Saturday, February 11, 2006

A long road we walked....

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Time of Post: 05:35 p.m
Listening to:”Till Kingdom Comes"
Current mood:Truly happy and loved

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Backroom/My gbook

Today is a special day for me or so I thought...its my second year anniversary on TheOtaku.
A few days ago, I decided to not celebrate or even post on this day, because honestly I don’t feel like celebrating, my life is in a total mess right now... but when I woke up this morning I realized something...
The importance of this day is not the two years I’ve been here, its not even my record of being in one place so much time......its the people I meet on this two years... all the hardwork I’ve put myself through in this last months to build a theme, writte a decent post to dedicated to that same people I’ve meet, chatted, shared moments/emotions with.Its the day I’ve been looking forward for months to come to finally be able show them how apreciated, honnoured and gratefull I feel for still having them by my side after all we’ve been through this entire time....
That’s the true meaning why I wanted to celebrate it before...I just forgot it for awhile...covered by my own problems...
I’m not going to share the post I’ve wrotte before because truly speaking its very long, and honestly...its too mellow and I never really finished.
I’m going to share with you the names, [and nicknames] of the beautifull group of people that I truly dedicate this day to.
The upcoming people your about to see had, throughout this two years, influenced me to become a more decent and better person, each one have a special charisma that attracted me and pulled me to their presence somehow at the first sight, they also teached me the true meaning of the word...friendship and all that word implies, how strong that feeling can be...breaking miles, frontiers, language, race...only for the sake of that feeling...that certain person...

And they are:
- Shanny (my eternal goodess);
- Evil (my crazy-lovely-badboy);
-Sephy(my cute-adorable-perverted kitty);
-Blackwings (my sweet”make you think less” companion);
-Someguy (my crazy-yet-cute-botões-hero);
-Enin (my giggly tea pinkbishie companion);
-Sahki (my sweet lady);
-Vicky (my cute little bunnie yaoi/bleach companion);
-Matt (my crazy lil’story teller);
-Hinaru (my silly pillowman);
-Shizuka (my sweet lil’angel);
-Danny (my crazy-gigglylady-layout/theme-producer);
-Nami(my sweet-giggly-cookie lady);
-Petie (my adorable thatrescuer);
-Tiffy (my lovely twinkies);
-Nessa (my adorable cuddles);
-Teri (my giggly companion).

Everyone, if it wasn’t for your friendship, patient and dedication towards me I would be gone from this place along time ago...
Just knowing, everytime I woke up you guys exists and are only away from me by a click, makes the world more berable to live on and to keep fighting for...I thank you...for all the moments bad or goods we spent together and I truly hope we keep in touch for many many more years *hugs*
Also if by any chance I have failed you as friend...I’m truly sorry.
I’m ungift with words, that’s why when you pour your soul to me I’m always silent but I’m there...when things go wrong or life gets harder just close your eyes in the silent and you’ll feel me hugging you because that’s how much I care and love you...

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Friday, February 3, 2006

I am a butterfly, you wouldn't let me die...

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Time of Post: 12:35 p.m
Listening to:”Me and the moon" by Something Corporate
Current mood:Lack of colors inside

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Backroom/My gbook

A couple of days ago in my task of finding decent music, I stumbled on this band called Something Corporate and I immediatly fell in love for their music, its a rock band with good beat and awesome lyrics.
Sahki said yesterday on her site, someone has taken her colors away, the same happened with me, so listening to their songs helps to smooth that feeling =P
So Sahki darling, if you reading this maybe you should ckeck this band, maybe it'll bring some colors back, like blue, red or even green, cause we need at least the basic RBG, right? x)
I'll try to put some of their musics up here for you guys to listen =)
[x]Edit[x]Okay I added, "Me and the moon", and "Cavanaugh Park" just a few of my many favourites songs and the ones suits more my mood I guess. [x]/Edit[x]
Anyway hope everyone has a nice weekend.
Till next time,

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Monday, January 30, 2006

   I need a break...

