Friday, April 1, 2005

my friend sano-chan introduced me to the coolest band today. their name is "going under ground" and i've only heard one of thier songs but i already know i like them x3 hmm as neko would say, "they are TEH AWESOME" (haha she told me that today) i feel an obsession coming... XD too bad i can't find ANYTHING about them...

anyway today my mom took me to the japanese bookstore and i was really determined to ask her to let me buy a gothic lolita pattern book~ and just as i was about to i went over to the gothic lolita section and... they were all out. that happened last time too.. now i'm just gonna get all insecure about it again and have to build up the confidence to ask her and... ugh... well i know for sure she doesn't want me to have the glb's just because of the term "bible" in it, so i'll settle for the pattern books. and if she doesn't get me those, sano told me to tell her so she could buy one for me XD;

in the past couple of days i've been drawing character designs like crazy. i've only found one that i'm happy with. the rest look too... common, i guess. i'm not sure if that's the right word. but they don't look original enough. eh, i think i'll just start with what i have otherwise i'll *never* get it done ^^; oh wait, i need to start working on plot first... >__>

tomorrow, i get to go visit my friends from my old school. i'm really looking forward to it. i haven't seen them in so~~ long. i've really only kept in touch with chrissy through deviantART... i can't wait~ i'll have to bring my camera. i'll want to remember tomorrow... joanna and soyon will be there too! ^^

a friend asked me this earlier (like beginning of the week earlier) and it's making me think... "if you died tomorrow, would you have any regrets?" hmm, depends, i guess. i made a promise to see someone again, so i think i would regret not seeing that person.... there's a few more things too, but i don't think i'll get into that.

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Thursday, March 31, 2005

right so yesterday (tuesday) i went to mulligans and when i started to type up a blog i got too tired, so i'll talk about it today...

we were allowed through our school to pay $15 and have unlimited access to the arcade (minus the ones that give out tickets or prizes), the mini golf, the go-karts, laser tag, and batting cage... this was quite a good deal since each activity (except the arcade) costs about $6 each time...

when i first got there i went straight to the ddr machines (oh what a surprise xD) and mike and joe and michael and willis and jonah and charles and edwin were there playing... and joe was like "come on, play, you promised" so i thought i may as well and i got up there and thought "oh no, they're all watching me" but as the arrows started coming i kind of forgot about it and started dancing until...

i kept missing everything!

why? well i'm used to using my ignition pad, and i haven't used a metal pad before. thus when i tried, i didn't realize i had to put so much weight on it for it to work ^^; mike and joe said that there was something wrong with it anyway because they had played metal pads that weren't as um.. unresponsive. haha.... but this was the first time anyone at school had seen me play ddr and mike and joe were so shocked that i actually *did* play that joe gave me a kind of pat on the shoulder and mike gave me a hug. lol.

well after that i found marinelle and we went to the gokarts together. it was my first time ever riding them so it was really fun ^_^ and i didn't crash into anyone (or the walls) XD;; lol we went on it like 6 times in a row (which was good because after about noon there was a HUGE line)

after go-karts i tried playing ddr against marinelle and we both failed... badly. lol. there's only like 2 people at CAMS who are actually used to using a metal pad. but it seemed like mike and joe and edwin got used to it pretty quickly. i told my sister about it and she's like "it's because you're so thin" haha. no way.

then after that i played tekken 3 and initial D version 2 against xuemin and marinelle and huong and julien (we all took turns)... marinelle had lots of fun being mokujin lol. marinelle + mokujin is like an unbeatable pair lol. she beat ALL of us, not to mention most of the computer controlled characters... so fun. lol. huong is really good at initial D. i bet she'll be a good driver because she almost never crashed, unlike the rest of us *cough cough*

we lost interest in tekken and initial D, and a game called Pump It Up caught my eye. it's like the korean version of DDR, and instead of buttons up, down, left, and right, there are 5 buttons - one in the middle and one on each corner. i was surprised to find that i actually knew some of the bands/artists on there (boa, one-two, sechskies, H.O.T., etc.) so i decided to try it.. and... well i was ok i guess for a first time. i passed with about a B or A average on Normal Level and a C on Hard Level. but compared to the ddr/piu freak who came, i was so~~~ bad lol. mike saw me and decided to try too, and we both failed (but hey, it had a fast bpm... for us) and he was like "ok, we both suck" but it was cool because as he said "it's always easier when there's someone else who's awful at something with you" or whatever. lol. he really liked the music, especially banya channel. so we both downloaded PIU simulators to get the simfiles x]

there were actually 2 ddr/piu freaks there that day.

