Thursday, October 21, 2004

short post today

lots of hw at the moment... i'll get to all of your comments later

but basically... melancholic won by a unanimous (sp) vote!

and also... um... does anyone have any information about hyde's kid?

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

i'm back! well sort of...

Flu season
well it seems like everyone is getting sick, and all the teachers are telling us to stay home o_O;; haha well they don't want to get sick either so... ^^; but about half my class was sick, although quite a few of them came to school today

Attendance
well i was still semi-sick (at the very end of my cold) so my parents wrote me a note to get me out of p.e. so then the teacher made me alphabatize his class list and take attendence... it was really boring x_x

More stupid computer stuff
today after explaining what the ruler is, my teacher decided to see if we knew what the start menu is. he started out by saying "under the status bar, there is bar at the very bottom of the screen, who knows what that is called?" "the task bar... =_=" "right, and at the left side what is that?" "...the start menu... =_=;;" "what does the start menu do?" omg i'm going to DIE in that class. at least the first week i could pretend i was paying attention but... seriously...

More on Plastic Tree - please i need your votes!!
well i only got two votes... so... if you don't know any of this just pick the song that sounds cooler... and for those of you who do know what i'm talking about... the layout is actually featuring a picture from tremolo, so it may seem odd that i'm not using that song... unfortunately i couldn't find any urls for it so these ones will have to do i guess... (unless you can find one that i can direct link from... o_o)
the choices...
&nsbp Yuki Hotaru (english translation is snow firefly... i think)
&nsbp Melancholic

Autumn Formal
people are starting to bother me about going to the autumn formal dance with that guy in my class... which is really annoying because 1) i don't want to go out with him and 2) i wasn't planning on going to the formal anyway x_X i never really go to dances... besides there's no money to go anyway... the dance is like $30 and i just spent $40 on manga... so... yeah... ^^;

Pandas?!?
This is about Plastic Tree's vocalist, Ryuutarou. I found this online and i thought it was really cute... "he loves pandas. when was small, he said he wanted to be a panda." o_o;; ryuutarou had a tough time growing up so he was always closer to animals, but he wanted to be a panda?? i mean sure he was neglected and didn't have many friends and talked to animals... but wanted to be a panda? that's really cute... but kind of sad at the same time. sometimes i feel sorry for him ^^;

Comments
These are from my last big post (about my psuedonym, hyde, my friend...)

Scarecrow - ^_^ thanks

Kei-chan - lol your idea sounds good too! a lot easier than mine also because i'm going to have a hard time finding the same type of tie... o_o wow they had a black day for crayon week? but a school week is only 5 days! so which other 4 colors did they use?

Yamcha - your costume sounds cool too... i would post a picture but... it probably wouldn't look that good... my digital camera hates me anyway x-x

DemonMessiah - thanks... hope you don't get sick too XD

dark moon fox - yeah he did say he liked someone else, now i'm confused XD i was going to ask him but i didn't want to ruin the moment ^^; as for dressing up, you can still dress up, just hand out candy in your costume lol

ParnoidPerson - aww hope you feel better and get your project done XP

12th Jockey - lol kind of just stare blankly at it while your skin burns? did that for the first... 2 seconds of it ^^;

destinyssweetman - thanks for the tissues >_>;; ahaha...

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Tuesday, October 19, 2004

   another short post

thanks to everyone for the comments ^^

i'll get to all of your sites soon except since i stayed home from school yesterday i have a ton of makeup work to do x_X

oh almost forgot the purpose of this but...

thanks for all the hits!! you've all helped me get into the top 500 members! currently i'm at 490 which isn't much but i'm still really happy ^^ well twyl

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Monday, October 18, 2004

x_x

yeah... no real post today because i got sick and i don't have the energy to write anything... ^^;

