Thursday, October 4, 2007

   yes yes so the field trip was good
Fuck being homesick, fuck feeling guilty, fuck my fucking heart, I hate it. If I could force myself not to have feelings, I would, I don't even give a fuck about my life. I live for instant gratification, so if it feels good, if it's a whim, if it's to sate my own in-the-moment desire, I'll do it. But fuck, I don't even really hope for things. I WANT things, but wanting is not the same as hoping. And then, by living in the moment, I later get hurt, or hurt someone.

Ok fuck that bitching, that's enough.

So I just watched Perfect Blue. FUCKING AWESOME movie!!!!!! I haven't bought/watched Anime in a while, but I got this movie a few weeks ago. IT'S SO DAMN GOOD!!!!

If you haven't seen it, you HAVE TO SEE IT xD

But Becky came in and says, "She kinda looks like you...oh wow, she looks a LOT like you, just with brown eyes...you look like an anime character!"

=_= I always wanted to look like a psycho anime girl... ^^ actually, though, I can kinda see it.

me:

Mima (dark hair in the middle):


but actually, my hair is darker than in that pic of me up there, and closer to her style.

>_>

<_<

I could cosplay as Mima; she wears some pretty easily replicable clothes (thrift store, anyone?)

ahem. anyway. very good movie.

here are some more pics of my dorm and such


Becky



My bed



my messy ass desk


The bookshelf above my bed



FOOD!!!!!


The Sink and I


...just thought you should see it

heh so that's m'dorm

xD Becky is kinda dating her "friend" Jeff...I knew it would happen from the start.

It's cool as long as I don't have to see them...PDA x{ ick

but LOL

um

Yeah.

OH YEAH

Why is there a stereotype that black people like fried chicken and watermelon???

EVERYBODY (or almost) loves EITHER fried chicken, or watermelon, if not BOTH. I like both.

Fried chicken is awesome. Watermelon is great. nuff said

and in other bullshit, Heather identifies herself as "hispanic..." yeah, fucking right. I thought she was french what the fuck happened to that??? idiot. she's such a damn lying whore no way around it **irritated**thank you!
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Wednesday, October 3, 2007

   tsureshimaaaaaasu!!!
Japanese is fun, but even level 1 is difficult...

mostly because in FACT, we don't use Kana and I'm REALLY used to using Kana. Kana is EASY. fuck. in kana, it basically means what it says. I hate roomaji. especially THIS roomaji.

It says things like tiisa and masita. you're supposed to knowm that ti=chi and si=shi. I do, so it confuses the crap out of me. At least if you're going to use roomaji, use hepburn style

anyway. Today sucked. In my BORING AS HELL studies in west. culture (BORING) I had already been up for 5 hours (got up at 5) and had only slept for 4 hours. I was nodding off at the desk.

I feel bad for it. But no matter WHAT i did, I could NOT concentrate, could barely keep my eyes open and head up. Then my stomach started to flip, and I kept wondering when I was going to have to make a break for the toilets and puke.

i BARELY made it back to my dorm. Since that class got out about 12 and my next class wasn't til 5:30, i slept for about 4 hours.

haha. that "next class" was Japanese. The FACT teacher today creeps me out. his accent might be worse than mine.

hrm. what else. uhhh I don't know. LOL I'm off to Chipotle for a burrito =3 I love to walk in the rain, so that I shall hee hee


OOHHHH and I'm super excited (oohlala) for Weds. ESR lab!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD!! we're going to do field study at a creek. FIELD TRIP!!!!!

yay!!!

ok i'm hungry so I'll be back >_>thank you!
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Tuesday, October 2, 2007

   don't need to be a NIN fan to enjoy these
these are the most enjoyable (for anyone) videos from the NIN website/youtube

xD

Video 1: who knew rockstars were so dorky???
I THINK this is Jerodie, but I'm not sure >_<


too hilarious!!!!!!! xD i love this, seriously

Video 2: Japanese NIN fans...super CUTE girls...I think I'm just hoping it's TR doing the vid.




haha and thanks for all the comments from yesterday!!!!! ^^ i really felt better after them

**snorts** NaeNae: I saw her mugshot today xD OH MY GOD she looks so derranged!!!! xD hilarious

OK so who wants to see me??? and my dorm >_> too bad if not


day view from my dorm


Night view


this is how I dry my laundry


so is this!


flowers in my dorm!!! ^__^


a lovely view of the Willamette River at sunset from the Burnside Bridge


I drew on Domo-kun since I can't draw on the walls. it's more now.


