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Friday, October 22, 2004
Nomenclature.
Sorry about that RANDOM lapse in posting but there was some bullshit. Like, large metallic bullshit- clogs the gears in plans, you know? Deals with computers. Broken ones. Not mine- network requires the following. 1 "host" computer. 1 "receiving" computer.
X out the host and you have a pretty netless receiving one.
Let your imaginations roll.
Eye of Providence.
During this brief lapse, I actually got a call from someone who was concerned. You know, I suppose it is out of character for me to not be around on AIM for a few days, but uh.. Yeah. Phone call was nice, I suppose. lol.
Took me down a rant on that phone call. Deals with people's MyOtakus.
If you have a problem, be down to earth about it. I get tired of these little melodramatic posts where people say "Hey, something shitty happened. I mean, really shitty. It's so shitty, it smells horrid. I won't tell you what happened, but it was really shitty. I promise."
*thwack* Nein. Bad teenager. Just tell people what's up. Most of the people trolling around MyOtaku who were/are OBers are smarter than the average 40 IQ MyO poster. They can help you out. The best way to get problems solved is by getting people's opinions- and there is no better place than a melting pot of ideologies, faiths and nationalities like a popular message board.
This might seem silly, you know- we're "just Internet people"!
Fuck you. I'm not going to be zoned into some generalization based on the form of communication I am currently using. If you feel like driving down to San Antonio, Texas or any other place where a smart, wise person resides to get face to face talking done, do it. I'm up for a cup of coffee anytime of the fucking week, I'll rant to you, rave to you- delve into eccentric, long winded lectures. But that isn't going to happen, is it? So don't be a bitch about it when you aren't taking an active role in securing a different, more personal form of communication that can get you to listen to these intellectuals trapped on an Anime webcommunity. Talk where you can to the people you can however you can. It is better than stagnating in your own opinion, not getting a fresh view on your problem.
Second thing, make sure the problem matters. Don't waste my time telling me about your dog dying and how sad you are about it. I can't do shit about your dog, I'm no Puppyjesus. I mean, I send my condolences but- how many opinions can you have on dying dogs? I can't really morally support you when I am apathetic about some person's attachment to a animal. lol. Maybe other people can- it's your call, but that seems insignificant next to the things I have helped people with over the past years online.
You know, like your best friend dies or you are having problems with a love or you are suicidal. Those sorts of things, where there can be many insights into it- that matters. You can gain alot from just hunkering down and listening to someone elses opinion. Gleen all you can from it, make the good points your own and disregard the bad points.
But yeah. Next point is, security. My view on life is that you get torn down alot. You exist to be in pain. Physical, mental. Your existence is going to be full of pain. You came into life causing physical pain to someone else. You are going to die and cause emotional pain to someone else. But what matters is that you focus on the things *aside from* that. You can't just hunker down and start moping around something you have no control over stopping. That would be very, very ignorant to do.
And, alot of people do that. They become too focused on the hardships they face- hey, that is coming no matter what. Eventually, you'll end up in some shitty situation. It always happens. Sometime, somewhere, something will trip up and you'll fall face first into the mud. Instead of blackness always, become neutral. Gray. Be a realist. Hard times will come, yes. But good times always will be coming too. It's a two sided coin- focusing on either side is a blatant lack of smarts.
So that's my view. Keep on truckin'. Don't fall into angsty pessimism, don't become an idealistic optimist. Just go with the flow with an easy going smile. Pessimism will only destroy you. Optimism is ignorance.
Ignorance is not bliss, as many would have you believe. It's opium for the masses. It's equal to religion in plague-like qualities- it spreads easily and efficiently through all ranks of social life. The tragedy with this is that people make judgements based on their ignorance- incomplete shots in the dark that do more harm than good.
Don't be ignorant. Understand things. You can still be happy with knowing the depths and breadths of darkness- you are the up and coming generation. You are going to be the bringers of change, in whatever forms you want it, before passing on into the cemeteries of the world. This is your 15 minutes of fame. While the present may be full of doom-filled messages of terrorism or hard-lined atheists doggedly arguing with equally insane and fanatical religious people, it's alright man.
You're inheriting the world. It's your call. You are the masters, the coming ones- the ones who will hold the reins to this planet. Anything now, any concerns now- anything black, anything white, ANYTHING- it's open to change as you arrive on the stage for your little piece of action. Your little stint on this planet. It's gonna be yours, man- if you want it to be. Just stand up, acknowledge your potential.You can learn-it's there. Waiting for you- history of social events, religious events, military events, human events, scientific events- all of it is just sitting around, begging people to read it. Millennias of it- knowledge, right there. Know what you're talking about.
Don't be part of the biomass- the ignorant little fuckheads who hear an opinion on one of their nationally televised cable TV shows and start waving it around like a flag. KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT- don't assume what you hear is objective in the least. It's biased- towards something, someway or another. It's not the full coin. Look at all of it. Try your best to, at least- I mean, if you are religious, don't you think that your God[s][esses][whatever] would want you to be a knowledgeable entity that validates your existence? I dunno. I do my best to be open to things, to learn as much as possible- to exist with as much validity to my opinions as possible.
