Saturday, August 19, 2006

Arigatou! Thanks for the comments! ^^ I got really long ones! I'm amazed! I suppose that you guys had more time to visit for once. *nods* Reki, wow, that is one of your longest comments ever!! *hugs* Thanks so much! You curse with a spanish accent? That's funny. My mom doesn't curse...so I'm not sure how she'd get along with your mom, but I'm sure they'd become friends. ^^ My mom is a people person after all. THanks to all of you that offered to help me with the cleaning...too bad you can't really come over to help! Everyone needs some bishie man servants...seriously. They'd be a GREAT help! >_< I don't know how the guys would like them though...^^; I see that a few of you watch soap operas! I'm really surprised! I didn't think anyone (especially our age) would watch soap operas...I see that some of you hate them as well. *nods* That's quite alright...I used to hate them. And, yeah, I usually don't sit through a whole episode. ^^; Hmm...let's see...what happened yesterday...hmm...oh, yeah...I had a couple hours to myself! It was very nice. *nods* I got to visit people that updated and played video games! Nothing too special, but it was still nice. When my bro came home from accupuncture and whatnot, then the day just went about its usual boring routine. ^^; My oldest brother, Derek, left on a trip to the shore with his friend, Neil. They've done this trip a couple times before...*laugh* The last time was hilarious. Neil, well, he can get drunk...so the last time, he drank a lot. They went to bed, and well, *cough* Derek had an absolutely horrible wake-up experience...in the middle of the night, Neil got up (still half-asleep and drunk), walked over to Derek's bed and...well..."relieved himself" on him. ^^; *laugh* So in other (more crude) words, he took a piss on him. This time around, they were joking about how he should buy a poncho or something to wear during the night just in case... Today I'm the only child at the house. Corey is at work until 9:30pm, and I don't know when Derek'll be back from his trip. So that means even more dishes and cleaning for me to do!! Oh well. *sigh* It doesn't really matter. I think I'll play some DDR today, and try to make muffins finally!! I will make sure to hand them out to you guys!! I was "assigned" by Corey to put up some of our auctions on ebay...so I'll do that much later...after I've had some fun to myself!! ^^ I'm already almost done with my second summer reading book, Red Azalea. I really enjoyed it! It's very rare that I like a book assigned to us to read. It's probably cause it's a female author...I usually only like books (including manga) written by female authors. I don't know why, but I seem to be able to picture the scenes better and get a more personal connection. ^^; I felt like today should have a poem...but I didn't think of one. ^^; Sorry!! So no poem today, and I guess I'll end the post now. Thanks for coming by and visiting me!! I hope you all have a wonderful day! Enjoy the weekend (for those of you who have school already)!

