Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Summer Love
by Justin Timberlake

Good song.

Anyway... So, the summer thus far has been... Well, it started off great. Grad parties right and left, graduations - fun stuff. Now it's a struggle to get together and hang out. I'm in the midst of trying to find a summer job (before my two months of freedom expire). It's getting kinda discouraging becuase no one's hiring me... Well, I only applied to one place. Sanrio! But I wasn't going to be here long enuff for my working there to be of any use to them. But I'll never know for sure because they never called me back. I just turned in an application to Gymboree, now, too. Hopefully, they'll call me back for an interview. Or at least have the courtesy to tell me they weren't gonna hire me. I also submitted an online application to Borders, but alas that did not work out either. I never heard from them. I'm gonna try my luck at a cookie place but only when I'm desparate. I'm holding out for Gymboree and if not I'm goiing to apply to a crafts store that will HOPEFULLY hire me.

Anyway... I hope I find a job soon. This is getting very irritating for me... And it's hurting my self-confidence.
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Sunday, May 27, 2007

So maybe I am boy crazy... But it's weird. I've been pretty much a tomboy this whole time.

Anyway...

So, I recently found out that Neko and FOB are going out. Huh. I'm really getting sick of my friends not telling me these sorts of things. Especially because they all thought that I liked FOB - well, then why did she go out with him?! I don't like-like him, though. I still kind of like Rebound, that's why. >>

Well, I should've seen it coming and I was suspicious of it for a while. I don't care , though. I've acknowledged that any feelings I had for FOB were rebound-ness and from the whole "magic of prom" or whatever. I'm just hurt that she didn't tell me. My friends were hiding something from me and I suspected it had to do with FOB and one of my friends.

Anyway... It was our last day of school yesterday. It was great - we went to the waterpark all day! ^^ It was a lot of fun - I could *momentarily* forget all of my worries and I just ran around having fun with my friends. It was great! Everything I'd imagine for my last day of high school. We went in the lagoon thing where you float around and we ran into Rebound - I don't know how he got to be by himself, though. I hadn't seen him all day so we were all harassing each other - I have a lot of fun around him (most of the time). I kept trying to flip him over but it didn't work. My friend had to help me and then we finally got him! >D Later, we went in the wave pool and we decided to go in when the waves were on and Aqua and Taiwan went ahead of me and, as guys, they easily fought back the waves and swam past me. But I was having a hard time and I just kept getting slammed back in the water. T_T Talk about graceful. So, our friend (the only decent guy who was on the football team and my friend's now ex-boyfriend) helped me get past the waves. It was kind of a Titanic moment (LOL) "Grab on! (extends hand)" And he sorta dragged me towards the other guys. But by the time we got there the waves were gone. I pretty much drowned trying to get there, too. Haha - but I shouldn't read too much into holding hands with that guy. I think that was the first time I held hands with a guy (not on a kindergarten field trip). =^_^=

After the waterpark we got dropped off at school around 4:15. We were so tired but we were going to the movies with some really good friends. Pirates! It was AWESOME!!!!!! Tres epic! But I after the movie got done and rush to a Sunday school sleepoever at a hotel. We stayed up and watched "Because I Said So" and "Catch and Release" - two good chick flicks. But they kept talking while the movies were playing and that's one of my biggest pet peeves. I like it to be quiet when I watch a movie so you just get sucked in. It makes it more real and you stop wondering how the crew got the lighting so great or how great the actress is at faking tears.
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Saturday, April 7, 2007

   In over my head... (cue the Bad Day song)
Aw geeze, I think I'm gonna cry...

Well, today started off pleasantly enough. My friends and I all headed to the beach. But it turned out that my friend that I've had a crush on for a while brought his girlfriend. I've met her once before but she's super nice and super pretty - in other words I would stand no chance against her.

On top of that, it seemed like it was couple's beach day or something. It was my friend and our other friend (who flirt so much with each other they SHOULD be going out - but she has a boyfriend) and then my crush and his girlfriend and me and our goofy friend. So I was basically stuck with our goofy friend the whole time. My really good guy friend was supposed to come and he would've rescued me from my boredom and left-out-ness but he was grounded... T_T

And then my feet got all cut up on the reef when we went boogie boarding. Not to mention that when we went boogie boarding it was pretty dang flat.