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Time of Post: 01:05 p.m
Listening to:”Labirynth"
Current mood:Stiiil...Sick

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Backroom/My gbook

Bleh I need a break, break from a cold...can we actually do that? If we can't we should.
I'm sick of being sick especially this cold, actually is not a cold to beguin with, its more like a flu, and she's so attached and cozy on her new home that she refuse to leave, I guess after all I'm a good host huh? x]
At least she could be a good guest and let me feel a tiny-ish bit better, well I kinda do feel, to be honest since I don't have a fever now, though she ruin my weekend! I spend it in bed surrounded by thousands of blankets, tea cups, tissues and sneezes, she's a bad guest and I want her entirely out!
Hahahah I'm talking about a flu like it would actually be a she...man I'm deliring XP

Anyway good news, thanks to my lovely [x]Shanny[x] I'm a new That's Staff member along with [x]Petie[x] ^_^
Thanks so much for giving me this chance Shannylove*hugs*

[x]Edit[x]Gawd I can't believe I forgot this. Happy belated Chinese new year![x]/Edit[x]
Till next time,

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Monday, January 23, 2006

   Sleepy, sleeeepy....

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Time of Post: 05:55 p.m
Listening to:”Garden of everything"
Current mood:Sick-ish >_<

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Backroom/My gbook

Its been awhile since I updated, sorry about that everyone, is just I didn't had anything interesting to talk about it aaand I got sick.
I have a stupid cold argh not to mention I don't have voice now, plus every part of my body is sore and I just feel like curl up in bed and sleep....darn those colds =_=
Blah I want my voice back, I miss talking xD
Its kinda hard/silly try to comunicate by gestures while my siblings are joking around with your pitty situation >_>
Blah I really do miss to hear my own voice besides the squeals I can let out everytime I try to talk...don't joke >.>

Anyway this weekend been great!I've chatted with my ladies and a gentleman who I haven't spoke to for quite awhile ^_^ oh can't forget about Yaoi goodness Vicky and Sephy shared with me hehehehe x3
Good weekend indeed *sigh* unfortenaly is over and another week is coming, bleh!
Hmmmm....oh my new theme!Hehehehe I know, I know your guys thinking its a bit too dark and gothic right?=P
I kinda feel like that lately (about the dark-ish part) so yeah its up but don't worry it won't be for much time maybe two weeks or so till aw you know valentines day comes, because I'm not a mean person to let a dark-ish theme on such a romantic day hehehehe xP
....hmmmm... it might be dark but relaxing with the musics I have up I guess at least for me xP
Okay this was definitely a filler post I had other things in mind to tell you but when I start writting I forgot about them O.o++
So sorry about this meaningless filler post x)
Have a great week ahead! *hugs*
Till next time,

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

  

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Time of Post: 08:05 p.m
Listening to:”Le chante pour passe le temps"
Current mood:Peacefull

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Backroom/My gbook

Today been a good day.
I slept a bit more, got up at 09 am (lately I'm getting up 07 am) but since yesterday I stayed up till 3-ish am chatting I guess felt lazy x]
I've also did a major clean up on the house, it was really needing after the hollidays and such...
I still have to take the chritmas tree and a few decorations here and there around the house but that can wait till tomorrow.
I light up my fireplace well its not exactly a fireplace its an old wood oven but it works as a fireplace just the same so as the warm and smell of wood being burned spread through out the house I started to feel tired so I layed down on a big pile [I actually wrotte first pig pile hahaha] of white clean sheets curled up and fell asleep a few metters away from the oven... gawd it was such a great sensation, so wonderfull I want to repeat again soon x]
Ah!Today the sun brightened high but it was still so cold inside and outside the house.
......only 4 more classes with Onizuka-sensei [and by meaning classes its episodes]*siiigh*
I should curse somebody due to my recent little obsession now don't I? x)

Till next time,

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Monday, January 16, 2006

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Time of Post: 01:05 a.m
Listening to:”Poison" sung by Sorimachi Takashi
Current mood:Mellow...x]

