Thursday, July 27, 2006

sweefundunger. oyspoo. day.
well i haven't updated in forever, so i'll just go chronologically and tell you guys what's happened...

basically we went to dan shui. one time it was w/ my family, the other was with the chinese summer school/camp thing. it was pretty fun....but i didn't really buy much. i won some tiny piggy-banks by throwing rings over them. ^_^ they're so cute. i got a little ducky one and a little panda one. i was gonna buy a HUGE ducky plushie (same ducky as the ducky i won), and it was REALLY cute, but it had an ugly "hat" and i don't know how i'm gonna stuff that into my luggage when i get back to the u.s. anyways. i'm still really sad that i didn't buy it though. :( i want that ducky.

we were actually supposed to go to um...somewhere to celebrate tong wan jie, and we were gonna do stuff w/ water or something...but because of the typhoon, we couldn't...now we're gonna do it next week.

my friend from spain likes someone. a lot. but she's had a bf before and when they broke up she was REALLY REALLY REALLY sad, so she's really scared to go into that kind of relationship again and she doesn't WANT to like him. but she likes him A LOT (more than she liked her ex-bf) and so we (me and our roomie) convinced her to tell him. it's tomorrow. right after the karaoke contest. which we are gonna (and there's NO exaggeration here) bomb. the girls are at least KINDA enthusiastic about it, but the guys...they're the ones who are supposed to act out the lyrics, but when they're supposed to come up, they just sit there. or sleep. and then we yell at them to come up, but they just sit there. and i'm the class president, so i yell at them louder than everyone else...heh....don't get me mad. i was just like, "GET ONSTAGE!" and then he was like, "ban zhang (class president)!" and then he flashed me (which this guy does to me everyday and i'm SO sick of it). and then i was like, "GET UP NOW!!!!" and he flashed me AGAIN. and then i literally SCREAMED, "NI XIAN ZAI GEI WUO SHANG TAI!!!!!!!!!" (which is like...a really angry way of saying, "GET ON THE STAGE NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!!!") and then he came on for a bit and then walked right back off. ass hole...

but the more important thing is...

kiki's doing the same summer school/program that i am, but in a different place. and she's REALLY homesick. kiki's homesickness is spinning out of porportion. it's like the ONE THING that's keeping her from enjoying it. and i don't even know how to BEGIN to describe how bad it is. the longest she's been away from her parents is THREE DAYS. and now she's gonna have to suffer through SIX WEEKS. it's too sudden. i think she needs a more gradual process to independence. i mean...it's gotten so bad that she's crying every day and every night and starting to think of quitting. that's what her mom wants her to do. her dad just wants her to put up with the homesickness. he was comparing her to me and how i can handle it but she can't. but really...i'm a totally different person than she is. i grew up with a neglectful father, a mother always at work, and the nannies that we've had have never really gotten REAL close....so basically it was just my brother and me. and me being the elder, i learned to become independent easier and faster. that's why i'm doing better than kiki is.....at least i think that's why..

what's the cure for homesickness besides going home? i can't stop thinking about this and worrying about this and how the hell am i gonna help her?

she WANTS to learn more chinese. REALLY REALLY bad. but that means that she's gonna have to put up with the camp and suffer the homesickness. if she quits, she'll at least be able to stay with her uncle and can spend an extra week with me (my camp ends a week earlier than hers, but i'm staying for another week and a half here in taiwan after my camp's done). which should she choose?

and she can't switch over to where i am right now. and she already calls her family every day.

i need help too.

i need help to help her.

quote of the day
"If you can't return a favor, pass it on." -Louise Brown
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Thursday, July 20, 2006

sweefundunger...
...wow. i haven't posted here in forever. jeez, lots have happened...

well first off, I SAW POTC2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!M OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG JACK SPARROW!!!!!!!!!!!!! okokokok i need to gush out some things here, so if you don't want any spoilers, don't read the italicized part.

