Monday, August 1, 2005

Tadaima!
(I'm back!)

Mood: ^_^

Listening to: "Lost Heaven" -- Shanbala o yuku mono ending theme


Hi!^^ Starting today, I'll be updating regularly again. Sorry for my absense. ::bows::

So... here's what's been going on.

With our father, he accepted the offer that I gave him. We're just going to go forward now.... I was so relieved. I guess that I just have to keep doing the best that I can. That's all that I can do. That's all that any of us can do... I'll just have to be as generous as I can, and we'll see what happens. That's really all that can be done. Hopefully this time, things can work out okay. I really hope that they can... for all of us... So, I'll just do the best that I can do. ganbarima~su...

I've actually been feeling a lot better lately. After today, I'm not getting a terrible nauseating feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think of him. I think that if I can just do the best that I can now....

Thanks again to Kana-chan for helping me change my layout.^^ Arigatou ne~!

With myself, I'm sleeping 4 hours again.^^ I actually feel better when I do this. I do much better on less sleep. I think that I'm tired now, because I slept... Maybe it was a mistake... Oh well... Hopefully I'll be able to continue to do this after classes start. Then I'd be able to do all the writing and drawing that I've been wanting to do. I've actually been putting off a lot of ideas that I've had for a long time. The atmosphere in that house was so toxic that I couldn't even put a pencil to paper. That's how bad it was... But now, I think I can start!^^ I can't wait! I have so many ideas, that just writing them down will take a long time!^^ I can't wait!

I'll also start working on my website a lot harder now. One of the first things that I'll put on there will be a story that Kana-chan and I are working on... It's not the best... but we're trying... please tell us if there's anything that we could do to improve it. We'd appreciate it a lot. ^^

Aside from that, I'll be drawing too!^^ I can't wait! I haven't drawn in such a long time... And start writing down my many many ideas... I should become quite busy in the days and weeks ahead... I wish that I had a scanner so that I could show you guys the pictures I'm gonna be drawing! *sigh* but... I don't.... Hopefully sometime I'll obtian one... (this is, of course, Kanau's wishful thinking)

More wishful thinking: I think that I may buy the Japanese volumes of Hagane no Renkinjutsushi... I'm debating... I want to, but... It'd take me such a long time to read them! I'd need a giant dictionary!^^ But I got good news from JL, the manga is still continuing!!^^ I'm soooo happy! (strange things make me happy...) Anyway... I may be buying them soon...

Basically, I'm making myself work...^^;; Does that even make any sense? Probably not... people normally don't make themselves write down thier own ideas... But I know that I'm strange that way... if I don't make myself do it, then I'll never get around to it, most likely...there's too many things I want to do, I'd never get around to doing them all...^^;; I know I just keep sounding stranger and stranger... Sorry!XD.

Anyway, I'll be busy is what I'm trying to say...

Before I forget! I wanted to say "Arigatou gozaimashita~!" to everyone who's been visiting! I'm almost at 100 visits!^^ I know it's not a lot, but... to me it means a lot!^^

Thank you to everyone who reads and comments~!



I will not hesitate, I will believe in this love and live on! I will tightly embrace the wounds that won't close / Even if I'm powerless, I'll live strongly in this destiny / I will not hesitate, I will live in this destiny and live on!

~Kesenai Tsumi - Hagane no Renkinjutsushi 1st ending



~Kanau

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