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• Rachel/Rachi-chan(to best friends)

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• hitting a Tennis ball over a fence boucing it on a car and flying into the river. Tripping over a video tape box
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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

Life,,
Oh yeah.. yeah, life's fine. PERFECT INFACT! So bloody perfect that my brother's is part of the reason to why my mum feels like shit and wants to pick up and leave! ARGH! I HATE ALEC SOOOO MUCH! He's such an insensitive fucktard, I really mean it!! My Mum was banging on his door to see if he was there and he didn't even bother to reply or anything! All he needn't to fucking do was say "what?" or whatever.. but no! He gets my mum worried and scared or whatever.. I was watching the stepford wives at the time and the next thing I know I can hear my mum crying and just running into her room. URGH! GODDAMN!! I'm sooo amazingly frustrated at the moment... not to mention scared shitless! Ok... I'm really scared shitless! My Dad is banging doors and he's really mad for some reason. Awww man! I really don't wanna be hear!!!! I swear I'm gonna burst into tears any moment now.. I can't handle anything! AT ALL! Nothing!! Fuck sake!
My Mum turned round to me and said theres no point in me staying, I should just leave... there's nothing hear for me!
How can I respond to that? What can I say? I just ended up saying "mmm".. it's hard you know? Because you can actually FEEL the tension in the house. It's happened before now, where I just want to crawl under my covers and be forgotten. I'm gonna be sooo... traumatised? (I dunno) if my mum leaves!! I promised myself that this year I'm gonna work work work the whole time in school and at home to get good grades for her. But what should I do if she's gone? Go back into my downward spiral? This sorta thing is waaaay outta my hands! I can't do anything about it, I can't do anything for my mum! I'm sooo fucking useless!
Most hardest thing ever is that Jaz is not around! Without Jaz to talk to... I don't have anyone. I can't escape the house or nothing, I'm stuck! Completely caught in the middle of everything, of everyone's feelings!!

Well I'm gonna go cry now because if I don't I'll end up crying at the computer anyway...
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