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

  

a little less stressed
well i was able to write a program for the computer that makes my life (well at least my life concerning this project) a lot easier... so i guess this project might work out ok. and the fact that it's worth 15% of my grade in ALL of my classes MIGHT be less of a detail to me... but probably not ^^;

bleh... viruses are bad even if they're not for the computer!
i think i'm catching a cold x_X i have a sore throat... i really hope i don't miss school, it's important that we get this project done! o_o;; so if i don't get around to updating, going on myOtaku and whatever, the cold probably got worse... forgive me... ^^;

more on my friend ^^
today my friend was on and i didn't realize this until after we finished chatting but... we were talking for 6 hours!! o_O;; haha it was fun though, i don't usually get to talk to him. ^^ anyway i asked him about what he meant and was extremely relieved to find that he didn't mean he was going to kill himself. he said he just wants to get away from where he is right now... to leave everyone he knows, and that he's not sure where he'll go... and that he probably won't have access to a computer for a little while after he leaves. i'm a little confused... but that's ok, as long as he's alright ^^
i told him about a dream i had about him and how everyone on the bus started killing each other (o_O;;) and he asked me if in the dream he asked me out. and i told him that he did (because he did and then they all yelled at me b/c they think i should be going out with that other guy i was talking about)... then i asked him why he asked if that happened in the dream, and he said "because i probably would have" *still kind of red from that ^^;*
then later i told him about what my friend had told me... (apparently my friend things i'm "in the early stages of love ^^;) and i said that at first i was shocked b/c i didn't think i could be in love (XD) but now i guess i am... and he said that he loved me too ^^ i'm REALLY not used to this type of stuff... it's kind of awkward to me ^^;

Halloween
This is just a tentative idea... but i think i'm going to dress up as Hyde for Halloween. In the Smile box... hehe. i need an easy costume... so i decided i could find a cardboard box and paint it... then dress in a suit and i would be hyde! (if i can find the right tie ^^;) and then hyde's short too, so it's ok that i'm really short! haha...

A little about my psuedonym
Somebody asked me how i got Soujiro to be my psuedonym/nick name... so i guess i'll just put it up here for something to write about ^^; anyway... about a year and a half ago our science class was outside burning paper with a magnifying glass. and i was trying to get it at the right angle to burn, but it wasn't working... so i looked up, and apparently when i moved, it was at the perfect angle! i looked down and noticed that there was a bright spot on my hand, but after a few seconds (i guess i didn't react ^^;) it started to burn o_O;; and then all of a sudden i started to laugh because it hurt so much and i didn't want to cry in front of my classmates. so this one girl who also likes kenshin decided i was like soujiro. because a) i laughed when i was in pain and b) i don't cry... ^^;

Plastic Tree Poll
I have a question for my xanga... (True_otaku) i'm getting a new ryutaro layout and i want some puratori music to go with it ^^ so... which do you think i should use?
Rocket
Yuki Hotaru
Harusaki Sentimental
Melancholic
Abstract My Life
Nihon wa seiten naru
Sink
Mizuiro Girlfriend
lilac
Chiriyuku bokura
Baka ni natta no ni
Aoi Tori

Closing
Sorry i wasn't able to get to all of your sites today! i'll try to as soon as i can, and if not i PROMISE after my project is semi-done i will come visit!!

Comments

Scarecrow - our class... is funny like that... we all want to be the best so we have to beat everyone when it comes to school spirit i guess... i've never really been a fan of spirit days... x_X

skakujou - hmm.... new seat, that sounds good. maybe i can just switch with one of them... but then again i don't want them to kill each other ^^;

destinyssweetman - ? you don't have to apologize for not coming to my site, i think you've commented on almost all of my entries since we met ^^; and i think our teacher decided if we don't dress up for twin day we get points taken off o_o;;

kei-chan - crayon week? omg that would be torture to me... x_X lol your japanese class sounds as bad as ours!! ^^;

ParnoidPerson - lol cool shirt ^^;

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Saturday, October 16, 2004

  

o_o;; 10/25 will be very traumatizing for me...
Ok... well at our school we have spirit week. and one of the days is a "twin day". but our class decided that we should be ALL dressed the same. and when they decided what to wear, i think i could have died. baby pink... with 2 ponytails and pink ribbons... x_X as i mentioned earlier... i always wear all black. and i think the last time i wore pink i was like 6... -_-''

School
well i thought i wasn't going to have to write an essay but i am. And i had a person to write about but now i don't think it's going to count *sigh*

Stabbing things...
I don't know if i mentioned before (but i probably did) about the two guys i sit between in japanese. they get annoyed with each other pretty easily and one likes to stab things with pens and/or mechanical pencils... and in defense, the other one will stab back. well, sitting in the middle of them, i tend to get stabbed instead ;_; haha... it's kind of funny, but a little pathetic i think... ^^;

More on my friend...
so anyway i was writing in my dA journal about my PSAT and how my friends were stabbing each other and in the process stabbing me, and if they didn't stop i might be dead by the end of the year. so he commented "good luck on surviving ^^" and i told him "i'll try to stay alive for you" or something to that effect... and what he told me made me kind of worry... "I'll try but cant promise ... i been thinkin lately about just leaving ... going away ... i dont know where ... but i just want to leaave ... to leave all i know and have behind and start again" i'm not really sure what to think about this...

