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Tuesday, April 5, 2011
thoughts and words
I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a while >.< My fault, but, I had a moment at work where I was constantly writing poems, I hope this makes up for it. Check it out.
Hate does nothing but burn,
to burn so deep into your skin,
that imprints the smile of the Devil.
Taken dead or alive, your soul will be
in the grasp of Satan.
Burning eternally and Eaten away,
inside out there is no escape.
"I've been helping you for over twenty years Vi!"
"How could you do this to me?!"
Debt to whom?! Debt to where?!
"Thousands and thousands of dollars" out the door,
and you still want to see more.
Down to your core, you're such a fool.
"They can beat me" for all I care, "beat me to death, I'm ready to die!"
It's like meth so steady, slow.
Gradually reaching to the top,
nowhere to run, there goes the sun.
Everywhere you turn, you just can't learn.
Learn how to stop. Repeating yourself -
over and over again. This is the end.
Is it okay to cry?
Take my life away,
and let me stay.
just for me to see.
Not to Lust for need,
but to lead. Lead me life away.
Say, it sucks to know,
everything you see is so low.
Low enough, that there really is no love.
I know it isn't as good, but it's straight off the back. I've been so exhausted lately - working over forty hours for two weeks and going to school at the same time. I know, it's unhealthy, but what can I say? I need to work if I'm going to want to graduate high school. Sucks, but it's what I have to do. Not much room to complain, if I did then I'd become like the slackers at my work. Although I did feel bad today at work, I felt lazy. >.< *sigh* well, I shall update again soon. I hope everything is okay for everybody else out there.
Monday, March 21, 2011
soldier at heart
I've realized that some parts in my life is relevant to two countries at war. At some point anyways. Lately, I can't decide what to do and where to go. School hasn't been going so well for me this term and I know I'll just end up in disappointment knowing I've done so much in my life I can't make up for lost time. It makes me so frustrated yet I'm still fighting. When I really sit and think about it, I'm just so happen to be so similar to someone I know in the military. All he does is works his way up by trying and trying. Not letting anything fading his way. Is it the same comparison regardless of how many ways I look at it?
Saturday, January 22, 2011
I know being born in a strict straight off Asian family gives me no choice but to abide every Asian rule out there, but, I'm almost at my limit. I work three jobs, go to school full time, do voluntary work, no time to go hang out with my friends and next thing you know. There's a Far*East Movement concert at the SunDance Festival and my mother says she's pissed at me for buying it without her permission. Last time I checked. Every penny I make is mine, I work my fucking ass off, I'm legal, I have rights and you're telling I can't go out and have fun? In Park City, Utah. Seriously? Are you FUCKING serious? I apologize this is an angry blog but seriously. What the fuck? I rarely have time to myself and you're telling me I have NO FUCKING RIGHT to go out and have fun. Some trust. Fuck my fucking life.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Oh shit it's 2011 already, man, it's a "wtf" moment for me. I don't know why. What really sucked was working new years eve to new years to new years day to another day. Sucked pretty bad if you ask me hahaha!! How is everybody's new year coming along. Any new year resolutions? Comment if you have any. I don't know mine yet. O.o; eek >.< What I do know is that I started out my year all shitty hahaha! My work place isn't really the best place to work at. Oh well, you do what you gotta do right? ^^v I just returned to school and I realized this morning that my break wasn't even break. All I did was work like a madman and return to school the next day. Now that is a serious "wtf" moment hahaha!!! So saddd T-T but any who. Happy late New Years and I hope you didn't drink too much ^.~
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Christmas has gone by and the new year is coming up. I finally received a second job that will hopefully help my family and I. My other job sucks haha! Saddening yes, but, a job is a job, what's worse is working from 0945 to 0100 the next day on new years eve. How wonderful right? Well, at least I get paid, nothing extra but I do get paid. Once I get paid, I can finally pay off payments to my second job. (I had to do a photo shoot for me resume) >.< What's good is GMAC is doing a little better. We're setting up an online inventory that will help a lot. Once that's up I will officially put the link on this website. How are you all doing? I miss being in contact with my otaku side. I must leave now to finish redecorating in my room. Furniture is nice, but, my new wall scroll of Ah! My Goddess of Belldandy just makes me room look even better. I will update later. Perhaps after new years. All in all, Merry late Christmas and Happy New Year. Ai Shiteiru :)