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Friday, August 18, 2006

Thanks you guys. ^^ You're all such wonderful friends...really...you're the best!! *hugs* I don't know how I'd survive this summer without you. Seriously, if I didn't get an account on MO...I wouldn't have so many great friends...and this summer probably would've been even worse than it already is!! I wouldn't have any friends to talk to...or to be comforted by. ^^ So thanks again. Mirelle5 (if you happen to at least read this part), I'm sorry I make my posts so long. ^^; You don't have to comment if you don't want to...especially since you usually just say there's "too many words". ^^; JungWoo (yes, you celebrity you!!), *laugh* your comment made me cheer up a lot!! Thanks for the wonderful hug. *hugs back* And OMG...thanks for letting me borrow your man servants for a bit. ^^ The drink was delicious, and might I say that the "sexy dance" was...sexy. *laugh* Where did you get those guys??? And that throne!! It was so comfy. ^^ Thanks to everyone that said my brother was "rude", "a jerk", or an "ass". You're all very true, and it'd be awesome if you could beat him up for me. He's already an "invalid" according to himself...ugh...he's pathetic. Anyhoo, thanks again!!! Yesterday, my dad and Corey did go fishing. Mom and I went along, too...but we didn't fish. We "experienced the great outdoors in the comfort of our own car". *laugh* We just sat in the car (reading), surrounded by the trees, geese, squirrels, river, huge amounts of bicyclists (that my dad said were all gay...), and people that attempted to get a fire going on the grill for about an hour. I rested for the first 10 minutes or so by just laying across the back seats...my mom looked at her magazines, and then I read some of my book. After that, we took a "hike" to where the boys were fishing. There, in the river, were some girls (at first I thought they were boys ^^;) swimming around...it really grossed me out! The water was sooo brown and slimy and nasty!! They weren't even swimming, they were just floating in it...and picking up things. ^^; I just thought it was really gross to be in that dirty water. Anyhoo, dad and Corey didn't really catch anything...my bro just found crawdads underneath rocks and ripped off their appendages to feed to the little fish that were visible. Mom and I waited for them to finish, and then we went back to the car. That was the end of the "fishing trip." Real exciting, right? ^^; Other than that...and the crying incident in the morning...nothing really happened yesterday. I felt depressed all day though (still thinking about the stuff with my mom). She really is in need of her own man servants, seriously. Since she can't go downstairs at all, I have to get her all her food and whatnot during dinnertime. So now, not only do I help cook dinner, I have to serve my mom. I have to gather everything she wants and bring it to the stairs. No one else helps...it's really annoying. When she's done her food (which is a lot later than everyone else...she's a slow eater), I have to go upstairs and take her dishes down...and then put those in the dishwasher. *sigh* It's really hard to do all this, but I don't want to complain cause it's all to help my mom. I just wish that others in my family would help out. She can't go in the laundryroom either, so now I'll probably have to do the laundry, too. She says I won't have to, that everyone will do their own or dad will do it...but we saw yesterday, that my dad couldn't even remember to take the clothes out of the washer. *sigh* So, yeah, as I've told Harvey, I've become a housewife/mom at age 17. Well, I'm not really married, and I don't have kids...but I have to take over all the things that my mom has been doing that she can't do anymore thanks to that stupid kitchen. (if you're new to this and confused, PM me) For goodness's sake, I'm really getting into the role...you know why?? I'm even watching daytime television...SOAP OPERAS!!! >< The only one I really watch is "Young and the Restless" though. I've really gotten into the storyline...man, it's pathetic...I never thought I'd enjoy a soap opera...I even know all the characters' names!! >< Nick...man, I love Nick. *laugh* He looks like a pirate, like a better-looking Orlando Bloom in Pirates of the Caribbean. (sorry if I offended any fans of his...) Ok...I'll stop talking about Y&R now...(it's on right now...I really should be watching *laugh*) Alrighty, my bro and mom are out doing stuff (Corey has accupuncture and needs a haircut)...so I have some time to myself. I'll be able to visit some sites right now (12:40). Sorry if I don't get to everyone...this is a treat in itself to be able to visit some!! ^^ I hope you all have a great day, and thanks again for visiting and encouraging me...