i don't get why sparrow wanted to be cpt. of the pearl so bad. and i don't get how davey jones has the power to make jack the cpt. or does he not? did i interpret it wrong? this is the way i understood it: sparrow wants to be cpt. of the pearl, so he makes a deal w/ davey jones. davey jones lets jack be cpt. for 13 years and then jack has to give davey jones his soul (which would be the same thing as serving him...?). so then 13 years pass and jack doesn't want to keep his end of the bargain so he sends will over. then davey jones gets mad and says that if he can't have jack, then he wants a hundred total souls. and i feel so sorry for the commodor (sp?)...he's really selfish and everything, but he still loves swann. and i feel so sorry for gvr. swann too!!! he's like so dedicated to his daughter but she keeps pushing him away for WILLWILLWILL. :( i don't get what they were gonna do to/for gvr. swann either. :? and if the heart of davey jones gets stabbed/davey jones dies, then no one can control the cragen, right? but will still wants to kill it...? i mean yeah, he made a promise to his poor father, but that's just for one person. NOT killing the heart and instead putting it into the right hands would be better and save more lives, right? ah well...and didn't they get DIZZY rehearsing all those rolling parts??? like when they were in the aborigini cage and SCREAMING as they rolled downhill (that was SO funny). and when jack and will and the commodor were fighting on/in that wheel. OH and i love the part where they're like...gibs: we don't have any cannons left!
will: then use the rum!
pirates: O_O.
XD LOL!!! wow that was funny...AND THE POOR DOGGY!!!! omg what happens at the end of the credits??? my friends wouldn't wait for me....:(

ok done with that rant....so yeah...my friends and i went to ximending to see it on sunday...and we spent the rest of the time shopping/trying to get those stuffed animals and stuff with one of those claw thingies. and we didn't get anything. xp it's pretty much impossible though....BUT I DIDN'T GET MY TOTORO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TT_______________________TT

ok yeah. and yesterday we went to jiufen to just walk around and see all their shops. that was a lot of fun. i got a TON of presents for my friends and family. i even got a (really flimsy lol) wooden sword for my brother, a necklace for my mom, a necklace for my aunt (and one for kiki too...and one for me. XD lol), some food, and some keychain things...including one of a lil ducky for sakki. sakki is TERRIFIED of ducks. hehehe. XD

friday we had taiwanese class!!!! that was so much fun!!! i wanna do it again! and best of all....I WON A TOTORO PLUSHIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehehe. so yesh...tomorrow our teacher's taking us to the taiwanese white house fuuuunnn..-_-' oh well...better than being in class, neh?

and sorry to confuse some ppl on my previous posts...i'm at a summer school in taiwan for learning chinese, not at an actual camp where there are cabins and everything. i live in a college. :)
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

sweefundunger.
blaaaahhhh....

i dunno what to say. :p

we went to dan shui yesterday for a "welcome ceremony" even though this is our second week. XD but at least i got to see kiki there cuz she's doing the same program as i am (with the chinese summer school thing), just over there while i'm at shi da. wow....her facilities sound bad. at least we have decent bathrooms and ok beds...XD but WE DON'T EVEN HAVE HOT WATER!!!! gar. oh well....makes up for the heat outside. XD

today we went to jin shan to bbq....OMG IT WAS SO HOT!!!!! it was still fun though...and yummy. :9 all i ate was like...corn and pork. XD good stuff....but then we had like a whole THREE HOURS left to do w/e after we finished eating and everything....so we started spraying water at each other with water bottles. that was SO fun. but i got really really really really really soaked. lol. XD but i brought another set of clothes with me....cuz everyone said that we'd play around w/ water there.....wow......my butt still feels really wet. XD lol

blaahh....classes are boring. :p oh well....heard there's gonna be a typhoon this weekend. gar. but we're still going on this trip that they planned for, despite the weather. O.O we'll see how that goes...

