Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Kyou, nanimo shinakatta nda...
(I didn't do anything today...)


Well... I was supposesd to do some stuff today, like figure out which order I'm supposed to do the many things that I need to work on along with school, study my school books, study kanji, study kanji, and study kanji until my brain melted.

I was supposed to get up early too, because it makes me more productive. But, instead, I zoned out almost all day, waited for a refrigerator to be delivered, and did nothing on the computer. And this is because I was supposed to wake up early, but, I didn't.

I guess it's better than going to school.

I was looking forward to it for a while, especially Japanese. ( to actually be able to take a class instead of teaching myself for three years and still knowing basically next to nothing... ) But... ugh... I really don't look forward to it.... If I just had to go to the classes and listen to the teachers, then ... I'd most likely be fine. It's dealing with other people that I don't look forward to. Heh, I'm not to good with that. Especially not people that are really annoying which happens to be most people. Not you guys though!!^^ You guys are the best!^^ Maybe all the better reason to study ahead of time. That way I don't have to pay as much attention in class.

Hmm... but tommorrow I shall study the kanji. Okay, sorry this post is so boring...

Oh, anyone who read Tsuitachi, what did you think? Tell me how to improve!! I need suggestions!!
If you haven't read it, please visit my site and it's in the section of things done by Kana-chan and myself.

Hmm... my birthday is in two days? Wow... I wasn't paying attention... But, since we just moved and everything... I won't really be getting anything at all. And we already picked out some persents earlier, so... yeah. Arg, I can't believe that I I'm going to be 17... grr... I liked 14 and 15... for some reason. Hmm. Anyway, yeah, I'm old. ^^ But I don't feel like it. I kinda wish I was still in high school, but the people there... would make it so I couldn't stand it... that's what happened when I was in high school. I found the people who liked anime and stuck with them... enough of my rambling about nothingness... I'll stop now.

I'm thinking of changing my layout soon... any suggestions? (I want to keep it as something having to do with Hagaren, though.)

September can not come fast enough.

I think that I am out of nothingness to talk about.

Thanks to all who comment and read.


~Kanau
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Monday, August 15, 2005

Tadaima~!
(I'm back!)

Hello everyone. I apologize for no update yesterday. I really had nothing to talk about.... So... I didn't talk. ^^;;

Well... I still don't have that much stuff to talk about anyway... I ... I'm bored.

Hmm...well, in the time that I've started writing this post, I am now talking to my best friend (one of them- I have two, and they are actually my only friends.... heh) who is in Florida now...(via instant message) I haven't seen her since the day we left to move... She was supposed to go there for an internship at Disney World sometime in late-August. But apparently she got called down early and is already in Florida!! I didn't know. She said that there are a lot of people from Hong Kong there now... so I'm educating her on BBI... ^^ Heh, I feel so knowledgeable ... thank you JL-san. So now I have something to talk about in this post. Kinda.

Anyway. School starts on the 29th. I have a feeling that I should start studying my books.... Except for math. Math isn't good. Bleck. I think that math makes me hangry... (and I didn't misspell. It's a made up word). So... I have stuff I should do. I have to wake up at 6:30. Heh. Then I should probably start studying kanji. My manga should be arriving around the 10th of September. Please become September soon. ( I am so impatient ) Anyway. I need to study kanji. A lot of kanji. I can't read anything now... curses. That's what I should do. So... If Kanau seems a little weird tommorow, it's because her brain may be partially fried. (Notice how I skillfully I avoid studying things that I should actually be studying by studying to read manga? Isn't that great?)

Anyway, I should probably actually study a little bit of the books, or at least look through them at least before school starts.... ^^;; Heh. Anyway...

Don't have much else to say...except... Chapter 2 of Tsuitachi is up. Go read! Please read.... at my website.... thank you. Please tell us anything that can be done to improve. Please!

That's all I guess. This post was boring. Sorry.


Thanks to all who comment and read.


~Kanau
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

No taitoru...
(no title)

All right, first of all.

Thank you JL-sama. You have given me very, very good news.

