hailo..me name is amber..and i love it here so much!!..new frenz and cool sites 2..bz updating anyways..sign me guestbook pls!!.<
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
HELLO!! LONG TIME NO C!!
I'M JUST GONNA UPDATE ON SOME PICTURES AND QUIZZES!! GOD I MISS QUIZZES!! AND NO NEED TO FRET OR ANYTHING... MY BIRTHDAY JUST PASS, AND I'M OFFICIALLY A VERY HAPPY WOMEN!! HAHAHA...
I MIGHT UPDATE SOMEDAY OR ANYTIME.. I MEAN I WANNA CHANGE SOME OF MY BACKGROUND AND WALLPAPER..U KNOW!!
OK..I HAVE TO GO LIAO.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
hey..i'm back. anyway, i have 3 weeks of holiday b4 i start school. i'm anxious of my subject results. this is my semester 3 and i took at least 6 subjects.
i'm into graphic but i'm also have an interests in photography. i'm learning everything i can absord and i'm having alot of fun in college.
oh and not to mention, i also work part-time in school. a few students, my fren kylie and i, we work all kinds of jobs like an office boy. we have to make phone calls to remnd ppl to come 4 some certain events or filed in some data or even volunteer to help out in for example; there was an open day for our segi college and damansara college...it was a fun experience.
my boss, michael, peter and ck, they gave us what we should do or say... and yes, we get paid. 5 dollars per hour AND... i have receive my check. i've been working 4 the past 3 months. at least 11 hours a week...
i'm worried about my drawing concept class and 2+3 D class...>o<
well, i have to go. i night, late and i'm tired.
Monday, June 25, 2007
nothing changes.. entry no. 88
hi..it's been a long time i've didn't come here to speak my words out.
just recently, i was nearly kicked out of my dad's house because of my laziness and incompetent fool side of my part.. my dad was so furois that all i did was cry.
but i consulted with my mum, and i got the advice which didn;t help me at all because i felt like shit at that time. my dad told me to pack all my belongings and wait out side of the house to pick me up to bring me back to my mom's place.
i waited and waited..,.while i waited, i kept thinking to myself what did i do wrong? why am i a big dissapointment? i answered, i am a burden to them when i felt like not lifting a single hand to help around the house and all i did was just being helpless to them. to me i'm a rubbish to them. everyday we have to pick our rubbish and throw them away.
i was thinking i still have time..maybe i could run away and never coming back! but that's not it, that's just a shortcut..easy to run away but difficult to face problem cuz everytime i runaway, i come back to my problems.
i don't want that..i feel like a big burden that in anytime my parents can just throw me out from my comfort zone. i feel like drowning myself in the reds and seas of damned because for all my life, i know i've been a burden to them. my family..maybe it's best if all these could be erase with just a blink of an eye.
that happen last 2 days .. and when my dad came back..i didn't confront him to give me another chance..he gave me another chance..he told me i am useless when i do not make the effort in making evrything right.
all my life, i've been told to change my ways. it doesn't mean change who you are.. it meant be a better person. but i just throw those advice away. i close myself from people because i kow, if a person were to see me these way, they will leave me again.
so now, i concentrating on doing things just to keep me occupied and not being the burden to anyone. but deep down, i know i'm still a burden. nothing changes..just the surroundings around me!