Sunday, March 6, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYUUTAROU
we all wish you well.

and for all of you.. here are some of my favorite ryuutarou screencaps:

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Saturday, March 5, 2005

wow *walks into dusty myO site* i guess i just stopped posting for a while ^^; i was kind of depressed, so i guess that's why i didn't update or visit everyone's sites and such. sorry about that ^^; i'm kind of tired right now so i'll just copy what i wrote on my xanga.

period 1 [ mr williams | engineering ]
yeah using the livejournal style thing... haha. well anyway, today sailboat designs were due, and mr williams caught someone working on their POW (problem of the week)!! o_O;; he started yelling (which is *so* rare for mr williams) and then he ripped up the papers! it was scary... since my pow was sitting in my engineering binder (poor orginizational skills), i thought that since i had it out he would rip mine up too >____< other than that i guess it was ok. kind of stressful though..

period 3 [ mr iseri | math ]
POW was due and some people were still working on it right before class started... o_o; haha mine wasn't that good, i bet i'll get like a 5 on it. but that's ok because i can always do all that extra credit he has on his site. it was such an easy class today. he went over trig functions and the portfolio and then he gave us two assignments that we all finished within the course of like... 10 minutes.

period 4 [ ms brakel | english ]
most of the class was kind of scared because it was the prefix/suffix test and not many people had studied. we also found out that we had to know the meaning of the example words, and that made us kind of paranoid. but when we took the test, it was actually kind of easy ^^; then we had free time and i drew a picture... julien said that it looked like kent o_O;; haha... i don't know why though. it looks nothing like him. if i had a scanner i would show you. but then again, none of you are probably interested ^^' besides, none of you know what kent looks like... haha.

period 6 [ mr jett | science ]
we went over constructions 17 and 18... really simple stuff. like what i learned last year in geometry.. >___>; then we were all in a panic because we only had like half an hour to work on our rockets, and only about half of us had actually started. i got in a group with david because he had a bottle and i didn't XD jenny also joined, and we had a really hard time putting the cone on. at the end, it was kind of a right-triangle looking thing, pointing somewhere off to the left... jenny and david were having fun with the tape... we actually went through an entire roll o_O; but apparently it flew fine... i hope we got full credit..

period 5 [ ms gilroy | health ]
today... ms gilroy told us about the evils of white food. like white bread, white rice, and pasta and flour tortillas. she said "eat other food instead"... haha... but.... i'm *asian*... how am i supposed to *not* eat white rice? lol. we didn't get to start our restaurant project but apparently we're going with a hawaiian theme... after that we voted on class t-shirt designs and people actually voted for mine! in fact, if i had voted for my own design (but i didn't because there was another design i liked more), my tshirt would have won~~ but now it's a tie. so we're not sure what to do about it now... haha.

period 7 [ hall-sensei | japanese ]
ahahahahaha... the funniest japanese class of the year. we were supposed to bring candy for girl's day, but like... no one did except there were some airheads and then my giant bag of lollipops. funny how many lollipops one class can go through, isn't it? i started with 360 and when i came home there were only about 25. anyway we took a test on telling time and i got one wrong because i thought it said "1:01" instead of "1:10" haha.. too bad. xD; then after that we were practicing and hall-sensei made everyone go to the corner if they got a wrong answer.. i'm so lucky i didn't have to... even bernie (*noriko*) got sent to the corner! and she's like the best student! well maybe vicky? hmmm maybe it's a tie between the two of them. you know, even hall-sensei sent *herself* to the corner! o_O;; and she asked daniel (yoshi) how to say 4:00, which happens to be "yoji" and she made it sound like "yoji, how would you like to say 4:00??" and the entire class started cracking up. even hall-sensei couldn't stop laughing! O_O;;