Maybe that isn't important to you, I don't know. I just know that anyone reading this more likely than not is a friend of mine. If you are, then I think you have potential. I don't waste my breathe on people who are going to mull about in ignorance- you have the ability to think and form your own opinions. EVEN IF THEY DISAGREE WITH MINE- my point isn't that I'm RIGHT or you're RIGHT or someone else is 'right' or not- how can you KNOW if so and so is right if you don't take the time to enlighten yourself to the facts at hand?
Your call.
DCLXVI.
Yeah. It's your call. I expect you to use the freedom you were given to the uptmost of your ability at any and all times- that is also key to existing. You know what existing is right? In fluid motion, examine this moment.
*pause*
Right there. You existed. It was like water, huh? Just sitting there, staring at this lunatic lecture you on things. That was a good moment. Just chilling, existing. Feels good to just breathe in the air in that moment. Yeah. So, you know. Keep exist. Ignorance or not, you are free to do what you want to with the time that is given you. Hopefully, you'll make good on that in whatever ways you find to do so.
Enlightened or ignorant, black or white, on or off- it is all opinion. Mine is not right for all, yours is not right for all- but you need to make sure your opinions are good for YOU. You need to be a little selfish to even consider being self-sacrifice- you have to have SOMETHING to SACRIFICE.
Once again! Opinion.
Remember, I lecture alot- but the base thing I want you to remember is opinion. Not set in stone, etc.
Let's go in a few more circles in this discussion.
Noumenon.
Well. I guess that's it. Oh wait, I saw the movie "Clerks" finally. I love Kevin Smith's movies- I've seen Dogma, Jay and Silent Bob Strike back and Clerks now. I love all of them, even if critics don't really like two out of three of those movies. I recommend them heavily just because of how funny they are, heh. And for the Muse's strip scene in Dogma. :o
Ok, NOW I guess that's it. Stay cool, little cows.
Adios dudes, dudettes, heads of state and otherwise.
P.S. Chrono Cross rules.
P.P.S. The above rant was not aimed at any of you directly. If you think so, uh. Well. What can I do? lol.
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Amorphus.
I have this sneaking suspicion that lurks in the more gray recesses of my mind that somehow I must be the butt of a large practical joke or something. You know, like "Chapter XVI; Act III- 'The Mad Season'"- Starring Kenneth A. Howell, lead. No, the trip wasn't bad. It was just.. oddly eccentric, like most everything that occurs around me seems to be. It had it's quirks- weird little bumps in the road that gave it more life than it would have normally had. But yeah.
Maybe I like those bumps.
Learn to Fly.
All throughout the trip I was obviously assaulted with driving. The driving parts were pretty taxing. I did a lot of driving, focused mainly on the two days we were in Hot Springs herself. It's irritating- Most of the time I'm on the road I feel like I'm the only one going remotely near the speed limit- yet I know that in some Shakespearian act of comedy, if I sped myself I would prolly get intercepted by a police officer in a split second. And the close calls these people get- slicing between two cars like they were just sliding some ham between two pieces of bread. That's a one shot maneuver, dude- either you perfectly get within one foot of the car in front and behind you or you become road debris. What's up with that? Why take that chance? Chill, dude. If you go hurtling into my lane because you think you are a ninja behind the wheel, I am going to be mighty pissed since I wasn't doing jack SHIT whilst you pretended to be that dude in the Bourne Identity. I mean, jeez- just chill. Collateral damage is a term I do not want to become familiar with.
As you drive further and further east the southern accent starts lacing in every word the people are saying like tar. I suddenly had a realization that there IS a profound difference between a Texas accent and a Southern accent, as all the people in Arkansas must have been straight out of a badly made western comedy starring Jackie Chan. Well, they seemed like pretty smart people. A few of them were like your typical redneck- a guy that you just stare at. Like this "o.o;;;" or like this "o.O...", you know? But uh, yeah. Majority of people in Arkansas came off as being pretty educated.
.... Yeeee-ap...
That accent was pretty cute on the chickas though, *rubs chin*.
Heaven Beside You.
The accommodations my mom chose were mediocre. 1 La Quinta, 1 Best Western, 1 "Velda Rose Resort and Spa" hotel. The La Quinta and Best Western were both alright, too short in vertical height for my taste. I like a view of the sky, a view of the ground, a view; period- the eight floor room of the Velda Rose more than provided for that.
I sat out there, at around 1-6 AM at night, reading my books. Just sitting there, 8 floors up- it was such a great feeling for something so simple. No one around, obviously- nothing to disturb you. Just you, a view and your book. Yeah. Hotels to me need some heightage to make up for the fact you are staying in a bedroom with a bathroom the size of a small closet. Gotta trade me for that bull. The only problem with the Velda Rose is that one of it's elevators was M.I.A.- so the whole time this one, poor little elevator was moving it's little ass up and down as fast as it could. It was a solid effort, but not nearly enough [a few times, while waiting for it, I got pissed enough to just jog down the stairs. lol.]
Yeah. A hotel is a hotel, I suppose. Not too much more to say, unless you want an architectural background.
... *bites lip* *sigh*
So, the building was designed in...
Lukewarm Springs.