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

*wipes tears away* Thanks for your comments...they were all very nice. Even though a lot of you didn't have time to read my post or comment on it, it still meant a lot to me that you visited. *hugs* I see that most of you picked up on the TATU song reference...I'm surprised that so many did. ^^ Sorry...no muffins yet...*laugh* I'm gonna make you guys wait a long time for them! Poor Saijinto, he's gonna be under that window probably till saturday! JungWoo...you are a total celebrity! OMG, man servants...*laugh* Don't get me into that. If you get some, then I'm gonna need some as well. After all, I'm the one that made you a celebrity!! I also noticed that lots of you like to read/write and lots don't...or some didn't but now do (like me). JungWoo, I was the same way! I'd write stories when I was little about animals and stuff. I'd come up with the stories, tell them to my mom to write down on the paper, and then I'd do the illustrations!! ^^ I still have them somewhere...there was a dog one, a cat one, and a unicorn story. ^^; Probably more, but I can't remember them. Yeah, AurionAddict...your first guess at how I was feeling was a bit off, but that's ok! ^^; I'm glad to hear from ya again!! And Harvey, I'm especially glad to get a comment from you again! The reason I was "wiping my tears away" at the beginning of the post...wasn't just cause of how great your comments were. ^^; I spent most of this morning crying...I was woken up earlier than usual by my dad (we were going to go to Dorney Park, but because of my mom having horrible migraines we didn't), and he just lays on the bed and talked to my mom...I was trying to rest more...but anyhoo, after he left, my mom and I started talking about her whole crappy situation and problems, and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I started to cry while holding her hand. I love my mom, and I can't stand seeing her losing weight cause of this stress, and having her "sacrifice" to stay here in this house just so I can finish my highschool here. It makes me feel guilty...I feel that her staying here in this house and going through all that stupid illness/reaction crap is partially my fault. If I didn't want to stay here to finish school, and if I didn't like this place so much...then we probably would've moved right away. She says it's not my fault...that we all love it here, and that it's not like everyone else wants to move. Sure...though my brother have been wanting to move back to CA for all of their years living here...and they keep on saying we should move...so I still think it's my fault. So much for having a relaxing wake-up...I get up and then I cry. *sigh* I haven't cried in a while though...so it felt good. I feel like I want to cry more though. I guess I can never get enough. ^^; My bro just came in assuming that I've been up and on the computer since I was woken up..."You must've been on here for hours! Rarrrr...." Well, he didn't really say "rarrr", but he's a jerk, so yeah. I told him that I was up crying with mom, and he says, "why would you be crying?" I said, "Because of all the stuff going on with mommy..." Then he just left...being the jerk he is, he could care less. He has no sympathetic/empathetic bone left in his body. It's always a comparison of problems...instead of comforting mom when she feels like crap, he says, "Just forget about it! I'm always in pain, but I just ignore it. I don't complain about it anymore. You don't have it as bad as me!" It's a long story about his problems...so I won't get into that, but the point is that he's never consoling...he turns everything into an argument. He's also the biggest hypocrite ever. He complains non-stop. Sorry about this post...it's quite the depressing/angry one as well. *sigh* It's also short (is it?)...cause I guess I don't have any more time on here. I suppose I won't even get to visit one site. Sorry. Yesterday I at least got to visit 4 people or so. Since we're not going to Dorney Park today, my dad wanted to go fishing...so maybe he'll take my evil bro away to do some fishing (the problem is that he can't find his license), and if they do go then maybe mom and I will come along to sit near them and read or something. *sigh* Whatever...thanks for reading this post (or not), so mainly thanks for visiting me. *hugs* I love you all...sorry I'm such a pain about getting attention...I'm just so used to being forgotten and left alone. ^^; I hope that you have a day where you don't cry today! Good luck to those of you with school!

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Thanks for all your comments. ^^ I'm glad that you really liked my poem, and that a lot of you could relate. *sigh* It's really not a good thing to be able to relate to though...so, yeah...I hope that our minds calm down a bit. Thanks for "liking" my cake, too...unfortunately, I didn't make the muffins yet...so, Saijinto *laugh*, you're probably still "waiting under my window to take the muffins into 'storage'". *laugh* When I do make them, I'll definitely "hand them out" to you guys so there won't need to be any secret stealing/storage of them!! Yay for DDR! I know lots of you like it (especially you, xanth! Great to hear from you again!! *hugs*)...and it's ok to not be good at it. *nods* It's true that it's still fun even if you're not good at it!! Not everyone can be like my one friend that can do songs on heavy mode (the hardest) and get A's. ^^; Yes, JungWoo (see, I'm mentioning you again!), you are a celeb! It's just that you always say things that I feel I should reply to. ^^ Plus, how could I not talk about your literary club? Speaking of which, I'm sure you all noticed the banner up there for it. If you click it, then you'll be taken to the site where the club headquarters will be. There's still some difficulties that need to be worked out...or at least, still things that I'm rather confused about. ^^; Like how to have the readers/critics see our writings...so, yeah. JungWoo, I'm sure you can take care of that somehow! Just tell me whatever I need to do to help! It's funny...cause I really never liked writing before...I always hated it (yes, especially for school)...and I always "disliked" poetry, too!! It's just that at the end of the school year, I don't know, like I said before...it must've been from Paintwriter's inspiration or something, but I started writing poems a lot...and now, ever since shizuka said that she missed my poems...well, that's why I started writing them again. ^^ I have no clue how or why it happened, but I was transformed into a writer! Last night...I had a lot of trouble going to sleep...for one thing, my nose was horribly stuffed up (like it always is every night, right when I lay down) so I couldn't breathe...and then the other thing is that, like in my poem, I had non-stop thoughts running through my head (like that song *laugh*, "all the things you said, all the things you said, running through my head, etc...") so I couldn't relax! They were all rather angry/angering thoughts, too...very depressing ones as well. Gao...I was thinking about this one very good friend of mine, whom I've helped out a lot (you might know this person), and about how it seems that I'm getting forgotten by this person...like I mean nothing to them. *sigh* I won't name names...but some of you might be able to guess. ^^; I wonder if they'll read today's post for once...hmm...who knows...Other thoughts in my head were about other things related to liking people, and how I really don't want to anymore. I wish that I could shut my stupid mind up!! >< Why does liking someone hurt more than helps?? My mind just goes on and on with certain thoughts...and I swear...I hate it...I hate it!! You guys must think I'm crazy or something...or that I have voices in my head. No, I don't have voices in my head...just my own...and it's annoying. Yesterday I was depressed feeling for most of the day. Today, I still am depressed (if you can't tell). Most of the reasons for it, well, I'm not exactly sure...I know some though...like the crap happening at my house with my mom and all. Nothing's getting better...I really feel sorry for my mom. Because of this stupid kitchen thing, she's always depressed, too...having to stay in her room all the time (friends that are new...umm...this takes a lot of explaining, look in older posts for an explanation), and she rarely eats. Before this, my mom would still rarely eat...she'd just snack all day, but the only meal she'd eat would be dinner. Now, it seems that she's eating even less...she's very small...and we can't do anything about it. She wont' change, and I don't want to make her change either. My brothers are different though, they keep on nagging at her, and telling her to eat more and taht she's "skin and bones"...of course, it's out of concern...and I'm concerned, too...but...we just don't know what to do. I'm sorry...I really shouldn't be talking about this. If my mom saw I wrote about her...well, she'd get really mad. Well...there's more crap I could complain about...but I suppose I'll stop this post here before I drive you all crazy. Thanks for taking the time to read my depressing/complaint-filled post. I hope that you all have a more cheerful day than I'm probably going to have!

