Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Hey everyone! Oh goodness, I am so sorry I haven’t posted in a while! My mom finished her grad class on Thursday so we spent a lot of time together this weekend. I’m really sorry that I haven’t been able to visit anyone’s site in a while, I will today...well, I’ll try! Oh, and I’m sorry I wasn’t able to welcome my friends back who had been on trips soooo…WELCOME BACK Demonsprite and Sailor Starfire! Okay, apologies out of the way, now onto the post ^_^

I really want to thank everyone who read my story! Your comments meant so much to me. I’m so glad you all liked it, and I’m really sorry if you cried and didn’t want to! Oh, and Shizuka as far as I know it’s not a true story. All made up in my head. I would like to get it published, but I’m not really sure how to go about doing it. I thought about waiting until I’d written a couple more short stories and publish them all together in a collection. Just a little dream of mine ^_^

Well, I hope you all have a fantastic week! laters...

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Saturday, June 19, 2004

Butterfly Asa: Part 3

I did not understand at the time how he could say that. But later when I found out he died it made sense. He knew. He knew he was going to die and that it would be over. He knew he would not have to fight anymore. It was all going to be okay.
At first, I thought he had committed suicide. However, the autopsy showed nothing was wrong with him. No illness had caused the death and he was not hurt in any way. That is when I realized his true cause of death. His heart had been broken beyond repair.
Well, five weeks later my parents separated. My mom got custody of me and we moved to a new town, far away from our old one. I think mom was trying to get away from everything, her divorce, and her son’s mysterious death. She cried a lot for almost three months. Then I think she began to recover. She joined a women’s group for women who had tragedy in their past. I think it helped a lot not having to face it alone and all. As for me, I spent much of my time getting accustomed to my new room.
It has been one year since my butterfly died. I went to visit him. I placed a bouquet of Freesias on his grave; they were his favorite flowers. I looked at his tombstone and smiled. The man who engraved Asa’s name on it also engraved a butterfly on it free of charge. He said if it made me smile that was enough payment. I wish Asa could have met that man. Asa would have liked him.
Now I am back in my bed, with one of my favorite books beside me. “April is the cruelest month.” No. Eliot was wrong. April is not cruel. True, it is a month of death and cruelty yet at the same time it is a month of life and new beginnings.



Well, that's the end. I hope you all liked it ^_^ I'm really, really sorry for not getting to everyone's sites yesterday or today. I've been really busy this weekend. Yeah, I know big surprise ^_^;; Hope ya'll have a great a day! laters...
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Friday, June 18, 2004

Butterfly Asa: Part 2

It was only two weeks before his death that I noticed anything wrong. He seemed more tired and sadder than any other time I had seen him. When I would ask him what was wrong he would brush me of with a “nothing” using a small, frail voice that did not seem to belong to him at all. Thinking back on that day, I wonder why I did not probe him more, try harder to get a response. It was almost as if I had just given up on him.
The night of his death he came into my room and sat on the end of my bed. He did this when he needed to talk to me. I sat down beside and gave him a warm bear hug. He did not hug me back. He sat on the bed looking small, frail, and more like a butterfly than I had ever before. He looked up at me with those beautiful gray eyes. They were filled with tears. This time when I asked him what was wrong, he answered me with a voice that was barely more than a whisper.
“Everything” was all he said. I asked him what he meant by that and he told me he had heard mom and dad fighting and they were going to break up. He said the kids at school beat him up because he was smarter and shorter than they were, so he was beginning to fail classes so as not to be beaten. A girl at school said she had liked him but a day later said he was a little baby and she was going to date someone who was better in gym class.
I stared at my butterfly Asa. I had no idea life had been going so hard for him. He had always been a happy child not caring what others thought of him. Then I looked down at the child in my arms, my Asa, my butterfly. His world was collapsing around him and there was nothing I could do to help. I was angry. I was angry with myself, with my parents, and with the children at Asa’s school. Asa gazed into my eyes. “Don’t be mad.” I burst into tears.


Well, that's the end of part 2. I hope you're enjoying it so far ^_^ Have a great weeekend! laters...
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Thursday, June 17, 2004

Hey everyone! Well, once again I can think of nothing to post, so I thought I'd post a story I wrote. I wrote it about a year and a half ago. It's a bit depressing bacause I wrote it after I read the most depressing book ever written ("That Was Then This is Now" by S.E. Hinton). I felt so hollow when I finished the book so I wrote this short story. I hope you enjoy it:

Butterfly Asa: part 1

“April is the cruelest month.” I placed the book that I had been reading down beside me on the bed. I gazed at the cover as I thought about what that phrase meant. The words “The Wasteland” and “by T.S. Eliot” were beginning to fade on the cover of the old book. I had read this book many times before but never had the first line caught my attention as it did this time. I bit my bottom lip (I always did this while I was thinking). The harder I thought the harder I bit. I have only bit myself to the point of bleeding once. It was when I was a small, uncomprehensive child and I had no idea I was capable of causing pain to others or myself. I always was a foolish child. Yet, it was the memories of childhood that kept me alive.
I again let the first line of the book take priority of my thoughts. I had always liked the month of April, until last year. Last year I realized the true cruelty April possessed. On April 16 of last year my little brother died. Nobody but I knows how he died. If I try to tell someone, they never believe me. They always say it was just his time to go or other junk like that. But I know, I know how he really died. He died of a broken heart. I understand if you may have doubts about this, but it is true.
My little brother’s name was Asa, butterfly Asa, as I liked to call him because he always reminded me of a butterfly. Asa was the most beautiful little boy in the whole world. His hair was slightly curly, and it was the most gorgeous color. It was a strange color for a little boy, it was dark gray, however it never made him look old or anything, just strangely beautiful. His eyes were the same strange, lovely color. He was a little short for his age, but that never stopped him, it just made him more determined in everything he did. He was my little butterfly.


