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myOtaku.com: X Shadowme X


Monday, November 19, 2012

I can't stop crying. I can't stop hurting. I've been fantasizing about cutting myself all day. (I've struggled with that off and on since I was twelve. Yeah, I know. Cliche as hell.)

I don't think I can say anything I haven't already said. My mind won't stop playing the memories. I want to kill him, at the same time I just want to break down in his arms and not ever move.

I would do pretty much anything to make the pain stop at this point. Every time I walk past a window of a two-story building I consider jumping.

I want to be strong and stubborn. But all I can do is cry and bleed and hurt.

I want to die. I don't want to want to--but I do. And I feel terrible about it, but I can't live with pain like this. I just can't.

I know you all have went through something like this and so I know it's possible to survive, but... I just can't.
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~Belinda
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