I have a job now, I have a cell phone now, I have a girlfriend, I have a differing view of people now and I ahve revisited my old sites. WOW, I was such a whiney brat back then (after all, its the experiences that make you into who you are, honorable or despicable). I am eighteen now and I have changed, maybe more than I have let on. I still love anime, I am looking into a series called soul eater (I love the way its made, it seems so wonderfully blended to me). I am back! Feel free to write me, or maybe just comment. I'd love to hear from all of my old friends again Comments
Well, I haven't been able to get on for quite a while ( its a good thing no one really cares ;p). I'll tell you why I'm rarely going to able to get on now. I got an Ipod for christmas but couldn't figure otu how to use it so my mum took it. Well, a friend at school told me that he could put stuff on it so I lent it to him so he could put stuff on it. My mom finds it missing(this is the fun part), she takes literally everything but my bed, clothes and the things I need for school, makes me do 100 pushups, gives me an hour and a half lecture (my father gives me another hour and a half), I'm not allowed to eat at school (supposed to rid of all of the friends I have that way), and now I'm not allowed to get on myotaku or myspace, so yeah. (that'll explain if you write me and don't get a reply immediately). I'm thinking of moving out on my birthday. well enjoy yourselves
Ok, I've now gone to being fairly angry now and I don't beleive that its too terribly bad. I'm usually that kid who sits in the back, feeling sorry for himself, wishing he had someone who would interact with him. I have been locked up in this house way too much and no one ever comes by because, well, I don't know all of the reasons but I'm still sick of it! I want to go to rock concerts, see movies, go 4-wheeling, meet people and laugh as the world does. I want to get into a group that I make good friends in, have buddies that I can come to, and they feel like they can come to me with their problems as well. I don't like being in this place, where I am punished for trying to keep things sane, where I here moaning and complaining about everything wrong in my parents life, from their horrible childhood to me bieng a horrible child. I'm going to get out of here one day and I think then I'll do my best to actually live, I'm going to start now by attempting to take my life into my hands instead of just sitting away like a smoker, trying to keep the pain of life off. I'm going to start by trying to tell the truth to all of the people, and MAKE THEM ACTUALLY HEAR ME, I WILL NO LONGER BE IGNORED DUE TO MY INABILITY TO ASK FOR ATTENTION! I'm not angry at any of my friends at the otaku, on the contrary. I'm glad to whoever actually reads me, tries to understand what I come from. (mainly Linden and randomized (who's come back now), anyone else sees this, check out my friends, they are awesome people). Thanks
This day was going weirdly well for a monday, I wasn't nearly so depressed as I usually am, and something happens to top the entire day.
I was walking down the crowded halls to my last class of the day when I saw one of my friends at the corner, so I decided to stop there and talk to her. She asks me how my day was, and I yawn " I'm soo tired". I start to fall, my legs begin to give way, and my torso lowers. She grabs my lanyard and pulls me back upright, and I'm fairly happy because so traffic was coming by. Then she lifts up her leg, smiles at me, and attaches my ID to a chain connected to her pants. Well now I'm right next to her face, and I never realized how hot she was. She's smiling at me, and I get this sudden urge to kiss her lacy face. The problem with that came to my mind, she's been my good friends grilfriend since last year,(not to mention she's older than me by a full year or two) so I look down to prevent temptation. She starts to laugh as we both realize how ridiculous we looked (would've been even funnier if a cop had tried to break us up), and she removes my ID, just right before her boyfriend comes up. I give her a hug (like I always do, BTW), and we go to our classes. I've still got this feeling in my chest, like I'm breathing much easier, and I had to tell my people at the otaku. Thanks for always being there for me BTW, I go through stuff, and its always great to get replies (almost like someones actually listening to me ;P) Comments