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

*laugh* I loved your comments!!!!! ^^ They were all so funny! So many of you wanted to steal my cake! *laugh* I guess I'll just have to make some more then! And make some muffins, too...yum...but those will have to wait until the cake is completely finished. *nods* Anyhoo, I see that some of you (*sob*) have started school already!!! That's horrible! I'm so sorry! Why do you start school so early? It sounds like torture...EmilySadako, boredteenager, and everyone else (sorry if I forgot to mention you!)...I do hope that your school days get better. For those of you that haven't started yet (like me), I hope that our first days of school aren't so bad!! Dumiel, good luck reading those *laugh*..."Moby Dick head". *laugh* That's what my brother called it, too. I'm actually enjoying my reading book as I've said...I wish that I'd get more time to read during the day. I'd probably finish it in like 2 days if I had!! Attention all writers (and readers) out there!! JungWoo, my dear friend (^^), has (well, is in the process of) establishing a MO Literary club!! Yay!! *claps* So if you like to write poems, stories, whatever, or if you like to read and critique then you should PM her! ^^ I'm so excited! It makes me more energized to write knowing about this! So I believe there will be a poem in this post...I was thinking of one last night (like usual, when I'm trying to sleep), so I ended up trying to write it down...it was hard cause I sleep on my mom's floor (yes, I do), so obviously she's in the room trying to sleep. I was wondering how to get a piece of paper and pen without her noticing...well, luckily she had to go downstairs so that's when I snatched them! She doesn't know that I have sudden bursts of creative writing thoughts during the night...so I try to keep it secret... Yesterday we went to Grand Slam (mentioned in some posts before), and we being me, dad, and Corey, we played DDR!! ^^ It was a lot of fun...I was sooo tired and gross and sweaty after it. ^^; I've never seen my bro exercise this much in over a year...so it was quite amazing. "Put anything in the guise of a video game, and he'll be able to do it." That's what my mom said. *nods* My dad wasn't too good...but he was better than last time. I still suck at the DDR machines (I'm used to my home pad), so I got mainly Ds, Cs, and I got 2 Bs...I even failed some. ^^; One time, I was soooo off the left arrow that I ended up falling of the machine. *laugh* I still got back up though and kept dancing!! So it was very fun last night!! Now for a poem! In the forest of consuming thoughts, I wander aimlessly. Turning left, then right, Turning up, then down, I try to find the way. But I keep on getting lost Lost in those consuming thoughts That ravage at my mind That torment all my feelings. Which is the way out of here? Is it under that branch? Or above the trees? Crying helplessly I shout out for reply, But no one answers Because it's all in my mind. Weird...poem...right? ^^; There was a lot more to it that I had thought of last night...but unfortunately, while trying to scribble down my poem before my got there...well, I sorta forgot. I ran out of time! ^^; So this is how it ended up. It's a poem about...well, about my stupid mind that always has all these disturbing thoughts that really get to me. I think about them all the time...and worry...and crap like that. Those thoughts can be related to anything...but the point is, I get lost in them, and they do ravage at my mind. ^^; Yeah, I'm a freak... Alrighty!! I'm sorry for, like usual, I have no visiting time today...cause I never do during the week!! >< I hope that you enjoyed reading my post, so thanks for visiting me!! I'm really sorry that I never get to return the favor...it really makes me feel bad. ^^; I hope that you all have a day in which you don't feel lost!!

