Friday, November 9, 2007

nothing new

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

well, if you fell for the title than congrats. i suggest you don't read any more of this post than these two sentances, though i doubt anyone will read this anyway...


now, if your actually going to read this, brace yourself. it's going to be a emotion-dump, flame, or ramble; whatever you want to refur to it as...


*sigh* here i go....


i've been really upset the past few days, not sure if anyone notised or not but, ya... i'm upset because it seems like everyone's jelous of me... everything i do causes someone some pang of angry or envy. i feel like i'm doing everything wrong. i'm just getting so frustrated with myself; i don't understand what i'm doing! i play it thorugh my head, day in and day out and i still can't figure it out!! every action, every word; i think it over, twist it around. how could i have cause such a fuss among friends? it's like a ripple in the lake after you throw the stone in. i do something (the rock being thrown), everyone reacts (the stone hitting the water), and then their thoughts (the ripples) echo silently among them; me left to stand my ground alone. i don't mean to do whatever i'm doing. it just seems i'm doing everything wrong! i mean; i have a boyfriend now and some peopl are happy for me and other people are jelous of me for it! i'm starting to regret that i's even around anymore!!! if i'm not there making people pissed off at me or envious of me their having a much better time without me! i get left out of everything now... i'm just so sick of it! sick of life! sick of myself! I'M SICK OF THE DAMNED PAIN!? SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA END IT ALL! I FIND MYSELF WISHING I'D GET HIT BY A TRUCK OR SOMETHING!!! i'm gunna die of a broken heart...
;_;


BREAKING THE HABIT
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007

ricky ticky tavi!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

this weekend my friends did a great thing for me.
though it was kuro's birthday, i recieved a special gift.
they gave me a special gift, that i'll cherish forever.
a gift i would have never recieved if they weren't there to pick on me that cold friday morning....
they gave me a boyfriend.
*laughs*
well you can't GIVE someone a boyfriend, but they asked my boy out for me that night; something i never would have done.
all because of one joke i got my ricky.
=D
and i'm so happy!
everytime i think of ricky i get butterflies in my stomach!
everytime i'm about to see him my heart soars!!
*laughs*
i sound like a dork but it's true!!
i wish i could tell everyone but i don't want just anyone to know.
and some people make fun of me for it; asking me if i lost a bet or saying they my ricky is ugly.
and then i'm filled with cold, black, sadness.
i wanna hug him...
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Saturday, November 3, 2007

Dawn of a New Day!

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

today is cc's birthday!!
wwwwwooooooootttttt!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CC!!!
*super sparkey glomp of doom*
i luff you!!
i hope you have a great day!!!
*huggles*
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Monday, October 29, 2007

rawr

"I have learned to love that which is meant to harm me, so that I can stand in the way of those who are less strong. I can take the bullets for those who aren't able to" -Margaret Cho

i deleted my other account because my nosey aunt was reading my posts via one of the cousin's i don't like. to keep grasp of my privacy, i made this new account. you can also find me on:
gaiaworld.com - FireGodOkami
furry-paws.com - Kasai
deviantart.com - KasaitheWolf
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