Monday, October 3, 2005

   The cruel angel's thesis...

Anime Mood: Evangelion Music Mood: Naruto soundtrack Time: 10:58 Want: nothing..... I am in love with the real Evangelion ending. I just realized this recently. Yes, the movie is awesome, blah, blah, blah.....but I understand the real ending, and what Hideki Anno was trying to say with it. Sorry for those of you who insist on blood and guts fro all climactic endings, but this just wasn't meant to be that way. It's a discovery of self, of self worth and self acceptance. Play it loudly in your car....I wish I could explain it to people the way I see it, but that's just what they were talking about really. No one can understand what I understand, what you understand. The present you is all that exists and those around you right now. All those things will be gone later and no one can see things the way you do so you have to take care of yourself. It's a grander scale version of the frustration I felt at not being able to make Manisha see the greatness of Spirited Away, even when I put it in the simplest and most confident terms I had. It was base to have to explain it like that, but I thought I could make someone else see my truth. The truth is what you make of it...and now we see, truer words were never spoken. I think I'm one step closer to becoming invisible...

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

   Yakisoba!

Anime Mood: Gundam Seed Destiny Music Mood: Simple Plan Time: 9:10pm Location: Oscar and Bruno's Want: this week to be over! My Amanda's gonna make me some yakisoba! She learned how when she went to Japan like 5 or 6 years ago. It's a good thing we're getting along so well b/c today was definitely not our day. She was in a bad mood from waking up at 2am with the dog. I had been up since 4am with the kids, and our intern...I don't know what was up with her, but she sucked today. The other one didn't even show up. Our kids were out of control today too. Everybody kept getting hurt and hitting and poking and....ugh....also, I saw a car on fire on my way home to walk Hikari. Bruno has a soccer game tomorrow so it's gonna be another full day. Then of course there's the wedding Thursday and movies Friday and a birthday party Saturday and TV to watch and....oh yeah, I think I'm getting sick. Time for bed...I don't wanna make this harder than I have to...

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

   Quo vadimus?

Anime Mood: Ultra Maniac Music Mood: "Amamda's Rockin' Cool 80's cd" Time: 10:45pm Want: a goddamn washer and dryer in my apartment! MySpace is being gay...I can't reply to my Sports Night friend's messages! Grrrr.....how annoying. Anyway, I remembered what I really wanted to talk about last time, the moon. I love when it's waxing. I just feel stronger and happier every day as it grows. Even when it's just been full and is waning I don't feel too bad. When it's on the verge of disappearing is when I really start to get down though. But, just like a phoenix it comes right back, every single month. God I love that. I look up at it, especially now when it's between half and full, and I just get this energy from somewhere making my pulse accelerate and my teeth clench. I finished the boxset again. It makes me so happy to see the end of that show. I mean, it's sad that I don't get to watch any more of it, but I love the way it ends. It's not often that things work out so well as they do in Sports Night. Most shows end with people splitting up, not continuing on just as you remembered and loved them. I think that's what makes it so fantastic. It's nice to know, or at least believe, that the staff of CSC is out there somewhere doing what they do for all of us. It's a constant that can never be changed thanks to the phenomenal wisdom of Aaron Sorkin. This good luck thing is really working out for me right now. I've just realized that everything is really fucking great in my life and I should enjoy it. Andrea gave me the best piece of advice I've gotten in a long time today. Also, a really nice compliment. She said, first of all, that I'm a good listener, and then that I had to have fun with life and not worry about things. She totally put my mind at ease about a lot of stuff I've been stressing about. She also said even if something doesn't last, it should still be fun. Andrea may be completely weird, but she sure is good at seeing the big picture. However she did enlighten me, once again, to the disgusting nature of my childhood. She said that the reason I don't have any memories of my parents together is that I must have been really unhappy. Her sister has no childhood memories at all for the same reason. Freaky....no day, no night, no moment.....anyone who can't make money off Sports Night should get out of the money making business.

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Monday, August 15, 2005

   Give 'em hell...

