Thursday, June 9, 2005

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Feelings/Mood:neutral
Listening to:"I'm not a fraid" by Skunk Anansie group
Time of Post:18:45 p.m

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I slept last night!Awww....I feel so much better*stretch arms*, although I still feel a bit tired, its normal still have to sleep a bit more to recover completely....

I finally slept due to some help from tea (camommille tea, its a tea which makes you relax) and had a wonderfull evening chatting with a kawaii part-time hero and bodyguard.heheh..
*bows* Arigatu gozaimasu everyone for all your help and support*hugs each of you*

Shadow' out...

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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

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Feelings/Mood:Exhausted with no energy left
Listening to:Anime music
Time of post05:30 p.m

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*sigh*Another night without sleeping much again, just tree hours...*double sigh*
I don't know what's wrong with me....oh wait...I do know , I can't freacking stop thinking during the night, that's why I've been moving around in bed since Saturday, I keep thinking and thinking, no wonder I can't sleep..to much things to think and to worry about...*sigh*
I really feel so crappy today, I have no energy left, and I never had such a insonmias like this, I'm sure I'm might be quite a boring person today, so my apologies if my comments on your sites sound boring and no interesting at all, and once again I apologise if I don't visit you all, I'll promise to reply and visited everyone...*bows*

*sigh* I have to go now, have to go to a job interview again, I'm sure they will not accept me at all, looking like this and with all my lack of excitment, oh well atleast I went...gosh how I need a hug right now....
Take care everyone

Shadow out...



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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

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Feelings/Mood:Tired plus sleepy a deadly alliance..heh

Listening: "Sometimes you can't make it on your own" by U2
Time of post:05:00p.m

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Heh I'm glad I made some of you laugh with my last post, it was amusing to writte it too, although I was a little worried if you guys would start changing ideas about me, heheh XP

Aw well its what I do, and amazingly enough I have lots of fun doing all those things XD

Now onto other things, today I was a very busy bee again (if that was something new XD), to be short and because I feel too tired and also lazy XP, so here's what I did today:

• Went to school, study something there for my exams
• Did my psicology test since my teacher didn't show up yesterday >.> (it didn't run that bad)


• Had lunch with one of my friends, since yesterday was her b-day but I was so tired because these last nights I can't sleep , only slept two hours, like last night too*sigh*


• Then had two jobs interview , one at a bookstore and other in a cosmetic one, when I got to the first one the lady said she already had choose a person (so why did she phoned me yesterday?? >,>) and the second job interview (I had to wait some hours for this one, wondering around the city), the guy litteraly said in my face that I wasn't pretty enough for the job, "Beautiful womens sell better the products", that what he said to me, stupid >.>

Anyway so that was my day, nothing exciting happened maybe it did happened but since I'm feeling really exhausted, it might skipped, the only thought I have in my mind right is my big soft bed, but I still have to make dinner*sigh*

I really need to sleep today or tomorrow I will be like a totally zombie X_x++...stupid insomnias...>.<

Shadow out...

Ps: I'm so sorry if I don't visit everyone today, I visited the friends who update, but since most of you update late, I might not visit you...gomen nasai...*bows*





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Monday, June 6, 2005

Mood: This post will make lots of people's jawr fall, so I'm quite nervous and interested to know what will people respond after reading it XD
Listening: Elvis songs...yes I'm hearing that..
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Kon-baw minna-san!
Okie after reading Panda-san post saying she was a very uncool person (which btw Panda-san YOU'RE WAY COOL!) and also after reading SomeGuy-san trying to make Panda smille a bit by writting also what he do in his routine life, heh I wanted to try also to make Panda smille for a bit and make her feel that she's not the only one who do strange things and so SomeGuy, Panda and all friends I will share with you, what Shadow, moi is like, what moi likes, hates, fears, except my banking codes, me cellphone number and me age (which you already know XD), so everyone, enjoy and try not to fall from your chair when you're laughing okie? Don't want to be responsable if someone fall and have to go to the hospital hurt, so shall we see the wierd and booring Shadowlight:

- So yes as most of you know, I am a shy person, especially with guys, even when they are getting close just for asking hours I'm stepping back and blushing...yep I am like that...
- Everytime "ER" pass on t.v my sister and I plays around dancing along with the music, and everytime George Clooney or that guy (who I never knew his real name) called on the serie as Carter we giggle, every single time... stupid? yes totally...
When I'm cooking something I have to hear music and I sing along, doing the moves and everything...yep >.>
- When I'm at home I don't use shoes, nope, all the time with my barefeet in the floor...*looks to her barefeet* like now ^^
- When I play horror games such as Silent Hill, my heart beats so fast that when the character dies its like I died too for a second...maybe its because I have that strange habit to play it all alone at night with the lights off and the surround in high volume >.>
- I fear entering old churchs really old ones, my friends love making me suffer by making bets on how much time I will stay inside a church I've never been before, I sweat like a pig, i tremble and almost stop breathing, I just can't stand being inside a old church maybe I'm old-church-phobic? >.> But I'm cristian, just don't practise much like go to chruch and such, I'm a bad girl! >.<
- When I'm nervous I sing to calm myself down, passed some embaressing moments because of that...
- I spent most of my money on videogames and magazines related to games since my teenager phase, my passion is such that on one magazine they let me put an article each month...and I have to play Ps2 atleast 4 times per week 4 hours per time, its what makes me smille...heheh..yeah...ahem...
- In a month I read more then 12 novel books, and let me tell you they were big novels...
- I can't stand in one place for to long, I have to move, but when I talk with my friends on msn I'm very still and most of the times I'm smilling with no reason, which makes my father ask sometimes if I'm normal...XD
- When I was more young I had so many teddy bears and plushies that my big bed couldn't have all of them, but I donate most of them to the Red Cross, so now I have space to sleep between them... when i'm to lazy to take them off XD
- I can pass a whole day swimming on the sea and when I get out my skin is all wrinckled and I don't feel my hand toes and my feet toes.
- I'm always smilling and I just love to laugh, even if you tell me a bad joke...well it depends if its REALLY bad one...heh if I hear a song on a radio, I immediately beguin to sing along when it plays again, and I still know all the lyrics from the "Lion king" and "Pocahontas" movies songs...yes really interesting >.>
- I love to try new hairstyles especially hairstyles from anime females, so if you visit me one day you prbably will see me using a hair style of Belldandy from Ah!My goodess for exemple XD (though I never dyed my hair and I only do this when I have time to do it)
- After having my first experience watching 2 episodes from Star Wars in a role, I played with an imaginary lightsaber and act like a Jedi (talking like the green guy and everything) all day long...almost make my family go crazy...heh actually they passed out for awhile...n.n'''

So Panda-san, SomeGuy-san and everyone if you feel you're wierd and do really strange things, well let me tell you, you're not the only one, I could tell you more wierd things about myself but heh I don't want to scare you guyz and I don't want to embaress me more ^^'' XD, so well I told you part of me self, which I notice by writting that I do some reallly wierd and scarey things O.o...Why do I think you guys will think from now on diferent about me?! >.>
Okay I hope I made some of you laugh (especially Panda, since this was the main reason, to make her smille or maybe laugh, or maybe make her jawr fall down, heck surprise her in some strange way XD)
Some members of my family read it and laughed saying..."its so you alright", adding more stuff like the fight with the imaginary lightsaber and other things...XD



Shadow (hopefully thinking if she still has someone who'se reading this*lol*) out...