EDIT: hall-sensei gave away a fish that everyone thought was dead.. O_O

[after school]
well i went to art club and michelle gave me 2 more cds full of jrock!! X333 i'm so happy. it has a lot of asian kung fu generation pvs and such. hehe i'm gonna give her more blank discs to burn me the rest of it lol. started playing ddr again (since my dance pad has been gone until yesterday) and i'm starting to learn heavy level. haha to peter: you better show up next meeting so that we can play against each other. i'm gonna make a complete fool of myself so you better appreciate this. lol... i wasn't expecting you to actually decide to play xD

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Monday, February 28, 2005

fast
yeah... i didn't update yesterday or the day before because we had been fasting until 6:00 yesterday, then the dinner was until 8:00, so i didn't really have time to write anything ^^'

break-fast dinner = TEH AWESOME ((my friends say it would be cool if i said that, so i'm trying it out to see if they're right))

hahaha... i gained a pound yesterday night, because i ate too much xD; but when you haven't eaten for 30 hours, you tend to eat a lot when given the opportunity. besides, we had onigiri, spam musubi, teriyaki, and all this other good stuff. not to mention the hand-made sushi

the fast wasn't really as hard as i thought it would be ((because last year it was murder xD))... me and my sister went to my friend amanda's house, along with stephanie and carolyn. being with other people fasting made it easier. we played super smash brothers and poker lol. then we rp-ed a little bit, and i worked on my manga. stephanie started reading a lot, and carolyn and my sister started reading manga. amanda fell asleep at around 3 in the morning, but i couldn't sleep because my sister and carolyn were **SO** energetic *cough**cough* haha when i finally fell asleep it was 3:45. The rest of them slept at about 4:00. the fact that we all woke up at 6:30 was just a minor detail we got to not tell our parents xD

after that, carolyn played super smash brothers for a *long* time, and i drew some more pictures. then we had to see amanda's little sister jessica eat instant ramen... T^T haha. and... after that amanda's dad took us to borders and best buy. by then it was 5:30 and we had to get back to the church for the break-fast... haha it was so~~~ good~~~~ hehe.

Scars
do you ever notice when you have like a cut or scratch or scar, and you write something on it, when you try to wash it off it won't go away? i had a few scars on my hand, and i wrote down my friend's phone number on it, and now i can't get the ink off of where the scars are! o_O; now i have a lot of little blue lines on my hand... >>;

layout
expect a new layout soon (two weeks). i was planning to change it for ryuutarou's birthday, but yeah... decided to make it for this one year thing. if i continue to blog for another year, then next year i will make it for ryuutarou's birthday ((but that means i would have to still have time for blogging)). the new layout will be black and red ((like it was with my mana layout kind of)) i'll miss the blue, but i love ryuutarou's outfit in the red one~ i dont' know, but do you think i should change it again for my birthday? that will be like a month later, but still, that seems kind of like a short time... ^^'

dream
i've been having a recurring dream and i've already written about it on my livejournal ((joined to get access to jrock scans... lol more specifically plastic tree scans... lj link)) and my deviantART, but i may as well put it here too, just so i don't make you go to another site xD;;

it starts out in this big school and such and i'm talking with aura, but after a while he starts ignoring me and such. so i go and see harusaki who is in a pool and her boyfriend is sitting by the side of the pool next to her (and he happens to look kind of like ryuutarou... so i'm jealous xD) i notice a short distance away the pretty knife i've been talking about (i think it was in this journal) i still want to go get it, but i think "maybe later..." because i dont' really feel like getting up.

then i try to say something to aura again and he gets mad at me and says "why don't you just die? look, there's a knife over there, go stab yourself with it" and, not wanting to argue, i go over to where the pretty knife is and i stab myself. it's quite interesting actually... because so many times i haven't been able to get to the knife, and in this dream, i get it so easily... hm, i wonder if that means anything?

after that, i'm dead but i'm still in the school and, i see the knife and it's all bloody (probably because i just stabbed myself with it xD) and someone is looking at it and says "it's not clean anymore..." or something like that. and really it's not... it's not pretty anymore because my blood is too.. um not pure? or not clean? i forgot what the word to describe it with is... but yeah. because my blood isn't "clean" enough, the knife isn't pretty anymore, and for whatever reason my dead self begins to cry.

