Monday, April 14, 2008

And
Again, Nana will shed her usually self and talk seriously.

Some of y'all may be wondering why I haven't been on in a bit. Due to the nature of the reason, I am unable to go into it but since then I've been thinking about something I believe most of us have trouble with. Trust.

I've always had a rocky relationship with trust. Some people I trust a lot, others not at all. What makes it worse is the fact that I don't have any "criteria" as to determine a level of trust. Most times it goes on gut reactions. I've meet some people who I know outright that I can trust them implicitly. Then there are those who I wouldn't trust to pick their own nose. The thing is, I've never been wrong about either type. Now, that might be because they are reacting to my trust or distrust and trying to match it; but there really is no true way to know.

Last serious talk was about intimacy. And some of the same questions apply here. How does one define trust? How does one gage it? What changes it? Is it the same as faith?

By Webster's definition to trust is to place confidence. Confidence is faith or belief that one will act in a right, proper, or effective way.

Vague if you ask me. But going of of this trust and faith are equal, but by the usual human semantics most of us treat them differently.

The way I see trust is mush like the original definition but without confidence having faith to define it. The people I trust I can tell them just about any secret (seeing as no one will ever tell all their secrets) and know that they will not only take me serious but not tell anyone else. As a soldier, I trust my battle buddy and I trust each other implicitly to keep each other alive. To me that one is the strongest trust; the trust of your life in someone else's hands.

So, if I were to use the information above, the best way to find a level of trust depends on the situation as well as the person. Much of the time, similar beliefs and outlooks help to determine.

Then there's faith. This one is even vaguer. Webster's definition is, a: allegiance to duty or a person : loyalty b (1): fidelity to one's promises (2): sincerity of intentions.

Right, okay.

So where does that leave us?

Faith, to many religious people is the same as trust when it comes to dealing with God. But since I don't believe in religion, that is not a template I can use. So I go by the soldier's faith.

Faith in the enemy to do as we've ask but don't trust them to do it.
So I can have faith in a persons skills, in their abilities, and their morals but not trust their intentions or trust whether they would do as I've asked.

I'm not big on semantics but for here, it's the only way to deal with this lack of stability.

Because of this, I do have trouble trusting people who may deserve that trust. I have faith in their skills, but no trust. Which is probably why 90% of my friends are either military or in the same field of research as me.

At this point, I can't really think much further on this since I've never had the type of childhood that would things like this. It is true that as the years go by, I am getting better at this; but I don't think it will completely go away.

I guess my question to y'all is, how do you feel about trust? How do you determine it?


NNM
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Change
As you can see, a new set up. The character featured in the BG is Aya Shameimaru of the Touhou universe. Nana is a very big Touhou fan. Really big.

Favorite Characters:
Scarlet
Alice
Marisa
Reimu
Remilia
Youmu
Yuyuko

Why is this universe good? Play the games, read the official comics and books. Even many of the non-ZUN works are great fun.


In other news, Persona 3: FES will be released near the end of the month. Oh hell yeah! The forums at Gamefaqs say that you can transfer your save from the original, will some losses though. More story, an extra chapter, an extra story around Aigis. You can even date Aigis and Liz. Nana wants, and Nana will have.


NNM
Chibi FTW!
One
and a two
and a three
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Monday, April 7, 2008

Nana just finished her last solo speech in her presentation class. The next and last speech is a group and Nana has no idea who or what it will be.

It has also come to Nana's attention that this semester has so cut away Nana's usual writing speed and creativity. She doesn't know why. Last semester Nana came up with multiple shorts and poems, but now she is struggling on just one. It's so damned annoying, it is. She doesn't have a constant muse, so if any of you want to volunteer, Nana would greatly appreciate.

Since last week, Nana's been wondering something so profound, so deep and inquisical that she has to share it with all of you. It is a subject that many have sought the answer to. It spans generations, ethnicity, food preference. A topic so controversial that the pope himself band the question from any deliberation.

Yes, you've guessed it. It is the question of the origins of April Fool's day.

How is it that out of every day of the year we decided that the 1st of April will be a day that we play pranks on people and get away with it (for the most part). There is a wonder at that. Was there some deliberation as to that day? Was there some kind of solar event when it started? These and many others questions are just small parts of the mystery.

The next part is how does one choose their prank? Nana totally forgot the day was even happening. And since she was at school,in a computer lab, waiting for her psych class, no one was playing any on her. But usually she choses her pranks on opportunity and accessibility. Like going to her nearest friends house and sneaking in to rearrange their stuff and put things in the freezer. The friend in question is a big occult fanatic.

So Nana asks this, what pranks have you played or had played on you that stand out in your mind?


NNM
Irony
Balls of fury
Eyebrows

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