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Backroom/My gbook

I can't thank you enough for all your support and all the pampering I've been having lately, you're truly wonderfull people, so my deep and true Thank you *huggles*
I truly wish I could say it stopped "rainning" here but it hasn't, outside been rainning everyday and it seems it will continue, inside myself been rainning too, its been though days with many things that keeps making me feel down but my brother finally bought a brand new DvD drive for the computer and I've been craving for some azian goodness since a certain some(one) offered me a DvD full of an Azian show drama for Christmas and my oh my didn't that little hawt pervy teacher keeps my mood get lighter everytime I watch the show or remember it (mostly him hah!xD)
I'm completely surrendered to that show (and the teacher too x], c'mon at least I admit it xD), yep my all time favourite azian goodness show now ^_^
The show is called "GTO (Drama)", don't you forget it!I highly advised you to watched it, so...you go search or buy the entire show now!!Because I said so =P
["certain person "chie-chie (I hope I spelled that right xP)]
Hah!Not to mention that that the same "certain person" was pwnd by me...hahahaha yeah me and Shanny played him like a cute little pwnd piano and what's more surprising is "the person" didn't noticed that until one of us told what was going on *giggles*
I think me and shanny are one of the best teams we can not be beatean, we're too damngoodmeansneaky gals....muahahahaha *high5 shanny*
(Now I fear for what can happen in the future since "the person" warned us he will have his revenge...bring on I say!x] )

Hmmmmm....more to talk about...Oh yeah my new theme, heh this time the theme is dedicated to my sweet lovely vicky because she's a outstanding señorita aaand because she needs something to make her feel special and nothing better than a Cloud theme ne?hehehehe x]
I hope you like it hunnie as much as I enjoy it doing it for you *glomps*

Well that's it for now, I'm updating real late now but heyyy I feel tired and lazy xP, hmmm yeah I'll try to update/comment more often too...

Till next time,

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Thursday, January 12, 2006

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Time of Post: 10:15 a.m
Listening to:”I believe"(Piano version) I’m on Enin’s page
Current mood:...

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Backroom/My gbook

Well I guess if I told you guys that my week was good or even okay I seriously would be darn lying about it. The last couple of days have been truly horrible so horrible that yesterday I acted and said things in a way I never thought I could do or say... I don’t regreat it though, the problem was I got all my family worried with me because when I got home all the feelings boiled up and I got seriously sick so sick that I really thought my head was going to explode or I was going to trow up my own stomach, I had to go to the hospital for a couple of hours, [note this I’m not telling you this for you to feel pity of me, I just want you to know how seriously the events were that it dragged me to an hospital]
I still can’t believe why such horrible people exist on this world and why am I always the one who finds them and get “beat” up by them...I must have done something real nasty on my past life...but you know what?
After sleeping for god knows how many hours and waking up I feel fresh and I really don’t care anymore, I’m young and somehow a decent person what I did might have not been the correct way to act specially from someone like me but I goddamn demand respect towards my person!!!
To be honnest there was only one thought that made me smille and made me fell asleep in peace after getting home from my visit to the hospital yesterday...
“Tomorrow’s gonna be better, because it can’t rain forever...right?”

[x]Shadow out[x]


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Sunday, January 8, 2006

   Dear god what a week...

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Time of Post: 10:15 p.m
Listening to:"Lullaby" from Silent Hill 4: The Room soundtrack
Current mood:day off is almost over...boo

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Backroom/My gbook

I guess I'm finally able to do an update around here =P
Its been an hectic week since I begun working, but I manage to be around visiting one or two friends each day, [I couldn't make it to msn though too tired for that] I guess I shouldn't complain much about my week because it seems a lot easier to bare if you compare with some of myotaku-ers pass through this week.
My poor things it sadden me to read your posts about all the bad things your passing through, what a terrible way to enter a new year, but don't worry things will get better, some of you will regain your healthy body once again and one of you, you'll heart and soul will heal too, you know my shoulder is always available to lean on or even take a little nap on it x], because Shadow loves you and want you to feel better again, it also makes her feel usefull so you know where to find me alright?*snuggles*