Listen everyone. JL-sama says that the manga of Hagaren shall 'continue for four more years if everything goes as planned'... That makes Kanau a very happy person.

Kanau will make it a point to get into another foreign exchange program at college that will enable her to once again travel to the wonderful country of Japan sometimes in the next four years.

Okay, now that we have the obsessive rant over with... *ahem* Sorry... I got a little carried away... heh, heh... Anyway...

Yesterday, I got my books for college. Math doesn't look very friendly. The book is bigger than my Japanese book and my physics book put together. Grr. Math. Japanese looks... not as hard, but still confusing. Kanji may just be the death of me. But it looks like I've at least seen most of the stuff before.... And physics? Haven't looked at it yet. Also, the bookstore had a Japanese to engilsh dictionary. That dictionary is now mine. ^_^ That should help me. Along with the book on VERB FORMS! Has just about every verb a person could want to know. Kanau is now a very happy person. She may actually be able to understand this language someday.

Oh, thank you everyone who read Kana-chan and my story. We appreciate it a lot!^^ I'll try and type up the next chapter within the next few days. Sorry that it'll take me a while. I'm actually in the process of moving everything to another website, that will be ... a lot better.

By the way, I really don't sound like a college student, do I? Kana is always telling me that I seem like I'm the younger sister, and she's the older one. But I think that she might be right. I really don't act my age... heh, and I'm supposed to turn 17 this month. Shh, don't tell anyone...

By the way (x2), I am not in any way going to hold it against JL if the manga of Hagaren is stopped before the end of four years. Just thought I'd make that clear. My obsessiveness was a bit extreme at the beginning. So, don't worry, JL. But I'm not sure if you were in the first place.

And because I don't want to say "by the way" again... Guess what? I just may be purchasing the Hagaren manga... now. They say that books 10 and 11 are 'Low in Stock'. And I don't like the sound of that too much. So. I think I'll buy them now. (It'll take them 2-3 weeks to get a lot of the other books in, but at least books 10 and 11 will be reserved for me...)

Sorry about this post being my rambling about nothingness... I'll try to do better tommorrow.

Thanks to everyone who reads and comments on this randomness.


~Kanau
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Friday, August 12, 2005

Ohayo...
Hello, everyone. I really actually don't have that much to say today. Sorry that this post'll be a little boring...^^;;

Well, yesterday... nothing really happened... Kana-chan went to Barnes & Noble again while SakuraYume and I stayed home. Then I played Hagaren games for a while... then, I studied until about 3 a.m. .... yeah. I think that I may be starting to understand the concept of 'transitive' and 'intransitive' verbs... I still don't quite understand 'causative-passive' though.... Grammar makes no sense whatsoever... anyone know a liitle bit more about english grammar than me?....

Oh, my layout is changed. But I think I'll be changing it again soon. For one reason I was tricked into changing my layout by Kana. Another reason, I have a short attention span. Yet another reason, I don't know how long I can stand looking at that giant smirk... (Kana! You were going to change your layout too!!v_v oh well...)

The Hagaren manga is still continuing in Japan. All is right with the world. More books for Kanau to buy, and then get frustrated with because her brain doesn't fully understand Japanese. (stupid brain) That's what happened with YuuHaku. I couldn't decipher Mukuro's story for the life of me. But we are not obssessing about Yuu Yuu Hakusho, are we? No. Hagane no Renkinjutsushi is what matters. That and only that. (I'm not obsessing, really now....)

I'm curious, did anyone read the story on my website? What did you guys think? Please tell us!! Kana-chan and I are awaiting your replys... So, if you didn't read it yesterday... go to my webiste and read it! It's by Kana-chan and me. Thank you.

That's all. Thanks to you who read and comment. You're the best.


~Kanau
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Thursday, August 11, 2005

Tadaima....
(I'm back...)


Sorry that I've been gone for so long... I haven't been feeling very well lately I guess... *sigh* So, I'm sorry everyone that I've been saying that I'll update, and I haven't...v_v... Sorry...