Tamara (my sis) says that it looks like I live in the basement...actually, I'm on floor 6


Me wearing glasses... Meow!!!


my roommate Becky and I...a bad picture of both of us xD

...Naruto just told me to have sex!!!! he said (something like), "there's no point in doing something unless you go all the way!"

xD stupid English dub, sucks. Waiting for Futurama. I've already seen thesethank you!
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Monday, October 1, 2007

   my heart is fucking broken, fucking MAGGOTS.
You have to check this out.

Ok, so you know, i used to work weekly after school at an animal shelter. Ok, cool.

incidentally, this shelter had lots of bad stuff happen to it. Well, read the article up there.

the fucking maggot management was throwing animals in the dumpster. Not only is that totally illegal, disrespectful, filthy, cruel, it's dangerous to the wildlife that might happen upon these dead animals that have been euthanized. 2 bites and they could just keel over.

fuck them. fuck the bitch that gave the order. And there were other things, too. Like how donation money was misspent.

fucking greedy bastards, lower than the maggots feasting on the poor animals' dead flesh. fucking fired bitches, trying to SUE the news channel that did the report. they won't get shit, at least.

freedom of the presses, and it's not defimation of character because they admitted to some of the things.

**shakes head** fucking in tears and hysterics over that.

in the video on the link up there, they show this bag, and in the bag is a dead cat, but all you can see is his poor, limp arm and tail. Tell me, how much more defeated can you get than a homeless cat, put to sleep, then thrown unceremoniously into the dumpster?

when I see that, it becomes SO real. I fucking worked there; i know that place so well!!! and yet I feel like I don't know it at all. If she had told me to throw a dead animal away, I would NOT have, at least not without questioning her.

When I see that, it becomes so real, I can see all the animals I ever cared for, feel them, hear them, smell them, I'm talking to them, and they're responding. That poor silver tabby is stretching his paw out to grab me and my attention as I feed all the cats. the dogs about wag themselves in half when I approach with a leash to take them for a walk.

Don't tell me i'm over reacting. My heart is fucking breaking, i'm so disillusioned, and if you side with them in your mind, fine, just please have respect for my feelings, because i knew who knows how many animals that wound up in that dumpster. I gave who knows how much money that was wasted. the only thing I didn't waste was my time, because i KNOW that went straight to the animals. they were my friends, I loved them, I cherished them, and they got shit in return

...

on another note, this is another interesting article. If I saw this bitch, i'd call the cops on her ass. Someone should teach her what a Samurai REALLY is, and kick her racist bitch ass.

Fucking psycho woman chases kids with katana.thank you!
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Saturday, September 29, 2007

   parenting tips from Carlos Mencia
...tonto... -_-

so today i walked from about...maybe 6pm to about 9pm

damn. so if it takes me 20 minutes to walk a mile, and I walked for...180 minutes, that's... um...wow 9 miles. that'd only be 4.5 miles each way =]

=[ but while i was gone, brooke came by. She was my "original" roommate, but couldn't make it

i'm so fucking emo, LOL it sucks. i suck. don't matter.

i wanna go home, to see my pets. oh and my mom and antonio and friends.


shiiiiiiiiit. I want my mommy to come back here and do my laundry for me xD lol i need to do laundry tomorrowthank you!
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Friday, September 28, 2007

   stupid motherFUCKer
wow. So the other day I went to buy a Ministry cd...and I got a cd, oh yes. But it turned out to be by a band called Mindless Self Indulgence.

It isn't a bad album, either, LOL happy accident

ai. so i'm tired and sore. I'm tired all the time

I love to watch South Park. as you may or may not know, I am from Colorado. so South Park has a lot of inside jokes that I always get but I guess a lot of people don't...lol my roommate didn't

LMAO!!!!! talk about irony, i was JUST talking about this episode and it comes on

it's the episode where Jimmy needs to get laid

xD butters in the bathroom: "Jeez, who's dropping bombs in there??? how about a couresy flush?"

LMAO inside joke: Officer Barbrady talks about Colfax, which is well known for being a "hooker street"thank you!
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

   an inquisitive mind may not know all, but it's on the right track
so I have survived my FIRST 2 DAYS of college. Effing hard to believe, considering I was not even a high school sophomore, only 14 years old, when I started here.

Now, I am less than a month away from turning 18, and in college. Not that I ever doubted i would go to college, but I can honestly say that 3 years ago, i did NOT expect to be here, like this. And it's a good thing.

I have only been here...wow not long at all! almost 2 weeks, is that really it??? I haven't been here long, but it feels like I've lived here forever and always done this. When you get down to it, I'm truly a scholarly girl at heart =)

Studying is better here. It's actually INTERESTING. I really like my Japanese class. I'm taking it from the very beginning, but that's good because it will give me a TINY break, and because I can relearn everything I've forgotten/never learned. Also, the Japanese classes here are A LOT LOT LOT of fun! i really enjoyed myself this evening.

