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Friday, April 21, 2006


ITS BEEN TWO HOURS AND SIX DAYS AND I'M STILL UP!
I feel like i'm about to snap
Any minute i could colasps
My mind simply is crap
My head is ready to crash
I'm thinking of dieing out!
IS THERE ANY SECRETY?
She said she wouldn't tell
So i'm trusting secretly.
She said she'd call my cell.
I can't tell it's sound from my own...
Witch ringing sound is it?
I'm reaching for my phone...
Where is it?
I can no longer see!
Am i dead?
Can that be?
Is that what he said?
I'M LOUSING MY MIND!
I NEED TO REST!
Yet i have no time...
So what would be best?
Now i'm waiting again
AND MY WAITING IS ACOMPLISHING NONE!
never again
you know why? i'm done!

...hacked up in pain,
out of my mind insane...



PSS: don't click this link...



PS, I FINALLY CAUGHT SELF!

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   *stairs*
i've been watching you...all of you...for a while now...keeping up with the polls...and the comments...and how many souls i've stolen...and i've wanted to say that a lot of you are wishing merly to prove yourselves... regardless of the truth. now i must inform sum one of the truth....but i can't tell just anyone...its been on my mind for the longest time...and i still haven't been able to tell anyone...idk...maybe one of you are headstrong and have already figured it out...but regaurdless i must tell someone or i'm going to pop! i have told only one other soul...this guy i know....he found out on his own...he now knows ALL of my secrets...but hes a smart kid...he keeps his trap shut....i'd like to tell someone....but i haven't a clue as to who....i would perfer a friend from myotaku...i'd rather sumone of whom i don't know...its safer that way...no1 can gossip about me then...but i still don't know...WHAT AM I TO DO??????????




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...hacked up in pain
out of my mind insane...


PSS: don't click this link...

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Thursday, April 20, 2006


   in the silence i must say, that it still is yesterday
i am my own.
my life is tone.
you see my arms?
they have seen harmns
my lifes at risk
it wiil be frisked.
death shall come to all!
my legs now fall,
my heart now stops,
...i've met the cops!
they've seen me bawl!
why wont you call?
i'm feeling suicidal
i chall soon be HOMICIDAL.
let me kill just once more...
LET ME KILL THAT WHORE!
SHE DID THIS TO ME!
its her fault, you see?
i wantt my revenge
i'm siting on the eadge!
waiting to die...
just sitting here in time.
blood drops from my wrists
i'm saying this
i'm telling you
MY TIME is throgh!
i am my own.

...hacked up in pain
out of my mind insane...


PSS: don't click this link...

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006


i can't deal anymore! i'm ready for hell!
this fuckin shit has gone by long enough!
and i'm fucking tired of it!!
i want to crawl into my corner and let my wrist just BLEED untill the fucking pain dies away!
this time i will cut extra deep!
ensure my death!
u see...last time it didn't work...
i won't make that mistake again!!
please! if there was a such thing as god...he would not let his "children" suffer this badly!
i'm ready for fucking hell!
WHO'S COMING WITH ME?

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006


hey! everyone...do onea my pals (whos gb i can't sign) a fav! visit
all i saw was his blood
thats it...why is that?
who knew humans had that much blood...
i mean...its not like he's fat...
i will miss him
HOW COULD SUMONE DO THIS?
HOW COULD THEY DO IT TO HIM??
MY POOR DEAR CHRIS.
i don't want to think of it
of that horrid night
i don't want to deal with no more shit!
I'M DONE! THIS TIME, WITH NO FIGHT!



PSS: don't click this link...

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Monday, April 17, 2006


SNAKE
alll the pain will ricashae
and soon be tossed away
you will see when you must PAY
for it will be your VERY last day!
say good-night!
or stand and fight!
promise I won't bite
try as you migh
i have you in my grasp
we'll leave you, let you gasp!
we shall carry out our tasks!
please do not ask.


heeeey! i was going to download sum of my pics but i don't know how to insert them into fanart!! can one a you tell me??? PLEASE??


btw.....this was an after thought from my first serious relationship...this guy burned me...i wanted revenge....this was the best i could do!

PSSS. CAN SUMONE DO ONE OF MY FREINDS A FAV??
GO TO tinman_zero AND TELL HIM HOW TO PUT A BACKROUNNDTO ASK LIKE THIS BUT...THIS IS A SPECIAL OFFER!

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Thursday, April 13, 2006


   IN THE DARK
ASK ME WHERE I'VE HEARD IT,
GO RIGHT ON AHEAD
FOR I'LL TELL YOU THIS SHIT
HAS BEEN ALL SAID AND DEAD.
DEATH has ITS EQUIVALENCE
THAT OF WITCH IS...
UNSPOKEN IN THE SILENCE
SO LET ME TELL YOU THIS:
HUMAN KIND HAS no RELEVANCE!
WE ARE THAT OF VERMON!
NOTHING SIR! ILLRELEVANCE!
THIS I'VE TOLD SHILOH-SAN:

IN THE MIST
HE MAD ME CRY
THE ARROW MISSED
AND STILL I DIED.

IN MY HEART
I FELL APART
IN MY MIND
I LOST MY TIME.

[after note] if you don't understand, you are unworthy. And thus , if you are unworthy, my need for you is none. Thus those uneeded are less the Vermon, they are discraceful. SUMI MA SAN! but it's the truth. WELCOME TO REALITY


PSS: don't click this link...