Well... the first chapter of Kana-chan and my story is up on my website. Please read it and tell us what you think. Please tell us how to improve!!

This post'll probably be really short....

Hmm... not much else is going on. I beat the 2nd Hagaren game... English voices may be the death of me... And I've started studying a lot more. I need to study Japanese a lot more.... The reason?

*start of plotting* As soon as I aquire my September allowance... I shall buy books 1-11 of Hagaren...*end of plotting* But unfortunatley I don't fully understand Japanese, so I have to study before I can buy them... v_v Anyway....


I really don't know if I have that much to say... I'm thinking of changing my layout soon...


Hmm....Sorry, I just don't know what to talk about! So, I think I'll end the post here.


Thank you to everyone who reads and comments!


~Kanau
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

Inakatta, gomen ne...
(I'm Sorry I haven't been here...)

Listening to: Kana-chan and SakuraYume-chan playing videogames...

Watching: Kana-chan and SakuraYume-chan playing videogames...


I'm sorry everyone... I said that I'd update regularly, but I haven't been... sorry guys... I should have at least visited your sites. I'm sorry, I'll try and do better from now on.

I don't know if much has happened since my last update... I guess that one was full of news wasn't it?^^ Well, a guess that a little bit of stuff has happened, but I feel like I'm bragging when I talk about stuff that happens... but I'm really not, I'm really happy, and I'd be happy for any of you that said the same thing... I guess I'll just tell you what happened yesterday... and I apologize in advance for anything that sounds like bragging... Well, yesterday as a suprise for SakuraYume and my birthday, our mom got us a PS2. I'm so happy~ And we were going to get a 'Tales' game for it, but all the stores we chacked at didn't have any... so our mom got us the Yuu Yuu Hakusho game, and the first two Hagaren games...(I think that there are four Hagaren games, but I also think that only two are out in the U.S. as of now...) We were so happy! ^^ (we still are happy, but...) The only thing I can think to say about it, is that I forgot how messed up funny sounding, on crack, frightening the english version of Hagaren is... I've only been watching the Japanese version on the DVDs... I've still only seen 10 episodes.... but I'm still really grateful to have the games!^^ I've only got to play them a little, but they seem really fun! ^^ To tell you the truth, I never thought that I would have a PS2... =^_^= I'm so glad!! ^^

I guess that today, I should work on Kana-chan and my story... so that I can post the first chapter on my website... .... sorry, that's another thing that I haven't gotten around to doing... I'll work on it today! I really should have some things up on there by the end of the month, so that you guys can see them... oh, something that I wanted to say, is that Kana-chan and my story has original chara in it... so if you guys don't like that... you probably shouldn't read it. But I promise that it's not one of those fanfictions where the character is practically perfect and better than all the other characters in the series. I don't know what they're called, but there like : original character comes, is much more powerful/smarter/more popular/ and every character in the series becomes infatuated with them/ they have mysterious pasts ..... yeah. Our characters are not like that. They are not us. They have faults. And, we hope that you find them interesting... you've read fanfiction that has original characters that you like, haven't you? Well, we hope that you like this too... ^^ Also another thing that I should note: the story is in some alternate universe. We haven't seen enough of the series to write a story that actually involves the series, so we had to make an alternate universe. (We wanted to write a story about Hagaren!^^) So, sorry if there are things that we didn't include, it's because we didn't know them... (this story probably isn't worth putting up, actually....)

That's all I can think of... I should have the first chapter up by tommorow, so please check for it tommorow. I'll tell you all here when I finally do post it.

Thank you so much for reading and commenting~! Sorry for the long post again... I'll try not to do them anymore...~


~Kanau
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Wednesday, August 3, 2005

Ippai koto ga ....
(A lot of things....)

Mood: =^_^= (super hyper ultra happy!)

Listening to: Multiple Hagaren themes and image songs...


So many things happened yesterday. I'm not sure that I even know where to start. But before I say anything, I should probably say this: Lately (for some reason) I keep feeling like I'm bragging. I'm just excited and happy, I really hope it doesn't sound like I'm bragging... v_v That's the last thing I want. So... that's about it. Just know that I don't mean to sound like that, really...