Anime Mood: Gundam Seed Destiny Music Mood: Nine Inch Nails Time: 12:05am So.......I'm writing first tonight, it's more organized that way. Katy's about to tell a whole bunch of lies anyway so we don't want anything to slip out that shouldn't. Upon further introspection it has been decided that maybe a Duo-type personality isn't completely undesirable. People like Duo, they think he's funny, and friendly, and reliable. They just don't know a lot about him, only they don't realize it because he's so amiable. That's the way to go I'd say... Anyway, I was reading a lot of Batman comics today. My dad invited me to go to the movie with him and Tim but I said no. Now I kinda wish I hadn't since he's my favorite superhero. I kinda would've liked to see it again....oh well. I realized another reason why I like him so much. It's because he does what I always tried to do in my acquaintance on a large scale. Incite people to riot. OK, well not riot exactly although they do in one part, but get people to 'fight the power' for lack of a better term. I liked how Green Lantern said Batman was the most evil, the most cruel and had the darkest heart, yet was still the most hopeful. Anyway, I got through some stuff today so I need to reorganize. I seriously do look at this list during the day...1. Watch Kodocha, 2. Read Takuhai, 3. Watch Gundam Seed Destiny 38-40, 4. Read Shojo Beat, 5. Watch Gundam Seed Destiny 41-42, 6. Read Bleach vol. 8, 7. Watch Bleach 8-10, 8. Read Kimi ha Pet vol. 6, 9. Watch Bleach 11-14, 10. Read Tsubasa vol.6, 11. Watch Bleach 15-17. I decided I'd better break up the episodes or it'd kill me...

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Monday, August 1, 2005

   Try and love me if you can...

Anime Mood: Kare Kano Music Mood: Sheryl Crow Time: 9:55pm soo.........I changed my theme. Actually I only changed the pictures, the colors of the fonts are the same b/c after I did the pics they still looked really good that way. So I have the old banner back, I decided the dark haired one is me and the light haired one is Katy. The positions are deceptive, but we like it that way. Ew....that sounded way dirtier than it was supposed to...well, anyway, I'm at a loss as to what my avatar is at the moment. Oh, wait, I think it's that little witch girl. Actually I don't think she's all that little, well there's a littler one anyway. The background is a piece of Ponderosa art, (she's fucking awesome!) a MWPP era Remus and Sirius. I like the idea of Remus as a smoker even though nothing in the books suggests that he (or anyone else for that matter) actually is one. Oh, and Offspring for the song with a nice quote.....from....oh damn, who was it? Oh yeah! That Batman villain, Clayface. So anyway.......Katy's site is all new too, you should check it out. I'm rather proud of both these themes, they say what they need to about us.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

   As Casey would say, I have some concerns...

Anime Mood: Err....none, I'm obsessing over Sports Night Music Mood: Zebrahead Time: 8:51pm It's true I have concerns, and I will endeavor throughout this post to speak as the great Casey McCall. See? That was just like him, he acts like he thinks he's really great, when in actuality his self esteem is really low. So, I have some concerns, not the least of which is the anime selection at Best Buy. Or lack thereof. It appears that they're phasing out stuff that isn't a bigtime seller like YuYu Hakusho and the like. It's a shame really. I went there for Elfen Lied vol.2 and Ultra Maniac vol.2, both of which were slated to come out today and neither was there! Not only that, the section had been moved around and looked a lot smaller. Many things did not appear to have been stocked and the area in general was in disarray. I got Gundam Seed vol. 4 & 5 instead. Can't go wrong with a little Gundam Seed. Concern number two is that Max and Andrea aren't back yet, and they should be. Not only am I worried about their saftey, but I really, really don't want to get up early tomorrow and let those damn chickens out! Also, I could use that $300 they owe me. My third concern seems to have slipped my mind at the moment, but I'm sure it'll come back to me.

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Monday, July 11, 2005

   It takes an idiot to do cool things, that what makes it cool.