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Monday, August 14, 2006

*laugh* JungWoo, that I didn't have a title for my post..."Wow, did everyone die yesterday or what?" just happened to be my first sentence, but thanks for liking it anyway!! There, now you for sure have a shout-out! ^^ I couldn't mention you before cause you didn't comment the other day! Thanks sooooooooo much for the sweet comments!! *hugs* Especially the ones about my poem (Ayumi-chan, you really think they keep getting better and better?? Awww!!!!! *hugs a ton*), they really make me feel good. ^^ Yes, I have to read 2 summer reading books, but it's not as bad as the kids that are going into AP English...they have to read 4!!! And they're all hard-reads...especially the one that I can't even spell the title! It's one of those classics though ("Beowulf" or something), along with King Lear, another Shakespeare, and some other book I can't remember...so I'm glad i'm not going into that class. ^^; Nooo!!! School is getting closer...that's not good...I'm scared!! >< I baked the cake yesterday! Well, for the most part I made it...my mom put in the butter, vanilla (it ended up being vanilla cake with cherry frosting, no chocolate), and some other stuff, while I put in the cake mix. Then I mixed it all up and poured it in the pan. My dad took it out of the oven though cause mom and I went up to the pool. Then later, I made the cherry frosting from scratch. ^^ My mom told me how to make it (so I wrote it all down) and then...well, I made it! It was soooooooooo yummy, too. Everyone loved the cake!!! And I did, too! ^^ I couldn't believe that I made it...so, yeah. I wish you all could taste it! *cuts more slices and hands each of you a piece* Other than making the cake yesterday, I didn't do anything...I spent most of my time playing DOA volleyball (on xbox). ^^; I read another Descendants of Darkness manga (they're so great I could keep reading them non-stop!!! but I have to conserve...can't read them all right away!), and then I started reading my other summer reading book (Red Azalea). It's actually pretty interesting so far. The writing style is very simple...like really, really simple...cause it's the autobiography of the author, Anchee Min, who was a Chinese living under the communist rule of Mao during the 50's-70's. So her writing in English is simple. ^^; If that makes any sense to you...^^; Hmm...I did have an overwhelming feeling of depression yesterday though...I'm not quite sure why, really...but I had this feeling of longing/loneliness. *sigh* I hope today I don't get like that. Today I'm not sure what we'll do...my mom's gonna go to the mall, but I don't know if I want to go with her. My bro and I might just stay home like usual. ^^; And do nothing...like usual. I'm sorry I don't really have visiting time today either...seeing how I have nothing to write about (sorry, I'm soooo boring these days!!!) I might be able to visit some of you after I post this. *nods* Well, I hope you all have a better-than-great day today!! Sorry for the shorter post again...and no poem...^^;