the first guy... omg i was so embarrassed. he had been playing on PIU for a while, doing the two hardest levesl (nightmare and um... something else lol) and i was watching him do turns and passing with A's and what not, but while he was doing that i had been struggling with the DDR machines. so when he was done with PIU, he came to the DDR machine and was like "hey can i try it?" so i got off and he went on and played double heavy mode on all these songs with huge bpms... so crazy. i turned bright red because to him i probably looked like such a bad ddr player lol. but i sat there and watched him because i was so amazed at his skill level... hehe.

well after that we met up with joe and everyone, and they said they were going to go play mini-golf and wanted to know if we wanted to play also. so we decided to go with them but there were too many people to go in one group, so we split up into groups of four. i was with mike, edwin, and charles. hahaha.. i got "pwned" (well they didn't say that but i did... lol) but anyway, at first we all sucked at it (although mike claims i was good at it) and then after they got better and i got worse haha. well i lost by about 7 points, but even if i did it was so much FUN~ and for some reason whenever i hit it i always hit mike's ball and he thought it was creepy and charles wanted to know how i did it so that he could do it also lol. at the end, mike won, edwin was second, and charles was third.

hmmm after that... went over to the ddr machines again and i tried heavy and got about half-way through but then i couldn't keep trying so hard so i just let mike sub in for me xD;; we played more pump it up... haha, very fun. the boa song is really easy. i could even get a B on hard level o_o;

then it was getting close to dinner so i found xuemin, huong, and julien and we split a large pizza. however... we all only had like one or two slices each, and we had three pieces left over! o_o; lol, we all shared a soda too, since it was unlimited refils and we had multiple straws x]

so by the time we finished dinner, it was around 7, and everything i wanted to do was too crowded xD; so i just hung out with mike and watched people ddr and pump it up... so crazy lol. very fun. then i went to go find edwin so that mike could get his drink from the car and when i did he was playing some shooting game... mike came back and tried it, and he got an ok score, then they challenged me to try and... omg i have no aim whatsoever!! it was funny... XD;

hung out for a little bit, then we went to go watch joe, charles, willis, and jonah play minigolf again. jonah got a total score 21 on a 27 par o_o

then they all decided they wanted to go laser tag, and tried to convince me to go with them but there was already an even number of people and i didn't want to make it uneven... by the time they got in it was around 8:45, and 10 minutes later my mom came to take me home, so i guess it was good i didn't go. XD

i'm really glad i went.. for that $15, i probably did around $80 worth of stuff o_O;;

haha i should go again sometime...

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

a sketchy plot (ignore the unintentional pun please) of a manga is in the making... it's not really that great and my sister says it's creepy, but then again... creepy things are cool X3 so... i need to make some character designs, i have the beginning and the end of the story but not the middle, and i'll need to buy some supplies to actually *make* the manga... oh yeah a scanner would be nice too so that i could show all of you...

downloaded a video by hyde today. took me an hour and 12 minutes but it was well worth the wait. and now i have someone to download the rest of them for me ^____^

mulligans tomorrow so i'll be gone pretty much the entire day. haha it's a pretty good deal, i'll have fun there. even if i *do* mess up on the ddr machines against joe... in *gasp* public. but yeah, i hope they have a good version there... lol.

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Monday, March 28, 2005

please pray for my friend's grandfather, he's in intensive care with a fractured skull and internal bleeding...

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i hope everyone had a good easter! ^__^ today i went to church, then when i came back we had relatives over and...

my aunt bought me a new rubiks cube! now it won't fall apart everytime i try to solve it~~~ lol.

by the way, thanks for helping me reach 2k hits!