The cities I was blessed to spend the night in aside from H.S. were Greenville, Texas and Texarkana, Arkansas/Texas. I don't recommend either unless you A.) Have alot of Kerosene. B.) Have alot of patience. C.) Are willing to commit oriental ritualistically suicide to run from the pain. D.) Carry five books with you. I chose D, and the time passed quicker. Don't go there unless you absolutely have to. Not much to see/do- just a place some unfortunates are stuck in for awhile, lol. Hot Springs was a wee bit better. I wasn't too enthralled by it- the only buildings who I enjoyed aesthetically were the Bath Houses on bath house row and the Army-Medical Hospital, which was just cool in my book. Large, lumbering, cool looking- it had it all. Not too much else in the town was great.
Oh wait..
Spirit of the Wood.
The natural aspect was great, except for my mom. We went up on the Hot Springs mountain observation tower- my mom insisted on staying down stairs which is a bit unusual I must stay. She isn't usually the one to mill about, hmm. The tower had a majestic view. ALthough, I was assaulted by wasps as we arrived up there, but an army of wasps won't hurt Ken. :D
Turns out, as I learned much later, she has anxiety attacks. See, the trail around Hot Springs mountain is 1.7 miles long. I like a good hike, so I decided to go on it and She decided to follow me. I tried to explain this to her several times- it's a loop, it's pretty long, etc. Eventually she starts freaking out that we are "going in circles" [1.7 mile diameter loop= that's improbable at best]She started saying stuff about night falling soon and animals coming out to devour us or w/e. I explained that this should be a spiritual experience with her- in her opinion, her benevolent God had created all the life around us. I asked her to take it in instead of freaking out on me.
Didn't work, so...
I smacked some sense into her with my water bottle. Of course I was right, of course my navigation was correct and of course my legs were bloody well tired. Small price to pay to be one with nature. It was beautiful. I took two more hikes on different mountains thoughout the weekend and enjoyed it immensely [until come morning today, my legs were M.I.A.]. On one of them, the West Mountain, my mom had been talking about how I would make a good mountain man. I was good at negotiating terrain, good at getting over it quickly, good at foraging, etc. About this time a guy walks up wielding a cane and an old school bikers helmet on, with long graying hairs and a pretty eccentric look in his eyes.
"How's it going?" I asked.
"They won't shoot ya if you got red on, no sir. Won't shoot ya because of red."
I grinned and agreed, parting with him. A short distance away, mom said something about reiterating her point about me being an exceptional mountain man.
So.. I smacked her with her empty water bottle again.
The Phantom Tollbooth.
Amongst the other weird things that occurred, two to three stick out in my mind. On the last day at the Velda Rose, of all days, the Maintence elevator broke and the power was flickering on and off from a nearby thunderstorm. So *everyone*, even the employees, had ONE elevator to use. That thing was going about as fast as a 56k modem- slow, loud and leaving you with the impression it's getting there.
So, we were on the 8 floor as you will recall. And, you take baggage with you to hotels, as you probably know. Add it all up and you get to me being as tired as Moses after the 10 plagues. Man I was winded. But I did it! By some form of deity, I did it. SLow, laborious, always whistling- ya have to whistle while you work, 'cha know?
Other funny thing happened in Greenville, at the La Quinta. I was unpacking the SUV [we were on the bottom floor out of two] and I glance up to see this little girl standing in her room's doorframe, just kinda staring out into the sky behind me.
So I stuck my tongue out at her.
She glanced down and I quickly pretended like I had done nothing at all. She stuck her tongue back out at me, and thusly a funny-face war was born. I dunno who won, it lasted several hours [sporadic fighting, as each of us saw each other going about our business on the hotel compound] and was vicious, in your face [;)] fighting. I came out alive eventually and did a fighting retreat out of Greenville, in the direction of San Antonio.
So maybe the girl won. :P
I also got in a few car wrecks from the crazy people up there. *shakes fist* whipper snappers. Don't make me beat your ass in with my books.
Final weird thing was my choice of souvenirs. I'm kinda whacky, so I decided to get a novelty movie poster from the 1950's movie "Attack of the 50. Ft Woman". Why? Why not? ;D It's an amusing little thing- decorating the area to the left of my monitor. Woo.
She says hello.
Thomas.
Mmk. I'm passing out on my desk. Good night folks.
It's good to be back.
Reply to comments from Friday, October 15, 2004
Lady Lea- Trees. Mountains. Hicks. Smart hicks. Food. Buildings. In about that order, actually. ;)
DDG- Hot Springs is the boyhood home of Bill Clinton. *spurs on your journey into the void known as "facts you will never need to know"*
Shin- All Arkansasians [... something like that] seek to take the Clintonian Exodus, to leave their state for the grand, developed world beyond.
Rox- Welp. There were alot of plants. Mountains. Buildings. Roads. People. Black people. White people. Not too many mexicans ["OMFG I'M A MINORITY AGAIN" - Ken] Why the hell was I going there? My grandmom used to live there. She insisted I see it once before I depart to whatever path I take in life.
Karma- When they say Hot Springs, they mean it. o.o
Errr... that is to say...
... Nothing.
P.S. 3 Libras is overrated. Thomas, Sleeping Beauty, Magdelena all own that track into the fucking ceiling and back. I adore the song Thomas, with most of my being. Feel that music, yeah.
P.P.S. I was navigator on this trip. All hail the King of maps! Long live the King!
P.P.P.S. I need a vaction.......
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Friday, October 15, 2004
Yee haw.
I'm going to Arkansas for the weekend. It's going to be enlightening- a great expierence of epic proportions. I am sure to enjoy it highly.
