was too busy, well, ya know, *sip sip*. And to top it all, Tiffany was sitting right outside the store talking to Marcus. No offense, but why the f^*) couldn't she work? I told Darci thanks for covering, and I'd hug her but I was coming down with a cold. (which turned out to be true-I left during church this morning because I was afraid if I sat a little longer I'd be sleeping there for a few hours)

Everyone keeps giving me their hours at Cenex. I can't say I don't appreciate it, but still...I'm getting overloaded. I'm seriously debating quitting Dans. Especially when play comes around. But I'd feel bad about leaving Dan in a lurch-two employees have quit and he can't find people to replace them.

*Sigh* I dunno. The combination of a major sinus headache and the medicine to get rid of the sinus headache is leaving my mind fuzzy.
Meh.

Talk to ya later~
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Thursday, September 16, 2004

School Sucks-Not a new concept but a true one nonetheless
AAAAAHHHH!!!!! Ok, now that that's out of my system...

I hate school. I hated it before, of course, but it's getting to the point where I'm ready to run down the halls screaming bloody murder untill someone ties me up and takes me away.

Grr. I just can't stand it anymore. Remeber how I said I wasn't going to hang out with my friends anymore? Yea, well appearently they decided that for me and are leaving me out anyway. I don't know why I even bother.

Nikki is hell-of annoying. She has a boyfriend now (named Keith), and he's a Netherlands Reformed. They're already talking about marriage, for Christ's sake! She won't be allowed to have a TV or a job (and if she does she has to make less money that Keith does) and she has to go to his church! they're gonna have six kids, because Nikki wants an even number and Kieth wants a lot of them (they're already getting started, if you catch my drift). It makes me so mad! Nikki isn't even acting like herself anymore-which might be a good thing, now that I think about it...

Anyway, I gotta go to work. Stupid Cenex,and stupid Brian Overman for quitting without two weeks notice and now I have to do his dirty work *grumble* But wait, there is light at the end of the tunnel...I see it...A little closer...MONEY!!!!
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Saturday, August 21, 2004

I'm back!
Yup. Vacation was blissfully uneventful. I saw tons of Buffalo, elk, but only 2 coyotes, 1 wolf, and no bears. Whopee.

Anyway, roleplaying was awesome the other night-good ending to it. That was probably the hardest I had to think all summer (that says how eventful my summer was.)

I'm sorta worried about this school year. I now have two jobs (Dan's and Cenex, if I didn't tell ya), and I'm still gonna try out for play. Yup, I'm nuts. Along with all-state choir and honor band.

I just found out that All-state choir concert (for people who make it) is on the same day as our play. Lovely. I'm still gonna try for both, but if I don't get into play, it might end up being better for me in the long run. Oh well. I still want to do it.

I rented Kill Bill and Kill Bill, Vol 2 this weekend. My parents decided to watch it with me. Well, (I saw this coming a mile away) they thought that it was to bloody and made me stop watching it...at the animated part, no less! Ahhh! I believe "this turns my stomach. I can't believe you watch this crap, Kendra!" were my mom's exact words. Lovely. then my dad was like, "I think that's enough. I just sat there. He kept saying that, and finally I was like, "I planned on watching this all the way through." He just about slapped me and made me turn it off.

I'm gonna wait until they take they're afternoon nap tomorrow and watch the rest. Boo on them if they can't see past the violence. I personally thought what I saw was art. Especially the fight scenes. It's like ballet for angry people.

I think that's about it for the day.

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