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yesterday was so fun. key club banquet. i haven't laughed that hard in SO~~~~ long... XD

hmm so my friend at school asked me an interesting question back on friday... we were working on science homework and david wanted to see mine because he didn't understand it, but i had already turned it in to the teacher, and i had a separate copy i had started working on but didn't finish. so as it turns out, i didn't have the question he needed, so...

me - "sorry but i already turned it in"
david - "oh it's ok"
adam - "you're always sorry, why do you always blame yourself?"

and then adam went on about all the stuff i was sorry for and didn't need to be, so it made me think... do i blame myself for stuff too much? probably not, but it's an interesting thing to think about. adam brought up stuff like the sailboat project ("i'm sorry, i stayed after school but i didn't finish what you wanted me to" i said, and he was like "what happened to the rest of the group? why couldn't *they* work on it?"), or when someone asked me to borrow some manga ("i'm sorry, i don't have that series" and then adam said "it's not your fault you're not collecting it')... and other stuff. so... a lot of times i think things are my fault for good reason, but i guess adam doesn't think so?

he also says i put myself down too much or whatever. "why do you diss everything you do?" he says. i guess he means when i worry about having borderline A in my classes or whatever, and when i don't want to play ddr at the DDRU meetings ("i can't even play light, so you can't use the 'i'm not good enough to play because i struggle with 9-foot level songs' excuse," he tells me)

mike thinks i have problems with that too XD;; he was trying to convince me to play at the last meeting and said "but you beat Break Down!, so you *are* good enough, *I* can't beat Break Down!"... and i suppose i am good enough but the thing is in front of people i get *really* nervous and can't move, so... that would affect my performance at the club. joe and mike are still convinced that i'm better than they are. mike especially. at the end of the DDRU meeting (well the *official* end, even though it ends half an hour later), mike asked me "so do you *still* think that i'm better than you are?" and i said "yes you are" (because really i don't think i could play the songs he did, they look so complicated xD;;) and he was like "WOW you must *really* think badly of yourself, huh?" hahaha.... but seriously, mike is *really* good at ddr, and unless i play against him for quite a few songs i don't think i'll be able to say i'm better than he is. and besides, i'm still kind of stuck in that mindset that he can do impossible songs (even if they aren't really that hard) because when i saw him play for the first time, he *was* doing the impossible... to me at the time, anyway. *shrug* doesn't really matter i guess, as long as they don't force me up on the ddr pad like last time, lol. i have this entire week plus two weeks after that to get really good at ddr. hopefully if i'm extremely good at home, i won't mess up as much at school. XD;; but i really have to play this time because i promised joe AND jordan... XD; but apparently xuemin did too, and she hasn't even been to *any* of the ddru meetings. lol. mike told me earlier that joe likes xuemin... hmm... lol, maybe one day they'll get together?

it's quite interesting to hear what people have to say about you though XD;;

zach, brad, xuemin, juliette, and pretty much everyone else i go to school with (XD) think that i'm crazy since i study so much (haha, sure i do... XD)

xuemin, juliette, and bobby (he used to go to CAMS but dropped out) think that i make the perfect couple with brad. and i think brad thinks so too >_____>; but just because we both like anime doesn't mean we should be going out... besides i don't want a boyfriend right now xD

don and jeff (i tutor at the library with them) think i'm too nice for my own good (because i refused to punch don XD), and they keep asking me "what if one day you end up with an abusive boyfriend and you never fight back?" XDDDDD; right... haha

zach, mike, and brad think i'm trying to starve myself because i don't eat that much (but i just don't get hungry, if i eat more than i do now i would probably burst or something), and then of course mike also thinks that because he always offers to buy me food and i never accept it XD;

mike really thinks i have problems or something. lol like the whole "you don't eat enough" thing, plus he thinks that all these death dreams i have mean something and that one day i'm gonna go jump off a cliff or something to that extent. o_O; not to mention he thinks i have *really * low self-esteem just because i think he's a better ddr-er than i am xD; not to mention i scare him because i think that jrockers are pretty and have crushes on them even though to him they look like girls.. >>;

my sister thinks i make a better boy than girl, because i'm like so..... "tomboy-ish" is what she calls me i think.

wow this has turned out to be really long, so i'm gonna quit now. twyl.

