Thursday, November 24, 2005
My father and Thanksgiving
Yesterday (which is still "today" over here) makred the 10th anniversary of my father's death. I'm not taking it too well. Yesterday (today), I cried through most of my work shift. I came home and cried some more. I've been very depressed all day and I know tomorrow (24th) won't be any better. Tomorrow will be my dad's birthday. My mom wants to do a whole "memorial day" in his honor, as well as celebrate Thanksgiving. Unfortunately, I'm working from 7am till 4pm. -___- I feel aweful about it. Since this is so, mom plans on taking my sister and I to see Rent. That should be fun. ^^
I miss my father very much and that feeling will never change. Nor do I want it to change. I loved him so much when he was alive. I'm crying now as I type this. I want him here by my side. I want my dad back. I know how fortunate I am to have had such a loving father. Most kids now-a-days, sadly, don't have that luxury. I know many of you here on MyO share that sad fact. My heart goes out to each and every one of you. My koi shares it, too. I won't go into detail, seeing as how the details are shadey, considering she hasn't told me much. But I thought you all should know that you are not alone.
Anyway, I don't want this post to be too long. I'm still emotionally out of it and need rest. I have another long work day ahead of me, as you all know. So, I bid you all a happy turkey day.
Remember, give thanks to the things you have. Hug your family, relatives, friends, pets, etc. Never take life for granted! The most precious thing in your life could be taken from you at any given moment. Treasure everything and everyday like it was your last. Don't waste your life hating things, including your own life. It's okay to think these things sometimes, but don't let it linger. Life is precious. Never forget that. Suicide is never the answer. Try looking at life through another less fortunate person's life and see if your so called "sucky" life measures up to theirs. Chances are good that their life will be a lot worse than yours. So, please, be thankful for what you have. Most people don't have some of the luxuries you pocess.
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! I love you all!
And smile! ^_^ I thought this was adorable. I forgot where I found it, but my props go the artist who drew it. ^___^v
Have a wonderful day! *heart*
PS. Isn't it great I FINALLY have music on my site!? ^____^ Do you all like it?