myOtaku.com: Ruiji Hametsu
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...yeah i'm only one heartbeat away...
from a seizure
Sunday, August 14, 2005
áPiece of mindá
I guess I'm just updating so that no one will have the impression I jumped off a cliff somewhere. This song...its an actual non professional recording...I remembered...we used to have times like this often, where we'd play the piano, sing, and play pool. Those were good times. I tried to visit as many sites as possible. Sometimes though, I'd only have time for one or two and at others, something would be wrong with the site and I wouldn't be able to visit any. I'm making an effort though... What can I say? Summer is summer. Summer is busy. I come home late and I leave early. Summer nights are cool...you'd think that they'd be humid. I'd come home late and I'd stay out on the balcony. It just feels so good to be out here at night. Just something about it. Everything is just going wrong. Everything is so hectic and all I can do is wait for it to straighten out, but what if that never happens? I'm tired of all of this. That's why I have to keep myself busy. Busy to stop think of all of this. That's what the balcony is for...some place where I can just sit and rest and feel the breeze. I remember one night a few nights ago, while sitting out on the balcony I saw some roses. They reminded me of my mom because she loves roses and when I saw the roses it also reminded me of this light see-through bag that my mom has. It's full of some dried stuff that smells like flowers. So instead of sleeping, I spent the whole night, making this:
for my mom. What am I supposed to do with it? I don't even know. Am I supposed to spray it with something? Does it just dry up and smell like something? I don't know. I just know that it kept me busy and for a moment I thought of nothing.
I was working on some manga ideas before...then I kind of had no time for it anymore. Now I'm not so sure what it was about. I knew that I should've written down my ideas. Maybe later, I'll try to make some pages of manga in my spare time (whenever that may be) and I'll post it up ok? For now I think I'll just stay here on the balcony and take a nap. -Arima TM tHoUgHtZ oF bLuE
Sunday, August 7, 2005
áPiece of mindá
Thank you guys for not forgetting me and commenting. I tried to go to some sites for whatever time would allow me. I feel so bad that I missed alot of birthdays this summer. A few friends called me to go to one of my friend's birthday but I couldn't make it. some other ones were ones I were able to go to last year, but I guess things have changed. I feel so bad that I also couldn't celebrate my uncle's birthday this year. He called me on his birthday to ask if my siblings and I would be able to go eat lunch with him on his birthday or do something, and so I told him I'd see what I can do about it, so he said he'd wait at my house. Without knowing the time after I knew that I had nothing left to do I rushed home...speeding...though my mom tells me not to, cause I wanted to get back in and time and see if I could take my uncle out for a movie or at least dinner, b ut by the time I got home, my uncle was gone and it was already 11:28pm I felt so bad I couldn't do anything. I was so busy I didn't even noticed the sun went down. Then I did the only thing i could do, work it off the next day. I just hope that I can celebrate at least one of my friend's birthdays...which is tomorrow, and so I hope that I am as free as I think I'm going to be...
haha life is always like this for me. I don't know if my fortune means that my life will be interesting to others or to myself. I can't decipher the fortune.
My life's like this...
I can have a seizure at any moment
awww...I think I'm late for something...I got to go. checking out sites later? I hope -Arima TM tHoUgHtZ oF bLuE