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

*looks around* i've been kind of neglecting this place... i guess i've been spending a lot of time trying to draw and get better at ddr (keyword here is TRYING)

by the way, the sailboat actually got done! niki stayed after school until like 9:00 so that she could file it down and everything. i'm so thankful~~ niki you're such a livesaver!!

today i was *supposed* to play ddr. mike and joe and brian were gonna force me like they tried to last time, but they didn't because a)brian wasn't here, so one less person to help them; b)when they tried i fell and kind of did something to my arm xD;;;

but yeah, i'm trying to get good enough so that i'll still do well even in front of everyone, and even on a song i've never played before. that's why i was hoping the sailboat project would take all of lunch time, which mike happened to hear me say. he was like "oh i see how it is" haha. but then i explained it and he said "but you *are* good enough to play... i saw on your xanga you passed break down! on heavy... i can't pass break down on heavy! so you're better than me~"

i suppose i really should have played, but whatever... actually i ALMOST had to but got out of it, ironically because of the sailboat.

brian (not the same brian i mentioned earlier) had told me that i didn't have to go work on the sailboat so i hung out in the ddru meeting and so... yeah. mike and joe tried to get me to play but i was too shy XD;; i think i may have promised joe i would play that time too... -_-;;; oops, i guess i should have then. but oh well, maybe i'll play when we go to mulligans and that will make up for it?

after that jordan came, and he was like "hey, play against me next ok?" **jordan is SO~~ good at ddr... he gets like AAA on maxx unlimited...** which was funny because he said exactly what mike had told me 20 minutes ago xD;; and what joe had told me 15 minutes ago... wow, i have a lot of people who want to see me play o_O;;

haha. well anyway after that it was just mike, me, jordan, and mr iseri in the room (and of course mr iseri wouldn't play) so mike said i HAD to play, so i took off my shoes, got on the dance pad and then...

brian rushed in saying "you have to go help niki on the sailboat" and so i didn't have to play agains mike. i felt kind of bad because mike looked kind of disappointed, but whatever... the sailboat is more important xD;;

mike and joe say that i'm better than them now. but i doubt it... they say that all because i passed break down! and they didn't o_O;; now i can't use my "i can't do _-foot songs very well" excuse (before it used to be 7, now it's all the way up to 9!) because mike and joe say "neither can i"... hmm... joe says that out of all the heavy levels i chose break down! and that's harder than all the other ones, probably because of the bpm... but it was only a C... haha.

eh, well after the meeting, jordan made me promise to play next meeting, and then online joe made me promise to play also, so i guess i will. besides, next time is 3 weeks from now, and i'm sure if i practice i'll be able to beat all of those 9-foot songs...

i guess i still think that mike and joe are better ddr-ers than i am for a couple of reasons (and i'm not including jordan because he is better for sure~ XD)

a) joe and mike have been playing ddr longer than i have

b) they're guys (most ddr-ers are guys)

c) the first time i saw them play, i was still on light mode, so to me they looked like they were doing the impossible, and for most of the time i've known them they HAVE been better than i am. even though i'm at about the same level as them now, they still look better because of that pyschological thing or whatever.

eh, they're all really nice about it though... even when they try to pysically force me onto the dance pad~ lol. although i'm not quite sure why they want to see me play so badly... maybe it's because i talk about it so much lol.

by the way, joe showed this to me, it's really funny...

GOOGLE IN 1337!

well that's all for today, oh wait spring break is this week! ok, well it's 1:43, so i'm gonna go... twyl.

