Friday, November 25, 2005

Okay.. tired of being the nice girl.
Okay I tried to apologize again and he didn't accept my apologies. I mean I could be cruel like the rest of the world in fact I could be my mean and evil self but I try my best to keep my cool but this is enough. I mean, some other person could have just told him the song sucked and all, I just giggle for less than 1/4 of a second and he has to act this way. I'm not gonna be the nice girl anymore with my friends I'll tell it like it is, not my internet friends because they are cool and all but yeah...They wanted to release the bad person inside the little person well they got it!
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I'm such a stupid little girl
Well once again my actions spoke louder than anything. I'm so stupid and annoying and careless and I should keep my mouth shut at all times. My friend Rik send me a sample from a song he tried to write and it sounded funny so I accidentally laughed well I giggled, I mean I apologized constantly but I doubt he will talk to me again. I hate myself, I really do at the moment, I was careless I should not have even made one emotion. He felt really bad. *sobs* I'm really really sorry, I didn't mean to, I just can't control myself at times.

~Ice Rose~

Currently- feeling really really really bad
currently listening- ugly by sevendust
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Friday, November 18, 2005

Hello to new friends and more hugs to old friends
Sorry for being so ditzy all of the sudden but I thought well since everyone in the world is turning pessimistic I should be the one to deliver hugs and kisses to the world, Starting with the otaku. *HUGS TO ALL MY VISITORS* Well in the news of the great Momiji (just kidding about being great) well my boyfriend broke up with me, he said he wasn't ready to have a long distance relationship (the boyfriend I had in FL) Well I respect his opinion and there are not any sour feelings left behind because well just because he is a nice guy and he doesn't deserve me being mad at him. Well besides that I've had 2 good days and 3 bad days but that doesn't keep me from trying to make everyone else happy because like I say there is someone out there who might have a worst day than you. Well now I'm single back to that,is okay with me but it was nice to have a boyfriend. For those out there looking for love, be patient it will come to you (at least that is what I'm doing) Well I have to go now and remember I love you and you can always tell me anything
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Saturday, November 12, 2005

Scolarships
Been up since 5:00 am applying for scholarships around the web. What a tiring job it is! I'm beat, must get some caffiene in my body, well anyways, I burned my hand yesterday while cooking and now I'm finally recovering some movement, it hurts when I touch it, I'm accident's girl, first my legs, then my arms, then my back and now I burn myself, I guess accidents just follow me. *major sweat drop*
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Saturday, November 5, 2005

   Before I forget
Well I'm graduating in January 16th and my dad is sending me to study abroad and I don't when I will return to U.S. maybe 1 years maybe 10 years depending, I'm gonna stay with my gradpa who is gonna be telling how life was before computers and all and so in February 1st I'm gonna be leaving if I don't post in OB or something its because I'm gonna be completely overworked or overstudied (yeah I'm trying to shrink down the 4 year school into 2 years) my dad got me a job in Ecuador though, I'm gonna be translating in the airports for the English speaking tourists(lol!!!), also the thing is that the closest cyber from my grandpa's house its 20 minutes driving and I still don't know how to drive(pathetic) so I'll be absent from most of my sites and stuff at least with all the studying I'm gonna do I will not have problems with trying to keep emotions away from work since I doubt I'll fall in love like I have in the past or commit stupid mistakes with guys and end up all the time as the just friends. I love you all as friends and stuff so that love is not gonna go away.
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   I think I should learn.....
Well my mom told me I should stop bragging about my life and focus more on the facts, met a nice guy and I began talking once again, I always screw up with guys, guess I'm not yet suited for putting emotions with the rest of my life yet, my dad told me that it takes time to learn how to be prudent, I have a lot of learning to do that doesn't involve books
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Friday, November 4, 2005

Happy Happy Happy
I must keep happy happy thoughts now, well I picked up my guitar again and noticed that I can barely hold it now, well I must practice now. Well my voice its getting better with the intensive practice I've been giving it since I had that cold. My back still hurts though. To all the people who have come and visited my site I love you all, I mean it, it means that you care about what happens to me. Well must go practice now. Love to all
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Friday, October 28, 2005

   Out of melancholy and into optimism
Well after talking to a couple of friends online who have had it worse than me in relationships I figured, if true love is ever there for me, it will find its way to me, sure I have to help it but I'm not gonna be like a lunatic waiting for someone to fall in love with me, that's just silly. I begun drawing again even though they suck at least I'm doing something. I'm graduating in January and starting college right away
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

Does such a thing as true love exists?
Well I've been asking myself that question lately, maybe because my prospects are limited since I move more than a monk during pilgrimage. I have heard people say it does exists but where is the proof, I'm loosing my optimism, more now that my dad wants us to move again. I wish I could stay in one place for a while so I can really get to know people better because in my years of life I can say I have only made 4 real friends that I still keep in touch with, they are Jenna, Vivian, Adriana and Analia. I would like to know opinions in this topic
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

Pain
Well the Friday before last Friday I woke up with a pain that I had never felt before, my back had been feeling stern lately but I never really worried. As I was saying I woke up with that horrible pain in my back, my dad decided to call the massage therapist, it made me feel better but after an hour the pain came back, my dad took my to a friend's office, his wife is a doctor so she took a look at me, she told my I needed to get X-rays done, and she wasn't too happy when I told her the regions where it hurt, well she gave me a noteto give to my teachers so I would not have to carry any books. My pain was hurting more and more with the days going, I went to gt my X-rays done, they took 2 hours to finish, according to them, the doctor had requested a full skeleton research done, well I was motly in pain and to stay in one position for long time, practically kills me. Well she gave me a medicine unil she got the X-rays deliveed, it helped for a week and now my back hurts again, now I don't know what to do since I moved to NC and the doctor isin FL. Well I just hope things go better, hope is the last thing a human being can loose.
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