Thursday, May 19, 2005

   Further down the spiral...

Anime Mood: STAR WARS dammit! Music Mood: Fuck off, I said STAR WARS!! Oh my god, oh my god, oh my fucking god! Wow........I'm glad nobody ever bothers to read this, haha! Two things about the movie, 1. Obi Wan Kenobi is officially my favorite Jedi ever. He finally showed what a badass he is and I looooved it! 2. Giant Wookie army - coolest thing I've ever seen. Ever. Period. Now.........today since I am operating on practically no sleep at all, it was really not the day for me to have major El Dorado flash backs. I won't go into detail but some people's parents are paranoid. Thankfully, adults here know me and think I'm a good person, otherwise my ass would be on the street for real this time. And it hurts because I know I have to protect myself this time, instead of the child, when I care a hundred times more about this child than I ever did about the ones in Texas. How could I not? I've known her since she was four! Things like this, last year, and what happened to Taley-imouto make me worry for the safety of my store. Which is a very large problem. If I want to make my livelihood out of distributing comics to kids and hanging out and talking with them I've got to find some way of making everything legal. I'm going to need some kind of consent forms and id checks and such so I don't get my ass sued for interesting minors in violence and porn. On a lighter note, my mom finally admitted that we're aliens. She straight up told me, "We're from another planet." and I was all, "I knew it!" Heh, heh.....

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Sunday, May 1, 2005

   ................

Music Mood: The Postal Service Anime Mood: Tsubasa....why won't it hurry up and download??? Checklist for a good trip... 1. Have fun 2. Maintain enough control of the situation so that both you and your precious little brother will remain alive 3. Do not inflict bodily injury upon self 4. Remember it's all in the music 5. You can apologize later!

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

   ....and weakens again....

Music Mood: Maroon 5 Anime Mood: Fullmetal Alchemist Arrggghhh! Damn stinky ass cats! They never cover up their shit and it stinks up my whole room! Well, anyway, what I want to talk about is how living here is changing me.....you guys have had some part in it, and your mom too. I feel like I'm getting more calm, my apathy has turned into a kind of true zen whereas before it was a hardened kind of not caring now it's becoming an accepting one. Rikki and Thatcher had a lot to do with it too, I think I've become nicer and more helpful because of them. Actually all of this is more a 'changing back' than just a 'changing'. The people who have done the most to change me back into who I used to be though are Andrea and Oscar, and even little Bruno and Max, though he doesn't talk to me much. Something about being around a real family of artists, one that actually works and isn't full of psychos is really amazing. The fact that they totally accept me and take my interests seriously means a lot. I wish there was some way for me to show them that, and it's that caring about them that lets me know I've really become somewhat better again.

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Monday, March 14, 2005

   Yeah...hell yeah!

Anime Mood: Ghost in the Shell: SAC Music Mood: Barenaked Ladies...you'll see them again later tonight! Heh heh, are you thinking of "Bleh"? Yeah! Hell yeah! Hehe, well anyway, I think-oh fuck there's a spider in here! OK, killed it! Anyway, I think things look a bit more matching around here now. The cat girl on the bottom used to be my avi, but I switched it to the demon girl instead, she's drawn by the same artist, but I can't remember her name anymore! Waaah! Oh well, I saved all of her pics that I liked and made stuff out of them. I like those cat girls, it's like one me and the other me, though I can't say which is which for sure....

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Wednesday, December 8, 2004

   California here I come...

Music Mood: System of a Down Anime Mood: Wolf's Rain So Thatcher's mom asked me if I would move with them...she was kinda joking, but also kinda serious. I think I want to, but it's a loooong way...I can't let my mom find out though, she hates when I make rash decisions...Plus what would I do with my animals? But I really want to go! I mean, California! That would be so awesome! I could sell my car and then have a bunch of money to go out there with, maybe get a bartending job or something...yeah right, who am I kidding? I'm totally stuck here.

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

   Thanksgiving rant part 2 - the wickedness of children...

Music mood: Tool Anime Mood: Full Metal Alchemist Well, yes, there is a part 2 because like every other holiday in my family Thanksgiving occurs twice due to my dysfunctionally divorced parents. At least my dad didn't come to my mom's house like she came to his. She just invited her friend Grace who is totally freaking bonkers! I mean completely insane, really! They annoy the crap out of my brother and me so we decided to get wasted before we went over and it was a lot more tolerable in the beginning. Then after we ate everything started to wear off and it sucked, big time. But at least I'm not as pissed off as I was on Thursday, a little bit b/c I wanted to stay home and play online but not as much.

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

   Thanksgiving Rant...

Music mood: Rage Against the Machine Anime Mood: Cowboy Bebop I hate my family!! They drive me absolutely insane! What is it about holidays that makes people angry anyway? If I knew maybe I wouldn't feel this way...well, let me explain. My parents are divorced, and it was by my mom's doing several years ago. For a long time she acted like she hated my dad even though he never did anything to her. Now though, she's decided they're "friends" and it's ok for her to come to his house for Thanksgiving dinner! Um...hello? What the hell is wrong here?!? I could understand if they'd always gotten along, but they haven't! This is just another of her bipolar freak out things to do, just to get a reaction from my brother and me and I am so sick of it! She even made us play this stupid card game all together like we're a freaking family or something! She has a boyfriend btw, so it's not like she's trying to get back together w/my dad. I feel sorry for him for what she's put him through, but he's the one who invited her over tonight in the first place even though I told him it made me uncomfortable. Ok, whew, I think that's enough for tonight. I may add more tomorrow, we'll see...

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