And now, to top it all off, I've just been WAIT-LISTED from my top college. Teh Sadness... I guess it's not as bad as full out REJECTED. But... It's so shame, man! It's UW - a school a LOT of people GET INTO not get WAIT-LISTED at... *Cry*...

*EDIT*

I just did a "hair rehearsal" for prom... My mom and my gay hairdresser (yeah, he's cool) wanted me to do an "up-do" but when he finally finished (after using half a can of hair spray and enuff pins to fry a metal detector) I didn't like it. I think I was being kinda high maintanence but I've learned through this whole "prom process" that if you don't like something and you don't speak up about it - you're screwed, like with my dress. I don't like it but my mom was charmed into it by the saleslady... Anyway... Do lots of people go with up or down hairdos? My mom is always saying that people go with up-dos but I think we'll compromise and go with half up and half down - I don't want to look too different from my usual self. I mean, I want to look nice and everything, too... I don't know... I'm starting to not care so much any more... I mean, prom is supposed to be this great thing (ok, I realize some of the more jaded people out there might think otherwise) but it's turning out to... Idk... I'll just go with the flow. Easy peasy lemon squeezy. I'll start to look forward to... Uh... Graduation. Yeah.

*Sigh*

So, in conclusion - I can't win, I'm a third wheel times two, my toe is bleeding, I've been semi-rejected by a college, and my hair has a few gallons of hairspray in it, weighed down with a bazillion bobby pins...
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Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Life pretty much sucks right now.

I haven't updated in a while...

Well, update on the "prom-a" - I got a date. Not my crush. As it turned out my crush got a date before I could casually say, "why don't we just go together". But I kept my dignity in total check and unfortunately low risk = low return. In fact, NO RETURN. Anyway... I got desperate the last night and asked a friend to get me a date. It's someone I hadn't seen since middle school, but he's super cool. ^^ He's really polite and stuff and we have a lot in common. I even started developing a small crush on him... >> But, my friend keeps flirting with him >< She already has her own crush!! XP

As for my own crush... I recently found out that he's "in a relationship" - his myspace said so. Isn't that just the dorkiest, most pathetic way to find out that the guy you like has a girlfriend... Myspace?! ><

I met her the other night when we all went to see "300" (good movie) and she was really cool. She's really pretty, too. She reminds me a lot of my older brother's girlfriend. Which makes sense cuz my crush reminded me of my brother at times (don't take that in a weird way).

I was just getting depressed lately cuz not only did I strike out with Rebound my date to prom is totally being taken away from me by my friend that keeps flirting with him >< Oh well...

Screw life!!!!! >< I can't wait for college, now.
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

PROM!
There always seems to be some sort of mad rush during the times when dance/functions arrive. Normally I wouldn't care (I skipped out on Sophmore Banquet and Jr. Prom not to mention every Winterball in between) but this is my SENIOR PROM and I would like to go to SOMETHING. The thing is... Who do you go with? There is a delicate balance between the girls and guys of my friends. A balance that is not to be tampered with (as demonstrated by failed relationships of friends that ended in nasty little disasters).

There is I guy I like. I want him to ask me, but if I must I will ask him. He's one of my friends, not best friends but more than acquaintance kind of guy. I like him but I don't think he feels the same way (he's a guy - he's more interested in a basketball).

I keep thinking if I should ask him, tell my friends to tell him to ask me (that's twited and demented, not to mention confusing) or if I should just let him be. I don't even know if he'll sit at our table, come actual prom. All I know is that the most crushing thing is that if he goes with another girl (which is the MOST likely thing to happen ><) Not to mention me being worried about whether or not my asking him or something like that would mess with our friendship.

I just don't know any more. Thoughts of prom could long ago be postponed til later, but bids are going on sale soon and the scramble will begin... >< I really wanna go with him!!!
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