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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

   well nothing is really going on that much

well i wrote two poems so let me put them up. ones a sad and kinda lovey poem and the one below that one is the happy and free like one. comment and say which you like better okay? okay here they are. i put them like paragraphs.

sad poem
I'm bored out of my mind. I'm just wasting my time. now that your gone. I can't sing my song. the song I made for you. but now its rotten and blue. nothing is as it should. if I could I would. but I know your gone. it seems so wrong. that i'm not with you. I remeber when you would call me your boo. I feel like crying until I die. there is no reason to live. just more feelings to die. I want to do something. anything. for me to be with you. but you wouldn't let me. you wanted me to be. even though I don't want to I will. I have an erge to kill. its not how I want to be crying for what was. for you and me. so I decided not to be. then I will be free. I will be with you. I will be free from my parents lies, anger, and fights. so this is the night. the night where it ends. I take a blade to bed. I slip in my cover and close my eyes. I hold the blade and pulled it to my heart. I can no longer be apart. I will fall and be with you. I will die from something I thought never could. here comes my praise. the praise for love I put it and you over everything. you deserve to be above and now you are. You are up there above the sky and stars. I cannot bare to be so far. so I will give up my heart. the blade went trough. I am now going up to you. I know it was wrong. but I cannot live while your gone.

happy poem
The sky is shining. My soul feels like flying. My heart spreads its wings. My smile gleems like the sun. Now I am one. One who is free. Free to do whatever I please. Free to love. free to fly with angels from above. Free to hate. Now its something I don't take. Free to dance. Free to take a chance. A chance to have fun. To play in the sun. To see the light. The light that had end that horrible night. My smile is real. I can finally feel. Pain is no longer my home. Joy is now what I show. The blood from my hand still stain. But soon will disapear from the rain. I stand in the clear. Listening to the drops in my ear. I spin with arms out wide. Soon I stop while the rain passes by. The darkness that once was my. My heart that was ripped apart. But now I can breath. the air that once was thin. once those poeple took me in. Now my darkness has fled. There is no need to cry in bed. My heart that was once ripped is now whole. The sun is what I've been looking for. Now I can finally be me. Not the poor, pained, crying slave I used to be.

well at school i hung out with my long time friend Yana. I haven't for a while cuz i am usually with Charalene, Ashley, Desiree, Annie, and Tina. They asked why i wasn't with them and i wondered why they even cared. I usually am quiet and bored all the time with them. Today i was laughing like i never was. It was weird. I never was that happy with them. I glanced over where they were sitting and i saw them one by one time by time they were looking at me. At how happy i was. it was wierd. i hardly ever smiled that much before. I dunno which group of friends to hang out with anymore. I don't want to ditch my usual group (thats with Desiree and Charlene in it) but is my happiness more than my friendship. i can almost hear them asking me to come back. But i can tell when they see me happy and smiling like i never have they think its best. I bet Ashley thinks i ditched her. i dunno what to think for now. i just hope it will be okay tommorow. tommorow it the last day of skool for the week then vacation for thanksgiving. ^___^

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