i had to go to the doctor a couple days ago cuz i just kept getting more and more and more bug bites and they all got worse and worse and worse over time (even if i didn't scratch them!)......my ENTIRE left hand COMPLETELY swelled up...and i got one on my eyebrow that swelled so huge that i couldn't open my eye. yeah it was bad...but the doctor gave me some medicine so i'm a lot better now. :) it's just that i have to swallow like.....13 pills a day. xp and two of them are like....HUGE. so i always can feel it lodged in my throat. ick. :p

ok i really can't think of anything more to write so bye!
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Tuesday, July 4, 2006

   sweeefunnnnnduuuuuuuunnnngerrrrrrrrr!!!
well today's my second day here @ this taiwan language camp..thing. xp gosh, i arrived on wed. night, and by the next morning, i had 40+ insect bites. 27 i got during breakfast. 3 are on my face. 7 were all on the same arm. the rest were ALL OVER my legs. but of course, since it's almost been a week since i arrived, i've gotten more. xp i now have counted 51. X__________X god, i knew that bugs absolutely LOVED me, but not quite so much. and it's like 90+ degrees fahrenheit here EVERY DAY. but thankfully i have air conditioning in my dorm (we live in a college for the camp thing). ^_^

the morning after i had arrived, my aunt and her family took me to xito (pronounced shee-toe), which is like a national forest type of thing. OMG it was beautiful. then the next day we went to pingdong to see some lil kids there. :) they were pretty poor, and it was ESPECIALLY hot since it's @ the southern tip of taiwan. xp but it's like an aboriginal community, and we learned a lot about their culture, so it was REALLY cool (despite the heat...hahaha get it? me and my lame puns. XD).

then the next day we came back to taipei, and the day after that was the 1st day of the camp thing!

it's been pretty fun so far. we just had some placement tests to put us in classes, and it wasn't so bad. AND IT'S TOTALLY AIR-CONDITIONED!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! x3 lol well yeah i was told the college i'm staying @ is the one my dad went to. O.o well anywho, the counselors are REALY funny. XD there's only one who's fluent in english, and he was translating for the ppl who know absolutely NO chinese, and he was being a total smart-ass and translating everything so that it would insult the guy who was talking. SO funny. the guy would say something like, "feixia is like pee-tuh pah-n! see?" (in chinese of course...except for the "pee-tuh pah-n" part). and he flapped his arms up and down...and the guy who was translating would be like, "he means peter pan. he THINKS he's tinkerbell, see? he's putting on a little dress and trying to fly around." and then the other guy thought that he was translating it right, so we was like, "ya ya ya ya ya." XD lol!

and it looks like we're gonna go on a whole bunch of trips too, including ones to other camps of the same program, so maybe i'll see kiki!! eeee! *squeal* but we're gonna go to xito again. xp BUT I JUST WENT THERE! TT_TT don¡¦t get me wrong, that place IS beautiful, but the MOSQUITOES...

...but at least we're gonna go to a waterpark. YAY!!!

XD haha and it turns out that we can use the computers pretty much anytime. i think i'm gonna be too busy studying, doing hw, practicing piano, and doing laundry to be on much though. TT_TT

omg and they taught us some songs...and one was almost completely in taiwanese (which i only know a few sentences or so of), so that was HARD. but the guy who was teaching it to us (tien tien or sky sky...and you have to call him sky sky, not just sky, or else he'll ignore you. XD) was the same guy who was getting translated by the smart-ass, so that ended up being pretty funny too. sky sky was singing and completely exaggerating his movements, and the smart-ass was throwing cardboard boxes at him. rofl! and then sky sky was like, ¡§see? i sing so well that he's sending these to me as gifts!¡¨ XD XD XD hahaha

so yesh. and i have 2 roomies! one is 17 and from NJ, and the other is 14 too but from SPAIN!! so i can practice my spanish too!! YAAAAAAAAY!!! and there were even some other ppl (and keep in mind that they're all of chinese/taiwanese descent) from france, germany, the NETHERLANDS, chile...etc. so it's like...O_O yeah. but most of us are still from the US. XD there are like 190-ish students here...and like 94 of us are americans. xp

quote of the day

"Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot about puppies." -Gene Hill (i miss my doggie...TT_TT and everyone else at home too of course. <3)