As you can tell I am very very excited to be visiting the grand state of Arkansas in all it's splendor, glory and fame.
.... Yeee haw....
See you on Tuesday.
P.S. This is weekend is going to suck. XD
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Monday, October 11, 2004
Königstiger.
Superman's Dead.
That really sucks. I was hoping he might actually someday reach his goal of walking again, he was working so hard for it. He was a good guy. o.o
R.I.P.
I dunno if any of you have seen the Superman movies, but my parents sure as hell forced them on me ASAP, lol. I was always rootin' for him, especially so since that horrid accident took his mobility.
Ah well. The circle of life continues. I need some sleep [somehow it's near 8 AM again- where the hell does the night keep disappearing too?!?!]. Need to get some things out of my head, deliberate a few facts, wonder if a few people are worth caring for.
Etc.
Thought of the moment: I differentiate evil, good, chaos and order. I am an extreme advocate of chaos- most everyone else is out to establish order, I find that to be mundane. Chaos is a rush, a challenge, a thrill- it's exciting. Therefore chaos does not always = evil and evil does not always = chaos.
What am I implying? *looks at various systems of Government*
Absolutely nothing, since it's a matter of opinion. But that is how I see it anyway. The line is thin, but chaos is easily acheived without treading into evil.
Night. I have dreams to.. forget I had. lol.
Imagine- we haven't progressed in tank technology in 6 decades as was done in 2 and a half [First 'Panzers' were produced in 1917]. Some of the things Germany had on the drawing board tank wise in '44/'45 were on par with most anything available to us today. We were so in tune with the idea of Mutual Assured Destruction that, as our partner in the "mutual" part disintegrated, we were left with thousands of nuclear arms that the world will probably never condone us using.
Hopefully, that will change ASAP.
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Saturday, October 9, 2004
Jesus Built My Hotrod.
Uh oh. *skitters off before he gets owned*
Quiz Day
Which Presidential Candidate Are You?
Rung from Rum and Monkey's very own liberty bell.
You are a Radical. Right on!
You are "Excited" |
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What the FUCK? *stabs that smiley with a stick*
You have been smited. o.o I'm taking that one more time. --;
You Are "Dizzy and Giddy" |
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Wankers.
| My Videogame Fortune Teller |  Ho there, young one. Come and sit by the fire while I determine what lays ahead for you. |  Ken, you are a very charismatic character who gets through situations with your charm. |  You must search out and combat your enemies who doubt you. |  You must use your mightiest weapon - your brain - to pass through the puzzles and challenges ahead. |  Your greatest challenge is yourself. You must resolve long standing issues that you have felt it was easier to just ignore. | | Get your fortune told at The Atomic Den |
*hunts down the bad grammar ninjas*
what flavor pocky are you?
[c] sugardew
Andrew
What name fits you?
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... Really, now.
You're black, you sexy creature! Seen as a
sophisticated and mature person, you are liked
by many an adult. But otherwise, you're a
rebellious and controversial person. On the
other hand, you're also very conservative and
and frugle. Is it possible that you enjoy
reading a heavy book? But seen as mysterious
and hidden, it may be hard to find someone to
talk to. You're not a particularly outgoing
person, but you do enjoy a good, long talk with
a person. Debating is one of your favorite
forms of communication. You just enjoy
stirring strong emotions inside people, and
watching the reaction. But as you watch, are
you sipping straight (unsweetened) coffee?
What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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*sips black coffe*
o.o
You are Aura. You are calm, passive, intelligent,
and TO DAMN SKINNY! EAT SOMETHING! you are the
person to quietly ponder in the background
while everyone else is fighting for their
lives. You do not like to utilize your powers
often, making you the weakest and most
vulnerable one out of the group. However, you
are extremely compassionate, and kind, so you
eventually gain friendships of those who the
world has left rejected...You have control over
the wind, and you can teleport and douse with a
pendant
If you had a personality disorder, it would be
Avoidance, and Anorexia Nervousa (EAT
SOMETHING!) Overall, you are a very caring
person, don't ever change
Which character from our story are you? (Kinda resembes a personality tester as well)
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*sipppppp*
You came from the sky. Your a daydreamer and prefer
to have a good look on situations.
Where did you come from?
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Woo.
You're unsure whether you really want to smile or
not.You just curl your lips up at the corners a
bit and let that get you through your day.You
don't have all the answers,and you certainly
don't feel like going out to look for them.Stop
being so indecisive.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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Lesser woo. =/
Oh well. Time to sleep [it's 8 am].
Sayonara dudes, dudettes, heads of state or otherwise.
P.S. ^(*^o^*)>
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004
Oneiromancy.
Vice presidential debate was tonight. It was actually alot better than the first presidential debate, heh. Overall I don't fully agree with either men, but they composed themselves well. The only advantages I could see was Cheney having much more experience than Edwards- that's an unfortunate thing, since Edwards look poised to become a very great politician.
So far, I think that either party will perform some major screw ups. Neither is better than the other, on the whole- but, as the major factor seems to be Iraq and the Economy we have to give Kerry/Edwards some lovin' since Bush has pissed on the economy for the last couple of years.
Who are you/Who would you vote for, after seeing/hearing about these two debates thusfar?
I would probably, if I had to choose between the two "major" parties, vote Democrat based on his viewpoint on stem cell research, gay marriage and the fact that the economy on the Bush administration has "tanked".
