Saturday, April 2, 2005

   *looks around* YEAH!
GOOD MORNING ALL!...so far today is good!...raining out but none the less good!...*streches* sorry about yesterday i was sooo pissed i shouldnt has posted that you guys dont need my problems as wells as dealin with w/e you have goin on...well then how are you guys doin?....peace out
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Friday, April 1, 2005

   WTF!!!
Ok im about to give up in the whole gavin thing....OMFG! charity(cuzin) called my brother and told him that gavins a bad guy im like wtf now your tryin to start shit between me and my brother!?!?!?im pissed off now after haveing a good day at school.I wish she would just crawl under her pathetic rock of a life and fucking die! noone would miss her the world would be so much better without her! worlds cant even express how pissed i am at her...she better not come near mme for a very long time or someones bloods gonna beon the floor and it sure as hell wont be mine!...just....gah...fuck it....is it even worth all this trouble?...AHHHH i want to smash somethine kill someone!!!!!! i have to go get a breath for air and com down cause if i dont somethins gonna happen...peace
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

   I KNOW THIS SEEMS LONG BUT IF YOU READ AND COMMENT WITH ADVICE IT WILL ME SO MUCH TO ME...
hey everyone....i had a HORRIBLE day at school...like anyone cares but if you want to read this and comment it might help....

Zach is one of my very very good friends i love him dearly like a brother i suppose...and he told me a few weeks ago that he really liked me like bf gf kinda like you know?...stunned i went home and thought about that and was like WHOA! that's so weird...im still his friend and said that it didn't bother me..we are still as close as b4...then i went to my cuzes b-day party and met this boy gavin..he's really awsome i've been talking to him like everynight and we hang out sometimes to...things are going really well wit me and him ifn you know what i mean...nehow i really really like him and he really really likes me in a bf gf way...i wanted to have my 2 very bestest friends meet him and give me the OK he seem ok typea thing you know?...cause if they didnt like him it would be hard to do things wit him like ahng out in a group or w/e....Jen aight to fond of him i dont think but at least shes not like EWW get away you freak how could you like him and she aint mean to him either.i guess she kinda supports me...i think am i right Jen?ifn you read this....
Zach on the other hand is like...i like you lauren and you go and find someone else and it besides that he came to the bus stop to walk you home right infront of me..i wne home and felt so sick you acted stupid!...my response was...first i love you zach but not like that your my best friend but id like never go out with you..and as for him picking me up im not gonna tell him to stop or w/e i mean i think its sweet and i gave him a hug so what thats not acting stupid!...i felt soo bad today....i love my friends and i dont want zach to be hurt but i dont want to give up gavin ...is that selfish?? he told me at the end of the day AFTER telling like all the 9th grade girls about it!! im pissed about that!.GOD!...but he was like i dont care if you go out wit gavin i mean...i do but i cant stop you and you being happy is more important than me goin out with you...i was i bit happier then he was like....just never let me see you guys together!...i am always around zach! hes always there! how can i not see gavin and have zach not there...and he like dont ask him to the banquet either i want you to go wit tme...i would have never went with him in the frienst place but telling everyine that i asked way to early and that it was stupid make me feel like shit!...but i dont know what to do....basicly zach wants me to coose him or gavon and i dont want to...i like/love gavin and zach is my best friend...i mean how is this fair?...noone said it was suppoed to be fair im sure its hard for him to but you know?? its just im so confussed right now..i dont want to give either of them up...

well if you actuallly read all of that then THANK YOU SO MUCH! that means alot to me!...and if you commented and gave advice your my hero!...well i got to go thank you all peace out..
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

   huh
hey hey hey im SoOo bored and in school its 4th block...oh man! i cant wait till school ends!..oh btw only 2month and 4 days til summer vacation for us!
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Monday, March 28, 2005

   Don't wanna miss a thing!
Hey everyone it's really early in the morning...like 1 a.m or so...i dont have much to say SoOo how were you guyses easter??..mine was kool!i spent the day wit Jen lol and went all around town..we might do that today...go to the park and stuff only ima come wit gilpy! yay!..well thats all i really gotta say cept thanx to you ppl that have came sighned my GB and actually comment on my site! my site has definately picked up sence ive been here! and i owe it to y'all so thanx!!OOooOO herea a really awesome song ...do you guys know it?

