Tuesday, July 12, 2005

   lyrics
Boxcar racer - I feel so

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over


Yeah not much to say today i wish i ahd somthing better to do but yeah how are you all?

ttyl!
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Monday, July 11, 2005

Backstabbers.....
hmm well taday i foundwell taday i found out that Jesse... oh loyal kool jesse is a freakin backstabber... i am a lil pissed off right now cause mom brough up a convo jen evan and a lil me was in... she said some suff we said only twisted it to make it sound worse... i know jesse told her cause he was the only one that could of.. and plus cory gave me a heads up and said he told her some stuff i was or is doing... so im putting 2 and 2 together and in thinking that jesses the one that told about the convorsation we had... he looks for so many ways to get me into trouble... i hate it and i hate him... NOW mother wants me to spend every freakin wakeing hour with him so maybe she can scrape up some more dirt on me. oh well i ignored him yesterday! all up til he freakin picked me up and throw my into the freakin water! i was soo pissed... but insted of getting into trouble... i acted like i was having fun.. what i really wanted to do was kick him in the freakin balls!... ahhhh god ok im sorry im venting on all of you... i will shut up now

how are you all?

adios
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Saturday, July 9, 2005

   ::yawns:: sleepy....
::yawns:: yeah i like just woke up.. im bored there really is nothing ta do in the morning lol... nut ima go to jen's softball game at 12 noon shall be interesting... i hear shes good haha... mom won't lemme hang out with her after the game ::sighs:: havn't hung out in like....a week or 2... she like took my only friend away!!!! OMFG!... oh well ::shrugs:: at least i get to see her play ::smiles:: guess its better than nothing!

well how are you guys doing?how you are well!



adios!
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Thursday, July 7, 2005

   thank you all... intersting day
torn between two
only one right dircetion
the decision pending
as i try to think
everythings hazy
love or like?
if your love is divine
and that it is
i should go right
what if im wrong?
and i should go left?
there will always be this doubt hanging over me
i care for more but only one
logic is throuwn out the window
how do i choose?
this is my decision
someone will get hurt if not me.
i have to do this..

Ok well that was random... not that good but yeah what can i say at the sper of the moment.. ok well Thank you all of you omg the ones who poped up im really greatful! animefreak and asianboy thank you sooo much for poping up and helping my and brighening my day up! you all are awesome! thank you so mmuch

well taday our house almost went up in flames cause its like 18th century wiring in our house... so everything was going heywire blowing fuses elecrtic going on and off they shut the electric off from the out side for like half the day and made it safe for tonight at least they willbe back tomorrow to re wire the house and all so its like i might not be on for a few days but i might i dont know they might not ahve us turn things off or i might be at jens i dont know... but i might not be on its a possiblilty so sorry...

well how are you all taday? i hope you doing well!... ok well ttyl!
adios!

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Wednesday, July 6, 2005

   questions..... confused
well im not feeling to good. not as in i feel sick or anything just like confused... man i get confused easily... but yeah im haveing trouble and i really don't know who ta talk to that will get it and not think im a ummm i dont know ... but i feel horrible... i want someone ta talk to... if (this sounds desperate) you wanna ta talk me IM me or PM me my AIM is broknfacade973 please.. i really need someone ta talk to... sorry
ttyl
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Monday, July 4, 2005

   Hullo *runs off* must hurry lol
hey ehy sorry i couldnt get to all of you sites yesterday i had lota fun though lol i had a search party out for me cause me and luke had ta go ta the bathromm and just didnt come back we hung out in the woods and stuff it was really fun actually and he was refreshingly... decent? lol yeah i guess haah he was fun ta be around neways... well ta day i gotta go pick up that black cami ima borrow of jens in a bit then ima go and pick amanda up at 2 hang out wit her then go to gavins stupid bon fire for a few mins make an aperence then hopefully leave as soon as possible gah i don't wann abe around him and his friends are prolly worse..ok well neways! lol ok well thats all for taday... all the sites i vistied taday are all i will be able to sorry i wont be here like at all taday... well will talk ta y'all later!

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Saturday, July 2, 2005

   ::shrugs:: you?
Hey everyone how are you all?? This is a post where you don't have to read the bottom.. only if you wanna know about my day... if you have anything you wanna say talk about ask or w.e or just tell me a lil about your day go ahead i'd like ta hear about it! you can even pm me ifn ya want! lol

well taday ima go hang out wit jen at the park at like 2ish til when ever i ahve ta be home by 8 cause amanda's gonna call me and tel me whether she can hang out wit me on the 4th or not.. i hope she can! ::hopes she says she can:: lol see!?!? lol well then umm thats about all i gotta say for taday SoOooOo ttyl! adios
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Friday, July 1, 2005

   sweet child of mine!

lol no no no i don't have akid thank god but thats the song im listening to by Guns N' Roses yea they are old but they still rock! indeed they do! what do you guys think of them? if i knew how ta put music on here i'd put that song on for you but oh well i dont if any of you knew how can ya tell me? lol aight well blah i woke up at like 11:45am im like whoa i slept in! well humph i dont have anything moreta say really... SoOoOoOOOOOO how is everyone taday!??!



Adios!
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Thursday, June 30, 2005

   long talks tears and laughs

hey everyone.. well last night was really interesting to say the least jesse had come to my house for a few days the first few days were like torcher i hated it.. then jenny saved me and me and her had some mad fun together but yeah last night it was cool me and jesse went out on the porch at like 10:30 maybe a lil earlier and we came back in at 3 A.M we talked SoOo much anything and everything... from love sex lust drugs drinking smoking life death suicide loved ones rebeling everything you can think of i bet we tocked base on it. it was weird i mean i really talked to him and listend i told him my problem i listend to what he said i mean really listend and then he would talk about his problems and i would listen and respond. it was refreshing. i dont think ive really ever talked like that since i was like 9 maybe to anyone... sure i would tell them a lil but i usually listen i dont talk i love helping people but yeah it was just good to talk for once... i never seen jesse cry before we both alomst were breaking down cause we were talking about my brother keith and his suicide anf finding him in the bathroom... he said tht was the first time he had talked about that since it had happend no one in our family wants ta talk about it.. i dont blame them but talking like that really helped him i was happy that i could help him even a lil bit ya know? and he really helped me it was weird.. but yeah that was my night how was yours?.... here a pic of emily the strange awesome gal i might say! ttyl


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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

   ta day

ta day is a boring day well after jen left anyway... me and her had fun we retured cans and got like eight dollars and we both got 2 belly button rings thats like all that happend ta day yeah fun but boring lol SoOoo how are ya all? adios ttyl!
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