Thursday, April 28, 2005

   *Smiles of the first time this week*
Yeah so today was an ok day.. like you guys said everythings getting better... deffinatly not what it used to be but you know as the time changes people eventually change to even if they dont want to... oh well... i kinda feel like a burrded has been lifted off me.. me and my best friend are no longer friends im like kinda glad all the friendship was was trouble and stuff so im like..one less thing to worry about!...

yeah the school trip is like 1 week from today! we get to go to gettysburg PA yeah im looking foward to it!... but i might not go if im stuck with this one girl from my grae yeah gah! i'd rather sleep in a trash can! lol

well then i have like nothing more to say ceop thank you all for the support and how was you guyses day??

oh yeah heres a quiz i took...(i was bored lol)

You're like me ^.^ You feel alone sometimes, but
you will survive. Just remember that you got
alot of friends that will help you get trough
when you got problems.Think more positive ^_~
If you don't have friends, you have to be
carefull, depression isn't far away... Plzz
rate...


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peace out!
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

   Under the same sky.
yeah...we might be moving yet again! i just moved here like a month ago! gah!...but it's not far it's down the street a little ways...yeah but still im sick of moving... i never know where my home is... oh well

today was an OK day of school very long and drawn out i wanted to go home and just forget... doesn't work to well... but im home now mother wants me to go down town and get somthing from the store... im so lathargic i dont want to... but i have to so the sooner i leave the happier i'll be that i wont be in the house... yeah well then....*sighs*
Zach pissed me off so bad today but oh well everyone is now... im just sick of it all i can't wait for summer i never really see anyone during the summer...good times. heh. god, well ima go peace out

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

   Heh..well another day...I'm still alive...
Okay...so theres not much to talk about right now... everythings still going down hill...but thank you guys for commenting you really do help even if you dont think you do. heh yeah... well sice i have nothing more to say i guess i'll leave you with an awesome song that is actually really true and accurate i guess you could say!


"Blurry"

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up

Preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumbled and I crawled

And you could be someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene

I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your ending
And let me know just how you feel

'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean

I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face
This pain you gave to me

Oh, nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face
This pain you gave to me

No
This pain you give to me
This pain you give to me

Can you take it all
Can you take it all away
The pain you give to me
This pain you give to me
This pain you give to me
Take it all away
This pain you give to me
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Monday, April 25, 2005

   Yet another day passes...
hey...*sighs* yet another day goes by and still losing my frineds...i guess i oficially lost Jenny...yeah w.e i dont care anymore... and very few care about me....so fuck it....why try anymore?....I just want to let go of everything... and leave everything behind... and start new... i was talking to father a while ago and he said i can always go down and live with him...I donno...i hate it down there and my step mom hates me... but i would be long gone from here and the people who care wouldnt mind cause i never see them i talk to them over AIM...and the others will forget about me soon enough... well im going to go...


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Saturday, April 23, 2005

   WHY DO FRIENS HURT SO?
Okay well today was HORRIBLE! peple suck!...i lost yet another friend today...fisrt Jenny ...my best friend in the whole world...then Eric...he found out about Gavin and was all...why were you cheating on him when we went to the banquet? i was like i didnt even know him then!!!! he didn't listen to me...he was like I don't think we should be friedn anymore then was like...ok have you ever watched a fly closly? i was like ..no why? he said it will either live out the day and make wonderfull memories then die or he get killed and has no memories...i think we should kill the fly AKA our friendship....i felt like crying SoOo bad...and Zachs slipping aswell...everythings falling apart... they want me to make a decision and i dont know what to do it's either my "friends" or my BF....i hate it .... i just want to fall asleep and never wake up...

other than that...my cold went away pritty quick...i mean i think it was just a 24hour thing i donno....

oh well i guess people come and go...but why sp fast? i donnohow to handle it you know?... *sighz* yeah



thats my life...a freaking dread rose...

peace out.
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Friday, April 22, 2005

*Sighs* well i got the report done...and still thought of faking being sick today for the sheer fact I HATE SCHOOL! But, looks like i didn't have to fake I jingsed myself and woke up last night and threw up like 3 times...i hated it...of course it give you that awesome dizzy feeling but other than that i dont like the throbbing head feeling lol and hovering over the toilet isn't to glamorous either...ok for those of you w/a week stomach...i'll stop there..

sooo today was boreing as ever i hated it and my stomach still feels weird. yuk! oh wellz...my mom called the school so it hink zach might be over wit HW ... the baror of bad news..."Here you go Lauren here's ALL your HW!" me:*evil stare* How dare you! grrr lol....well then...

hmmm...lets see...i was talking to cory last night and was talking about boyz...he was like Lauren you're not supposed to do what I do you're supossed to learn from what I do...it was really funni...
i guess im pritty good at juggling lol...ahhhh wow.*coughs* yeah...

im soo tired ....how is y'alls day so far?

You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.


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perace out
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

Procrastenation's not the best.....GRR
*sighz* i have a 5 page report in history die tomorrow and want to know what i've done so far?? NOTHING! it will take my only like a couple hours but still...gah it wount be as good as it could be or as neat..i wanted to do a good job...really i did...but now its to late!..I HATE IT! and the worst thing is is all my fault! gah...

well i got to go soo...peace out
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

   Long dayz of school
Hey everyone..sorry i havent been on here in a few dayz..it's been a busy week...we had SAT's ALL week the only day we don't have them is friday and on friday i have to preseant my history project ...*coughs* that i haven't started! gah! so i have to do that tonight and tomorrow...school... cont wait til it's over! man oh man...

well today was an ok day... we have spirit week this week and yes it IS as stupid as it sounds... i hate it.. but then again i dont have school spirit.. and i hate the school LOL...today was blast fromt eh past day..everyone came in hippie clothes or something like that.. i came dressed down i just toook advantage lol..ahhh *sighs*

i was sitracked today alot..the only thing i could really think about was the SAT,sleep,or tomorrow lol the SAT cause that's obviously what i was doning at the time...sleep cause i got like NONE last night and im SoOo tired i almost fell asleep taking the damn SAT lol....and tomorrow cause it's thursady finally and gavins coming to send the day wit me at my school lol...well then

ima go walk down to the store wit my brother I'll bbl! OoOo how was your day today y'all? lol

peace out
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Sunday, April 17, 2005

   YAY FOR ME!

Hey hey hey i think today will be a good day...it is so far. haha! me is taklin to gavin waiting Jenny to get outta church....then i will walk over to her house and see her new puppy OoOoo kool kool! then im goin to a bonfire wit friends til like 10 p.m lol then home again school monday *sighsz* i wrote done the wrong math HW grr oh wellz...nehow how is y'all's day so far?

peace out!
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

   *Laughs so hard she falls outta her chair*

Paranoid. Attention is good but don't let it become
fear, okay?


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HaHa! that's probably me in a nut shell! WHOA! that was SoOo funni though...I was just thinkin of a regret i had about going to my BF's track meet...lol well let just say something didn't happen cause i was afraid that someone was there that knew my mom lol...then the quiz poped up and was like PARINOID! lol...Ahhh... well you may not see the humor in this but I sure do...lol well then since the day hasn't even started i don't have that much to talk about....so i might post again later tonight but i don't know....
peace out!
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