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

^^; Wow, did everyone die yesterday or what? *laugh* I know I commented on way more than 5 sites yesterday...yet, that was all the comments I got. Oh well. *hugs* Thanks for the comments!! I'm glad that you liked my poem (with its alliteration)! ^^ For those of you who didn't read my post from yesterday...well, you should go and read it today (at least if you wanna read a new poem by me). Yes, I am soooo glad that I'm done with reading Malcolm X! Now, I like I said, I'm taking a break by reading some manga before I start my next summer reading book. I go back to school after labor day...so that's september 5 or 6 or something. It's the latest I've ever gone back to school!! Usually we go back during august, so I'm really happy!! ^^ I know that for a lot of you though, tomorrow is the start of your new school year (it seems sooo early to me!!)...so I wish you guys luck. Oh, Rachel, Talladega Nights is the movie that's out with Will Ferrell in it. *nods* I ended up not making the cake yesterday...sorta ran out of time. My mom and dad went somewhere shopping so mom wasn't home to help me make the cake...and since my bro's workday ended at only 3:20, I really didn't have much time to myself. So...today I shall try making that cake from scratch! Possibly chocolate...with cherry icing...mmm....yummy. At the moment, I'm actually sorta feeling sick...I don't know why, but I had this overwhelming feeling of throwing up. ^^; I think I should be fine now...I hope... *hums* Boring!! I have a boring life...especially recently, sorry! Nothing to talk about...except how I couldn't sleep last night cause of my dog! He woke me up with his barking at about 2:20am...I tried to ignore him and go back to sleep, but I couldn't. I got worried so I walk out into the hall, right when my dad got up, too. So he goes and checks on him, and he goes outside to make sure there's nothing suspicious or anything...I wait around for a while, still tired enough to sleep, and then I go back to lay down. I get back up though when they come inside to see if everything's ok. Everything was so I set the alarm again, and went back to bed...10 seconds later...the alarm goes off! (house alarm) It's probably the most disturbing and scariest sound ever (at least to me). I get back up and turn it off...then I'm scared about why it went off! So my dad goes outside again, checks all the windows, and comes back...nothing was wrong. ^^; I was still worried though, and I couldn't breathe...so I finally fell back to sleep around 4am. *sigh* Stupid!! Ok...since this post totally is boring and sucks...and since hardly anyone read yesterday's post, I'll just put the same poem here again. ^^; So now you get to read it again for those of you that already did! Silently, softly, Shifting shadows, Steps streaming Amongst one another. Hand in hand Holding each other Hoping the dance Will not end. Candles ablaze Carrying the moment Coalescing the dancers In their embrace. I hope you all have a great day today! The weather's really nice here...not humid at all! ^^ Thanks for stopping by and reading my horribly boring and actually-not-as-long-as-usual post!

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

Thankies for the comments!!! *hugs* I'm glad you actually weren't bored by reading about my day. ^^; Oh, and thanks to the few of you that have gaia accounts for giving me your account names! I just added you to my friends list (well, "pending friends list")...so, yay!! I'm just warning you that I rarely go on gaia anymore...usually just once or twice a week. ^^; Since I get no time on the computer during the week, I just use the little time I have (about a half-hour) to check my emails on go on here to post!! So that just shows how much you guys mean to me!! (Sorry gaia friends!! ^^; They all seem to be like "where are you???") Anyhoo, I also noticed that practically none of you have played xbox! I'm really surprised...but not quite actually...cause I never wanted an xbox before. It was just until my bro went on a crazy buying spree that we ended up getting one. ^^; It's so much fun though! So I'm glad that he was in one of his buying frenzies for once. Alrighty...*sigh* I don't think I have...oh, nevermind! *laugh* I forgot...we saw Talladega (sp?) Nights yesterday like I said we would. It was rather funny. It really surprised me cause I didn't think it was going to be that great. Some parts weren't as entertaining...and I really hate the actor that played "Ricky Bobby's" friend. I hate that guy!! It's cause I really disliked his cahracter in "Chicago"...so, yeah...anyhoo, enough rambling about the movie...(though it was quite the short rambling). I finally finished Malcolm X!! ^^ Though I just skimmed the last 80 pages (the epilogue)...I just read the pages about his assassination and funeral. I'm so glad that book is over with now! ^^ Now I'm taking a break from the hard stuff and reading some manga till I feel like I've "recovered" enough to read my next summer reading book, Red Azalea. That book doesn't seem that bad though. It's about a girl growing up during the Chinese Cultural Revolution...and she ends up being a lesbian. That's all I know about it. ^^; Today my brother works till 3:30 or something like that...he gave me "assignments" to do while he's at work (like download things, burn stuff (CDs, not actually "burning" stuff!), among other things...) so it's really stupid. I hate it when he thinks he can just order me around to do stuff...and that I have to have "stuff to do" while he's a work. He's such a jerk! >< I hate it. Other than that, my dad wants me to try baking a cake from scratch. My mom will be outside telling me through the window how to make it (since she can't be in the kitchen). I don't know what kind of cake I'll make...but I hope it actually turns out well. ^^; I've never made a cake from scratch before...so...yeah... Hmm...I'm really lost for words today. I'm sorry I have nothing else of interest to talk about...but at least I can visit you guys today (until 3-ish). ^^ I hope to get to most of your sites! Hmm...let's see if I can come up with a poem right now. I was thinking of one last night...so, yeah. Silently, softly, Shifting shadows, Steps streaming Amongst one another. Hand in hand Holding each other Hoping the dance Will not end. Candles ablaze Carrying the moment Coalescing the dancers In their embrace. So...yeah...it's a poem about dancers...or at least, about two people that love each other that are dancing. ^^; I tried to use a lot of alliteration (yay), and as you can see, I started each line with the same letter 3 lines in a row, and then I broke those up with a different letter. I don't know what i was thinking when I came up with this, honestly, I don't. ^^; Dancers? Must've been the DDR session the other day. *laugh* I really don't know. Anyhoo, I hoped you liked it! Maybe sometime I'll just post all of my poems together in a post. *nods* Then you can pick your fave! Have a fantabulous day everyone!! *hugs*