Moving on, my new job is alright, you know nothing to shabby or way to interesting [which I knew that already], heh yeah I got some problems right in my first day/week but its alright I could handle them somehow. I find this job not to suitable to everyone, I mean I'm sure everyone knows how to take a coffee, pour some tea and such but that's a whole lot more than that, the worst part are...the bad clients with their mouth full of [bad word]bullshit[/bad] aaand its a stressfull job too, it demands a lot of your energy and patience...like I said not suitable to everyone xP

Anyway "Shadow's home sweet home" will hafta wait a little longer I could have done it today since it was my day off but I waste most of it sleeping in (14 hours of sleep to tell you the truth) and then I got lazy, real lazy heheh yeah so I yet have to edit the pictures, so sorry about that I know how all of you are excited with the idea...I'm showing them real soon I promise!
Shadow loves you *hugs*

[x]Shadow out[x]

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Wednesday, January 4, 2006

  

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Time of Post: 10:15 p.m
Listening to:"You're rain" from Silent Hill 4: The Room soundtrack
Current mood:Goodly good =P

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Backroom/My gbook

I guess I owe you guys an apologie, right?Why? Well basicly because in one of my last post I told you that I had a surprise and ask you to come on the day after that post to actually see the surprise but I end up not posting nothing at all than I disappiered for awhile and suddenly I pop out and post only to wish you a good 2006 [which btw Happy 2006 everyone!!] and again still I don't show tell you what the surprise was...now don't I deserve a small
poker her to death match?
*laughs*
Seriously now I'm sorry for my behavior lately is just well to sum up all in one flashy thing:
Monopoly-Eyetoy Play-beach-Fire-works-Sleep 1st day of the year-job interviews-more job interviews- a job-money soon coming in...
*giggles*
Did you catch that flashy thing?Its okay if you didn't hehehe x]
[I have to admit its rather confusing since it confused myself xD]
Aww yesh I have a job now, no more Shadow jobless for me...well for the next 6 months I hope XP
Finally money will start chubbing my bank account and it won't hurt to watch the paper with so low numbers there, though I'm still on the "trying" 2 weeks thing >.> so I do have to make everything right or they fire me before even I get paid, I'm starting tomorrow!!I must say I'm excited...hehehe...though I have to wake up really early and I'm not looking forward to it =_=#
Hah look at me I'm so excited that I almost forgot to tell you what's my job now xP, well its not a very fancy job but I kinda like it, heh since I work on a similar place before...Waitress Shadow at your service, can I help you? ^_^

Yep I'm a waitress on a restaurant now hehehehe...wish me luck for tomorrow!!=]

Oh yeah about my surprise hummm its seems I need more time to edit the pictures you know make things look decent for you guys, since I'm going to show you my house...yep I'm stealing someguy's/panda/vicky idea and I'm going to show you my recently remodelled house =P...look forward to it...its really...priceless....awww men its like I'm selling something here XDDDD
Anyway hummm oh yeah also don't mind about my site yesterday I decided to change the theme and put this html-iesh theme up that I've been working out for a long time but it didn't worked that well all the codes were somehow...wrong, heh so I almost ruined my entire site...yeah I got discourdge and mad XP so I leave it for now, I eventually fix it or probably put my previous theme back again =P
Well I got nothing more to say for now, except take good care of yourselfs alright?
Shadow loves you *hugs*

[x]Edit[x]PS:Its seems I'm having problems with the comments thingy again though this time is diferent I can open it but the place where you can do your comment don't show up...how wierd...so everyone who updated today I read your post but I can't comment...gomen.[x]/Edit[x]

[x]Shadow out[x]

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

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Time of Post: 10:15 p.m
Listening to:"You're rain" from Silent Hill 4: The Room soundtrack
Current mood:Great [We're preparing our own fireworkers! xP]

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Backroom

I hope next year brings what you didn't get this christmas!...hehehe...have fun! ^_~
*hugs*

[x]Shadow out[x]

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