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Saturday, June 4, 2005

Mood: Neutral
Listening: To my sister singing along with her favorite music "Gangsta's Paradise" from Coolio, (she's not bad actually XP)
Time of post:08:46 p.m
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After sleeping enough, having some fun with my brother and little sister on Ps2, reading your wonderfull comments that allways helps, my mood is better ^_^

Now I'm feeling more confident and I think even with some circunstancies my plans might work, lets *crosses fingers* hope it works!
I know I make most of you confuse with my last post, I'm sorry but I prefer not talk about it yet, its not that I don't trust you all, I do believe me, I do trust you all, I'll tell you about my summer plans vacations when I'll be sure they will work, okie? Don't be mad with me, okie?*puppy eyes*

Changing subject, yes I did have lots of fun with my older brother and sister on Ps2 instead of studying XP, I will regreat this I know, but hell how could I resist not to play and instead study for psicology? Its all my brother's fault he kept waving the ps2 controller saying:"Want to play?...want it?Oooh black ps2 controller, look at it..its calling for you..yes it is...calling...for you...come my child...play..." yes I'm weak u.u XD *lol*
So yes I've been a bad girl for passing all day long playing on Ps2 instead of studying, now I have to study all day tomorrow to be able to answer more then my name in the test on Monday morning XD
Okie enough of my sillyness, got to go to visit all of you who updated today...



Shadow out...

[Edit: Okie I visited everyone, if anyone want to talk with me I'm on msn ^.^]



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Friday, June 3, 2005

Mood: Mad and sad
Listening: nothing, I'm not in a mood to be hearing music now...
Time of post: 02:45 p.m
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Its incredible how fast your mood can change from extremely happy to extremely sad in a few seconds with just one bad news.
And if it's true all my plans to have some fun on summer vacations will be completely ruined-_-

I already should have known, that when my life starts to be exciting and I plan something, something bad always have to happen ruining everything.
*sigh* When I remember all the sacrifices I did this months, and all the persons who are counting with me, even a person from myotaku, makes me to be sadder. How can I say that one more time I failed them and I probably can't go?
My deepest and sincere apologies to my friend of myo. who was counting on me and now I disappointed him, I'm so sorry...
But not everything is lost, I will do my best to make my plans work this time, I won't give up that easily, I promise...

Shadow out...

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Thursday, June 2, 2005

Mood: Tired, relax and happy ^.^
Listening: The opening theme of Fruits baskets
Time of post: 06:07 p.m

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Woahhh...today was such a good day, I'm so tired, but so happy and fresh now that I took a good shower *lol*
I slept more time and got up late, its allways good to do it now and then without skipping school XP

Later on, one of my newest female friend knocked on my door, asking me if I wanted to run a couple of hours on the beach, sometimes we get togheter and run around the beach, actually we found out that both of us do it all alone so we joined and now we do it togheter, that way is more fun ^^
Since both of us are having our final tests and exams we agreed to stop for awhile, 'till we end our exams...

I was surprised to see her, she told me she was getting sick and tired to look at books and such so she wanted to relax and have some fun for instance, so of course I end up going with her.
I'm tired but I'm feeling great, I really need that ^_^
And yesterday evening was great too, had lots of fun talking to a friend on msn, end up learning some world history and everything, hope we can talk many more times soon ^_~ heheh =P
So yes life is treating me well, and now I feel more confindent and with more patience to study to the exams then before heh ^-^

Now I'm going to treat myself some noodles that I haven't ate for some time now, and I'm pretty hungry..noodles..yumm...X3
Want some too? ^_~ heheh

Hope all of you had a great day too ^_^

Shadow out...
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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

