Okay besides computer FINALLY GONE IN!!!! YES YES YES!!!!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! Right now I am listening to Simple and Clean from Kingdom Heart I lov elistening to that song! ^_^ I have been listening to it for hours now hehe. Oh yeah yesterday i gots 11 comments...that the HIGHEST # A COMMENTS I EVER GOTS!!! YEAH!!!!!!! So happy! very low comments compared to many others but I'm still happy!
I dunn why i am putting this but I just wanna put up my stats. I never have because I don't like looking at it and thinking I need to become more popular it sounds stupid to just join a site with lotsa cool people and then jsut wanna become popular BLAH! :P
well here you guys go!
Visits: 542 (yeah i already got 500 and I didn't tell u guys! BLAH!)
Popularity Rank(y did I put this up again?): #1024 (out of 21, 156 active sites) (how many non-active sites huh? tell me that...oh wait u can't nvm)
Guestbook entries total: 113 and last one was on...YESTERDAY! hehe
Now that stats and all are outta the way I have a poem...but be warned it is not exactly the kind of poem you would want to hear...*sighs* it's just...I feel this need to be honest with all of you...for some reason i have never gotten these things off my chest in front of my real friends at school...
Would it matter?
Sometimes in my mind when I don't know what to do
I think about laying down as cold as ice
It may sound weird but it is very true
I think of myself as nothing but a sacrifice
To lie down and die, to never have to cry
To never see the light, to never hear the night
I have one thing to choose
What do i have to loose?
So why not listen to my mind for once
Because what if I make the wrong choice
I don't wat to die, I already lost my voice
It explains why no one will listen to me
Sometimes they won't even see
That I am right in front of them
It's not like they would care at all
It's not like they come over when I fall
So why bother being with people who ignore me
It's not like even if I got hurt or die they'd see
So why not just one little cut
No don't say if, ands, or buts
Just let it glid off our skin
And then go harder but don't be in fright
Becuase it, all of it, will end by daylight
When done...rest your head na whisper "night"
Sorry to say this but this is how I have been thinking lately...I feel like this girl who has no reason to be here at all...it's like I have prison chains around my heart chrushing it do cut myself and I can't break free...and all i want is freedom...But i don't want to talk about it anymore. I wouldn't want to worry you all like others have...it's too much for me to bare and probably as much for all of you. well I do have one question I want to ask.......
what would happen...if this poem was true...what if I died...what would happen...would anything happen at all...I am kinda feeling like nothing won't...it's the reason i wanted to ask...
well bye bye everyone...I have to go to sleep soon and I am not sure if I will be able to visit everyone's sites...night...
hey everyone! ^-^ computer is gone from home, new poem arrived, and a question i want you to answer