Wednesday, December 29, 2004

   o.o'...
Well this post is to julia...>.>



Julia: Your my girl and I dunno what id do if I didnt have you in my life at the moment, id be driven insane, You mean so much to me, You have such a cute voice, and you bring a smile to my face that only you can, you make me feel the way no one else can, and because of you i am able to get through the day with my head still intact, I owe you my sanity fore your a bringer of happyness in my life, Never leave my side, I wouldnt be able to bare it, Remember that; if we ever fight, it will not end tragically, People fight, couples fight, everyone fights Sometimes, It dun always end bad, and just cuz we fought dun mean nothing exept we're growing as a couple, Since we have enough respect for one another to speak more openly, its gettin' better, just focus on what lies ahead and what needs done.

With lots and lots of love/ Ryan.
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

   O.o o.O
Erm, hey everyone, i just woke up, i slept forever yesterday, didnt get to talk to julia, but oh well, this post isnt about her, its about kara ^^.

Well, kara, I hope ya have a good trip tomorrow and that you have alot of fun in florida, dont forget about me damn it lol, uh..i dunno what more to say, exept you pwn and if you dont miss me ill poke j00!, lol, Have fun, later.
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Monday, December 27, 2004

   iono...
Sup all, erm, shit here..well, you'll see...



Julia has been ...well, depressed latley, and..She ...kinda isnt letting me in, shes kinda pushing me away, or maybe its just me, i just..dont like feeling like she Might push me away, ya know?, :: Sighs :: well...I dunno what to do atm, I really care about her,and I earnestly want to be there for her, but what can I do if she dosent want me too...She never confides in me, She dosent speak her mind as much as he should, I want her to be open and honest, I wish she would realize that communication is definatly the most important part of any relationship, and I need that..Communication, Badly, between us...its all we are lacking, really...::Sighs again::...hope she realizes it...


Kara too, has been trying to break through to julia that she IS NOT ALONE, and that she HAS PEOPLE To care for her, and to love her, That is what she needs to know, that she isnt alone, she has people, she has Me, and Kara, but nevertheless, she needs to understand this...I dont know how to get through to get, though...i just hope she reads this, and sometime soon she has a revoulation,that indeed, She isnt alone...
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

   ::sighs::
hey guys, erm...today has been really shitty, as have been . well, the last 2 days really, Kara has been even more depressed, and I wish she wouldnt be!!, PLEASE KARA , Please do what you need to be happy...::Sighs::...I wish there was something I could do, and I really wish I could give you a christmas present...when you told me you where depressed cuz you had nothing to open christmas morning, a few tears ran down my cheek, im really sorry i wish i could get you something...::Sighs::


Well, besides that, I miss julia alot, Ive only talked to her for 2 hours in like the last 2-4 days, oh well....i probably wont talk to her tomorrow either, since its christmas. story with her is, I called her, mom found out, mom called me, threatened me, (called me a sexual preditor -.-;;, IM NOT!)made STUPID accusations, and then Julia hasnt been allowed on the comp since, so she has to sneak on when no ones around.

I hate things how they are, im sitting here, 5 o' clock in the morning, on christmas morning, fucking miserable!!, this isnt how life was suppost to be, Was it?, I hope not...maybe im just too fucked up, iono...later all...
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Thursday, December 23, 2004

   ...Meh
Been feeling weird latley, My best friend kara has been depressed, and im really worried about her and I wish there was something I could do to help her, unfortunatly its impossible because, I , Am one of the problems in her life, I wish i wasnt, I hate doing it to her, oh god, i really do!, I wish she was happy, sometimes she is, but it fades quickly, i do my best to try and keep her happy, but..it dosent work.........Cheer up kara!
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