Tuesday, December 28, 2004

   HIYA!! SHOOT i have to work on my mom's laptop! UGH!

	okay to explain my feelings in this so it is not as boring here no its not a poem but i promise to make one no matter what. well its kinda a poem. not matter how any times i try i can't help but ryhme a little. well here I tried to get it to work. Is my this to get me hurt? Does my sadness please others? even though my sadness bothers. I want to know why. Everytime i try, I don't get what I want. It's so unfair. i can't get it out of my hair! it haunts me. does it want me? I don't know anymore. I don't care anymore. Just make it go away. I don't want to play. Why is it here? It can feel my fear. My worries and crushed dream. Or so it would seem. I cross my fingers and close my eyes. Hoping for goodness by this other try. Maybe it will work. Maybe I wont get hurt. But it didn't. It didn't show up. It began to corrupt. So now it will never work. And now I'm hurt. But no matter how many times. I don't cry. they don't threaten. They don't plead. They aren't sad. It's like I can't see me. In the mirror's glass. It is like I'm not there. And you know what? Now I don't care So thats my story. UGH! I don't want to talk about it at all! GGRR! jeez i don't know what to feel. *sighs* well i wanna thank the people who pmed me. You guys really made my day. ^-^ Well nothing much besides that. Except I went to borders!! YEAH! i only got two things but i loved them!! they were Chobits! YEAH!!!!! that helped me feel better too. ^_^ for some reason the story it has A city with ho people. I feel as if it is the most normal thing in the world. I felt no sadness, depressed, anything i liked it alot. kinda weird really. well i will seeya everyone later! oh and here right now i'll make my poem I felt it in the dark It's follwing my heart Why is it after me? Does it not see? I am no girl to follow There is no reason to wallow In the shadows oh my "home" Because I know I'm alone No matter what, I always am I never found a soul or clan It seems you won't come out I can't tell where your about In the shadows of my room? Where I cause my wound It's where my blood rains You can see all the stains Why do you fallow me? Of all people you see The girl who doesn't wish to be okay that was kinda last minute and maybe long. I get carried away. I once wrote a poem on micro soft that was 2 pages long! ehehe well i hope you guys are doing well. i'll seeya guys! REMEMBER TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK or GIVE ME A HUGG! BYE *waves* ^_^

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Monday, December 27, 2004

   HIYA! wow i am really early on this post its 12:45 a.m. over here LOL!

	Okay well i am wide awake cuz i was eating chocolate. ahaha i shouldn't of but i did so there! haha. well lets see I worked on my ex poetry site. Not its just a place for all my poems, quizzes, some links to graphic sites, ummmm the other sites i go to, and yahta yahta ^_^ well lets see anything else to talk about??.......*looks at cuz* oh yeah my cuz has experience unconciousness and now she is on the couch. *sighs* I was in a comment and chased her because she was going to unplug my computer while i was online. and I caught her almost unplugging it. So i chased her around and then she ummm ran into the computer. yeah wierd I thought she would of seen it. But I guess not. it was almost cartoonish. weird. Well I want to thank Inuyasha311 for dedicating her post on 12/26/04 to me. SHE IS SO NICE!!!! so if you haven't met her you should! ^-^ well anything else......well i guess i'll give the speech so later all of you will forget and I can tell you again! wait thats not good. well just make sure to remember. I already told joeyw23 so she knows already. Okay. Nothing and NO ONE is stupid!! I have heard this from my friends a lot. them saying when they forget something or do something wrong that they are stupid and everytime i say they aren't. IF you say your stupid its just a really weird way of saying your YOU! It doens't mean you are anything else but you! YOU ARE NOT STUPID!!! You are just you and saying your stupid is just showing that whatever it is, is a part of YOU! ya hear! you aren't stupid just YOU! You NEVER WAS AND NEVER WILL BE! okay now that my speech is outta the way I can go...uumm find a quiz or fan fictions to read. Just remember what I said okay? dang i'm early on my post. well I'm gonna go *waves* oh i won't be updating later but i'll say what happens tommorow. seeya later 8still waving and arm is getting tired* ow.

