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today again someone shouts out, sacrificing even their life to smolder in the midst of time with that instant's kiss...
An otaku in one of the most unlikely places, that's me. i'm a font of information about certain anime, and i think that Koyasu Takehito is the best voice actor ever... after Miki Shinchirou ^_^;;;




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The slightly dysfunctional Weiss Kreuz Quiz
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calm
You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. You collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.


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HASH(0x8bad4bc)
Angst. You are an angel of angst. Once one of
water. But your depression has caused you to
become an outcast. You love to be by yourself,
as it helps you think. You have always, and
always will wonder what has gone wrong. Your
soul has been shattered, and your wings are in
pieces. But that's just you. You spend your
days searching for something. Not someone.
Though you don't know what you are looking for.
You don't even remember who you are. And are
always trying to find that person, yourself,
your soul. Which seems to have been misplaced.

But. When you find what you are looking for, it
will become clear. All tragedy will be ripped
from your wings, and your true colours will
show. And then, you are the most powerful of
them all.

Hang on, keep looking for it is there. Just try not
to lose all you hope and become nothing. For
you are truly beautiful.


What Type Of Angel Have You Become?
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DesireUnity
Unity. You Truly Desire Unity. You wish that the
world was together as one, and world peace was
among us. You enjoy sitting in natures peaceful
spots to get away from war and .

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What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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Monday, August 30, 2004


gods it's been a LONG time...
i haven't posted in this journal in AGES... mostly cause i didn't think about it.

a lot of really rough stuff has happened since my last post. my family was evicted from our home. i was locked in a psychiatric hospital for over a week. and when i came home from my vacation in Indiana, it was time to pack up again (what meager things i had) and head for college (which is where i am now).

i don't feel very good about what i did. i left for Indiana, practically straight from the hospital. and the whole time i was there, my mother was in a psychiatric hospital herself, leaving my brother to the fates. he spent his time being bumped around from place to place. and when i came home, for two days, all i got from my mom was "it's your fault things are the way they are."

i have a wonderful boyfriend, and he's helped me through a lot of the guilt and shame i feel. but still... i hate myself for it, and would use a knife to make the pain visible if i hadn't sworn that i wouldn't...

i love him. i do. but... gods, sometimes it's so bloody HARD to keep a happy face on. i'm lonely here. it's so far apart from everyone i know and care about. i have friends, but i'd never go to them with any of my problems... i barely know them. and since i just got my own computer, it's not network-compatible so i can't use it to contact the people i love. i'm in the University Centre right now, typing and wanting to cry and hating myself.

it's silly. i really should learn to be stronger and rely more on myself. but it hurts inside sometimes... and i can't let anyone else see the pain... never again. no more...

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Wednesday, June 2, 2004


   To The Moon And Back ~ Savage Garden
She's taking her time making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smile and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying, "Mamma never loved her much"
And, "Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection"
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
She's saying

I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?

She can't remember a time when she felt needed
If love was red then she was colour blind
All her friends they've been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined
She's saying, "Love is like a barren place,
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don't have a map for"
So baby's gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying

I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?

(hold on... hold on...)

Mamma never loved her much
And Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
Just saying

I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?

I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?


right now i'm wondering if i can ever find the right kind of pilot... love is a barren place, and i won't reach out for human faith any more... just too much heartbreak.

my life is turning upside down, day after day it gets worse. my brother has been booted from the house, yet keeps coming back to demand 'his' things. my family is breaking apart.

i would fly to the moon and back if i could find the right kind of pilot... hangin' all my hopes on the stars.

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Monday, May 24, 2004


   happy graduation to me
today is my high school graduation. i'm officially ready to go to college. all my best pals graduated with me or gave me their e-mail addresses... *sigh* i'm really going to miss them when i'm at UNC.

currently i'm over at my buddy Stash's place, hanging out. it's nice and quiet...

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