Anime Mood: FLCL Music Mood: BOA Time: 6:02pm Damn! Forgot what I wanted to start with...........errrr........uhhhh........well, FLCL ended. I love that series. I'm glad I got it all on tape again. Whoah......my arm muscles are twitching.....that's not a good sign. I can't believe someone new signed my guestbook finally. He must've been like, wow....that chick is crazy! Hehe, oh well.......damn! Seriously, I seriously had something to talk about. Maybe if I just keep typing it'll come to me. We saw Howl's Moving Castle yesterday. It fucking rocked. Tim liked it better than Spirited Away and Dad said it's his new favorite movie. He likes romance. And I do too, which is why I can't figure out why I'm unhappy with it. I mean, it was way cool, I loved it. I didn't even mind hearing voices of American celebrities in it (Billy Crystal, Jean Simmons, and Christian Bale). Actually, Billy Crystal was perfect. I guess it's because I'm a fundamentally loyal person. Spirited Away has been my favorite movie for soooo long and I feel like a traitor if I just up and replace it. I don't know.....it might also be b/c I'm disillusioned with romance right now....

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

   You are what you love, not what loves you...

Anime Mood: Teen Titans! Music Mood: The Postal Service Time: 2:42am So we watched Adaptation tonight. It was interesting...also, told my brother about W-Wish. I think he got it, but I'm not sure. It's always been more real to me since I could see my sister and no one else could. Been spending some more time reading Harry Potter 5. I've got to get myself re-obsessed with him and his story b/c Remus and Sirius had me so distracted for so long that they're all I think about in terms of that world. Then of course Dan and Casey came along and made me stop thinking about it all together. By these standards that meand I am Harry Potter, Sports Night, and anime. With possible small parts animals, children and rock music. Oh, and Shannon. I am Shannon. That makes no sense! I do get it, I really do. You're free to love what you want. Not bound by whether or not it loves you back.

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

   If I could have one wish...

Anime Mood: W-Wish Music Mood: Coldplay I just got done watching that entire series. It's only 13 episodes and they're 12 minutes long each, including both credit sequences so it really only amounts to a little over 2 hours of actual show time. Anyway, that is one of the saddest, and best animes I've ever seen. I considered not even watching it too, just deleting it but since they were short I just stuck it out. And wow..........I am so glad I did. If it ever comes out on DVD here I will definitely buy it. It's about this boy named Junna who makes a wish on an ancient dial of some kind that his archeologist parents found. He's about 5 when he makes the wish and living with his parents and younger sister Haruhi. However, he also had a twin sister named Senna who died at birth that he can still see and sense while no one else can. He wishes to be able to see Senna for real and she, as a spirit wishes the same thing. Unfortunately the price the dial requires of them is that their parents die and Haruhi becomes someone who is not a part of their family, just a childhood friend. Eventually when they're in high school both Yunna and Haruhi start to remember who they really are and their original world begins to merge with the new one that was created by the wish. Senna, as the only one to really know what happened, has been trying to hide it all along, but when both worlds start to fall apart Junna is visited by the Keeper of Time who tells him basically he has to choose one sister or the other, one life or the other. In the end he and both girls wish for the same thing together and the dial responds allowing the original family to be back together and Senna to be born into it when Junna and Haruhi are in high school.

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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

   My girlfriend left me for a wookie...

Anime Mood: Elfen Lied Music Mood: Muse So? You like? I wasn't actually planning on changing the whole thing, but once I got going I couldn't stop. I was a bit reluctant to lose my catgirl banner, but I wanted the GS one b/c that's what's on the other stie as well. A kind of sad/happy thing going with Kira and Athrun between the two... So, as usual, my mother was misinformed and had me all worked up for nothing. Well, not nothing really........but after doing some extensive digging (aka, JK Rowling's official site) I've found that while, yes, she did have another baby there are still going to be 7 Harry Potter books. This makes me immeasurably happier about the whole situation even though I'm still fairly certain he'll die. I'm just not ready for it to happen next month. It's been a long time since I dug around on the internet for info on anything. I've been content to find things out as they came to me, not worrying about the how or why of them on my own. That just goes to show how much I like these books I guess. The last time I was this consumed by something was when I first discovered Sailor Moon. And for anyone who knew me then (which the vast majority of people who are reading this did...) you know that means a lot. A whole fucking lot. If you listen to my new song all the way through you should be able to hear a little tag on the end which includes the title of this post...it's quite funny.

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