21 years old. I've been here since I was 13. My persona still remains.
In college. Still trying to figure out everything. Still clinging to the cracks. I won't just survive. I'll live.
Me as of now:
I aged horribly.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
So maybe it's finally time to say goodbye?
No one is on here anymore, but I'll never forget all the awesome friends and people that I knew. I'll never forget how this site helped better me as a person, by having a place to vent and people to talk to.
But no one is on here anymore. I doubt that I'll be getting on "theotaku" anytime soon, seeing as I have a very unupdated page on there already. Life is changing so much. Everyone had grown up. We were all 13-15 in age range.
Kuronekosama had a baby. Shintoga and I never met, but we're still close friends. Luminae and I still remain close friends, despite shaky contact.
I wish I could still hear from Hinaru, Darby (BlackNova), Momo (PeachesxCream), and all the other people that aren't on here anymore. Vicious2, Frosty (who I actually lost contact with a year or two ago), Bradley (Brosenka), etc.
I'm married now. And not to either of the crazy exs that I used to be with. I actually had a legitimately meaningful relationship with someone who I'd like to procreate with one day. Zach is a great guy, despite the other post I said about me not wanting to have sexual organs. We have a home together now and a kitty cat. DragonAge II came out the other day, so you know what he's doing hahaha!
So goodbye Myotaku. I'll miss you but I'll keep you here to be a reminder of everything. All the awfulness and happiness I felt.
See you, Space Cowboy!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Desire is awful
I wish God would have voided me of sexual organs. I wish I felt no desire.
Trying not to look at porn is one of the hardest things right now. I told myself and Zach that I wouldn't. I know that if I do slip up even once, then it's going to fuck me over the rest of the way. I know I'll be right back to where I was before all this. I've tried so hard. So fucking hard.
I won't do it now. No matter how bad I need it. There is no release. I'm a horrible person.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
I do live.
I haven't updated since I was 19. That was so terribly long ago. I doubt anyone still gets on here, but I'll probably keep this still as my little piece of personal space on the internet. Myspace is...eh. Not so personal I guess.
I've got a new boyfriend. As of sometime earlier this year that I can't recall exactly, Andrew and I terminated our relationship permanently. I hated that fuck anyways, so I was happy. I shed maybe a tear...out of happiness. I didn't have to mask or live in misery.
So I met Zach. I actually had seen him around before at school, but of course, too shy to talk to him. Found him on okcupid and started talking to him. We talked for a while and finally met each other. It went well. Ever since 3/01/2010 we've been dating. We're pretty much inseparable.
School is going well I guess. It's out for the summer. We started collecting Magic cards and old NES and SNES games, and some various tv series. We're on season 4 of OZ. I love OZ.
Time to get to work!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
A Super Awesome Time.
I'm doing my finals in like...3 minutes.
Wish me luck ><;
Guitar Hero World Tour is fun.
But the song selection as usual is
-farting noise thumbs down-
At least they had Dinosaur Jr.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
An awesome day yesterday...
Like hung out with a friend, smoked, and watched mr. show... OwO
I totally want to watch Begotten now.