But, you know. That's me.
*cough*crazyconservatives*cough*
Now it's time for something completely different.
Cruising Albino Blacksheep, burning off some braincells on the infantile flash movies, I stumbled across a striking, resilient beacon of intelligence hidden deep inside the heart of the site. Needless to say, I was taken aback.
I want you to watch it. It does has it's amusing parts, but it has meaning- it has a message, something you could learn from. I know you don't like to learn, I know- but just give it a try, huh? >:P
S-11 Redux: Channel Surfing the Apocalypse is the film. It's large, it's 10 minutes long, it has satire, it has things to think about. It has Bush with background banjo music.
What more could you ask for?
Cloudy Days
It's time for me to grab some Z's.
I'll catch you all later.
Sayonara dudes, dudettes, heads of state and otherwise.
P.S.Urban Legends rock.
P.P.S. "Our beliefs are the very opposite of the fanatics beliefs.." winkwinknudge.
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Tuesday, October 5, 2004
Music's got me feelin' so free, we're gonna celebrate. Celebrate and dance with me, one more time.
What? Daft Punk beats your little pop-rock and angst bands into the fucking floor, 20 feet into it.
With a metal bat, no less.
And it's a spiked bat, gringos y gringas!
.. Yeah. Techno > emo/pop-rock [the candy too]/nu-metal/angsty stuff/most of the stuff teenagers listen to/the presidential elections/Germany [except for the second reich, nothing can defeat the second reich]/Mario/Nintendo in general [Except for Kirby]/Jacques Chirac/James [Donnie Darko rocks btw]/Orangutans/This cup of tea I'm drinking/Wolf Blitzer/That "Badger Mushroom Snake" flash movie/...long, stupid lists of things that are pretty irrelevant\pointless when put in context.
... Wait..
Bittersweet Symphony..
I'm feeling pretty spiffy/crazy/amused/whatever [let's not turn this into another list]. Finally got around to downloading some music from ages long past [The year 1999, we barely knew ye..]. Daft Punk, The Verve and Fatboy Slim. Daft Punk is like one of my favorite groups ever- you just have to love their songs. It's IMPOSSIBLE that no one doesn't like at least ONE Daft Punk song. From Aerodynamic to One More Time to Around the World, there has to be a Daft Punk song you love. If not, then I guess that makes the prior sentences pretty worthless. Thanks alot --. But yeah. The songs listed above are USER FRIENDLY. They will not decimate your ears [I think]. Downloading them is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. More announcements in ALL CAPS as NEWS ARRIVES.
You've Come a Long Way, Baby.
Three years ago on this date, I joined OtakuBoards. Yeah, that's pretty special ain't it? Little DeathKnight, still sucking on my momma's teet. Had much to learn about existing on a message board ["What is this punctuation you speak of?"] full of [other] freaks. It's been a fun three years, met alot of nice folks who don't really need mentioning [and because I know so many of you guys it would be very, very long- suffice to say I enjoy all of you guy's company. =)] Hope you all enjoyed my, uh... unique... personality.. Yeah.I wonder if there will be a fourth, heh. One more year of Ken. Maybe! Everyone needs some Ken in their life. Even you. Mmm. Fun. Nostalgia. The days of the reign of Ken amongst the terrified populace of the PC kingdom. Muhaha. ^_-
Yeah.. those were the days. Yet, the days to come are the ones filled with the most intrigue and adventure. Much to look foreword to, even if it is clothed in a veil of darkness at times.
Yeap.
Vail
Welp, that's it for this post. Sorry, but I don't really have much more to talk about. Boring days, school, games, etc.
Heh. Don't be stranger, kiddos. I don't bite [often]. *prods you to comment area* >:P
Sayonara dudes, dudettes, heads of state and otherwise.
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Friday, October 1, 2004
Alone.
I've been playing alot of Breath of Fire 2 lately on the GBA. Now, only reason I'm telling you this [I usually don't endorse "I LIK THIS GAME SO PLZ GO PURCAHSE IT SO YOU KAN LIK IT 2 & WE KAN TALK ABOOT IT" posts] is because you can get it for free. Want to know how?
No. No it does *not* involve sacrificing your soul to Satan or any other dark beings of evil, although you can donate as much as your soul as you want to to K.R.A.P.E. [Ken's Rampaging Association of Pure Evil] by contacting me at <3evil<3@muchoevilplease.com.
ChinaGBA. First thing you'll notice is that it takes a fucking long time to load. Second thing you'll notice is that it is in Chinese. Worry not. I don't know Chinese, but I know how to click things until something works. Top left thing is obviously a search box. You'll want to click the first box underneath where you type your search before you seek your uh. Well, this is definitely *not* a [fake shudder]ROM site[/fake shudder] or anything.
*halo*
Anywho. There it is. The evilness is yours, I suppose. If you don't like ROMs, that's cool- don't get all preachy on me though. I do what I want to, as I want to, when I want to- I give the same right to you. But the point of this post is, in whatever form you get it [legal or not] Breath of Fire 2 [it's on the SNES too!] is a very good, classic RPG that all would enjoy. Especially you- *points at you* that's right, you.
Heh. If you need an emulator, contact me [via AIM/PM me]. It shouldn't be too hard to find one, though. [Try searching for "Visual Boy Advance".]