Closing
Thanks to everyone who actually reads all this stuff... and then comments too ^^ it really makes me feel a lot better about things...

Comments

chickenburger - ^o^V haha...

Kei-chan - o_o;; only 2 people voted! haha... well maybe you should ask different people about riku, because... the same ones probably won't trust you ^^;

DemonMessiah - well they won't let me in the library yet. i first have to get this form filled out and signed by my parents... after that i'll be able to ^^;

Yamcha - i think you still have a better rank than me, right? you reached 500 about a week ago i'm not mistaken...

skakujou - thanks ^^

dark moon fox - thanks for voting! ^^ and for reading all the stuff

Takhisis - yeah the sequel hasn't been liscenced yet but i know there is one from the tokyopop page (in about the author)... they better liscence it or at least find someone to scanlate it on the internet or i'll DIE

Nikorasu - wow i think you read everything in my last post o_o;; thanks so much! ^^

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Friday, October 15, 2004

  

Current Mood: zzzzz
Current Song: Rocket by Plastic Tree

Notice
I'm separating it into sections so that you can skip the stuff that you don't want to read if you want to. So um... yeah read on...

Notice Part II
i have nearly 700 hits (698 hits total) and my rank is 513! i don't believe it, thanks to everyone who visited my site ^^

Poll
Who is your favorite out of the following gothic lolita models? Mana, Kana, Aya, Riku

That place is so close!
i've almost found it... i almost have a place to be alone. i know it's somewhere but i can't seem to find a good place. well there was one spot that was ok, but i figured i could get in trouble if i sat that close to the parking lot x_x;; then there was another place but someone found me there and started questioning me on why i chose to sit alone. o_O;;

Free Stuff Part II
Today in basketball we were doing lay ups and our teacher asked us what the most important thing when dribbling the ball is. and i said to make sure you are looking up and know what is going on in your surroundings. and he said i was correct, so he told me i could get a free gatorade ^^

More on Death o_o;;
I was thinking more today, especially since i read Ororon 4 again (speaking of which... i found out there is a sequel to ororon! i have to find it!! The title is... Mayonaka no Teikoku - Empire of Midnight) anyway... i was wondering about people who seem to know that they are going to die. sure you can have those terminal illnesses and whatever, so you know that you will die EVENTUALLY... but those people who seem to know that their time left on earth is short... that they won't make it through the night... i was just thinking of what it must feel like... and then... people whose hearts have stopped but were brought back...? does it hurt? or maybe it doesn't because you are not conscious? =_= i'm tired from thinking so much

On Juvinile Orion
this is just a side question but does anyone know how many volumes of aquarian age/juvinile orion there are? i have 1-4 and i want to know how many there are!!

In Closing
So i'm a little depressed today but i think i'm getting over it... um thanks for reading all this!

Comment Response

Nikorasu - omg that is so true, i hate essays...

Takhisis - lol i actually saw a picture of mana without makeup, but it was all fuzzy and bad quality x_x

masterman - er... thanks...?

Kei-chan - lol, i think i did that once, only with riku, the gothic lolita model! one of them said that "she" was pretty but he wouldn't go out with "her"... one said that "she" was hot... and two said that they wanted "her" phone number! lol

DemonMessiah - *sigh* i'm on a college campus so they don't really allow us in their library...

AnimeBlue Girl - good you don't want to die... ^^ and yeah i think they really need to stop saying i should go out with that guy too... x-X

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Thursday, October 14, 2004

...