then harusaki laughs but says something about how the knife is ruined now, and aura says "who cares? at least she's dead now"

o_O; um... yeah, then i wake up... XD

now, i KNOW that they dont' want me to die and such, but for some reason my subconcsious mind doesn't, and i keep dreaming about it. but like, i think i shouldn't have put it on dA because aura was kind of hurt by it ((because he was like "you think i would say something like that to you??" or what not, and then said he was hurt that i would think that)).. but you know, i can't control what i think when i'm asleep. well unless it's a lucid dream XD;; but then again, i've never had a lucid dream in my life... XD;

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Friday, February 25, 2005

i've submitted some fan art, so when it gets accepted, please go look! (it may take a few days)

**no update tomorrow, because i'll be at a sleepover at my friend's house while we fast**

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

hey everyone, i haven't been able to get to the computer since my parents have been using it a lot today ^^'

so apparently, even at my "nerdy school" (or as my friends refer to it, the "smart school") i am more of a nerd than everyone else lol. what happened was, yesterday we switched seats for science, and i was in a table with david, meghan, devin, and julien. and later, jade found out she was at our table. she was like "why do i have to sit at the nerdy table?" and such. she like pointed to all of us (one at a time) and said "you're a nerd, you're a nerd" until she got to david... "wait, you're not a nerd" (because he slacks off a lot ^^') lol david was like "i'm not a nerd too? *fake sob*" then she talked about bernadette, and me, and said "see look, they're like perfect cams students" (because we were talking about grades and such) and mentioned that we both have no sense of style. hahahaha XD apparently i "don't have any fun in my life" because i "spend all my time studying" (which sometimes i do ^^') lol.

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

>>;
Today i watched some anime on International Channel. it was a particularly violent one, and i can't quite remember the name. The plot was really confusing too. It had something to do with a princess who tried to poison herself but survived, and now had some big snake thing wrapped around her heart... i don't remember that much more of the plot except for in the course of 30 minutes, 4 or 5 people were dead... there was one in particular that seemed rather harsh. this one woman got shot with 4 arrows, and then, since to them, that didn't seem like enough, they stabbed her... 3 times o_O;; heh... well anyway that doctor was kind of cute... but what can i say? he had a cape, and... well, you know me and capes. XD;; main character was someone named Dr. Blackjack... i think. they had cool ending/opening theme songs. actually i just realized that it's not always that bloody... ^^;

DDR
Apparently there is a ddr meeting every other week at lunch on fridays... first one starting... this friday O_O' which really sucks because on friday i'm fasting (more about that later) and it might be kind of hard to ddr... actually at that time i'm supposed to be eating as much as i possibly can so that i won't be as hungry later XD;; haha but anyway, i told peter if he played, i would play too, but i don't really want to play a lot that day XD;;

Ryuutarou
Today i was looking at more video screen caps and... OMG... he smiled... *turns bright red* so... pretty...



**blush**

30 hr famine
as i mentioned, i'm gonna fast starting this friday. it's part of world vision's 30 hour famine, and... yeah, basically we fast for 30 hours to raise money for poor children. it's fun... our small group has a big sleepover and we watch the food channel... haha. well i might not update friday night, but yeah....

drawings
oh those drawings i mentioned yesterday... couldn't get the scanner but i took digital pics..comments on the link..

couple
boy
jrock

remember a LONG time ago when i had everyone vote on 3 pictures of seifuku? well i finished it a while ago,but i've been trying to wait to use the scanner... turns out that the scanner isn't gonna be fixed for a l~o~n~g time... haha so here's the digital one: click here