There are no flowers on your grave;
I watched the Presidential Debate last night and was thoroughly unimpressed by both candidates, lol. Most people are declaring it either a tie or as Kerry winning [the Kerry winning viewpoint is very prevalent in foreign media/populaces]. I'm like "Dude, both of them fucking sucked. I guess that makes it a very shitty tie."
Only person who 'lost' here was the American voter.
Kerry said several things that spun him like he was pretty pro-war - Pacifists are definitely getting screwed this election. Amongst the red flags were his comments on the preemptive strike possibility on NK/Iran, which might be inevitable but it was still surprising that he alluded to that so blatantly when wars seem to be increasingly viewed as a "last step" instead of a "good step".
All and all, Kerry seemed to be more composed and in control of the situation. Bush, after being described as a debate veteran, seemed to be more of a broken record than an intelligent being. He reiterated points way too much [Kerry lapsed into this later on as well] and was not able to grasp the entirety of several topics/discussions.
Also, Kerry smiled too much.
... Yeah.
Oh well. Maybe the next few debates [Vice Presidential/next Presidential ones] will be less shitty.
One can dream, can't they?
Vote No-One, '04.
there are no chains.
You know, I leech alot of stuff. Music and games, mainly. Some people might think it wrong of me to do that, but I can honestly say that I do it mainly to test things out. I've bought many a CD on the fly and gotten screwed over because of how crappy it was. I get to taste out new bands and sounds without wasting 20 dollars [which is ridiculous in itself] for a CD I wasn't sure I wanted. I eventually buy the CD if I like a few songs from it [as my dozens of CDs allude to].
Games are pretty much the same. I plan to buy a DS when it arrives since it will have a slot for GBA games [waiting for backwards compatible systems=hella fun. where are you, Xbox2?]. I'll buy BoF2 and anything else that I need, obviously. Sometimes you have to use ROMs to get old games that are out of circulation.
Anyway, I find it amusing that I [at least I think I can] am breaking the law doing something that seems logical in my mind. I know alot of people rape the system, but that is going to happen with ANYTHING you do- just because of the fact you are dealing with humans, dynamic, independent creatures.
If you know DND I'd prolly be a Chaotic Nuetral character. Haha. Look that up, if you don't know of DND.
;P
There I keep chanting...
Heh. I think that is about it, unless you want to know what's going down in the personal life of Ken.
I'll catch you all later.
Sayonara dudes, dudettes, heads of state and otherwise.
P.S. Almost my three year anniversary at OB.
P.P.S. Go to Kei's MyOtaku and see the glory that is PLUSHIES! [Where's the mini-Ken love?! The dude that started it all?! Sadness. >:P]
P.P.P.S. Der Gedanke an den Selbstmord ist ein starkes Trostmittel: mit ihm kommt man gut über manche böse Nacht hinweg.
P.P.P.P.S. ... for the forgotten day.
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Wir machen es auch im Wachen wie im Traume: wir erfinden und erdichten erst den Menschen, mit dem wir verkehren - und vergessen es sofort.
Hm.
Opinions?
-Ken.
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Saturday, September 25, 2004
And I said.
Current Music: "Soon" - My Bloody Valentine
Kenneth vs. An extraordinarily large majority of OBers [and their lawyers/fists].
[inspired by Shin.]
Ugh.
I read that topic and was flabbergasted. I don't know if any of the people that post there will read this, this will be pretty long so.. If you don't take interest in satire/don't want to hear my opinion, that's cool. I respect that. Heh. I don't mean to offend any of you guys, you know how blunt I am. No hard feelings, cause you know- I wuffles you guys! <3<3<3<3<3
Ahem. Moving right along..
I guess I should start from the beginning of the thread, hm?
First, the quote in the first post from an "anonymous" PM.
"Originally Posted by let that be anonymous
i like black metal and don't believe in religion...."
[/shock]
"if you are a true goth you will not believe and god and jesus and worship satan and the anti-christ...."
Hmm. Satan AND the anti-Christ?
"well tell me what bands you like a word of advice images are deceiving hahahahaha"
Note: tons of annoying evil smilies omitted for consumer safety. EMOTICONS KILL- DON'T LET IT HAPPEN TO YOU!
All of that is well and good but, as the flood of "OMG I AM A PHILOSOPHER =D" people said, that's pretty stupid. I don't need to reiterate what the aforementioned population of 12-18 year old philosophers deduced, so. Let's carry on with "Oceanborn's" first post, shall we?
"What do you consider as gothic music?"
Good Charlotte is pretty goth.
"A true goth neglects everything you would mean as happines or fun."
=/ I guess that means no poker. *puts cards up*
"His soul may be filled with sorrow, pain, sadness; although, ideally, one doesn't care abot feelings for feelings are nothing to care for."
Heh. Cycles of destruction are easy to breed. All you need is a spark.
"A true goth, in fact, doesn't care about this world at all. The world is nothing to care about for a goth for a goth is not someone to be cared of by this world."
Doesn't really make them unique. Walking through life, the scenes you pass through- most of the time you feel like you are the only actor on a stage you wish you could escape/couldn't care less for.
"A true goth loves Darkness. A satanist loves Evil. While that is, in fact, _the_ difference between the two, some may succesfully combine these dogmas. This doesn't make them being true goths. They still stay satanists."