Current Mood: ;_;
Current Song: Rocket by Plastic Tree

i've been wondering... but what does it feel like when you die? (not that anyone would really know...) i've just been thinking... i'm a christian, so i believe in heaven and hell, but what about that very moment when you stop breathing or whatever? and those people who seem to know that they will die?

and... what about people in comas? it's always been interesting to me about people who wake up from comas... they say that some people can actually remember people talking to them while they were in a coma... so what is it really like to be in one? o_o so confusing...

just like those "bothced time travel suicides" that people always talk about... they never work out... especially if you don't succeed and you end up not killing yourelf, just injuring yourself... x_X but i won't get into that, i'm confused enough as it is...

today we took the PSAT! *o* actually it wasn't as hard as i thought, there were a few things that... to put simply... i had no idea what they were talking about, but i think i might do ok on it. or maybe not. basically... it was pretty easy but i think i failed it. but since it doesn't count this year i think it will be ok if i don't also (well not really but... x_X) it was really long and parts of it were kind of boring... and then the bubbles were evil... i really HATE filling in bubbles or boxes or things like that... they get on my nerves... it's much easier to click a form on the internet, ne? ^^; haha, j/k.

well i got home early and my friend was on... but he was really tired so we didn't get to talk. *sigh* i'm ok with it i guess... i just can't help but feel a little disappointed... we never get to talk outside of dA comments... i don't want to be selfish, i mean i think he should get more sleep anyway... it's just hard for me to not feel sad... i wonder if i'm going to lose my psuedonym from stuff like this eventually... anyway... our conversation was really short and we didn't really say anything... whatever... i guess it's ok... maybe next time...

actually i'm kind of depressed now *sigh* i can't understand why i'm getting so upset over him... only a few months ago i couldn't get upset about anything. well except maybe someone who wouldn't quite bothering me... but he was annoying so... yeah.

if any of you noticed, i got a bg for the posts so that it is easier to read... and you can still see mana's face! and to everyone who doesn't know... mana is a GUY, not a girl... as pretty as he is, he's still a guy. even urbandictionary says so! click here

today more people said i should be going out with that guy in my class... o_o;; i really wish they wouldn't... we both hate it... x_x i'll try to ignore it... all the more reason to look for a place to be alone at lunch (which i still haven't found btw)

well that's basically all i have to say for right now... i think i'm going to be stabbed to death by friday.

jaa, mata

COMMENTS

Nikorasu - heh since i don't know when it is exactly... happy early half birthday ^^

Kei-chan - o_o;; whoa that's even crazier than mine... just because you know spanish? do you know how many people in the world know spanish? practically half of my school knows spanish x_X

destinyssweetman - heh i think my computer teacher doesn't know the stuff so he just reads from the book -_-'' he doesn't know half the stuff we tell him about for an answer... i'm beginning to wonder about if his teaching credentials are legitimate ^^;

Yamcha - thanks i know i'll find one eventually, it's easier because all the grades have a different lunch time... it woudl be so much harder if we all ate at the same time o_o

Takhisis - thanks ^^

AnimeBlue Girl - thank you ^^ i think i would just as soon look for the needle in the haystack than try to find a place to be alone... it could be easier ^^;

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Wednesday, October 13, 2004

free stuff ^^

today was kind of fun... well the library part of it anyway ^^;

at the library we got... free food! there were fresh vegetables and sandwiches, and this really good cake for dessert... so when i got home i didn't have to eat dinner. also i got a free book cover! (approximate original cost = $5) don't you just love free stuff?

do you ever notice how hard it is to find a place to be alone in a school? everywhere you go there's always someone there. recently i've been eating lunch alone but there's always been someone in the general area so i decided to go looking for another place to eat and... there's nowhere where there's no people!! it's kind of annoying sometimes. i mean i like people and whatever, but sometimes i like being alone too... u_u;;

computers, as always, was stupid. today we learned... "How to make a page break"! grr... i can't believe the teacher complains about people not paying attention in his class... it seems obvious to me >_>;; at least i got another oekaki done... ^^

o_o you know what someone said to me? i should get together with this guy in my class. x_X we're friends and whatever, but just because we both like anime doesn't mean i want to DATE him. just because his mom and my mom are friends doesn't mean we are "together." people just don't get it. besides he gets on my nerves sometimes... he likes to stab things (and sometimes people) and seems to enjoy annoying me x_x;; and the fact that my other friend and him fight all the time is a little rough.. because i sit inbetween them in japanese and while they're trying to stab each other... i get stabbed instead ^^;

i've found a lot of people asking me why i wear black all the time. it's beginning to get on my nerves. i wear black because i like black. i don't wear colors because it doesn't look good on me. why does everyone even care?? if i have to explain one more time i think i'll go crazy.