Okay, first of all, Kana-chan has become my mangaer. Basically she makes sure that I'm not getting myself distracted... ^^; Yep, well, a lot of the time, Kana-chan seems like she's the older sister... I really don't act my age do I? (Not that I think that's all bad, it's just that ... I think it may be true...and Kana-chan does act older than me a lot of the time... I have a tendency of getting overly excited, and other things like that....) So, starting today, Kana-chan will be making sure that I'm working on the things that I'm supposed to be working on. Kana-chan! Yoroshiku~! Because I have a bad habit of distracting myself, and then I only get done about half of what I should be getting done... (I am so strange...) So, Kana-chan is now my manager-san. Hopefully this'll work, and I can become more productive!^^ Heh, heh, I am so wierd... ( I make a schedule for myself...^^;;) So, today, I should be busy! Mostly doing a lot of studying... I need to practice more... (by studying, I mean Japanese) so I can buy the books of Hagaren in Japanese! Talk about motivation!^^

Also, yesterday I talked about a manga shop close to our house, and we actually did get to walk there yesterday!^^ They have about as big selection as in Walden's or any other bookstore, and they also have used manga!^^ It's all in really good condition, and it's half price! They have a lot of older series, too... like series that have gone out of print, and you can't buy in the bookstore anymore. They also had some Japanese manga!!^^ (this made Kanau happiest of all) But the Japanese manga they have, are all of series that I don't know... but, hopefully they'll get different stuff in, and time goes by.^^ We had $20 with us, and we were looking around, and then Kana-chan spotted a Japanese Hagaren book!!! (Arigatou Kana-chan!!~~^^) It was one of those books where they make manga out of the anime. Basically screen shots with word bubbles... But it was in Japanese, and so cool~~!! So we bought it.^^;; It was kind of expensive... ($16.99 - when on the back it said that it's around 900 yen...) But that's okay. I'm really happy!^^ And I tried to read the first little part (I stopped trying to read, because I wanted to finish looking through it... reading is very time consuming...^^;;) and I could understand maybe half of it. I think my studying is finally paying off!!^^ So, if I keep at it... I should be able to understand more! (There's so many kanji!!) I think that it's so cool when I can walk to the bookstore, and buy a Japanese book, of a series that is currently running in Japan!^^ I'm not bragging, I'm just really exicted, and glad to find out that the only place to buy Japanese manga isn't over the internet... gomen ne~...

Now, the really good news! (This will probably sound like bragging, no matter how I say it...)

Last night, my mom and I were talking about me getting a job sometime soon, and about her working. Before we moved, she worked a newspaper route, delivering to businesses, and she was talking about maybe doing something like that here. But then we were thinking, and that would mean that she'd have to sleep during the day, and a lot of the money that she'd be making, would be used in gas money.... and such. She was also talking about real estate investing, (she's been studying up on it for a long while) but we don't know if we have the resources to do that right now. (She'd be doing something, like buying houses that needed fixing up, fixing them and then selling them for profit. There's other things too.) Because we'd have to have a least some money to use to buy a house with... we don't have that right now. Then we were talking about doing something else, something where we could all work (even Kana-chan, and SakuraYume) and be enjoying what we're doing, and we decided that it would be the best. We are going to start a manga shop. (Not close to the one by our house!XD It'd probably be farther away, maybe close to the univeristy... isn't it funny that we just discovered a manga shop, and now we're going to start our own? ) We've actually been thinking about this for a long while, but didn't know if we could ever actually do it. We know that it won't be easy, but we figured that if we have a job where we're enjoying what we're doing, that's what really matters. Why go to a job everyday that you hate? I don't think that you could be very productive at what you're doing... I think that having a job that you love is really important. But I'm really really exicted!! We decided that we'll have manga in English and Japanese, and we'll also have used books, maybe doujinshi... And we'd have CDs and DVDs. And also J-pop, and J-rock and J-other stuff. And the shop would only have Japanese series... No Korean, no American, no anything not from Japan. Just because we want it to be only Japanese things... not because we're saying the other stuff is terrible or anything...well, some of the American stuff, when they try to copy the manga style....I'll get in trouble for saying that..... .... Of course this isn't going to happen right away. First my mom has to take some classes on 'how-to-start-your-own-business'. Then we have to find the space to rent, and because all of us are old enough to handle working, we won't have to hire any employees, at least right away. And also since I'm planning on living in Japan in a few years, (as soon as I learn enough Japanese to go to an animation school---but I plan on coming back and forth a lot...I love my room here in our new house! The walls and carpet are cobalt blue...^^ so I want to come back here often, probably for that reason, and because I'll need to see my family... otherwise... Japan's good for me!^^;) then I could buy stuff and send it here for the store. Manga in used bookstores there is really cheap, and in excellent condition, I thought that would be a really good thing to get for our shop...^^ Also, I never got to go doujinshi hunting like I wanted to when I was there... and that could be another good thing... I am so excited!!^^ I know that it'll take a while before everything is up and running, but still, just thinking about it, that we are actually going to do it, makes me so happy! And my mom would also do her real estate thing, just not on such a large scale... But this kind of thing always inspires me... Thinking of what you want to do, and then actually going through the effort to make it really happen, instead of just dreaming about it. Realizing your dream!~~ So now I have even more motivation to work harder on my ideas and things!!!=^_^= I'm so happy~~!!! I'm in such a good mood that I can hardly believe it!^^