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

DDR
i really miss my ddr pad... on thursday we sent it back to the company because there was a rip in it... so i haven't played since thursday~!!! T^T haha... i'm really looking forward to when i get it back. my sister played ddr with the controller while i danced behind her and i discovered that i don't suck at heavy as much as i think i did! haha. but seriously, the songs aren't as hard as i thought they were. i guess it was like when i started learning standard level.. at first everything seemed impossible, and now it's like "wow i can't believe i couldn't do that!" ok... so maybe it's not like that yet, but it will be by the end of march.. i hope. i want to get good enough so that i can go play against jordan without him having to play on light so that i don't look like an idiot ^^;; maybe one day i'll be a challenge for him.. maybe. until then, i'll try to practice every day XD

Science Fair
hmmmm well i'm a lot less stressed because i finished the experiments for my science fair today. so now all i have to do is type up a report. it actually was kind of cool... that is, unless i poisoned myself with that copper sulfate XD but i think if i did i would have noticed by now... hopefully. lol. my teacher was like "Next time you do your experiment, try to do it with something that's not toxic" haha.... i think i'll do that.

Art
Lately i've been drawing... like constantly XD it's been kind of fun actually, even though i don't like how some of them turn out... XD since friday, i've gone through half of my sketchbook. today i only got to draw 3, because i had a lot of schoolwork to do

the first one is this picture of a couple.... the guy is like.. hugging the girl and what not. i'm not used to drawing people from the back, so her feet look really strange. but other than that, it's ok i guess. i like the way the girl's face turned out... which is strange because it's my first profile-veiw face, so i wasn't expecting it to be that good... the dress turned out kind of 2-dimensional looking, but... i think if i scanned it, i could touch it up with photoshop. ^^

the second one is a guy in a tshirt and shorts, but he has a really girly pose... ^^;;; the reason? he started as a girl, but i drew the proportions wrong, and it was easier to fix if my character was a guy. so... he's a guy. doing one of those girly asian photo poses. haha. because of that, as my friend told me, he looks kind of like he's in a shounen-ai manga XD;;;;; ahhh... maybe he can just be really childish XD but other than that, i like the way his face turned out... overall, i think the picture turned out kind of cute. exscept maybe his legs are too long ^^'

the last pic took me a long time... three GUYS (even though my parents don't believe me xD) and they are all based on jrockers... or at least their hair and outfits are. i was feeling very unoriginal, so i got one of my issues of SHOXX and started drawing. one guy has an outfit from bis, and hair based on fanatic crisis' Tsutomu Ishizuki... the guy in the middle had hair from someone from gazette (>> i can't remember his name at the moment)... i actually like the way his hair turned out. it's very... long. lol. but the highlights look kind of cool... his clothes are from a group called MASK. the last guy... well i made his hair up, but it looks kind of choppy and not... natural XD the outfit is from a group called... well i couldn't read the kanji XD i didn't really spend that much time shading them, so it looks kind of sloppy. the eyes look a little strange too, except for the guy in the middle.. haha, this one is really sketchy so it is hard to see anything xD

when i get a scanner, i will show you...

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Monday, February 21, 2005

Back..
Sorry for my quick disappearance on myO, minna. things got kind of crazy while i was gone, so i needed to get things sorted out ^^;;

Naruto
well... apparently the new naruto is supposed to be for "young children and their families" which won't really work out considering... well, yeah, those of you who know naruto... >>;

my friend rachel let me borrow seasons 2 through 4, so hopefully i will be able to watch all of it! (even tho i would like to have seen season 1 ^^;) i might try to go buy them at mitsuwa, but i'm not sure if they will still sell it once the "official" version comes out xD;

they say that companies may come out with an english video game, and we might be able to get goods like plushies too... so that could be cool, so long as they don't mess it up... hahaha. if they keep the plushies the same cute plushies from the ufo catchers in japan, something good could come from this~ haha.

