Friday, September 17, 2004

   Hmmmm... *looks around at everyone suspiciously*

Well... I see nobody was willing to help on my button problem. It seems that it is causing a couple problems as is for a few of my friends to have them posted on here as they are. I NEED HELP HERE PPL... if you can offer some assistance... I would appreciate it. Morbid thought of the day: Is the sight of freely flowing blood a turn on to anyone? Not that it is for me... just curious... (But don't count it out that it might be... *snickers*) My Quote: "Wear your heart on your shoulders and watch it get bruised... keep it hidden inside and it turns to stone... pain is always better than petrification..."

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Thursday, September 16, 2004

   ERROR... ERROR... NO ROBINSON!!!

AAAAGGGGHHHH!!! Everything I've tried so far for my buttons to work has spat back in my face!!! Right now I'm just testing them out a little. But, if there is anyone willing to lend some time and help me out... please try. As for everything else in life... so/so... I have my scanner and now I'll start working on some fanart to submit. My car is in the shits, and my job is just going... and going... and going... WHOP!!! *WHACKS ENERGIZER BUNNY WITH SPIKED MALLET* *wipes battery acid and rabbit blood from face* Ahem... as I was saying. My life is ok. Not good, not bad, just is. So I feel free to be me again. *everyone reading smacks face with disdain and groans loudly* So be ready to see more of me soon. Later... Morbid thought of the day: How public do you think they media would make it if Jack the Ripper had performed his crimes in current times? Would we see the gruesomeness of his acts on the television or not? Hehehe... *thoughts of mental damage to kids plays through mind* My Quote: "Keeping your feet on the ground is the first step of becoming a spiritual person..."

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Wednesday, September 15, 2004

   Got a scanner now!!! HAHAHA!!!

Now what to do with it?... *thinks* If you haven't read my songs below this... then do so now... please... I want feedback. Tis it for now... later...

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

   Confounded embed code!!!

I can't get this damn mp3 to work... and it is really annoying me right now... If anyone could help me find a site that lets you link to them to embed a song... let me know please...

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Well... since my friend gave me the idea...

I thought I'd post a couple songs of mine... my friend Tenchi gave me the idea. So here is the first one... it's 2 years old now... but if you touch it... oooooohhhh... But please, leave a comment for me... ---------------------------------- TORTURED: Alone in my life Torn between my thoughts I live my existence In fear of what everyone else thinks of me I shun my feelings No one can ever get close to me Faith is the only thing... I can believe Alone, I stand before you Alone, it seems I'll stay Pre-chorus: (Tortured...) My mind is... (Tortured...) My life is... (Tortured...) My soul is... (TORTURED...) Chorus: I can see through myself I cannot hide anything I've been alone too long I cannot love anyone I can see through myself And I don't like anything I have secluded myself I need to confide in someone Pain is my religion Trust is something taken for granted Love is the only thing... I can never have Alone, I look in the mirror Alone, is what stares back at me Pre-chorus: (Tortured...) My mind is... (Tortured...) My life is... (Tortured...) My soul is... (TORTURED...) [Guitar solo] Chorus: I can see through myself I cannot hide anything If you get close to me Then I'll just push you away I can see through myself And I don't like anything Just keep away from me There is just too much pain Alon, is what I am Tortured, is how I feel Torn, throughout my life Pain, is what I'll keep Trust, is what I need Love, I need to see Alone, I should not be Tortured, I WILL NOT STAY!!! ---------------------------------- The next one is not so nice... so WARNING... explicit language in this next song... and TAKE THIS INTO CONSIDERATION... this is not meant for anyone on this site or in my life, it was a song I wrote about a year ago as well, so... Again... touch this, and feel my wrath... Divided We Conquer: Who the fuck told me how to live my life I live my own, and that's how it should be I say goodbye to what I used to call friendship So step your shit up and tell me this while you've got your chance GET THE FUCK UP Pre-chorus: Inside (I feel like I should hate you) Inside (It seems we're destined enemies) Inside (I know I've told you this before) But... you know what? DIVIDED WE CONQUER!!! Chorus: Nothing ever goes as well as it's meant to Give me more shit, and I'll show you PROOF Who's to say that we were ever friends Keep it all up, and I'll show you how it ENDS Cause... DIVIDED WE CONQUER!!! And that's the way it seems it should be I wish you luck... but who gives a fuck Why the fuck did you think I followed your path When this road in life... it seems like MINE I wanted to believe I had a part in this relationship But when I stepped my shit up, you just turned your back DON'T FUCKING WALK AWAY FROM ME!!! Pre-chorus: Inside (I feel like I should hate you) Inside (It seems we're destined enemies) Inside (I know I've told you this before) But... you know what? DIVIDED WE CONQUER!!! Chorus: Nothing ever goes as well as it's meant to Give me more shit, and I'll show you PROOF Who's to say that we were ever friends Keep it all up, and I'll show you how it ENDS Cause... DIVIDED WE CONQUER!!! And that's the way it seems it should be I wish you luck... but who gives a fuck Bridge: You took something good And turned it all around Now my trust with you Is nowhere to be found I tried my best To do all these things right But I only ended up Recieving all your spite Why is that...? Why is that...? Why... why...? TELL ME!!! or... DIVIDED WE'LL CONQUER!!! DIVIDED WE'LL CONQUER!!!