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Sunday, December 26, 2004

   HIYA!!!!! well my cuzs sleptover and they just left like 5 minutes ago

	Well yeah my cuzs sleptover. I tried to kill my youngest cuz because she jumped on me so hard I fell outta my computer chair. OW! That was when I was iming a friend so I had to leave my computer and hunt down my cuz. My other cuz Nicole(the oldest cuz) got to meet my friend online. which was pretty okay i guess, for her anyway. well now that christmas is over my house is pretty much coming back to normal. But now i can get ready for all the confetti i am going to trow in the living rom for NEW YEARS EYE!!!!! YEAH!!!!! last year we couldn't get some out and it was so much fun. Me and my cuzs were trying to catch all of them. But my older cuz just danced to some music and soon we joined with her. it was so cool. Well I hope your christmas rocked! Schippo and I had a great time ^_^ didn't ya Schippo. Schippo: YUP! ^-^ me:good. now i have to find a new years eve pic. hehe BYE BYE!! we are off to search for a NEW year's eve pic! Schippo:your not gonna kill your cuion again are you? me:They left already. Schippo:ooooooo still me: No Schippo: Thats good. 'cuz if she did then her cuz would put pink spray in her hair on New years. I hope she isn't gonna.' *looks at couch and sees hair spary and gulp* or maybe she is.' me: Something wrong Shcippo? Schippo: no no nothing! me:oookkkaaay. Hey Inuyasha is outta the Santa costume! Inuyasha: why did I hafta do that again? me:because I was gonna take a picture! NOW GO BACK TO PINSANDNEEDLES RIGHT NOW! Inuyasha: okay! Okay! feh *walks over to Pinsandneedles muttering stuff* Schippo: He can be so grumpy. I don't see why he liked being in the costume. me: he did?? Schippo: well not really. ooo I better not say me:aww come on Schippo Schippo: Sory kris>t no 8pushes button me: NO FAIR!

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Saturday, December 25, 2004

   MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

	hahaha I am SO HAPPY ITS CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!! you maynot believe this but I got my cuz a VCR! my younger cuz's face was like oh.........my........god. 0.0 haha it was so funny.I HAD To take a pic for keeps. She got me some cash and a really cute T shirt. It had a puppy on it with SO CUTE PUPPY EYES!!! and it had a big bow for a collar. It was a golden retriever! I LOVE THOSE! And my mom said I can use it for shopping spree. AHA! YES! YES YES!! my mom usually takes the money and makes me save it with all the other money. I got my older cuz a skirt I knew she would love. She changed into it and wore it all day showing it off. hehe. My aunts and uncles got me some pretty cool stuff. some graphic novels, two shirts, and really cute earrings. I gave them with their presents a card with either a drawing or poems. They all hugged me for the poems and drawings. I REALLY HOPE YOUR CHRISTMAS ROCKS!! MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM ME TO YOU I WILL SEE YOU SOON!!aww I love you guys*HUGGS YALL* like family. wiah I just realized its real sunny over here. lol well seeya guys HAPPY HOLIDAYS! little comic thingy I made up me:INUYASHA YOUR SUPPOSED TO BE SANTA!! Schippo:Yeah Inuyasha me:INUYASHA LISTEN TO SCHIPPO!! Inuyasha: feh me:Please?? *Inuyasha looks at me* Inuyasha:...no *begins to cry* me:WAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! Schippo: LOOK WHAT YOU DID INUYASHA!! *Inuyasha looks shocked* Inuyasha: but i didn't mean to- me:SAY IT OR I'LL CRY SOME MORE!! Inuyasha:grrrrrr..fine. BUT YOU BETTER STOP CRYING! *me stops crying* me:*sniffs and wipes eyes* kay Inuyasha:grrr ho....ho..ho *me runs over to Inuyasha and huggs him and he falls over* me:YAH!!!!!!!!! ^_____^ Inuyasha: HEY!! OWW! *looks at me and smiles..a little* Okay that was a little wierd. But i made it and I am feeling really happy. right schippo? schippo:right. I AM TOO! me:hehe okay well BYE EVERYONE say bye Schippo. Schippo:bye everyone!