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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

   sweefundunger?
the new theme is a pic of my doggie that i took. *pets him*

hm...my mom's fiance was talking to me today about himself and the whole about-to-be-married issue. oy yoy yoy yoy...my mom has only talked about it to me when i demmanded that she tell me. and since then, she's said nothing about it.

so basically he was talking about his childhood...and the results of his experiences and how i can deal with him when he gets into his anger tantrums. apparently he was adopted by his dad who married 5 times. O________O oh me oh my...and he said that he was molested too....again, oh me oh my. but he's turned out to be a pretty decent guy in spite of that (from what i've seen). he says he's always been reluctant to marry unless it was JUST the right person for him cuz he didn't want to repeat what his dad did...so he considers my mom the "right person?"

all this is going too fast. it's going way too fast. he even admitted that it was going fast. but he didn't have an excuse for it. they plan to marry on the weekend after my bday this year. by then, they wouldn't even have known each other for a full year. and that scares me. from what i've seen, he's a good guy....he's nice, open, and considerate...he says he loves my mom a lot. he sounded pretty genuine. i guess i'm just over-suspicious...i don't want what happened between my dad and my mom to happen again. i'm worried (but then again, when am i NOT worried?). not only for me and my brother, but for my mom also...i've only heard like a half of what happened between her and my dad (i was only like...6 by the time they divorced, so i didn't really pay attention or understand anything..all that mattered to me at the time was if i was gonna stay with my brother. and i was already assured that i was). and i've seen her cry about it so many times. so many times. but every time i offer her comfort, she tells me to go away. :( i know i'm immature and stupid next to her...i know i won't be able to understand everything that went on...but why can't she just let me listen? why can't i at least know? i want to be her friend. i want to listen to her...maybe even to prove that i'm not some stupid, dim-witted little girl. to prove that i understand. which i know i don't...i dunno. but she's shared everything with her fiance in the like, what...seven months they've known each other? and out of the fourteen, almost fifteen, damn years that i've known her and that she's known me...i still don't even know her. she keeps talking to him about hobbies that she wish she could do when her work allowed her to...hobbies that i didn't even know existed in her.

i think my main reason for bearing a grudge against him (yes, i admit it. i was bearing a grudge and tried to convince myself that i was just careful...) is that i feel like he's taking my mother away from me and my brother. maybe that's just cuz we've always been her only attention and now there's just someone else to attend to. and i'm just not used to that so i take it as if she values him over me. stupid immature thinking...i know it's stupid. i know it's not true. i know it, but i don't feel it.

i'm getting off topic...i wanted to talk about his little "talk" with me. i'm not sure how i feel about it. i'm grateful that he talked to me about it...really i am. i needed the reassurance that he truly loved my mom and would do nothing to harm her. and i needed to know more about him, cuz i barely know him at all. and to think he's gonna be my stepfather. i pretty much nodded the whole time through. i didn't really say anything. damn my timidity. he probably took that as if i wasn't really listening, as if i didn't care....but i did, i just didn't know what to say...and even if i did know, i wouldn't say it because...well just because. i dunno. i should have said something...should have thanked him for talking to me about it....he asked me to talk to him about me, but i just said, "i dunno..." i should have told him about his and my mom's absolutely agitating, irksome, annoying over-use of pda. i should have told him that i always seem aloof, selfish, not caring....but that's not it. it's just hard for me to trust others. i dunno why. just is. always had been. not like my brother. my oh-so-perfect little brother who acts so much like my mom. damn, why couldn't i have inherited my mom's personality and not my good-for-nothing-pathetic-excuse-of-a dad's? but in any case, i said nothing.