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

awesome song i love it..remends me of a person lol...
well g'night...g'morning...w/e ima go to bed! peace out!
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Sunday, March 27, 2005

   heh heh
oHhHh this weekend was SoOoOo fun! i was busy but it was a good kinda busy! like i wne to rohester wit jen and we went to the mall and other places! i got 2 manga...Culdcept and chrono crusade 4!! yay! they are both really good i think! and them on saterday we had a movie night at my house wit me jen zach and gilpy...it was really fun! i have no clue what the movies were about but i wrestled wit jen and drank like 4 liters of Mountain Dew and Pepsi! it was kool!...and and and today i walked all over town wit jen and umm went to the park that was kool! wow i did bunches of stuff wit Jen you hear her name frequently lol kkol! lol well i got to go byes!
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Friday, March 25, 2005

3 cheers for busy dayz!
yeah i like busy dayz they keep you occupised....you know outta trouble lol...ima go to rochester wit my friend jen. twill be fun! and i'll be bacl tomorrow! hoora!.

OooOo im soooo happy...lol ...i stayed on the phone last night until like 12:35a.m.yeah it was so fun.heh.well ima go.

how have you guys been?

peace out!
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

   BWAHAHAHA hey hey hey!
im back from allagany..omg it was sooo boring .... i got like 4 hoursa sleep last night ...had a really freaky bad dream again...well besides that thank you all for agreeing wit me...i dont know yeah she just being a mom but refusing to meet him...yeah. ima have her meet him anyway...well then im dog tired and dinner calls....so does the phone lol...sooo how you guys doin?? peace out!
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

   Movies....tehe....
so hey!how you guys doin the morning? i just woke up to my aunt yellin on the phone....*sighs* well then gavy asked me to go to the movies wit him again...only like a doublde D cause hes bringing Brent and his girl.lol..i dont know though my mom will make me bring a friend and i really dont want to it would be fun just like i dont know the two ...well 4 for us. well do you think my mom is thinking rationaly or overreacting??? i think she totally overreacting but i dont know what do you guys think?....

wel with that i have like nothing to say.SOoOO whats new with all y'all? ima go sooo
PEACE OUT!
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

   I'll be just fine pretending im not..
The Used. All that I've got...


So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

Yeah well newho....i went to the movies wit gilpy and jen. twas an aight movie..not exactly my cupa tea..id watch it again tho lol...me jen and gilps talk through most of it...it was fun.better than the movie...trying not to "like" gilpy...not working to well might i add...but im doin good...im still learing how to swim which is proving to be soo much better than jumping off the deep end lol you know? gilpy cals me like everynight i told him i wouldnt be home from like 3 or 4 days he was like awww Noooo please i'll miss you....i think he felt bad cause all i said was aww im sawy....didnt really say much more.. but i would miss em'...wow im SoOo pathetic!...

Anyhow im bored so far vacation is aight i like it!..i have a test like almost imediatly when i come back i have no clue what its on..maybe i should get to studyin...oh wellz ill do it the night b4 the test lmao..

OoOo Jen let me borrow like 4 of her manga...they are the candidate for Goddess vol.1-4...i've read the first one and im still lost i have no clue what i read at all! so if someone here had read them will you please explain them to me?? lol OoO ive read umm what was it called...Chrono Crusade 1-3 they are SoOo awsome! i love them! OMG you guys should read em'! i hate how the last one ends tho i mean it keeps you hangin im waiting anxiously for the 4th to come out!...

well with that ima go now...Thank you to everyone who actually come here and coments...it really ddoes mean alot! you guys are awesome! Peace out!


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