>_>
right... remember my secret admirer (brad)? i was online and he just asked me straight out if i would go out with him, and i said no and whatever... and he was like "no problem, thanks for answering"

however.... 2 seconds later i got an im from brad's friend, and he was like "what? you said no? why??" and i said "because i don't like him" and he said "but you two make a perfect couple!" so now.. brad's friend's girlfriend wants to meet me so she can see if we really ARE the perfect couple..

ok, for those of you who don't know... if you want to have a perfect couple, BOTH people have to like each other... not just one

and after that, brad had an away message asking me to look at his profile, and he had a poem about how he wished i had said yes... >_>;;;

Screenname
to everyone who i talk to on aim, i changed my sn. my new one:

xclosetchildx

i've had to explain this a lot, but closet child is one of the earlier pura songs. i've never actually heard it, but the lyrics are so cool~~~

A light from within a chest of drawers
Illuminates the girls with no hair
Pointing at me with a black leather organizer
For some reason I want to run away
I'm afraid
You take my precious
Hat and laughing, put it on
And that seems horribly sad
The scenes flowing past me are always clouded

If perpetually, it's the sound of that bell from deep within my ears
It is forever resounding it forever resounds

The dust-covered slide projector splutters a noise
And that same scene which everybody loves
Repeats

If perpetually, it's the sound of that bell from deep within my ears
It is forever resounding it forever
Resounds at me
I go crazy

The dust-covered slide projector splutters a noise
And that same scene which everybody loves
Will repeat

The dust-covered slide projector splutters a noise
Ah~
That same scene which everybody loves
Will repeat
.....which everybody loves
.....everybody loves
HAHAHAHAHAHA

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Friday, February 18, 2005

Ameni Utaeba______
I sing in the rain

Words: Arimura Ryutaro
Music: Hasegawa Tadashi

The sky looked lower than usual, and I became lonely.
I looked down and I seemed to shine.
A raindrop started to fall, and it incessantly continued.
Yet, I stayed at the gray road,
I smiled but hid it with my umbrella, so no one will see.

They continue to fall.
If I sing in the rain,
I would be in high spirits and everything around me will become gloomy.

My tears are as colorful as the rain
(Does anyone see me cry?)
My left shoulder is getting wet.
I try to shut everything into a frame I made from my hands
This is like the movie I lent you to watch.
The sound of the rain seems to shine, a tender one under my umbrella.

Pour without cease.
If I sing in the rain,
I would be in high spirits and everything around me will become gloomy.

Pour without cease.
If I sing in the rain,
I would be in high spirits and everything around me will become gloomy.

The round small flower on which the rain leaves their essence,
It blooms and spreads throughout the road
It blooms and it spreads
It blooms and it spreads

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

hey everyone~ when i'm writing this, it is "today," or 16 Feb. but when i post it up on otaku, the entry is labeled "tomorrow," rather... 17 Feb. So when i talk about what happened "today," i am really referring to the 16th. so... would you prefer if i started talking about the events, referring to it as "yesterday"? i don't know... ^^;;

>_>;
right well today (yes, i'm referring to the 16th) i went to school and i was kind of nervous because i didn't want to see my "admirer" in case he asked me out, but when i got on the bus, he didn't say anything (*sigh of relief*)... of course because i was blasting my pura cd through my headphones at full volume (i do that a lot ^^'), he might have actually said something and i just couldn't hear him. haha. XD; a few times during lunch or class i saw that he was looking at me, but maybe i was just imagining it. >_>; actually, i heard my name come up in conversation... >_>;; they were standing like 10 feet away from me so it wasn't too hard to hear it, but i didn't bother saying anything because i had to study for a test ^^'

arnie - "hey was it you who wrote that letter to sou-chan?" (of course she used my real name, but yeah...)
brad - "yeah"
arnie - "so is she gonna go out with you?"
brad - "she hasn't given me an answer"

o_o; so now i just have to tell him out of nowhere that "i'm sorry, but i don't really want to go out with you"? things like this are really quite complicated for me. if you can't study for it, i probably won't do well... so you can guess how it is with me and guys. what am i supposed to tell them?