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Friday, August 11, 2006

*hugs* I'm running out of ways to begin my posts! *laugh* That is...I'm running out of the first thing to say other than "thanks for the comments"...hmmm...well, obviously, this time around it's different! *laugh* Now I'll say...thank ya very much for all the comments, you sweet and dear friends of mine!!! (really...are you guys tired of me thanking you all the time? well, even if you are, i'm still gonna dedicate a whole paragraph to thanking you guys!! ><) First off, I have to explain...*laugh* No, JungWoo, the xbox stuff didn't really come in the mail box. ^^; The box was placed by the door...cause even though we have a huge industrial sized mailbox, there's no way that the xbox stuff would've fit. ^^; I see that lots of you are the same way as me (when it comes to friends)! Yay! I'm glad I'm not alone with my anti-social-ness. ^^ Anyhoo, we had a great time yesterday! *nods* Like usual (I should never expect any better...) Kupo got here a half-hour late. ^^; I should always tell her to get here an hour or half-hour earlier than I really want her to be over...cause then she'd be on time! Her mom makes her late all the time...even at school! She's gotten many detentions for lates. ^^; So right when she got here, my dog started barking like a madman (like usual)...we went up to the "green room" (the room in my house that's painted all green w/green carpeting, it's where the game systems are) to put her dance pad there. After that, I took her to my horribly messy room to show her my piles of manga! Then we started playing games...for a long time...^^ Thank goodness we got that xbox the day before or else we wouldnt have had as much fun (I think). We played Karaoke Revolution for quite a while...though we were both sorta embarrassed of our singing. She was waaaay better than me though. *sigh* She got such great scores!!! I swear, Konami games were made for her! Anyhoo, before that we played DOA volleyball for a really long time, too...she had fun with the buying of swimsuits and whatnot (and of course the playing of volleyball). After about 3 1/2 hours of playing DOA, Karaoke Revolution, and DDR, we then went up to the pool. That was right when my bro got home from his interview. Of course, being the jerk that he is, the first thing he says to me is, "Man, you stink!" Well, duh! We just played DDR for an hour or whatever!!! He didn't need to say that in front of my friend...stupid jerk! >< So anyway, we go up to the pool and we ate our snacks (it was around 5, and we didn't even have lunch! we were so in-tuned to the game playing...that our game inertia carried us through all that playing!). We got in the jacuzzi and splashed my dog (yes, he's still limping...) while talking about school stuff and such. She's planning on going to Britain for college and studying linguistics...or something like that. ^^; It's amazing! Going overseas for college! But she has family there, so it won't be too strange. She's lucky she knows what she wants to do in life...*sigh* But she continuously encouraged me (she always does, no matter what...like when we play DDR, she's doing songs on heavy and getting As while I get Cs on standard...but she still says, "wow!! you did great! you got a C! that was a tough song, too! etc...she's so nice...). ^^ So, yeah, I'll end my time talking about yesterday now...just saying that it was an enjoyable time. As for today...hmm...we might go see a movie, that Will Ferrell (sp?) movie...whatever it's called. ^^; Where he's a racecar driver or something. I don't really want to see it, but my mom is sorta insisting...since it got such good reviews and whatnot. Hopefully my brother will get a call from the vet saying that he got the job...he didn't really tell me much about the interview, so I'm not sure how it went. ^^; He works tomorrow (yay...but not...), but unfortunately it's not his usual schedule! He works from 8:30am to 3 or 3:30 or something...so I really won't get as much time as I usually do to be on the computer!!! >< Stupid!!! Cause I certainly don't get up that early...I get up around 11...so I won't get much time to myself. *sigh* So sorry, no visiting time today...and I will get some tomorrow but not as much!! *sob* I'm sorry!!! Well, I'll end this post now. I hope it was sorta interesting for you to read about my day with my friend yesterday...it was probably really boring for you guys to read, but...whatever. Sorry! I was thinking of a poem to write, but I didn't quite get it done in my mind...so no poem today either. I'm thinking that this school year I'll finally be courageous enough to submit some of my poetry to our literary magazine. ^^; Hopefully...anyhoo, I hope that all of you have a better-than-fantastic day today! Remember, my thoughts are with all of you...whether I can visit your sites or not!! P.S.JungWoo! What's your gaia account name? Is it the same?