Evil is relative to your viewpoint. Id est, some men have no qualms with slaughtering innocent civilians to meet their goals. 9/11, Breslan, etc. They aren't evil to them, are they?
So really, the difference between a Goth and something "evil" might not be as black and white to some.
After reading this, I was feeling pretty good about this topic. Maybe it could go somewhere. So, I came to "demonchild781"'s post. "demonchild781", I thought- "why would someone named demonchild781 be posting in a topic about goths?"
"I thought I would inform you on a little bit of information. Goth is an extreme form of christianity."
You don't say.
" The reason they dress in black is to purge themselves of all worldly desires including color."
... color is a worldly desire?
"If you think I'm making this up to be a *****, you're wrong."
The thought never crossed my mind.
"I've had friends that are goth or were practicing for a while. I've also done research on this topic to better understand my friends and their beliefs."
Thusly, we have our first scholar of the topic. Unfortunately it would not be the last pseudo-scholar/philosopher to appear.
"So, don't make goths sound so bad please."
But they like darkness. Haven't you ever seen Pitch Black?
So, with this post we get some stunning information. Goths are extremist Christians who were black to purge themselves of worldly desires [especially the evil desire of color].
.. Hookay.
QA posted next.
"I'm sure that nothing that Oceanborn says about goths will make them sound so bad as what the kids of society today try to portray as Goth."
Well, at least no one has mentioned how evil Hot Topic is.
"They think that shopping at Hot Topic and wearing all their trendy red and black clothing while listening to heavy metal is the cool thing to do to be "different" and to be "goth.""
Err. Spoke too soon.
Heh. I think you mean nu-metal. True metal is not popular. Not in the least. I only know one person IRL out of myriads of friends who is into the 'good' kind of metal.
We skip down a few posts to see DeathBug try to clear everything up with a well placed definition of the word "Goth".
Durrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. *drool drips off chin*
Alan's post is, somehow, entirely intelligent. No criticism there.
Solo's post is also admirable, albeit idealistic. He doesn't say anything foolish though, so he gets a gold star. *pins it on Solo's shirt* =)
Then, we hit Juu's post. Ah, my old unwise adversary. Mayhap she has wizened a bit in her days of wandering in Cali?
"Hot Topic deserves to die. -____-"
Ouch, a rocky start.
"So many people at school shop there, claiming to be 'different' but it's not really 'different' when 1/3 of the school owns the very same shirt that says 'I'm weird'."
Sigh. They want to be different, it isn't there fault. Conformity isn't comfortable, it never is. They want to fool themselves, they want to feel special. Billions of people on Earth, they want to be them.
The resources they have access to, the only things that they can mix and match to help them feel "special". Music. The way they dress. How they act.
Not just goths do it. All of you do it. You want to be more than transcended dust, you want to be the shining star in the sky.
Instead you are cluttered with millions of other stars, suffocated in a ocean of people trying to be independent, seeking your same goals.
*shakes his head* You, none of you, have any right to criticize.
" Not to mention, they talk about how much they love heavy metal when they haven't even heard a single song from the band on their T-shirt."
Actually, this is pretty true if you encounter a poser who thinks he is, you know, THE metalhead.
The people you should be scared of are the guys that say, walk up in an orange shirt and go.. "hey.. you look like you need some metal."
;)
"Also, they keep bashing 'preps' when honestly, I don't see anyone who would admit to liking Britney Spears anymore, because it seems almost as if 'punk'/'goth' is the new 'pop'."
They are angry. Seeing people happy when it seems beyond your reach enrages you. They need to categorize these happy people as something, and they are categorized as preps.
They envy it. It is something they either fool themselves into thinking they will never taste or they genuinely feel they will never taste. Either way, if it is a mask or not, that is why.
That's how I see it. It's part o the act.
If it isn't part of the act, you should try taking the cross on their shoulder off for them.
"SososoSO annoying, though. "Like, dude, I slit my wrist 92313098 times today. My life sucks.""
Heh. I have no comment on that.
I feel it below me to comment on the fools who pretend that slitting their wrist is cool. That goes over the line.
It isn't cool. It is an experience that is not.. right.
The step beyond just wanting to die, when you are dying. It is a feeling that I cannot describe.
It is almost like a sense of relief, maybe.
Heh. Never get to that point.
especially if there is a chance, after feeling that relief, that you will be drug back into the normalcy of life.
"Being yourself is about being comfortable with who you are, not relying on clothes or a certain genre of music to reflect your personality"
At your age, Juu, how else are they going to be who they are, hm?
What other resources to they have? What great thing are they supposed to tap into to express themselves?
You clearly know something I don't.
MangaFreak's post is noticeable for one reason.
"actually 200 years ago it was a barbarian tribe that liked to attack the roman empire and hold it for ransom"
Now, you know I like history. I like it alot. I'm very zealous about it.
So..
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
We skip down a bit and see Juu discussing the horrid, heathen empire known as Hot Topic.
"People TRY to be what they think is 'goth' by wearing all black/shopping around at Hot Topic
You wanna know something kinda funny?
All the posts bashing Hot Topic are multiples of 3.
The first one was post number 3, by QA. Then the 12th post by Juu. Now this is the 21st post, also by Juu.
Funky.
So, we find Kami Kali's post! Hey, it's another person with intellect. Cool. =) Good post, bit dramatic. No biggy.
