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Female Location • Where the wind takes me Member Since • 2005-08-04 Occupation • hopeless romantic Real Name • the nickname's Lute
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Favorite Anime • Azumanga Daioh Nodame Cantabile FF7AC Rurouni Kenshin Hibiki's Magic Trigun Someday's Dreamers Cowboy Bebop (manga Favorite Anime Movies: Howl's Moving Castle Princess Mononoke Spirited Away Ponyo Goals • find true love, the kind with lightning Hobbies • Making people laugh and making people confused Talents • Juggling up to 3 things working on 4 procrastination piano, although I'm not a pro it helps me unwind
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"But the beginning of things, of a world especially, is necessarily vague, tangled, chaotic, and exceedingly disturbing. How few of us ever emerge from such beginning! How many should perish in its tumult!
The voice of the sea is seductive; never ceasing, whispering, clamoring, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander for a spell in abysses of solitude; to lose itself in mazes of inward contemplation.
The voice of the sea speaks to the soul. The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the body in its soft, close embrace."
~Kate Chopin
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
I find it funny. First week off a job you're energetic and being more productive than you ever imagined. Second week, back to being lazy and depressed. Maybe it's because I'm cramping this week. Too painful to get up.
Well, I've shot my resume off to a couple jobs that I'm not quite qualified for, or am overqualified for. It's tough to know sometimes. My degree makes me overqualified, my experience makes me underqualified. Sad part is the longer I go, the older my degree gets and yes... degrees kinda do have an expiration date in the eyes of recruiters. 1 year. Then you should have made yourself in a perfect little niche job. I'm getting to the point where I feel like maybe I'm lacking something personally that makes me incapable of holding down a serious job. No, that can't be, I haven't even had the opportunity to try. I'm so angry. I've done everything right, got great grades, went to college, got a masters, never touched drugs, was an absolute nerd who wasn't fun to be around and never did anything fun... and at the end of this road of work and restraint - nothing. I'm no longer a hot 21 yr old, I feel like my face is getting old before my eyes in the mirror, and it's too late to go to dance clubs because I'm too old. I spent my youth investing in my future and what future? I see nothing.
I really don't want to go back to the nursery. But I don't know what else to do. At least they don't open until March 1. Gives me some more time. Comments
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