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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
I'm back bitches
Well Guys. I have returned fro the hardest military training in America. I have become one of the United States Marines. Soon, I might go to iraq. I might not. I'll do whatever I'm ordered to do.
Just know that I can kick your ass, and probably your whole cities.
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Friday, October 1, 2004
I'm trying to change my MOS, to Demolitions, or maybe something else. All the MP, EMT< and Firemen jobs are taken, so i need to either go Aviator, or comp. Comp will be boring, but I sit in front of a comp all day so i'd be good at it. Maybe I could be a hacker..........1|_|_ /\/\355 |_|P Y0|_|/2 PC
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Saturday, September 18, 2004
well ladies and gents...I just recently met an adorable woman.
her name is Jen, and she lives in mcallen. We have alot in common, and have interesting conversations. and we both worship foamy www.illwillpress.com
Really, she's amazing. I couldn't ask for a better person to talk to.
Catch y'all later
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Friday, September 3, 2004
poor planning
Well, I'm supposed to go to austin this weekend. However, matt didn't even mention it to erik that i wanted to go until last night. So I might not even go. Which will make most of my weekend suck. Considiring I've wanted to go to austin for years..and I doubt i'll be able to go again for quite sometime. I just want something different to happen for a change.
My time is all routine now, i want to do something random, something crazy....like go to austin.......or Mcallen or something
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
been awhile
well kids...it's been about.....5 months since my last update. here's life now.
Again kelsey fucked up, and married a 31 year old. Got pregnant, had an abortion, ruined his life. Now we form the " I got screwed by Kelsey" club. Fuck that hoe.
My buddy rob in austin, well, his parents are still deciding on where to settle down...NY, PA...NJ...TX..WHY DONT YOU CHOOSE FUCKING SPAIN AND GET IT OVER WITH! He was supposed to be in austin till the end of sept, however, his parents are liars, as we should have guessed by now. Looks like i'll never chill with rob.
Hey, if I die bro....yeah...
I was dating around a bit...but i pissed off meghan, erika whent oout of town(now she's back, yay!) and kate dropepd off the face of the earth.
destroy everything.
oh, check out rob's journal..has a nice pic of me.......
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mm_waffles/
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Friday, April 9, 2004
New Beginings
I joined the Marines 2 days ago. I finished enlisting, and swore my oath. Now, all I have to do is condition myself before boot camp in October. my leg's are sore, because I ran a few miles after not running for at least 8 months
This is a great decision for me. It gives me the ability and chance to get away from everything, and learn new things about myself. Many things will change after I leave and come back. i will be a completely different person.
Semper Fi
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Monday, March 15, 2004
Ultimate Sadness
Last night I recieved news of something that will possibly keep me depressed for quite sometime. I will not reveal a complete version here, as this information is to not go public for quite sometime.
I was lied to for a great deal of time. Any of you that have read these journals, or know me personally, or from the boards even, know that I despise being lied to. I think it's one of the most vile wretched things on this earth. I had fooled myself into believing that things would end up being ok, even though they wont be. I am prepared for this depression to set in. I will survive, and work through it. It made me furious though.
The one thing in this universe that I Truly Loved with all my being, had lied to me for an over-abundant amount of time. It struck a wound so deep that it will take years for a scab to form. Of course, so did the other bit of information that I can not reveal yet either.
My right hand is in pain. I tried to demolish my closet door with my fist, and only succeeded in bruising the bones in my fingers, and tearing up my knuckles.
I hope I wont have to do that to anybody in this life.
Kelsey Amitra Ranson. I Love You With All My Being. I hope that what has happened will continue to make you happy for all eternity.
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Thursday, February 12, 2004
Valentine's Day
Saturday, February 14, 2004. The day will start with me waking up, and giving a small sigh. yet another Valentine's Day.....alone. Then I will picture how the day would be spent if Kelsey and I were still together. I I would take her out, and while I was out, I would have enough flowers delivered to her house to fill up her entire room. Her mom would leave, while we sat in the living room, and watched Chicago, and Moulin Rouge. Amidst all the Live flowers I would surprise her with in her room, there would be one glass Rose. We would kiss then, passing our love from one to another. Then, we would fall asleep in each others' arms, letting time pass by as if it did not exist.
Then I'll remember that we aren't together anymore, wake from my fantasy, and proceed to live out everyday life. I would work on my car. Go to work at 5. Play pool after work, and then go home, and go to sleep.
That my friends, is Valentines Day for me. I do hope all those couples who are in love to cherish the day that they have, and to remember that Love will never die. True Love will never change. It takes a strong relationship to be able to take what life throws at them. Some break. Some dont. I;ve seen some very strong ones break. I let mine break. Don't Let Yours.
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Friday, January 16, 2004
How ironic
Ok kids. As it turns out, Kelsey and her mom are having problems again. She wants to leave. I told her that my house was free, if she wanted a place to stay while they worked it out. So she stayed over on a thursday night. We watched Moulin Rouge, and waited for my laundry to finish. So we stayed up till 3 cuddling and getting very close to each other. All I would have had to do is twitch my neck a bit and I would have kissed her. We both restrained that form happening. The peoblem here, you ask? The fact that we both missed how we used to be, and then she told me that she was in love with chris. That was one of the hardest things I had to hear in my life. The woman of my dreams is In love with somebody else now. The line from one Thing, by Finger eleven fits perfectly here. "even though i know. I dont wanna know. yeah i guess I know, I just hate how it sounds"
I hated how it sounded, but she had to tell me.
Why does this kind of BS always happen to me?
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Friday, November 28, 2003
 Turkey Day
Well, today I woke up at 10. Hung around till turkey time, which was at 1:30. Ate......plenty. Then finished off watching Titan A.E. Took my dog for a walk. Threw a tennis ball with him at the park. Dropped off a friends' birthday present. Came home. Sat down. Answered my phone, to which Kelsey had called. We talked for awhile. Slightly about her and her mom fighting again. I do wish they would stop that. Her mom is surprising me with her behavior recently. Not kosherness.
She told me that her and chris were dating. I could have guessed it, but I had to be sure. Yes, it's not exactly peachy for me. Oh well. I'll live. I would rather her date Chris than Steve. Chris will be more carefull with her heart than steve would. Steve does what makes him feel good. He doesn't usually think about things often before he does them. This gets him into trouble. ::shrug:: He just better hope to God that I dont ever see him make her sad or angry. Nobody would like the ending of that one. Not that I could tell either. I've also noticed that I have wanted to kiss her. More that usual recently. She noticed it too. But alas. Only if we were to get back together should we kiss. Things would be more complicated otherwise.
Personally, I hate life right now. Oh yes, i'm moseying on through. However, I'm incredibly Lonely. I know that there are people to talk to. Nobody calls me though. I talk to a few people ta school. Over the weekend, nothing. The only times my phone rings, it's for my brother. Who doesn't have a care in the world other than what he decides to give back to chelsea.
Yes. I have a mother and a father who love me. As well as a sister, a brother, and a few friends who love me. However, all that seems very fleeting when I can't just sit, and actually be near someone who i can be extremely close with. Can't do that with kelsey anymore. Nobody else calls me. So thank you world for shitting on me.
Oh, dont take this to be a complete whiny bitch session. Not that i write this for you people that read it. I wish that people would get out of the bubbles they live in and realize what this world has to offer. (kind of contradicting to what I've said recently isn't it?) I need to find some peopel that can......oh fuck it. I dont know. The only thing I know is that my room smells funny, my pathfidner needs to be fixed, and I'm incredibly lonely.
Fuck you very much, and thanks for comming out.
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