Mood: Normal
Listening: The song of a friend site
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Well things today run normal as usual, nothing that strange like what happened yesterday, which I'm glad. ^-^
So school is near the end, (it ends next wednesday), so everyone is excited and such (especially the rookie ones), and they are preparing some kinda of dinner next thursday, still don't know if I'll go...
Anyway I had something to say but I can't remember it >.<
Oh yeah, its still not what I wanted to tell you, but today was children day, and it was so cute to see all those little kids playing, walking and having fun when I was going my way to school, heh I even helped a little one who was crying because he thought he was lost, but I found out he's group, he had a card attached to his gout, he was so cute =^^=
Well I'll better be going and study a bit more, my psicology teacher is so mean that she warned us that we were having a surprise test next monday, so yeah all my plans for my first enjoyable and spoilling shadow weekend were cancelled, and it was my first weekend and the last free one I was having to just chill and maybe go to beach >.>
Aww well I will definitely have one because I really need one ~_~'

Take care everyone

Shadow' out...
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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Mood: Great!^-^
Listening: ""l manãna" by Gorilaz

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[Some sunset from where I live to share with you guyz ^.^, also to make you jealous heheh XD]

Uhmmm it seems I don't update for awhile but I've been around, well except yesterday ^^;, *cough*lazy*cough* lol

Sunday- passed all day enjoying the good weather we are having here ^^
Yesterday- passed almost all day preparing things for my trip, it was tiring and kinda boring,(note: since next month my final exams will begin and it will only end around final days of July, I won't have time to do those things, so I'm preparing all the documents that's necessary)I even got a sunburn on my back and shoulders because of that >.>, (I love to walk so that's why ^^'')
But its okie now *looks to her shoulders* still is sore and a bit red, but soon I will have a good tan, atleast a bit I hope >.>, why do I had to be so white? u.u'
Ahem...well something strange happened to me today O.o, since the weather is so great and since I had a few time left for my classes to beguin I decided to take a walk, a men was allways behind me like you know chasing me, at first I thought it was only my imagination but soon I found out it wasn't he was really pursueing me O.o, if I walk a bit more fast, he walked more fast too, if i stopped he stopped, it was like that for awhile, until I decided to stop and start to look to some shop window, to see if he really was chasing me, I know it sound risky but inside the store there were lots of people and outside too so if he tried something I'm sure someone would see it and would help me, even though I wouldn't let him do anything, I would beat him up until I had no more strenght XD
He passed by me and said some obscene compliments, Ooooh I really felt the urge to just beat him up T.T, but he so was big and uhmmm musculate (sp?) so I decide to stay put and didn't look to him directly, just through the window shop passing by me and going away...
Gosh how I hate men who does that...I mean why those kinda men say those things??It so rude and gross!!>.<
Does they know no girl like to be pursued and then hear that? Do they really think we, women like to be treated like that and then after hearing we like jump on their arms? It just plain nasty, stupid and gross!! >___>
I sooo wanted to beat him up! >.<
[warning:these part of the post was deleted due to the descriptions of violent this women would do to that men]
Phewww... I just had to say that ^^
Anyway nothing much happened after that*checks body* nope everything is where it should be so I'm safe and sound! ^,^
So how are you?Hope all of you are fine and having a good week...

Take care everyone...

Shadow out...

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

Mood:Happy, woke up this way don't ask why ^_^;
Listening: Anime music

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Well since everyone were interested to see pics of my cute puppys and since I have really nothing interesting to say to you here's some pictures of Pardo, I still have to take some new pictures of Bobby, he's more older then Pardo so I only have pictures that I took with the normal cameras not the digital ones, so I'm going to scan some and take some new ones of him, but I can't do it right now ^^'
Ok, enough of my rambling here's the pictures:


Pardo when he was two months old, well err...he couldn't find he's little bed so he found those jeans
and put it on the floor, heh but I thought it was cute there ^-^



Just for you guys to see how small he was back then =P oh yeah and in this pic he had 3 months already, he was a sweet puppy =3


And Pardo now ^_^, I could put more pictures of him, but it would take a long time heh, so yeah my cute little crazy puppy ^.^
Hope you guys have a wonderfull weekend, take care ^^

Shadow out...

PS: I forgot how shy Bobby is, he hates taking pictures, he allways hides or looks away, I think he learned with me I hate taking pics too XD

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