That's the end of the first part. Please tell me what you think! Well, hope you all have a fantastic day! laters...

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Hey everyone! Well, I couldn't think of anything to post, sooooo, I thought I'd introduce you all to my lil baby. My kitty that is ^_^

Here she is...


name: Samantha Eliza Jane (named by my brother, why he named my cat...I'll never know)
age: um...I think she's 4, maybe 5
breed: Manx mix (the only one of her litter with a tail.)

She's quite the ham ^_^;;



Ain't she cute ^___^



Well, that's all...I hope you all have a great day! laters...

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Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Quote of the day:

(When the Lost Boys shoot the "Wendy-bird")

Peter: "She is to tell us stories... SHES..."
Slightly: "Dead... awful."
Curly: "Tragic."
Nibs: "Good shot, though."

-Peter Pan (2003)

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Monday, June 14, 2004

Hey everyone! I’m baaack!! *runs around tackling everyone with a hug* I missed you guys so much, you have no idea! Well, I guess I’ll tell you all about my trip. We left Friday morning and my cousin and I sat in the back of the van and read Harry Potter book 5 off and on all the way up. Actually, I read it to her. I love reading those books to people it’s so much fun trying to do all the voices! Once we got to the hotel we took our things up to our room and then went to the mall. It was great the mall was just across the street from the the hotel front door. I went to the bookstore inside the mall and got two mangas (I just couldn’t resist ^_^;;) For those who care I got Fruits Basket vol. 1 and Magic Knights Rayearth vol. 2. Oh, my goodness Fruits Basket is now officially my favorite manga. It was so cool! I loved Kyo ^_^ Such a cute lil kitty! I totally agreed with Tohru. If there was a year of the cat I would so want to be one! But, I'm a Tiger so I guess that's as close as you can get. The next day I woke up took a shower and then talked to my cousin Michael. Everyone else had gone to the bagel shop while I was in the shower.( I feel so loved -_-) It was really cool though because Michael had just gotten back from a trip to Europe and he was telling me all about it and showing me some artwork he bought. Now I wanna go to Europe! We all went to the reunion and I sat around reading my new mangas and drawing. It was a bit boring, but it wasn’t too bad. A ton of people would come up and watch me draw, and then my Grandpa took my sketch book and started showing it to everyone, okay, that was a little bit embarrassing ^_^;; We got to the hotel really late and stayed up till 1:00 watching the Cosby Show. I wanted to watch Wolf’s Rain, but I didn’t think my Grandma or my youngest cousin would appreciate it. The next day we left around 10:30 in the morning and traveled all day. Then I got home and went to bed...

Yes, so that was my vacation ^_^ Oh yeah! I got my grade on the Psychology test I took. I got a B-. I was a bit disappointed but I guess it could have been worse! Well, hope you all have a fantastic day! laters...

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Thursday, June 10, 2004

I can live with that ^_^ *gasp* I should totally draw that!!

RPG or Anime Character by ChaoticSoul
Your Name
Species	Ookami (Wolf Demon)
Hair Color	Silver
Eye Color	Left-PaleBlue Right-Black
Personality	Cutie
Weapon/Power	Mind Games
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

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Hey everyone! Oh, I’m so excited! Tomorrow, some of my family is going up to West Virginia for a family reunion. The last time I went was two years ago, so I’m really excited about it. My cousin, Stephanie, and I are riding up with our Grandparents so the car trip’s going to be super fun too. The sad part is that I’m going to be gone till Sunday! I’m going to miss you all so much this weekend! We’re staying in a hotel so no computer access -_- Well, I hope you all a great weekend, and try to be good and don’t do anything dangerous...oh, I’m going to miss you all soooo much! *huggles everyone super tightly* laters...
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Wednesday, June 9, 2004

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Argh! pulls back leg to kick computer oh wait, that wouldn’t be good -_- number one, I’m only wearing socks so It’ll probably hurt, and number two I don’t want to mess it up anymore. My computer’s being so mean to me right now! Every time I get online, I can only stay on for a max of five minute’s before it says “this program as performed and illegal operation, blah, blah, blah...” and then I have to close all the windows I was using! It’s so annoying >_< So if I can’t get to your sites today, I’m really sorry, but it’s not because I don’t want to of course, it’s my dumb, old computer...

The really annoying part is that we have another computer we could use (my mom brought her computer home from her classroom). The only problem, my mom’s computer can’t get online unless it’s using the school’s system to access the internet. Her computer’s is so much faster, so much better than the one we have, but we can’t use it -_- Oh, so frustrating...well, hope you guys have a great, computer-problem-free-day! laters...

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