BUT SUDDENLY- Juu counters the well thought out post with something that is NEVER brought up in a debate/discussion!
The posters age!
"...And you're twelve years old?"
OMG THEY ARE TWELVE. EVERYTHING THEY JUST SAID LOST ALL CREDIBILITY/WEIGHT TO IT.
Oh, WOE IS ME who thought that THOU was 13+!!!
Silly kid! Everything for kids is roses. You have to be happy!
*shakes head* Silly children. Angst is for teenagers.
"... bad things happen and we can't do anything about it besides learn from our mistakes and be stronger as a person."
Wise words, wise words.
Very black and white, but still they retain wisdom.
"But I don't get how being depressed gets you to drag yourself to the nearest mall to buy black clothes and sit in front of the mirror applying eyeliner whilst bashing preps and such."
Folks, if she had mentioned Hot Topic this would also have been a post whose number was a multiple of three- 24!
Funky.
"*shuts up* Excuse me. ~_~;"
You're excused.
This biased post is followed by a very objective approach to the goth subject by Inari. I found it to be very well written and the website he links to I often visit to read up on various religions.
Skipping CHW's [skip it very fast, even a little bit of exposure to her posts can cause Horsewoman Cancer, the most deadly form of OB disease] post we find anatema giving us another intellectual post.
So that's like.. 4-5 intellectual posts out of 28 so far.
.. Ouch.
From there we slam into another one of Juu's posts.
Who didn't see me criticizing her coming? Hah.
"What I don't get is, if these people 'hate the light', how do they manage to walk into a shopping centre and walk past all the pastel-coloured clothes to get OVER to Hot Topic? That just confuzzles me. Not to mention, you look at bright light from going online. Just on OB there's white as the background, so how come nobody's going 'OMFGZ!11MYEYES'?"
Ouch, your lack of wit is painful. *holds forehead* Ugh, I think I'll be ok.
Alright.. the pain is gone. Phew. Be careful, jeez. o.o
"And people walking around saying 'oOo look at mee, I'm a demon' makes just as much sense to me as someone walking around going 'oOo look at mee, I'm Pikachu'."
*pain*
*agony*
"Only, people who go around saying they're a pokemon don't complain about light, 'preps', or 'human beings'."
Prior to this, the erosion of the topic's intellect wasn't going too fast.
Well, we just took a leap. A leap off a cliff.
A leap off into a bottomless-cliff, deep into the abyss of "duhhhh".
"... parents can actually afford to buy them clothes from Hot Topic (what- $22 being the cheapest shirts and having little pins that say 'I'm Weird' for $5?)."
Evil rears it's ugly head once more in the form of....
...Hot topic...
Heh. I dunno what the point of this is. Reading this, it brought up things of my past I have to get off my chest.
About this kid I knew, yeah. I knew him for awhile- all of my life, really.
Hated life. Played the goth, not in body but in soul. Made fun of alot, woulda been no big deal if it had been an isolated problem. That + something else + something else= messed up kid. He didn't realize his shields were gone, hull exposed- it was too late to do anything about it, anyway.
Slit his wrist and died, yeah. Died a agonizing death. He didn't die- "he" died. His emotions, the experience altered his viewpoint on life drastically. He was yanked from the blissful relief of death to play the role of the Phoenix, emerging from his death into a bright, vigorous display of wonder.
Yeah. I've been there. I've been that little angst case who is listening to metal, trying to understand things he can't understand. Trying to coexist with pig-headed fucktards who can't comprehend the amounts of bloody hatred you hold for their weak, fleshy body. You could kill them so easily.
Wanna know how school shootings are bred?
Doesn't matter. Trial by fire. You go out, you get yourself fucked up, you learn from it. ER's, mental institutions, forced drugs- I don't recommend that path to being a phoenix, no.
All I know is that I was surrounded by alot of people like YOU, I suppose. Coulda used some help or something, some basic things. Didn't, yeah. Here I am, some sort of fake sage running towards a goal booby-trapped to kill or maim.
"What about the posers, Ken?"
Try being a guiding light instead of an automatic flamethrower and you might find more of them to be pleasant around you. No, not with everyone of course. Just, see if you can find a way to enlighten them instead of shredding them apart.
I'm done with this. I've said what I wanted to. Fire back if you want. Comment, don't. Doesn't matter. I'm sure some of you have something to say.
Open fire.
Sayonara dudes, dudettes, heads of state and otherwise.
P.S. Statistics and Stuff. Word Count: Hot Topic; 8 times. "true goth", 13 times. Words beginning with "Satan", 20. Only one person listed what they were saying as an "opinion" subject to change. Only 2 posts were objective [out of 44]. Over 31 percent of the 44 posts in that thread were 70 percent or more colored with a stereotypical light color, id est purple, pink, etc. [including quotes]. There were 5 separate persons who had 70 percent or more of a stereotypical "light" color in their post [not including quotes]. 4 of them fit the "stereotype" of a hyper, crazy, teenaged/young woman- CHW, QA, Juu and InuyahsaLvr. That is 80 percent, by the way. Three of them engaged in speaking about stereotypes and some talked about "being an individual". These four members together posted 27 percent [as of 7:08 AM CST on September 25th] of all posts in that thread.
P.P.S. Man I'm tired. Sweet dreams, folks.
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