Saturday, February 16, 2008

	411 Name: Kitty. Age: 18. Birthday: January 30th. Currently: Texas Education: G.E.D. Currently Reading: American Psycho Email: [Link] Myspace: [Link] Hobbies: Technology, what few friends I have, Reading, and Dancing. Hates: Alot of shit. Mainly fakes. MSN: Atheist_Kitten@hotmail.com AIM: My Bloodydeath13 & Tehvampirekitty Links Backroom Guestbook Add Message Portfolio King Char-Char [Charles] Randy Music Currently Playing: Ein Lied By: Rammstein Credits Aethereality.net Index Stock.com Hybrid-Genesis.com			Intro February 16th 2008 So I figured I would use an already made layout. I just don't have time right now to make it myself. Other wise I so would have. Plus it's pretty. Anywayz. Please sign my guestbook if you stop by for the first time. Even though I have a few rules. They are below. I don't know how often I will update. I will try for everyday, but considering school and the fact I am actually reading a book, I may not be able too. Have a nice day. Peace. Kitty Rules Sign more than 1 fucking line in my guestbook. Visit me and I will visit you. Don't fuck with me. Last but not least, if you hate me, don't tell me you do. I don't really care if you do. Post Day: February 16th 2008 Time: 12:50 p.m. Mood: Hungry///content Song: Ein Lied - Rammstein So yeah. I changed the layout. And no, I didnt make it. But it is so pretty and I don't have time to make one myself so I picked it. ^-^ Me and Randy are barely friends now. I don't know what I did wrong. He seems like he hates me. Mainly my voice. Did I hurt him that bad? I didn't mean too. I guess I should have called. But I'm not the smartest person. I really wish I would stop beating my self up over this. But I just can't. I don't know why. Maybe I really was completely in love with him. I don't know. I also think I'm losing Charles as a friend too. My life sucks. I can't even talk to either without remember how fucking stupid I am. I wish this stupid pain would go away. Its like the pain I still feel for my father. I just wish everything would just stop hurting me. I don't know why people always hurt me. I guess I'm just an easy target. I don't really know what to do anymore. I mean I am smoking like a fucking train and drugs actually sound good right now. But I can't do them if I want to get Zander back. My house is so quiet without him here. And now I watch Sponge bob just to make me cry. Wow. I'm a horrible person. I guess I am addicted to pain. I guess I never realized it. But now I have. Maybe that is why I won't forget anything, because I need something to hurt myself with. God, I'm tired of all this shit. Oh and yes I did relapse. I am cutting again. Sometimes I am my worse enemy. Even though yesterday I wanted to kill myself, I didn't. Because I don't know what would happen to Justin if I did that right now. He is depending on me alot right now. Oh well. I gotta go. Peace. ~Kitty~ Designed by Aethereality.net

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