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Friday, December 24, 2004

   HIYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

	Well i didn't go to my friends house. I AM SOSOOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOSOSOSOSO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING EARLIER TO TELL YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the mall and my had a shopping spree with my friends. When i got home i had 3 bags on each arm. hehe it was funny. Also there were some boys to flirt with oh lala ^_~. My friend was already flirting with them when i got out of the store. they were sweet when I met them too. anyway when i got home i had to put all of them away with the tags cut off. Also my mom suprised me with Philipino food so I couldn't refuse!! hehe Well i couldn't work on the poems. UGH! well I have a lot of quizs up and coming so go take a look. ^__^ it took a while. well now i am just searching for fan fictions to keep me busy. well I hope you'll forgive me. Oh yeah I am sleeping over at my friends umm i think on the 28th or somewhere around there. I will also update late on x-mas because I am going to my grandma's house until around 7 p.m. so yeah. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

   HIYA AND BYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

	Okay the reason for saying bye is because i'm going away!!! yup yup don't worry its only for sleeping over at my friends house. I won't be posting tommorow either. Well right now its around 9 a.m. over here. I'm leaving at umm 3 or i can phone her and go earlier. UGH! i really don't want to leave you guys and leave like a lotta other people have but if i don't the boredness with KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really sorry. I hope you'll forgive me. Oh yeah for Blue Hawk(if not here when she comes bac i'll give it) and Inuyasha311 I will give me poems to you soon. I promise. My friend can help me too. ^__^ YEAH! well okay since I don' have a poem now....wait I might. hold on *runs to get my book and ties younger cusion to chair so she won't steal my book* aaahhyup my little cusions here and for the 1st time while she is here I CAN ESCAPE!!!!!!!!! Okay *looks at book while cusion is screaming and almost destroying the chair. WILL YOU SHUT UP CUZ!!!!! cuz:well then UNTIE ME YOU me:FOH SHOOT! I can't find one shootshootshoot*repeats for five minutes*otSHOOT! UGH well I don't have one and now all I have is a quiz. well I hope that will do. BUH BYE SEEYA UNTIL ummm THE DAY AFTER TOMMOROW!! cuz:HEEEY YOUR MOM SAYS NOT TO WATCH THAT MOVIE!!! me:WELL I DID ALREADY you little cuz:OOOOOOOO I"M TELLING! *runs and covers her mouth with a bandana* The ya go! SEEYA EVERYONE!!!!!!! and HAPPY HOLIDAYS for the people who are a few days ahead of where i'm from hehe. HERE IS THE QUIZ!!!!!! if you take it and it says your a peacful soul or an old soul(i don't really get that one) pleaz tell me ^__^ BYE BYE You Are a Visionary Soul You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul What Kind of Soul Are You? I am visonary. ^_^ I am visonary ^__^ lala lalaaaaaaaalala yeah this other quiz said i was pretty pyshic too. COOL well buh bye i have to untie my cusion before my mom gets home BYE! *runs to cusion and unties the bandana* me:HEY QUIT IT WITH ALL THe CURSING ALREADY!!! uuuhhhh *runs to computer and presses button* my cuz: HEY YOU COME BACK HERE YOU!! I OUTTA-*computer turns off*

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

   HYA!!!!!!! UGH i am so confused!!!!!!!

	well today i went to block buster and got i robot since i couldn't see it in theaters and all. so i'm gonna watch that with suround sound and on DVD!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!! i love our amplifire(sp???i dunno!) i dunno how to spell. its just connected to ummm 5 other speakers in the living room. i'm gonna make it soo loud people down the block will here me!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so weird. Okay for the confused part of my day. if you don't think you can give advice, too busy to read(its okay if you are), or just don't want to here a really confused, kinda depressing, love life of me. yeah thats what this is. i have a crush on a guy. and i'm getting these things telling me to tell him and that he likes me. one little problem he has a girlfriend. so i didn't believe he liked me. and i tried to stop liking him. not to mention put myself down. yeah i do that alot! he is like mr.popularity and i am just well a punk girl really. i bet he only thinks of me as the girl he copies stuff off of. and i kick him to show him i am not one of his normal girl slaves. well i dunno if he likes me(doubt it really) or if he does(some part of me wants that). UGH! SO CONFUSED!!!!!!!! for those who car or will try to help me in return for your kindness i will make each of you a poem. say no and i will anyway. its my way of saying thank you(i say thank you, do problems, and other stuff in a way to make it more challenging) hehehe well seeya thank you for those who listened!!!

