Thursday, August 27, 2009

Dedication
A virtue most look up to. No matter what you're dedicated to there's certain Irony that keeps them admiring dedication. Sometimes that'd give you the occupation you need from a lot of people. Who doesn't like a person who won't betray them?
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Sunday, August 23, 2009

attention
The mood matches perfectly now... with the perfect song... and the perfect headache... so much.. Fun... look at you suffer Uriel. Haha your hair down by your face.. Such a guy you are... the sharp pain and the coughs keep you awake.. You're not the the only one... whenever I see Damien again I'm going to be a little angry but I'll let it go -ll let it fall... forgivness is strong in me.. And here I watch time go by in pain as the seconds tick.. When pain and time embrace.
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what have u become??
If only me and my life were two different people... and I could ask myself "why are you made up of lies?"
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Lies
The topic has to be about feelings in my life. Because, without self reflections nothing can shine through to look back at me. My shadows seem to grow every single day and so does my shame. I hate whenever those who express themselves use my name. I will just learn to hate if they keep up at this rate. I feel determined enough to go through my daily life and finish the love I've got all I have to do is destroy their fate. Show them how beautiful lies make good moments last. Time goes by slow a year becomes 7 days and the past is just a blur. Life sometimes seems to lag but at that moment you find yourself right past all the mistakes you've already done. The words of famous quotes and lyrics begin to fill your mind. Your inspiration goes away listening other artists and forgetting about how fake you are. If only you choose once again to make lies come true.
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Friday, August 14, 2009

I'm nothing
I stare right through your brown discusting eyes.
I scare you...
In your mind you can only think "why does he stare at me?"
I'm sick of you and your conceded self taking away important parts of the life made of gold.

"Hey..."
I say with love to my girl.
Her brown eyes perfect for her skin tone.
She's the only person that made me realize how pretty the sky was.
I tune out and stare right up.

"Bleh you fucking bitch"
You played with my feelings and now I'm going to make you suffer. I feel so fucking sick inside my stomach.. Your presence makes me sick.

"I love you" she tells me.
I ignore those words and keep the conversation going. "Why?" I can only wonder why someone would love such a fiend like myself.

In the end I just realize I'm nothing.
And that bitch deserves to die.
And my love deserves to grow.
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Saturday, August 8, 2009

Mairin Pt. 2
So... this is what i see... on the other face you've got..
leaving me behind all these walls alone.. and I can only think of once where it was you to make me suffer.. but now this time my suffering hurts more a little more than tears. here you leave me with a drunk a mother in tears and a sister gone. I feel completely okay with what has happened now.. now that he's gone but Mairin you can always come back to me.. and here I lie by myself staring back. walking through the rooms that bring me so many different memories and I hate myself for all the times i wasn't mature enough to keep up to love. so now i drive right through the nigh enjoying the dark hitting love as much as I can. Stop promising me that everything will be okay but slowly do i realize the problem is mine and not yours... so live me here so i can join me and myself... so selfish when I ask.. why God?? why me? but, he's a father I'd rather let watch as I try to get up.. too much pride to even be held down or even give up..

© 2009 eske


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Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Trimmed
Embeded in your soul I can see it rip through your flesh the damn corruption virally in you. I wish I didn't understand this disease and that you didn't feel it either. Passion, Pleasure and love all mixed up and with the fakes added like spice. In your sad curved life what kind of happiness do you get when there's nothing there left for you? Inside my chest while I stare at you I can feel my heartbeat and my lungs batling it through to keep me alive.. I'm sick of you watching me die as the day goes by.. Black and purple nails is what you posses and they begin to shatter.. What am I supposed to do..? While my nerves overeact and my hands shake.. I can't hold your life anymore and its slipping through, shining blue essence of life is now wasted.. And let it turn to smoke when it touches the filthy ground... and there's where your life goes. Right into the air where God devours you whole.
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Monday, August 3, 2009

Mairin
The glass window shatters but its not a loss... it turns into diamonds because this window was the window of friendship.. When it grows too much it becomes something precious.. So fine and so pure it catches the eyes of envy but it doesn't become affected. The price can't be afforded and a trade can't be made for the time and for the feelings that made it true. Its delicate though and lies can make it turn into jade and conflict into dirt... But, this sort of love I feel makes my honesty flow and my sincerity glow into a star making the diamonds gleam and shine. Crystal yellow roses... the light bright yellow.. And so this friendship will never break because the material is made of the strongest.
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starving children
I'm sitting at the table eating my dinner... they're little pieces of death.. I like the smell and the taste... it fills with happiness and I smile. In the night I can't wait to walk right into my nightmare and say hi to the children of death. They're lonely now that I ate his father away.. I laugh at their pathetic tears falling out of their eyes. I'm the keeper of secrets and within me death becomes nothing but shit. Immortality... blood never tasted so good. I break so many hearts as I strike through the chest of love and I smile all the way through and my devil eyes gray from the pain I inflict. My eyes looking dark from the decades without sleep. In a few more years God will come by and share my happiness with the the multitude.. Life is eternal.
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Monday, July 27, 2009

Jealousy
The world stares at you.
The crystalin' shine in their eyes never fades.
You're just like the moonlight as they look right at you.
"I wish I didn't envy you but I do..." they whisper to themselves.
So much for jealousy you're really into heresy.
Your conscience kills you and you pretend there's nothing there.
One day I'm going to get you.
We're going to enjoy that day together I know it isn't always as easy as it looks.
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