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Saturday, April 8, 2006


okay! this is for those gbs i've signed with....diverse personallities!
on this road
I WALK ALONE
IT'S REALLY GETTING COLD
FOLLOWING IN THE POND,MY CLONE
SHE WATCHES ME.
I TRY TO TURN MY CHEEK...
PRETEND I AM ALONE
BUT MY SUBCONSCIENCE CHEETS,
FOLLOWING IN THE POND, MY CLONE.
NEVER TRUELY ALONE?
YES,YES...NEVER
NOT WITH A CLONE
SHE'S HERE FOREVER.
CONTINUING ON THE ROAD
THE SUN CASTS MY SHADOW,
MY SECOND CLONE
I AM GLAD THOUGH;
FOR NOW, I LOOK TO MY RIGHT
MY CLONE
CASTED FROM THE SADE OF LIGHT
AND TO MY LEFT, ANOTHER CLONE
WATCHING IN THE WATER.
THEY ARE BOTH WATCHING
AS THOUGH I WERE THEIR DAUGHTER.
WATCHING.
FOLLOW IN THE POND, MY CLONE,
AND IN THE SHADOWS, HER CLONE,
BOTH, WATCHING.
I AM NOT ALONE!



and at the bottom right hand corner is a lil swiggley box it says: CORTNI WAS HERE
then next to it in parentences it says: (CORRECTING YOUR SPELLING)

yeah...thats cortni and me 4 ya...she's always correcting my spelling! lol



PS: IF U DON'T LAUGH AFTER WATCHING THIS VIDEO...THERE IS SUMTHING WRONG WITH U!


....grr!!! it won't let me read my comments!!! STUPID THING!!!

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Tuesday, April 4, 2006


well! yall new it was comming! my heart is already shatered to pieces...so i have to do it!
i awake to nothing
silence is all i hear
its never been a something
nothing i've ever held dear
the truth was up for grabs
u would have thought i'd have grabed it...
but the pains from my stabs
hurt...and that was it
you killed me that night!
you KILLed me!
i shall never again see the light
nor the face i've freed
could anyone help me?
get me out of this hell hole
SOMEBODY SAVE ME
someone free MY sole




Romantic Goth
attitude: My capacity for love is certainly greater than this mortal coil can bear.
clothes: Anything with lace and frills: Edwardian, Victorian, renaissance.


Mopey Goth
attitude: Gentle people always perish in an unkind world.
clothes: romantic, modern.


Fetish Goth
attitude: Gentle people are excellent for spanking.
clothes: leather, PVC, fishnet, chains.


Perky Goth
attitude: Woohoo!
clothes: modern, fetish, cyber


Raver Goth
attitude: If it don't glow, it don't show.
clothes: phat pants, t-shirts, tank tops, flourescent thingies


Goth Geek
attitude: It's better than being a plain geek.
clothes: modern


Vampire Goth
attitude: Vampires are cool.
clothes: formal, jetset, romantic.


Pagan Goth
attitude: The occult and/or celtic religions are cool.
clothes:


Ren Faire Goth
attitude: The Renaissance Faire and role-playing games are cool.
clothes: medieval, renaissance, Scottish.

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Saturday, April 1, 2006


   *takes deep breath* okay ppls! here it is! its not that good, its still just a rough draft, theres sum stuff i still have to alter...and its not that long either...
"It says is right here, brother!" The youngest of the three siblings exclaimed, he was more surprised that he had found exactly what he wanted than he had been three summers ago when he won first place in the spelling bee. He pointed to the words in the book and underlinded them with his finger as he read them aloud to his brothers.
"'Human kind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return, to obtain, something of equall value must be lost.' You see brother? It says it right here!"
The elder sibling walked over to the pile of bookes that had been gathering around his brother since their argument earlier that morning. He lifted the book to his face silently.
"...Derek, this is alchemy, it's science, no one goes by these books anymore. Your a fool if you truely beleive in it... Besides, this book is out-dated."
"but thats the thing, Nate, I do beleive in equivalent exchange." Derek wished his brothers would for once see it his way, but naturally the youngest would be ignored.
"Its not true," Brandon, the middle brother piped up. "Listen, think of Rufus, we got him for free, no strings attached."
"But there are strings, sure you get a new companion, but with the friendship come responsibility. Now one of us will have to feed him, water him, train him, we have to keep him in good health, don't you see that as an equivalence?"
"Naw, it's just how life goes, besides, hes my dog, but you'll be the one taking care of him. where is the equivalence in that?"
"Hey, no fair! I don't want to take care of him all by myself!"
The two elder brothers laughed. They enjoyed teasing eachother, and often times enjoyed fighting and rough housing. But honestly, the siblings were alone. They had never mer their mother whom had died in birth problems of the third. the boys' father had become inactive after eight years of morn ove the sudden loss of his wife, then one day he simply backed up and left just shour of the eldest fourteenth birth-day. It had been a year and three months since then, but the younger two boys are still looking, wating for their father to return home. The eldest is the only one who found himself smart enough and admit his father never would return, and even if he did, he would not have been welcomed. Nate knew the truth, therefore he cared for his brothers as his mother, had she been alive, would have cared for them. He made them complete tasks, get simple jobs of some sort, anything to bring in a little money for food or clothing. he helped them with homework and school projects. He let them get away with much more than any real parent ever would have.
The neighbors seemed to care the most for the young boys' health; they brought leftover baked goods and dinners, and often blankets and clothing specified for each boy. Nate was the only one to ever refuse help from others, he saw it as pitty, not help. You can see where the youngest gets the pressued to push away. Thus the younger two were always to answer the door.


okay...um...thats as much as mesa fonna put...
me: its sooo bad!! :(
self: your being modist! its perfect!
me: you wanna start sumthin?
self: u gonna start it?
SHUT UP! UHHH! LET THE PORR PPL READ!
i'll type more when i think of more...i'm about half way through another paragraph...but it would be kinda pointless to type it and have to stop mid sentence.
ROSE


(ooooowwwwwww! my fingers are cramped!) *tear*







ps...watch this!!!lol

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