Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Alone for 3 weeks YAY!!
Hey there otakus, news here, there was an anime exibition in a university over here, it was great, there was a guy dressed as Gaara who was really cute. I´m about to enter an anime group. BTW my aunts went to my cousin´s wedding which means I´m alone, well not that much my great aunt is here but still is great. XDD Funess on the way
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Monday, July 30, 2007

Activist
I have become a Green Peace Activist and this joins the list of many other places I'm involved in such as WWF, Green Children and PETA it's so cool. I'm planning to join the Red Cross also
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Are you tired of hearing my problems
I'm serious on this one, are you tired of hearing my troubles because I'm beginning to think it's not fair for anyone to hear all this crap. I know I have problems and probably should keep them to myself so please tell me what you think
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Eternal Rollercoaster of emotions
As always I'm up then down, Then up, Then down, up and down, to the side then down then two floors up 15 down
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Monday, July 16, 2007

The last B
After checking and checking for weeks whether or not my teacher had posted our grades I find the asshole gave me a B actually 89.5 no curve or anything, if they were to give me a curve I would have 9 A's instead of 7 A's and 5 freaking B's. I know people are wondering why I'm pouting after a B. I'm trying to get a scholarship and my university is not the cheapest university in the planet. My dad got diabetes now which means it's another expense and the car broke down. Lets add my mum's medicine and rent and now I'm a financial problem as I mentioned before. Now I have to contribute to my home cuz things here are not as bright and shiny, we have another crappy government that keeps on rising prices on anything so basically I'm screwed and I need this scholarship. I busted my ass on that class, I had to be social literally bright and sunny to everyone even as I'm dying inside cuz of my problems. Worst part if I do get the scholarship I can't work cuz they say If I'm able to work I'm able to pay for my own education. Minimum wage salary monthly here= $100 who can live for a month with 100 freaking dollars. So basically I have to bust my ass or die trying.
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

In the eye of the storm
What would you do if the people you are living with are fighting with your parents. Well that is my problem, my parents are trying to pull me out of my g-pa's house where I'm perfectly fine to I don't know where. I mean they are really going at it and the worst problem is that I'm the reason people fight, I preferred it when I was just another bug in the forest, not noticed. Now I'm a financial difficulty, that makes me feel shiny. I already told my parents that I was going to apply for residency in Canada but no they won't listen, they think I'm still too young to make my own decisions and that bites because over there I was the one who handled all the problems, I never really had a childhood. I wish I was just gone sometimes...
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Thursday, July 5, 2007

   One is what one never wants to be
You see, 8 years ago I was the person who I wanted to be, kind of popular at school, yeah people sometimes made fun of me but I was the class clown so it didn't matter to me. I was with my mum and dad and I loved life even as I spend part of my days in the clinic. Now I'm shy, closed, living in a shell, I can't open up t anyone outside the web, I feel like if people knew how I felt, they will never like me
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Monday, July 2, 2007

The Chocolate House and Tea Leaf Trio
You heard it right, that is the name of the business I will be opening in the next two years, the name is already copyrighted so you can't take it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well I'm moving to Canada!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah I know, well the fact is, that I've been all over south america, the US and central America that I need to see what is more up north. Plus I get to learn french. *DRUM ROLLS* I'm gonna be speaking now a fourth language, since I'm in a high level of mandarin. Sad part, I now have to choose a real career, meaning I just can't take the classes that seem interesting to me, I have to follow a curriculum. Sad part I get to leave all the family. Well 2 years are almost up, if you know me you know I can't stay in the same place for more than 1 year let alone 2. My brother was laughing at me saying "You are gonna be Canadian now" Well yeah.Shivers down my spine, wish me luck and if you ever go to Montreal in the next year send me an e-mail.
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Please God Help me
That is one expression that is often heard amongst people. To tell you the truth, is an expression I use often. Lately thinking about my plans to go to Canada are troubling me; getting the visa, finding a place to live, getting my transfer from my university, finding a job. Everything is just troubling me, I just hope that all the angels and God help me and I can get there. Besides from this, I know I’m going to miss my cousin and best friend’s wedding. So sad, yeah yeah yeah yeah, in other news, my dearest and most beloved sister Susanne got herself a boyfriend and this one looks like a keeper. The next step in the relationship is for him to get my approval, which is something he doesn’t know. It’s nice that my sister respects me and we get along just great because my relationship with my brothers seems to be going downhill all the time, Dan doesn’t care about anything that I say, he has the lowest opinion of me, he doesn’t like me; Andrew on the other hand shows his emotions a little too much, like when he is angry or happy just too much but I love the two of them. In other news, besides from praying and wishing and trying to find a way out of here, I’m trying to learn French. Japanese is easy compared to French, maybe because I’m more accustomed to Asian languages. I think I got an A on my class, but it’s very doubtful since he found out what I wrote on the evaluation. I trashed him on the teacher evaluation, I mean he gives me the creeps and he doesn’t know how to teach. I know this because I’m a teacher and a teachers’ daughter. I’ve been always advice to speak up whenever I don’t feel like I’m learning anything in class. Well the only excuse is mathematics, well that is because I can’t understand crap about math. I wish someone would have the patience to teach me. If you know me, I move every year, if not town, state, country is the continent. Well I’m trying to get to Canada, it’s the closest to the states but I got an invitation from a friend to go to Egypt.
Giggle news: I almost kissed my student’s cousin. You know how we Latin American people kiss on the cheek when we say hi and stuff, I was in the middle of the lesson when he came in and he kissed me and I swear it was less than a millimeter from the mouth. I wish he would have kissed me; he is nice, studies, gets along with his family, etc. But that also reminds me of the awkward moment I had last year with my friend Jorge when we were getting off the car and we almost kissed.

Saddli news: Dan seems to not want to apply for any financial aid and he doesn’t seem to have any enthusiasm for anything. The immigration situation still hasn’t been defined. I’m gonna write a t-shirt that says “Immigrant pride” I was one until I left. It’s hard; to be discriminated when are the immigrants that are the ones that make the US’ economy move, without us possible bankrupt of a lot of industries, reason why some factories have moved to Asian countries.

Happly news: My cousin’s wife, Vanessa, is expecting. Richard the Fifth, we all laugh about that because our great grandfather was Richard, our grandfather, his father and himself are Richards. Baby Valentina is growing every day something I’m really happy about. Dylan is so big and strong that it would take two of me to carry him, just kidding. Susan’s baby is going to be born in a couple of months and well that is the happly news, more babies coming this year, and my nieces and nephews are growing stronger and stronger. I just wish they grow up to be good people and happy people. By the way, we cousins call our cousins’ children nieces and nephews. I think it would still take my brothers a decade to even think that they are mature enough to have kids and Susie and me well, if all goes well with that guy. Me, I’m ready to “vestir santos” is a saying which means that I’m going to be a spinster. I know I’m too young to say that but I haven’t found one guy who would like me and that is worth getting to know. There are those who are worth getting to know but they are friends and those who like me that are creeps.

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Caged
I'm caged
with no where to go
trying to find a path to be myself
a story has an end
I'm caged
alone in solitude
in a time with not a friend is here to help me
So sad times is running from me

Waking up is hard to do
just waling home from school is dreadful
(Alone and with no where to go)
Even as I am surrounded by a sea of people
I find it that no one understands
what I'm going through

And as I wake up everyday
I find it hard
Just to find myself

I'm caged
with no where to go
trying to find a path to be myself
a story has an end
I'm caged
alone in solitude
in a time with not a friend is here to help me
So sad
time is running from me



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