i dunno what to make of this. i dunno how i feel right now. i feel like i need to express myself...but how, when i don't even know what to express? should i draw a picture of hope? i know the best i can do now is hope that everything will work out. or should i draw a picture of confusion? of i-have-no-idea-what's-going-on-or-will-happen-ness? what can i do? i want so many things...damn my selfishness. i want my mom to come to trust me, i want the relationship to slow down, i want her fiance to just leave me alone (do i?), i want to have the immense kind of emotional strength my mom has...she's fallen into SO many (metaphorical) ditches in her life, and she's pulled herself out of every one. by herself. without others' help. and yet here i am giving in to my whore-mones and sinking into a different ditch in life. a minor ditch compared to hers. and i KNOW i need someone to help me out. how pathetic.

damn, i get distracted easily...i don't know what to make of this. i don't know how i feel. i know that i'll know how i feel tomorrow, that's what always happens...

i guess...i guess that i just feel as if he's intruding into my life. but i also guess that...well, if it's going this quickly, maybe they both have truly found love. real love. real love that my mom has almost given up on, about to throw the idea away in disbelief. and in a sense, i am happy for her. but i'm not happy for me. my brother seems to welcome him most affectionately into our family. there's my brother for you, always trusting, always open, never sulky and quiet like me. like my dad. like my selfish, lazy, arrogant dad. the more i think of him, the more i hate him. and the more i hate him, the more i hate myself, cuz i know that i mirror his personality in almost every way. damn. damn, damn, damn.

i think i want my mom's fiance to just go away. that's what i want, but not my mom, obviously...and as long as mom wants it, it's ok, right? as long as mom's happy, it doesn't matter that rikuheart isn't happy. that's what i keep telling myself, but my damned selfish thoughts keep coming back. i do love my mom. i love her to bits...i would readily die for her at any moment (though i know that me dying would kill her more than me). i know that she loves me. i know that she does not value her fiance over me. i know it, but i don't feel it. i know it, but i don't feel it. what is wrong with me?

i guess i just want attention. damned whore-mones. though it's easy just to blame everything on them...i know part of it is just cuz of me, with or without hormones. me and my selfishness. do i really want him to just back out of my life? i know i do, i'm just not willing to accept it.

whatever will happen will happen. there's nothing left that i can do but hope. hope that everything will be okay and that he won't betray my mom or my brother or me. hope that he'll understand that it's just my personality to be quiet, whether i'm thankful that he's there or not. hope that with his addition to the family (and his cat, mocha :), everything will only get better. i'll have a father, for once. i still don't consider him a father, but maybe some day i will. and maybe i'll have a daddy to run to when i have an issue that mommy won't help in (which is practically always, since she's usually the one i have an issue with).

hope, rikuheart, hope. hope for the best, and whatever the consequences that may follow, you can overcome them. stay strong. keep fighting. keep fighting to get out of that little ditch in your life. whatever happens, you'll live through all this and help the rest of your family cope as well, cuz you can.

i can. i will.

quote of the day
"Happiness depends on ourselves." -Aristotle

edit: sorry about all the swearing and complaining and the long post. i just needed to let my feelings out and get things straight. :)
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Sunday, June 25, 2006

sweefundungerrrrrrrrrr.......
i'm going to taiwan on wednesday. i really don't want to pack. and i hate airplanes. xp at least i'll have a lil break before my connecting flight in tokyo. poor kiki must suffer through a direct flight...that's like....15 straight hours. in an airplane. ugh. *hugs her*

well my mom said that kiki can come over on tuesday. i hope she can....*nudges her to ask her parents*

WHY IS IT SO HOT?!?!?!?! it's like a whole TEN DEGREES warmer now than it was like SIX YEARS AGO!!!! damn you global warming...i just want to run around with a co2 sucking machine/tree and get rid of all this over-warming. ARGH! last night i couldn't sleep till FOUR AM cuz it was just so hot...

sooo....yeah. i'm bored. i should be packing right now. but i'm not, cuz i'm just a lazy procrastinator like that. :p

phoenix
There was a time, long ago,
When humans' hearts were not so shallow,
And in harmony did Nature live
With Her children, all of them.
But eventually, Man forgot
How to love, and so He fought
Over earth and over power,
Till greed succeeded and Man cowered.
Dreading Nature, His very mother,
Man spat; with evil was He smothered.
What He feared He tried to kill,
Addicted to pride, like a dangerous pill.
But with wisdom and new heart,
With fresh eyes, with fresh start,
Man shall LIVE, Man shall fill
His heart with love, and rise Man will.