Also enjoyable is biology. The bio lecture is HUGE, 280+ students. but my lab starts at 6 AM so no one else wants to join it. But I like that it's small. Today we had a lot of fun ^_^ not knowing what to do because the procedure was not so well written and the spectophotographer machine thing was a WTF to work

I'm REALLY looking forward to my ESR lab next week; FIELD TRIIIIIIIIIP!!!! xD awesomeness. Going to be doing a little study at a creek. I LOVE ESR (ESR=Environmental Science=my major) a lot; the Professor is pretty cool, and I can agree with him. The thing about ESR is it's a PROBLEM SOLVING science. Not the use of hippies to prove their dirty hippie truths, but used to study a problem, find solutions to the problems, and consequences to those solutions, while trying to accomodate to everyone's values. Complicated, but I look forward to it.

As to my effing Studies in Western Cultures class...it will be interesting, at least. LOL. I'm not too sure on the professor; he seems pretty nice, but REALLY smart (it's Honors, though) and honestly, a bit intimidating. He claims not to like that condescending relationship between expert and learner, textbook and student, but he uses a large, perhaps unnecessarily wordy, somewhat complex vocabulary.

It's like he talks in circles, or something. Maybe my own vernacular is a bit...crude, a poor use for a tool as magnificent as language, but that's the thing about me: I'm honest, and I'm me. I don't kiss ass no matter how far it will get me, I try not to be condescending or stuck up or snooty, I try not to lie to people, that sort of thing. This isn't a RULE; I can be VERY
manipulative when I want to be. Not particularly proud of that, but hey, it's true.

Anyway, yeah, those are my classes, very exciting business. So far my only real social life is Becky, and Antonio and Mayte thru texts xD I'm so cool like that

Note to self: BRING LUNCH to biology...LOL xD

And NOTE TO ALL:

If i don't get around to your sites, I'M REALLY REALLY REALLY SORRY =( I'm so busy with studying and all, I don't even know when I'm going to have time to do laundry, or worse, TAKE A SHOWER >_<

I wrote this as I practiced Japanese so yeah. I'll try to get around better than an STD, though, so... >_>

ttyl!!! sorry for having such a long shlong post!thank you!
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

ahoy there maytes
argh. i'm tired xD I moved in on...Monday!! for good. After I dropped my mom off at the airport.

I'm settling in to Portland. I like it here, really. My dorm is nice; i get the bed by the window, and the view is good.

As for my roommate...she's AWESOME!!!! I got into my dorm monday, and was setting up the tv, when there's this knock at my door, and some lady I don't know asking me if her daughter got in ok...i was like: ???

haha turns out Brooke cancelled, so I got Becky instead. Brooke was okay, but I really like Becky. She's so bright, sociable, and friendly. She's a lot more like my friends than Brooke is.

Becky is half Vietnamese, half white. She's from Hawaii!!!!! Cool right? She's so friendly, i'm gonna get to meet a lot of people thru her.

Haha, we stayed up til 2 am last night chatting; she's really easy to talk to ^_^

I'm excited to start classes monday, and I know i;ll be busy, so if i'm not around...SORRY~!!!!!!!!!

**cries and hugs you**thank you!
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Saturday, September 15, 2007

   snobby bastards kiss my fat ass
we got to Portland OK. nice city.

but the smarmy ass waiter in the snobby ass piece of shit restaraunt...FEH. he's a total jerk.

I go in there, while this lady is singing some bad jazz, sit down in the end booth, and it takes him like 10 minutes to ask me, "Do you need something?" I asked for a menu and some water.

When he FINALLY got around to taking my order, they were out of nachos, so i got gyoza. yummy! then he took a while to bring my food, a while to bring my check, a while to bring my change, and he talked to me like I don't speak English.

"This is a box."
"This doesn't have a lid."
"I sold the last of it. No more."
"Here's your check. Here's your change."

Motherfucker, I'm not stupid, and I speak English. There were some Hispanics/Mexicans who left before he got around to serving them.

fuck rich people. the ones that think they're better than anyone, anyway.

Hmph. I left him a tip smaller than his tiny penis!!!! I left him a nickle to show I remembered to tip him but that I wasn't pleased.

And don't say it's cos they were busy or anything. Some old, fat white lady sat her big fat butt down and was served her ORDER in 5 minutes

and the jazz lady sucked, but at least she was nice. >:(thank you!
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Friday, September 14, 2007

   too tired
and itchy and irritated.

crappy trip, mother was a freaking nightmare. She'd be cheerful one second, pissed the next.

I'm TIRED and hungry.

I just wanna get moved in and die. Die, for reals

...no not really. i'll talk more when I'm awakethank you!
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