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Monday, September 13, 2004

Are emotions a good thing, or are they a curse of some sort? I had a great day at work today... notice the hint of sarcasm there... It all started with my cheery mood (also sarcasm), that nearly got me into a fist fight with my foreman, and then later on... I had to goof around with a fucking tacker-hammer (staple-hammer for those who don't know tool terminology) and end up with a 3/4" staple stuck into the back of my hand puncturing a vein and making it bleed like niagra falls. My hand was covered in blood by the time I went in to wash it off. Blood is so cool... Anyway... to finish off the day, we had a customer come in at closing time and want a few things. Well... one of my fellow employees did what he normally does and decided he didn't have to help us. I AM SOOOO SICK OF HIM... (now that I'm actually trying to get in touch with my emotions... I'm finding that I want to explode a lot more often.

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I'm lost inside... and I've finally found myself. I know this is contradictory, but it is exactly what is going on with me. I've finally gotten in touch with my dark side. It doesn't feel good, and it doesn't help with anything, but for once... I feel complete. I have officially fucked over the lives of those I care about, just by saying what was in my mind and my heart, and all of them seem to think I am against them now. If they want to think that... so be it. I wasn't saying anything I said to ruin relationships, or insult anyone. It was my true feelings. I'm new at this "expressing my emotions" shit, so if it comes out wrong, I appologize in advance. For those who read this, I will be posting my entire life story when I get home from work tonight. So this way, maybe some of you will understand where I come from. Well... later...

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Friday, September 10, 2004

Radiance

Cowering in the dark My eternal struggle is locked away No one is able to see the torment within these walls The only light to be seen Is the radiance of my inner soul I know one day this light will be seen by those I care for But what will it take? Why is it that everyone is oblivious? How much crying out must my soul do before it is noticed? Knowing I'm only human Makes this task a seem difficult But... I know one day this light will be seen, and understood...

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Morning...

Well, I have the feeling that today is going to be extremely interesting... don't know for sure why (I do, but it's not for discussion on here). What I can say is that I get to go to work early to start things off. I guess I should be happy that it is payday... right? *sighs* Morbid thought of the day: What is it with the sound of bones breaking or crunching that seems to give everyone the willies? Most of us a fine with the sight of a broken bone, but when we actually hear it break *shudders*... To be honest, I think it is a unique sound, and should be heard more often. HAHAHAHA!!! My Quote: "Never look into the mirror unless you are willing to face reality" By the way... found a decent site for some rare anime merchandise... check it out... Animateusa

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Thursday, September 9, 2004

   More poetry...

Searching for inner strength Probing the deepest realms of conciousness Why is it that human souls are so fragile? Breaking into simple fears and flaws Nothing to gain, nothing to lose We all exist for a reason yet unknown Sanity is just a word for fools Can humanity find a purpose or will it fade

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