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

*laugh* Thanks for your comments!!! They were all great! I'm laughing cause the last one I read was JungWoo's. ^^ Yes, you were the first commnent!! Congratulations!! *hugs* Anyhoo, thanks for all your concern for my dog and for Harvey...my dog is still limping (*sob*), but at least Harvey (dspR, that's his username on here and on Gaia) didn't delete his account!!! He just turned it off...and he just won't post as often. Wow, Reki...that was some reaction to his possibly being gone! ("Harvey deleted his account!? *knocks head repeatedly* thats it im never not checking sites again! and if i break this statment ima make me run three miles in the blazing hot sun!") *laugh* I hope he reads that!! Then he'll know how loved he is here!! >< Thanks for all the other comments, too. ^^ Even if it is just "sorry, I don't have much time to comment right now...", then I'm happy. At least you cared enough about me to tell me that. I'm sorry that I don't even do that. *sigh* I sometimes try to if I even have a little time to visit...but I usually don't. I'm sorry!! Well, as I said before (and as some of you commented about, thanks) I'm having a friend over today! Her name's Sian (pronounced "Shawn"), aka Kupo. It's my "annual-have-Kupo-over-and-play-DDR-and-go-in-the-pool day"! *laugh* For the past three summers I've been trying to have her over once and then play DDR and go in my pool! She's usually the only friend I have over...she's probably the only friend I've had over my house for the past 4 years or so. ^^; I usually go over others' houses (hah, "usually" actually means "never") or we meet up at the mall (that happens with my other "group" of friends, which is about 2-3, about twice a year...). Yeah...I'm not a social person...and even having Kupo over today is brain-wracking! I couldn't sleep very well cause I was so nervous...nervous!! One shouldn't usually be nervous and have anxiety when having someone over that they know! *sigh* It just shows my total anti-socialism or fear of people or whatever it is...*sigh* I'm sure we'll still have fun though. I have to make this post short so I can do some cleaning up first before she gets here...and there's lots of cleaning up to do! ^^; Yesterday, in the mail, my brother got the auction he won on ebay...XBOXes! So I (well, not really I...he because he paid for it all) finally have an xbox! So yesterday I was having tons of fun with the games. ^^ Mainly the Dead or Alive Extreme Volleyball!! *laugh* It's so much fun buying the girls accessories and swimsuits and stuff...and lounging by the pool, going to the casino, and of course, playing volleyball! ^^ I also tried out Karaoke Revolution (I did pretty well for my first time...I sang "Complicated", and I got 18,000 something points...you need 20,000 to get a "platinum" award. *sigh* so close!!). So, yeah, I'm sure Kupo and I can have some fun with that today as well! I used to diss xbox soooo much...saying how horrible it was, and how only "nerds" liked it and stuff...well, I guess I'm now one of those "nerds." *laugh* I take back what I've said!! Ok...I'll make this end here now. Sorry for the short post! Oh, I forgot to say that (yay, my prayers have been answered!) my brother has an interview today at my dog's vet's office to be either a secritary or person that takes care of the animals in the kennel!! So he'll go when I have my friend over, which is perfect timing! Oooooh, I hope they give him the job!!! >_< Please!!! Ok then, now I'll say goodbye! Have a magical (?) day!! Sorry for not being able to visit...again... P.S. JungWoo, my gaia account name is "Iila". ^^

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