Option 1: "i'm sorry, but i only like ryuutarou"... that sounds so~~~~~ i don't know, i just don't like the way it sounds x.x; even though it's almost true... almost because i also like miyavi and makoto and riku... not to mention rai and kyouya.. ^^;;; he knows it's true too. before i knew it was him, he asked what i was gonna do, and i told him "i'd most likely say no, because... i'm too busy and i like ryuutarou too much" but yeah i don't think he really cares x.x;
option 2: "i'm not interested in dating right now" would be ok, except with the last guy who liked me the "right now" killed it. he told me "ok, so when are you going to be interested in dating?"... i think i need to come up with more options XD;

to my surprise, kent hasn't said ANYTHING about this. i would have expected him to tease us a bit ^^' haha. actually he's been talking a lot about ippo lately. lol XD;;

Jrock/Jpop
Lately i've been spending a lot of time listening to two bands... besides pura. ^^' anyway i'm starting to really REALLY like ajikan (asian kung fu generation) and orange range. haha i've always loved ajikan, but now i listen to them even more. it seems that, no matter what, when i listen to them, i feel happy ^_^ their songs are so cool~~~ akfg is like the only jrock band i know of where the lead vocalist wears glasses... haha. but yeah, i started to listen to them a lot more after i downloaded two of their dwi files (which i failed at... badly... hahaha). and the other good thing about them? my parents can tell that they're guys. ^^' i think my cousin had a crush on some of them... haha.

i've also been listening to orange range a LOT. particularly, their song "hana". even though i'm not a fan of rap, and i never have been, i like orange range. i started to like them when i saw the music video for "viva rock!" (even though i didn't really like kirikirimai much).. they seemed so energetic and that song always makes me happy too~ haha. mm... hana is an interesting song. sometimes, it makes me feel happy. other times, when i listen to it i feel depressed. it's really weird. i tried singing it once (even though i can't sing) and it made me REALLY appreciate rap. haha. saying all those lyrics so fast is really challenging. since i love the song so much, i will put the song at the bottom.

AMC
today i took the american mathematics competition. for the first part of the test, it was easy, but towards the end of it it had stuff that i hadn't learned yet, so i did really badly on it... like... 14 out of 25 questions -_-;; but it's not for a grade, and i get 2 points extra credit, just for taking the test. so i guess it's not so bad. according to my friend's teacher, if you are able to even answer half of them (let alone if you are able to answer them correctly) then you are doing quite well... haha.

Hana
Amidst us scattering like flower petals
It was a dream-like miracle that I met you
We love each other, we fight
We climb over all sorts of walls together
If I'm reborn, I'll be a flower by your side

I wonder if the sun will always be right overhead?
I wonder if I'll always be able to protect you?
Your expressions, laughing and crying
Anyway, if everything turns to nothing,
I'll be even more thankful for us having met
That day, that time, the tracks left at that place
Will again give birth to new tracks

I become strong by loving, I make it through by believing
The things that you left behind even now glitter in my heart, not having disappeared
I think happily of when we met, I regained my smile
Embracing the overflowing feelings of "thanks", I move forward

Amidst us scattering like flower petals
It was a dream-like miracle that I met you
We love each other, we fight
We climb over all sorts of walls together
If I'm reborn, I want to be with you

I'm going to scatter like flower petals
I'll accept everything in this world
The thing that you left me
Is a real treasure called "now"
So living with all my might, I'll be a flower

Why do flowers wither?
Why do birds fly?
Why does the wind blow?
Why does the moon light up?

Why am I here?
Why are you here?
Why did I meet you?
Meeting you, that was fate

Amidst us scattering like flower petals
It was a dream-like miracle that I met you
We love each other, we fight
We climb over all sorts of walls together
If I'm reborn, I want to be with you

I'm going to scatter like flower petals
I'll accept everything in this world
The thing that you left me
Is a real treasure called "now"
So living with all my might, I'll be a flower

After the rain, a rainbow hangs in the sky, light is born in the mountain air
Right here, I become aware
Of a firm and important thing called "loving"
Can I still walk on? I can see it
My "feelings", pass through time, and echo into eternity
Your happiness, your pain, your everything
Well, bloom then in full, more and more and more

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