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Friday, March 25, 2005

this sailboat project is killing me.

i THINK it's due tomorrow, and i'm pretty sure we're still nowhere near done building...

at least we have our sketches, and our report, but... that's not really a big part of it u_u;

i've never gotten so stressed out over a project before, not even the instant death project.

oh and for all of you who weren't here back in august and were thus confused on my post a few days back, i'll explain the bet i had with juliette: we were in computer apps and talking about how boring it was and such, and somehow we decided to see who would last longer. i said juliette would survive longer, and she said i would survive longer. so if this project kills me (or if that tennis racket does... i mean, i know some people just aren't good at it, but, just a LITTLE bit of coordination would be nice... >>;) then i'll have won the bet.

but don't worry, i'm not gonna kill myself or anything like that. way too painful for my liking. besides, i think that would be cheating on our bet... XD

~sou-chan

p.s. *cough* i'm considering letting all of you know what i look like now... i'm doing a vector art of myself and if i ever finish it i'll post it up.

vector art isn't really that easy with the mouse, but it's not really that hard either... the picture of miyavi i tried didn't really work tho...

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

hm... there's no way i can get my sailboat done in time... u___u;;

too bad it's worth like 15% of my grade.. x_x

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

does anyone remember that bet i made with juliette way back in august when i first started going to cams? guess what. i'm going to win the bet. *nod*

why?

because of this stupid sailboat project. i hate it so much. today i stayed after school to work on it. from 3:38 (class ends at 3:35), i was in that room. all i want is for mr williams to cut out the wood so that i can carve it into the shape for the second layer of my boat. but NO, he can't do that because i'm at the bottom of the priority list.

(really, i am, i'm not just saying that... because he said his first priority was to do the wrapping for the skeleton-style boats and then after that helping the students use the jigsaw so that they don't have to saw their fingers off)

so FINALLY at 5:00, he says to me "find some wood and i'll cut it for you"... by then all my group members have already left, and so i'm there looking for the right type of wood and all he has is PLYWOOD which i can't use. so when i find something (which happened to be on the opposite end of the room), he says "ok now draw where you want me to cut" so i do, and then when i'm done with that, he's busy on the jigsaw with about 6 pieces of wood left to cut.

considering i have to leave at 5:50, i start to kind of panic because it doesn't look like he's gonna finish anytime soon. and you know what my group members told me before they left? but there was no way i was going to finish that so i had to just get the wood and leave. (and unfortunately, i'm not allowed to bring the wood home to work on it -_-)

so by the time it's 5:50, it's pouring rain and... i forgot my umbrella. so i walk to the parking lot using a textbook as a makeshift umbrella, and... hmm it doesn't work nearly as well as it does in that korean music video. my parents aren't even THERE to pick me up, so i wait around for another 10 minutes, and the textbook has now become completely useless because there's so much wind.

by the time my parents get to the school, i'm soaking wet and that makes them mad because i'm dripping in the car. and it makes them even more mad because they figure out that i was the only one in my group who was there (well for the most part anyway)

gahhhhh my mom doesn't want me to go work on it tomorrow, but i kind of like.. have to, since it's so much of my grade. she says "well let the other group members who didn't stay work on it, it's not fair that you have to work on it yourself" and then she started lecturing me.

omg... it's not MY fault that they weren't there. and that's not even the point. i don't care if i'm the only one working on it because my grade depends on this project and i still have to get it done, whether i have help on it or not.

my group members are probably gonna kill me anyway since i didn't finish that 2nd layer... x_x; and if not, then we'll probably get a bad grade anyway since our boat isn't really that great... x__x;

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

yay

got a C today on break down! heavy level. 9-foot song. not bad, considering all i've gotten for the past week are D's on that song... >>; if i can get really good maybe i'll play it at ddru this week.

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Monday, March 21, 2005

lol.

>___> i'm such a nerd. lol. yesterday i figured out the formula of price to rent ratios for monopoly property. ohhh it only works for the actual property, not the special "railroads" or stuff like that. oh and it doesn't work for the last two (the blue, expensive ones).

if buying price is equal to x, and price of rent is equal to y, then:

y = (x/10) - 4

this all started when my sister and her friend came over and were playing monopoly and they kept having to look at the rent to see if it was worth it to buy it or not... all of a sudden i just noticed that there was a function for it o_O; and then my sister's friend wanted to know if it would be beneficial to buy a property and i started going on about expected value and probablity. they probably think i'm crazy or something lol XD

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