Also, another happy thing, I have reached 100 visits!! Arigatou gozaimashita mina-sama~! Thank you so much everyone~!! I'm so glad!






I really hope that my good mood lasts!=^_^= I think that it will, just because everything is going so well!~~

Sorry that this post is so terribly long...^^;; I kind of got carried away...heh, heh...

Also, when I was thanking Kana-chan for helping me with my layout, I forgot to thank Shizuka for making the avatar!! I'm really sorry, Shizuka!!! Hontou ni gomen nasai~!

Also, thank you again to Kana-chan for taking on the task of becoming my manager!^^ Arigatou~, yoroshiku~!!^_^


Thank you so much for reading and commenting!^^ I appreciate it so much!!^^


~Kanau
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Tuesday, August 2, 2005

O-ha-yo~!^^
(Hey![morning!])

Mood: ^_^

Listening to: 'Link' and 'Lost Heaven'


Well, my first day of being busy went fairly well... I got some things accomplished...^_^ I did more studying than anything else... But that's okay. I still enjoy it.^^ I got to draw! It felt so good to draw again after all that time. I also worked a little on Kana-chan and my story... but not much. I'll try and put the first chapter up on my website today, but no promises. I'll try my best.

So, most likely, today I'll be doing the same things... massive amounts of creative energy ..... Oh! Before I forget, last night as we were driving home from eating dinner, we saw a sign that said that a store (sort of close to our house... we could walk there) was selling manga!^^ So today we'll go and check it out. (Sorry if I sound like I'm bragging... I really don't mean for it to sound like that...)

Well, that's all... I don't think that I have anymore intersting things to say. Sorry this post is so short... I wanted it to be longer, but I ran out of things to talk about... and time... so, I'll have to leave it here... Oh, by the way, the minion buttons are still open... (if that's the right word to use...)

Thank you guys so much! Today, I'll get my 100th visit! Thank you guys so much! Thank you to all who read and comment!^^

Kansha shiteima~su!! ^^ (I'm grateful!)



~Kanau
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Monday, August 1, 2005

Tadaima!
(I'm back!)

Mood: ^_^

Listening to: "Lost Heaven" -- Shanbala o yuku mono ending theme


Hi!^^ Starting today, I'll be updating regularly again. Sorry for my absense. ::bows::

So... here's what's been going on.

With our father, he accepted the offer that I gave him. We're just going to go forward now.... I was so relieved. I guess that I just have to keep doing the best that I can. That's all that I can do. That's all that any of us can do... I'll just have to be as generous as I can, and we'll see what happens. That's really all that can be done. Hopefully this time, things can work out okay. I really hope that they can... for all of us... So, I'll just do the best that I can do. ganbarima~su...