<333

quote of the day
"When your dreams turn to dust, vaccum." -Unknown
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Monday, January 9, 2006

   *screams* SWEEFUNDUNGER!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH I HAVE BEEN WORKING FOR THE PAST TWO FRICKING HOURS ON THIS DAMN HISTORY DAY ASSIGNMENT AND ONLY ON TWO FREAKING WORDS: EASTERN EUROPE. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET IT TO SOUND NATURAL WITH THE REST OF THE AUDIO BUT NO MATTER WHAT I DO, THE DAMN THING DOESN'T WORK!!!! *roars* and not to mention when i first started working on it my mom, her "friend," and my brother were screaming and laughing while playing a game when i couldn't fffffffrickin' hear anything of what i was TRYING TO EDIT!!! so then i tried to switch to headphones, but since ours also has a microphone attatched to it, it has two different cables that connect to two different...er....ports. and i had to try like TWENTY FREAKING TIMES just to get it to work so that i could hear something!!!! THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!! AND YESTERDAY WASN'T ANY BETTER BECAUSE WE WERE REALLY FRUSTRATED WITH STUPID MICROSOFT AND THEIR STUPID LITTLE WINDOWS MOVIEMAKER PROGRAM THAT WOULDN'T LET US INSERT OUR AUDIO!!! AND THEN WE TRIED IT ON ULEAD, THE PROGRAM WHERE WE *DON'T* HAVE EVERYTHING ON (IN FACT WE HAVE NOTHING, WE JUST CHOSE A RANDOM CLIP FROM A MOVIE AND INSERTED THE AUDIO AND MUSIC) AND IT WORKED PERFECTLY!!!!!!!!! AND THEN WE WERE really STARTING TO HATE OURSELVES FOR NOT USING ULEAD IN THE FIRST PLACE (WHICH WOULD SIMPLIFY THINGS BY a lot) OR SWITCHING TO IT BEFORE WE HAD ALMOST EVERYTHING ON MOVIEMAKER!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *throws headphones onto the desk* AND NO MATTER HOW MANY FREAKIN' TIMES I TRY TO RECORD MY VOICE AGAIN TO FIX MY PROBLEM THERE'S ALWAYS SOME BIG FUZZ THAT INTERRUPTS IT!!!! AND MY STUPID BROTHER JUST WOULD NOT LISTEN TO ME TO JUST SHUT THE HELL UP AND LET ME RECORD SOMETHING RIGHT JUST ONCE!!!!! *smashes the wall* it is now 11:25 pm and i STILL don't have it to work! AND i have school tomorrow and i'm going to be SO grumpy if i go to bed late. i still have to take a shower today!!!!!!!!!!! i've decided to give up on this goddamn history day project for today and try again tomorrow. and then i gotta practice piano. and then i gotta give copper a bath on tuesday (since monday i'll be spending the whole fffffreaking day on history day -possibly with my friend-) AND do all the rest of the hw our stupid teachers give us!!!!!!!!

whew....glad i got that out...well most of it anyways..by slamming on the keyboard....

anywho, on a brighter note, the test yesterday to get into a gifted students program was actually pretty easy...though i probably was careless about some stuff since i thought it was easy...but yeah...i think i did well.

oh yeah, and since the huskies won the college womens' volleyball championship, there was a HUGE celebration today in the bank of america arena and we went (because we are a big supporter of the huskies women volleyball team ^_^) and i got every player's signature on my ball and a couple pictures. plus i got the second-to-last mini-volleyball. it's all gold and pretty. :) it really reminded me that i should practice more every day so that i can get better in order to get on a team next season. ^^ and there was also one player who had a 4.0 gpa.....which i ALSO got to work on. xp if i got an A on my history day PAPER (on sun yat-sen), then i have a 4.0....but it's poorly gotten so i still have to improve. gar....i am just SO frustrated right now....
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

sweefundunger sleepy...
i'm sooooooooo tired....i worked from 10am-8pm at cinfv's house yesterday on history day...x________x and i'm at her house right now and working on it...but i'm waiting for her to finish printing out something and until then i have nothing to do so i'm just updating....ya....

