Sunday, May 29, 2005

Lets all just hold hands and sing kumbayah or somethin...
OMG no more school!!! AHHH!! Actually, I can't wait for next year...SENIOR! slack classes and lots of music stuff...I think the hardest class is gonna be Physics. And that's saying something, because Verberg is the most slack teacher ever.

Oh yea, and here's another good/possibly bad thing about next year...no more Nikki. She (finally) got kicked out of the house, and now lives in Dell Rapids with her real dad. I dunno, this past year (especially with her bf) she's gotten so annoying that I've wanted to strangle her on numerous occasions, but still...Five years of friendship is a hard thing to just throw to the wayside with no feeling whatsoever. We get each other, ya know? she taught me how to break out of my shell, and I (thought I) taught her when to keep her mouth shut. Oh well.

I still can't help thinking she's ruining her life with that idiot...and saying it's not my life, not my problem is becoming really old. She can't see how horrible he his...he made her quit band and choir because it "took up too much of her time" that she should spend with him. Also, If Nikki is on the cell phone with him and I'm standing there she can't talk too me or he gets jealous. It's dumb!! GRR... *breathe in, breathe out* But...well, this sounds inconsiderate, but it's not my problem anymore.

Okay, it still is, I'm her friend...in the old days we'd be scheming to get her back in Hull, doing whatever lying or cheating of the system that was neccessary, but we've both changed. Life hit us kind of hard. I recovered, but I don't think she ever did. In JH I was following her around, but by high school I was defending her and she was following me around. Role reversal's a bitch. Now I feel like I gotta watch her back as well as my own...I get sick of that real fast.

Now she's got her Keith, her grifs, her drugs, and her fights. If she likes it that way, more power to her. I can't stand that life anymore. Maybe it's good she left, because we probably would've kept doing that whole slow drifting apart thing we've been doing until one of us finally snapped. Then we'd have a bitch fight, hated each other, and would've had to still deal with each other at SDSU (that is if I go there...)

Oh sh^t I forgot...no more college for mrs. keith spaans-she's gonna be a babysitter. Why? because keith's not going to college either. Those Netherlands reformed like thier women to be dumber then the men are. *ouch that was harsh*

*reread what I wrote* wow, sorry, I sound derranged. Nevermind, don't worry about anything I just wrote, just doing some venting, really, I'm not as loony as I sound.

Oh, and I realized the title has nothing to do with this post...Oh well. ;)
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