I've actually been feeling a lot better lately. After today, I'm not getting a terrible nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think of him. I think that if I can just do the best that I can now....

Thanks again to Kana-chan for helping me change my layout.^^ Arigatou ne~!

With myself, I'm sleeping 4 hours again.^^ I actually feel better when I do this. I do much better on less sleep. I think that I'm tired now, because I slept... Maybe it was a mistake... Oh well... Hopefully I'll be able to continue to do this after classes start. Then I'd be able to do all the writing and drawing that I've been wanting to do. I've actually been putting off a lot of ideas that I've had for a long time. The atmosphere in that house was so toxic that I couldn't even put a pencil to paper. That's how bad it was... But now, I think I can start!^^ I can't wait! I have so many ideas, that just writing them down will take a long time!^^ I can't wait!

I'll also start working on my website a lot harder now. One of the first things that I'll put on there will be a story that Kana-chan and I are working on... It's not the best... but we're trying... please tell us if there's anything that we could do to improve it. We'd appreciate it a lot. ^^

Aside from that, I'll be drawing too!^^ I can't wait! I haven't drawn in such a long time... And start writing down my many many ideas... I should become quite busy in the days and weeks ahead... I wish that I had a scanner so that I could show you guys the pictures I'm gonna be drawing! *sigh* but... I don't.... Hopefully sometime I'll obtian one... (this is, of course, Kanau's wishful thinking)

More wishful thinking: I think that I may buy the Japanese volumes of Hagane no Renkinjutsushi... I'm debating... I want to, but... It'd take me such a long time to read them! I'd need a giant dictionary!^^ But I got good news from JL, the manga is still continuing!!^^ I'm soooo happy! (strange things make me happy...) Anyway... I may be buying them soon...

Basically, I'm making myself work...^^;; Does that even make any sense? Probably not... people normally don't make themselves write down thier own ideas... But I know that I'm strange that way... if I don't make myself do it, then I'll never get around to it, most likely...there's too many things I want to do, I'd never get around to doing them all...^^;; I know I just keep sounding stranger and stranger... Sorry!XD.

Anyway, I'll be busy is what I'm trying to say...

Before I forget! I wanted to say "Arigatou gozaimashita~!" to everyone who's been visiting! I'm almost at 100 visits!^^ I know it's not a lot, but... to me it means a lot!^^

Thank you to everyone who reads and comments~!



I will not hesitate, I will believe in this love and live on! I will tightly embrace the wounds that won't close / Even if I'm powerless, I'll live strongly in this destiny / I will not hesitate, I will live in this destiny and live on!

~Kesenai Tsumi - Hagane no Renkinjutsushi 1st ending



~Kanau

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

Osokute, gomen ne...
(sorry I'm late...)


Well, sorry that my update is so late... I don't even know why I'm updating, I really don't have that much to say.

Today my sisters and I are supposed to talk with my 'father'... he says that we can tell him how mad we are at him. I don't think that he has any idea how angry we are. We'll see how that goes. I'm planning on giving him an offer after we're done talking venting our pent-up anger.



The offer: Since our relationship is so damaged, why don't we just start over. While knowing how each other feels, why don't we set that old relationship and way of relating to each other aside, and start over. I'm not saying that we should forget everything that happened, I just think it would be a lot better for all of us if we did that. Let's start slow. How about we call you once a month or every three weeks. We'll tell you what's going on if you want to know, we can talk about things. When it's time for your sceduled visits, you can stay in a hotel here for a few days and we can spend those days with you. If you want, we can even stay in the hotel with you. But if you take us back to that house in Japan, you're going to loose us for good. You don't understand how terrible that was for us to exsit in that house. Does it sound like a deal?


What do you guys think? Does that sound fair to you? Please tell me if you think that's a fair offer. I think it's more than generous, after all that happened.


Sorry for the depressing post again. But you guys always make me feel better!^^ Arigatou~!


~Kanau
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