*yawns* well i hope everyone had a happy happy happy christmas! ^_^ mine was very happy.....

and uh...yeah. nothing else to say, really....all break has been is history day. -_-' so bye.



..................i'm hungry.

OH and i submitted 2 fanart works.
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

   sweefundunger...
gar...history day sucks....>_< gonna have to meet up w/ cinfv every day for one of the weeks of break.......it's so stressful!!! >_< someone find me more stuff on the berlin wall!! and how the people protested against it and "took a stand!!!" that's supposed to be the theme this year...gar....

hum.....had a gift exchange thing at school today....i had one of cinfv's friends....i gave her a lil ty blue elephant beanie baby! ^_^ his name is peanuts. XD hahaha. she really liked it. which makes me happy. the person who got me gave me a couple pencils and a sketchbook. XD everyone always gives me artsy/crafty stuff for x-mas and my birthday.....and none of that stuff ever ends up on my list lol. oh well. that's ok. i've already gone through a lot of the sketchbook paper so..ya. XD right after i opened it i started drawing and then this one girl came up and was like, "and she's drawing already." lol

ooo!!! i can't wait till christmas!!!! i just finished most of my x-mas shopping today (still need one more thing, but i can get that tomorrow....or at least that's what my mom says. xp)!!! gotta wrap them all up now....my only problem is that fluffy absolutely DOES NOT accept ANY generosity. so.....that poses a problem....how to give it to her? i did spend a lot of time looking for the stuff....and a lot of money cuz i bought it off a website and i had to pay the shipping....-_-' so if i tell her that she might accept it.....gar. annoying. but i still can't wait for christmas!!!!

i'm giving....
my mom some picture frames that i decorated
my brother a stretchy awesome toy thing
fluffy a ty beanie baby bear that has a soccer ball on it (its name is kicks. ^_^)
teddy cat a ty beanie baby kitty called crystal (heh...yeah i have a lot of beanie babies)
cinfv a little banner that says, "chicken isn't meant for vegetarians."
sakki some earrings
and kiki a mini soccer ball!!!

HOORAY!!!!! ^_____________^

so what do you guys want for christmas????
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Saturday, December 10, 2005

sweefundunger...
...sorry i haven't been around for FOREVER, but nothing's really happened. i've just been loosing sleep over this one HUGE project that was due last tuesday for international studies.....this project will pretty much determine weather or not we have to repeat this class next year. so...yeah. everyone's been stressing out about it. we've been working on it all semester so now we're all like AH! omg what will i get on history day?!?!

um....yeah. it's called national history day and we have to write a 6-8 page paper on how our topic relates to the theme for this year (taking a stand in history: people, ideas, events).......gaaaah. and then there's the official nation-wide competition coming up that, if we choose to submit a paper, we have to write 8-10 pages on. -_-' ehh...google "national history day" if you don't know what i'm talking about....or maybe it was on www.nhd.org or something. i dunno. but yeah....now that we're done with our paper, we have to turn in something we would submit to the actual competition, even if we don't actually want to compete (and i do want to compete). so we have to choose between doing a paper, a documentary, a performance, or an exhibit....i'm thinking documentary....and we can do this in groups if we choose to too so i might do it with cinfv......it's gonna be a lot of work but what the heck. xp my topic was sun yat-sen (father of china and taiwan) but since there's like no video footage of anything about him we might have to do cinfv's topic....

blah i'm ranting. my tummy hurts....i ate too much for lunch. xp heh.
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