i have a feeling i'm going to win that bet i have with my friends. no particular reason, just a feeling that i'm not going to make it past freshman year. it's just too much. how am i supposed to go to bed early today when i have all this homework? and since i'm staying up that late when am i going to find the time to eat breakfast? it's not like the PSAT even matters this year... so why do they make us take the time to eat?? i've already gained like 3 pounds since school started in august... x_x;;

anyway i just figured this out, but...

today is my half-birthday! ^^
i'm exactly 14 1/2 today.

haha i was bored and i figured that out... lol

um not much more to say, except that there's this guy in my class and we were coming up with christmas gifts and he'll get me the kenshin/samurai x dvd's ^^ i'm so happy

jaa mata

COMMENTS

DemonMessiah - well now that i think of it, even if it was a famous jrocker who killed me... it would be kind of painful ^^; but i would still like it because the chance of me EVER meeting a jrocker is unfortunately very slim ;_;

Nikorasu - lol you should listen to them i'll give you some links later...

Kei-chan - aww it got deleted? well i think i still have the link if you would like it

Yamcha - hehe i bet your idea of a good dream is the complete opposite of mine! ^^;

dark moon fox - heh i never cry when i die in a dream, it's almost normal to me now

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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

   Ryutaro obsession...!

wow i downloaded ANOTHER video today! i had to wait a while for this one but it was ok because i was eating dinner while it downloaded ^^ (took about an hour and 20 minutes for 14.1 mb) of course, it's plastic tree. it's a video of their live performance... although i think i like harusaki sentimental more... it's so beautiful... (er... in this case i'm referring to the song and not the band o_O;; although they are really pretty... ^^;)

i remember talking about a dream where hyde strangled me to death once... although that might have been on xanga or something. but bascially it was one of the best dreams i ever had... i mean, who wouldn't want to be killed (or in my case, almost killed) by a famous jrocker?! and then the other one... when gackt stabbed me... that was fun too ^^ heh i guess my idea of fun is kind of weird. but this is all in a dream so it doesn't matter right?

well anyway the point of that paragraph was... i'm now offically obsessed with Plastic Tree! and i know because of the dream i had about ryutaro killing me on sunday night!! ^^ so here goes:

it starts out in the dark and all of a sudden i see ryutaro with his skeleton wings (strange, sounds like the wallpaper i just downloaded)... so then i notice i have a katana with me... but ryutaro has one too! and it's not fair because he can use his wings to make him a better fighter... that and i'm smaller than him x-X anyway... to make a long story short i get stabbed with the katana and bleed to death! then akira comes in the outfit he was wearing in melancholic and he starts yelling at ryutaro because akira wanted to kill me and because ryutaro did now he can't ^^ (aww i wish they really would fight over killing me x_X) and i can't really remember the rest... because i forgot most while i was at school today ^^;

but now i can say that i'm obsessed with puraturi lol

anyway... today was alright. english... timed essay x_X... science... studied for our project... engineering... more work on the project... then japanese. i have some notes from the lesson but i don't really have the time for it right now... maybe later? ^^;

we broke up the project into smaller parts and i'm starting to think maybe i won't die from this after all! ^^ haha... well maybe i will anyway... this is hard... x_x

unfortunately my friend and i probably won't be able to talk on wednesday because he will be busy ;_; oh well i should be working anyway x_X

more about the project (jumping from topic to topic today ^^;) the assignment is that you are given a time era (prehistoric) and you have to figure out how you would survive there. you ALSO have to make it appealing for tourists to come AND find a way to collect an animal to show off to the potential tourists. I have the job of mathematician/engineer so my task it to make the sample collector and to also design the time machine... x_X my engineering teacher says there are actual theories of what can travel through time and what can't but now i'm confused x-X

(jumping to another topic again) i don't know why but i've been feeling kind of depressed lately... *sigh* but... i'm not supposed to get depressed... bad for my psuedonym if you know what i mean x_X

jaa mata

COMMENTS

destinyssweetman - lol 5 minutes would get me... maybe a 0.8 MB file x_X and currently my friend is fine, that was last month... thanks for the support tho ^^

nikorasu - heh well i don't think anyone wants to win the bet, we just all think we're right and the other person is wrong ^^;

kei-chan - o_O;; an entire WEEK? how early were you in school?!? i almost had to pay $11 for the PSAT but our school pays for it ^^

God of Death - wow 2 hours... heh. i guess that makes my computer... *gasp* faster?! i thought that would be impossible... but my friend says it would take him only 15 minutes XD btw could you help me with the fixed thing? the system won't let me send a pm... ^^;

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