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

   HIYA! sry SOOO BOORED

	well i am so bored over here. I don't think i will live long enough for christmas. i hope i do. UGH!!!!! without my cusions to bug me i can't post anything up here. yeah i miss em'.....kinda. i like the privacy but the annoying part is sumthin to write bout too. ^_~ well i'm either gonna sing a song or continue writing a story. sry its on microoft. not on line. and i probably never will put it on line. *sticks tongue out* HAHA! well last night all our power blew a fuss. The whole house was pitch black. My mom was still getting ready for work...and in the shower. I was online. When my dad got all the lights up i kepted my computer off and lights off in my room. I only used 3 candles for light and wrote in this notebook thingy my friend gave me. WHAT? she said i could open it when our winter break starts!! well i guess this is where i say bye....before i start to write and forget to go off line. well seeya later. mesa question. so bored i dunno why i ask but. Whats your favorite movie? MINE: MOULIN ROUGE!!! I LVOE THAT MOVIE AND ALWAYS WILL!!! if ya don't like it i don't care. You like what you like and I will promise not to make any comments. Just like you will promise not to say that the movie i like is sucky, waste of time, or any of the above. okay? if you do.....i guess the onyl thing is not comment or go near your site until march yup yup. BYE BYE

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Friday, December 17, 2004

   i am finally out of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah HIYA!!!!!!!!!

	Well today was pretty good. In L.A. we watched a movie and ate snax. In Science i kicked my friend Brianna's butt in speed. We played cards the whole time in science and ate some stuff too. ^__^ I won alot. she kept thinking i was cheating. I guess i'm really good though. i've beaten alot of people too ^_^ Well this winter break i am gonna have my older cuz come over and she is bringing two friends. the younger one (THANK GOD!!!!!!) is sleeping over at her friend's house. ^_^ so thats gonna be good. On x-mas we are having my younger cuz come here and then we all are going to my grandma's house to open presents and eat dinner. so that will be good. Then i guess my family will scatter onto the world again. hehe well what are you guys gonna do for the break? well i got presents. but i have to be a good girl and wait. but i think i should open one in my mind. I saw candy inside. Well i'm gonna open it. I think all there is in it is candy. I already had alotta sweeets. oh well. its not really a problem with me. but i will save some. well i am glad some of you guys came back to my site to see the other posts. ^_^ THANK YOU TO THOSE PEOPLE!!! well i can't have too many sweet. but my cusion aren't here to stop me!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA sry hyper well alittle anyway. seeya

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Thursday, December 16, 2004

   POEMPOEMPOEMPOEM!!!!!!!!!!!

	Me wants to REALLY THANK CUDDLEBUNNY for getting my insiration!!!!!!! okay here it is. yeah i know kinda sad. What is the light we see when we are born Why is it a fight that makes us all torn Is it to cry with a friend beside you? Is it for a parent to guild you Is it for a loved one to keep you warm Is it why this life was truely to form I don't know why I was given this life But I do know I will not die with a knife Life is supposed to be free Ya'll know what it's supposed to be Its supposed to be cool Not going to school But to make it in life You have to sacrifice Life is always tough It's why you need to be a lil rough Thats why friends are a team You know what I mean To get your backs when your in trouble To be there in a hurry and on the double Friends help you through This circle of life, cool? But is that why lives are taken? Is that why we make take rules and break em'? It's to have a lil fun Its for everyone I don't know what life is But I'm not gonna let that question keep me from this Cristmas is giving Its showing and living like we all have done Cristmas is love Its showing that one that you think they're from above That Santa will ride on his sliegh You'll save prezents for one special day It's the time where school is out And people are happy to shout Its a time of singing carolin' songs Come everyone wants to sing alongs Its where family comes together It may not be now and forever(thank goodnes!!!!!!) But love is what this holiday is It's why everyone celebrates this This one time year chance To save that special dance For love its showing your attention To A LOT of love and affection It's what christmas is to me And I hope this will help you see What christmas can really mean ^_^ MERRY CHRITMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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